throwing gentle gl

Xu Baihan turned the wheelchair gently, came to the door attached to the bedroom, took out the key, and turned it to open it.

Lu Zizheng originally thought that the bathroom was attached, but he didn't expect that when the door was opened, he saw the darkness inside.Xu Baihan turned sideways, waved to Lu Zizheng, motioned for her to follow in, and then disappeared in the darkness of the inner room.

Lu Zizheng paused for a moment before stepping in slowly.The room was pitch black, and he couldn't see his fingers. Lu Zizheng's nose was a little itchy, as if he smelled a strong smell of dust.This room seemed to be seldom stepped in, and it hadn't been cleaned for a long time.

Xu Baihan's gentle and quiet voice sounded in the darkness: "Zizheng, touch the button on the wall and turn on the light."

Lu Zizheng followed the instructions, groping along the wall in the dark, and sure enough, he touched the protruding button, clicked it, and turned on the light.

The sudden light made Lu Zizheng unable to open his eyes for a moment.She closed her eyes for a while, feeling that she had adapted to the light, and then slowly opened them.After looking around, her whole body suddenly froze.

As soon as Lu Zizheng opened his eyes, what he saw was the paintings hanging neatly and lowly on the surrounding walls.The room is not big, but dozens of easels are placed regularly, and paintings are all pasted on the drawing boards.And in all the paintings, the protagonist is a young girl of fifteen or sixteen years old, with shoulder-length hair, delicate and stern face, and a calm look, and none of them is smiling.

With nostalgic eyes, Xu Baihan scanned those paintings carefully, then turned his head and asked Lu Zizheng: "Remember what I told you before, I have a younger sister who is as old as you, and I showed you her junior high school graduation picture. Photo?"

Lu Zizheng nodded. They mentioned it inadvertently while talking. At that time, Xu Baihan didn't seem to want to mention it, and she didn't ask any more.The graduation photo was a group photo, and Lu Zizheng just glanced at it hastily, but Xu Baihan's younger sister, even in the photo, only had a blurry appearance, and she was different from others.Lu Zizheng found her right away, because she was too beautiful, and then she made Lu Zizheng look at her twice more, but it was because everyone was laughing, only she was deserted He stared straight at the camera, showing no emotion on his face.

Xu Baihan pushed the wheelchair to an easel, brushed his thumb lightly over the cheek of the girl in the painting, as if he was stroking extremely gently, and said eloquently: "These paintings are all about her, her name is Yunbai, just like me, The cypress next to the wooden characters, but she always likes to write it as a three-point water park, saying that she is like a cloud, helpless, free and easy, and destined to drift."

Seeing Lu Zizheng standing straight and listening to her words, she smiled and said: "The story is a bit long, and it may take a long time. Are you sure you don't want to sit down and listen?"

Lu Zizheng smiled a little embarrassedly, moved a chair aside, and sat opposite Xu Baihan.

She was afraid to guess what Xu Baihan was going to tell next.

After Xu Baihan waited for her to sit down, he continued: "Yunbo is my cousin, her grandfather was a good friend of my grandfather when he went to the countryside, and later her grandfather lost his life trying to save my grandfather, and my grandmother did not pass two years Also left, my grandfather took her father into his household registration and raised her as his own son. Later, my grandfather returned to the city, married my grandmother, and gave birth to my father, but the couple always regarded my uncle as their own. He loved his son as much as he loved him, and sent him to study abroad and raised funds to set up a factory for him. My uncle married a wife early and gave birth to four daughters. He had no sons, but my aunt was already old and could not reproduce. In order to have a Boy, he started to flirt outside, and Yunbo's mother was one of them, but he didn't expect that she only gave birth to one daughter, and his uncle didn't want to recognize her. Later, Yunbo's mother left Yunbo behind. At the door of the uncle's house, he ran away with another man. The auntie made a big fuss and refused to let Yunbo in. The uncle didn't have the heart to take care of it, so he directly fostered Yunbo with his distant relatives in his hometown. I grew up in Yunbo, but I didn’t pick her up. Later, Yunbo was going to school and had to register for household registration, so my uncle settled her in that relative’s house, and adopted the relative’s surname Yun, and the name followed us carelessly. For generations, just name them with the word cypress.”

Lu Zizheng frowned and listened quietly.Yunbo, her name, is extremely apt to her background.Like a cloud, helpless, free and easy, I don't know if she sees it too openly or too hard.

There was a faint smile on the corner of Xu Baihan's lips: "The first time I saw her was when I was 12 years old. She was only one year younger than me, but a head shorter than me. At that time, my father developed A resort, my brother and I went to play during the summer vacation, my father always missed Yunbo, felt that uncle was sorry for her and couldn't help her usually, so when we went, he took Yunbo with him."

She seemed to recall the scene at that time, with smiles in her eyes: "She was so arrogant at that time, after she followed us, she ignored everyone except for calling my father uncle lightly. Nesting alone in a corner for self-entertainment. But she is very attractive to me and has a special personality. I have an unconscious love and curiosity for her. Even if I touch the wall many times, I still can't help shouting She hung out with her. In the end, I finally made it.”

Xu Baihan asked Lu Zizheng somewhat proudly, "Guess why?"

Lu Zizheng looked at Xu Baihan's rare mischievous appearance, and shook his head lightly, how could she guess.

Xu Baihan replied with a smile: "Later, she told me that because I smiled so brightly at her that day, she felt as if she saw the sun in her life."

Lu Zizheng pursed his lips and said with a smile: "She speaks like a romantic poet."

Xu Baihan's eyes lit up, and he agreed: "She is not just a romantic poet. After meeting that time, every summer vacation with my younger brother, I would pick up Yunbo and go to the resort for vacation. There were no mobile phones at that time, and Yunbo Just send me a letter every month, sometimes one, sometimes two, our contact is becoming more and more intense, and we are getting more and more familiar with each other. Sometimes I feel that she should be a born artist. She can be on the side of the road Pick a grass at will and weave all kinds of vivid animals to make me happy, or pick a leaf and play a melodious tune for me, she can even learn to draw a lifelike portrait for me with a ballpoint pen I admit that I am more and more submissive and fascinated by her talent and tenderness. Therefore, the first time she looked at me with hot and ambiguous eyes, I did not avoid her. When she was 15 years old, she When she kissed me tenderly and passionately, I did not refuse her."

When he said this, Xu Baihan's cheeks flushed slightly, and Lu Zizheng could read her words through her, and imagine their childhood sweethearts at that time, and the simple and comfortable life.

"Later, when she wrote me letters again, they were all warm and beautiful love letters with beautiful words like poetry, which made me feel blush and heartbeat every time I received a letter, and blush when I read it. Sometimes, she She will also send me the songs she composed herself, and the songs she wrote. I learned to sing one by one according to the scores she gave me, imagining her burning eyes staring directly at me, singing with a slow and gentle voice. Humming her voice in my ear, I couldn't help but slowly blushed and my ears became hot. I clearly understand that she is so attractive to me."

After a pause, Xu Baihan glanced at Lu Zizheng, as if mustering up a lot of courage, and then continued: "So, when she was 16 years old, she climbed onto my bed and gently bit my buttocks. Lips, when I pulled down the strap of my nightgown and reached out to touch her, I pampered and even responded to her wordlessly. At that time, she said over and over again that she loved me, but I just hugged her without saying anything.”

Lu Zizheng couldn't help being a little surprised. She had known Xu Baihan for many years, and in her eyes, Xu Baihan seemed to be an extremely rational and calm person. When she was 16 years old, she was still so young. How dare she, and how willing she was to befriend him so easily...

Xu Baihan gave a wry smile and said, "Zizheng, actually, I was very scared afterwards. Yunbo's temper is a bit paranoid, and her love makes me a little scared. Sometimes she hugs me and begs me. Only love me alone, can I love her a little more, for me, she can do nothing, be afraid of nothing, she has said many words I love you, but I gritted my teeth and never dared to answer anything She said. I know, she is the kind of person who keeps what she says, but she doesn't know, I am very scared. I am afraid that our affairs will be known by my family, and they will know that I am not only in love with a woman, but also I lost my sister. I never thought about how to continue with her for a long time. I just thought about living day by day. I even secretly thought about whether there is a way to get out of the body. I am afraid of many, many The only thing I didn't worry about was the fear that one day I would lose her."

She sniffed, smiled softly, and said in a low voice, "But sadly, in the end, I lost her alone."

Hearing the story up to this point, Lu Zizheng no longer had the courage to ask Xu Baihan, and then... Xu Baihan's grandfather was the director of the hospital, his mother was a university professor, his father was a doctor, and he came from a scholarly family. It is to follow the rules and be a lady.Since she didn't resist Yunbo from the beginning, it has exceeded her expectations, and it also proves that she really, really likes Yunbo.

She didn't dare to think how painful it would be when Xu Baihan let go.

Xu Baihan stared at Yunbo's portrait for a long time, and continued after a long silence: "When I was 16 years old, two days before I was about to go home during the summer vacation, my younger brother wanted to play and wanted to play on an undeveloped beach in the resort. Don't worry, I followed, and Yunbo followed me. Yunbo couldn't swim, and was a little instinctively afraid of water, so he stood on the far shore and watched us play. Later, as time passed, the waves became bigger and bigger, My brother and I didn't notice it until Yun Bo suddenly rushed over from the far shore, dragged me and ran back, and then I realized that something terrible was about to happen."

When he said this, Xu Baihan's voice began to be a little unsteady, with a little tremor at the end.

"Before I could react, I ran with her. During the run, she let go of my hand. I didn't even notice it until I ran back to the shore and turned around to find that she had fallen. The waves had covered half of her body, and they continued to cover her body quickly, rolling her toward the sea."

Lu Zizheng's heart trembled along with Xu Baihan's voice...

"I ran back like crazy, trying to save her, but, not far from me, my younger brother was also swept away, and he was crying sadly, 'Sister, save me, sister... ', Yunbo, like his younger brother, kept thumping in the water. She didn't call me, but I could feel her eyes locked on me. But at that time, I had no choice..." Speaking of this, Xu Baihan's voice already had obvious crying.

"There is no one on the coast, and I can only save one person. Yunbo was swept away by the waves, but my brother was still near the shore. Finally, I gritted my teeth, turned around, swam to my brother, and pulled The younger brother swam back desperately. The moment I turned my back, I heard the heart-piercing 'Xu Baihan, I hate you...'"

Lu Zizheng saw the teardrops falling from the corners of Xu Baihan's eyes, but he couldn't open his mouth, he couldn't say any words of comfort.She never thought that behind Xu Baihan's smile for many years, there was such sadness hidden.And no matter how affectionate the consolation is, it probably won't be true, and it will make Xu Baihan feel better.

Xu Baihan lowered his eyes and said in a hoarse voice: "I had no choice at that time. I was not afraid to save Yunbo, and I would die in the sea with her in the end. But the one who called my sister for help was the one who was with me since childhood. My younger brother who grew up with deep feelings, I can’t do nothing to help him. I can only keep shouting in my heart, praying that she can hear my heart, and tell her, Yunbo, don’t be afraid, wait for me, I will come to accompany you, don't drift too far, go too far, wait for me..."

"After I rescued my younger brother, I couldn't see the shadow of Yunbo when I turned around. I ran into the sea again, but adults around me heard the sound and ran over. They stopped me and didn't let me go. I struggled and cried, and finally passed out on the beach."

Lu Zizheng bit his lip, and his eyes fell on the girl hanging on the wall not far away. The girl stood by the sea and looked at the shore, her eyes were desperate and sad... Lu Zizheng's heart ached with boredom.

Xu Baihan's eyes, following Lu Zizheng's gaze, also fell on the painting.

"I was already in the hospital when I woke up. My mother was sitting next to me. The first thing I said was to ask my mother, where is Yunbo? But my mother avoided my eyes and didn't answer me." I knew it, Yunbo was gone, she saved me, but I gave up on her. I couldn't cry anymore, and the words "Xu Baihan, I hate you" kept ringing in my ears, and I began to feel very distressed, I was afraid that she would be afraid on the dark road alone, and that she would not be able to stand the cold sea water... At that moment, I really understood that I have, how much I love her... When my mother left at noon, I pulled out She got a needle and jumped from the window of the ward on the fifth floor of the hospital. I couldn't bear to let her go on the road alone..."

Lu Zizheng was shocked when he heard that, and couldn't help shaking his body slightly. Xu Baihan noticed it, reached out and patted her legs, and comforted her empathetically.

"The height of the fifth floor did not allow me to accompany Yunbo as I wished, but my legs were disabled. My family thought I felt guilty for not saving Yunbo, and they all persuaded me that under such circumstances Dilemma, I have tried my best, no one will blame me, and Yunbo will definitely understand me. But I know, they don't understand Yunbo, she is such a person who loves and hates clearly, and can't tolerate a grain of sand in her eyes. The moment I turned around, to her, it meant abandonment and betrayal. The I hate you that she shouted with the last strength of her life has proved that Yunbo is blaming me, loving me, and hating me even more... "

Lu Zizheng didn't know what to say, her throat seemed to be choked by something, she shouted "Sister..." and couldn't continue.

There was a faint smile on the corner of Xu Baihan's lips, as if he was mocking himself: "Later, I couldn't think about it a few times, and my parents persuaded me and said to me, 'Baihan, wait a little longer, maybe Yunbo has already been taken over by someone. She was rescued. The search and rescue team has searched for so many days but failed to find her. This possibility is not impossible. When Yunbo recovers, she will come back to look for you. What will you do if you are no longer there?' So, I grabbed the last straw and lived for so many years, waited for so many years, searched for so many years. I naively refused to treat my legs and sat in a wheelchair for 12 years. When I came back, if she still blamed me, I can use it to prove that I really love her, love him very much."

"But, I know, I can't wait for her to return. She will never hear the sentence I owe her that I love you..." Xu Baihan's smile finally slowly disappeared from his lips.

Inside and outside, Jiang Huaixi's clear and cold voice flowed slowly: "The withered flowers can no longer be picked, and the withered love can no longer turn back. How many people, who have never had a later life, only begin to regret what they missed. Fault. The last song "Later" is for everyone."

"Later, I finally learned how to love. It's a pity that you have long gone and disappeared into the sea of ​​people. Later, I finally understood through tears that once some people miss you, they will no longer..."

Xu Baihan leaned over and gently kissed the still ruddy lips of the girl in the portrait in front of her, the corners of her lips curved slightly upwards, and her voice was calm and terrifying: "Zizheng, I don't want to wait any longer, Yunpo her You must be waiting too..."