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Lian Xuan leaned on Lu Zizheng's shoulder, her voice was soft and slow, ethereal and distant: "Once upon a time there was a little girl, her parents married her grandfather and grandpa for marriage because her grandfather and grandfather were dead brothers. The girl's The mother loved her father very much, but her father brought back a woman and a nine-year-old boy when the girl was 11 years old. Her mother died of depression two years later, and the girl was sent away by her father that year Studying in the UK, she was almost exiled. Three years later, the girl fell ill and almost died of illness in the UK. Her grandfather put pressure on her grandfather. Because the grandfather felt ashamed of his former brothers, he finally took back her father’s control over the company and recalled The girl was adopted and announced that she was the sole heir of the company. In order to get the support and love of her grandfather, the girl has been walking on eggshells for many years, lest she make any mistakes."

Seeing that Lu Zizheng didn't respond, she rubbed her soft hair against Lu Zizheng's neck, and said softly, "Zizheng, guess who is the girl in the story?"

It was the first time that Lu Zizheng heard Lian Xuan talk about her family affairs. Although what she said was so calm, Lu Zizheng could also hear her hardships and bitterness. She lost her mother when she was young and lived in a foreign country. For children who are 13 years old, the hardships can be seen.If it was that night many years ago, she would definitely hold Lian Xuan in her arms, wishing to make up for all her grievances for her father, but now, she sighed, feeling infinitely melancholy.

Lian Xuan knew that Lu Zizheng must understand what she was saying. She didn't reply to her, but it didn't stop her from continuing: "When my mother passed away, she made a will. If my father continues, all the property after her death will be donated to The charity organization used this to threaten her father so that he would not dare to act rashly. Before she died, she told the woman full of hatred that she wanted her to never enter the door of Lianjia in her life, and wanted her son to stand on his shoulders forever. The title of illegitimate child. After my grandfather took me back, he forbade my father to take them back to the Lian family's mansion. However, today, my grandfather went to Anzhou to recuperate due to illness, so my father brought the woman back to her son and appeared in the public eye. At my birthday party, I looked like a loving father, a filial son, and a loving husband and wife."

She paused, her voice low and sad: "At that time, I suddenly felt so ironic, why should I celebrate my birthday like this? Looking around the bustle and bustle, I don't know what they are celebrating. Even I found Without the meaning of my own existence, who would be grateful for my existence..."

Lu Zizheng felt that her sweater was wet, and her heart was also a little wet.Finally, her heart softened, and she called out what she hadn't said since the reunion: "Lian Xuan..."

Her voice was soft: "Lian Xuan, happy birthday."

She saw Lian Xuan raised her face slightly from her shoulders, her eyes were still shining with tears, but there was a sweet smile on her cheek: "Zizheng, since the reunion, I have been looking forward to, looking forward to If you do this again, call me like this."

Lian Xuan said: "Mother, she never understood how to fight for her love in her life. She only knows that she can't let go of what should belong to her. It is her husband, her title, and her property behind her. Therefore, she only teaches She left me and kept what should belong to me for her. She didn’t tell me if I should let go if I’m still not happy holding on to it. If what I got is not what I want most, should I give it up? Taught me."

Lu Zizheng took a deep look at Lian Xuan, but avoided the question, turned his head and comforted her softly: "You will be happy." Even Xuan herself didn't know what she wanted, so what could she do? taught her.She didn't know what kind of answer Lian Xuan wanted from her, or maybe, in fact, Lian Xuan didn't really expect her to give her an answer.

Lian Xuan sighed for a long time, and said with nostalgia: "Zizheng, the happy life I have lived since my mother left is just the short year I was with you. After that, I am afraid it will be difficult. There is."

When Lu Zizheng saw Lian Xuan's sweet and pretty face that had fascinated her back then was now covered with bitterness and melancholy, his heart sank involuntarily.Seeing Lian Xuan raised her head from her shoulder, looked around, pointed to the distance with her fine fingers and counted: "I remember there was a fishing platform there, you were so stupid back then, you didn't catch a single fish; Next to it is a water world. You were timid at the time and didn’t dare to walk across the chain bridge alone. A little bit next to it is the dormitory where we rest. The management is very strict at night. Gu, insisted on bringing me here, but was discovered by the housekeeper, ran all the way, laughed all the way..."

"Run all the way, laugh all the way..." The last word "laugh" was lost in Lian Xuan's wry smile.

Lu Zizheng also remembered all the past she said clearly.When I fell in love with Lian Xuan many years ago, it was as sweet as honey on my heart when I thought about it. After Lian Xuan left for a long time, when I recalled it, it hurt like salt was sprinkled on my heart.

During the spring outings that were organized every year, Lu Zizheng never participated in such group activities, because whenever she came to a free group to choose a dormitory, she would face the embarrassing situation that no one wanted.This time, there was an exception because of Lian Xuan.

Lian Xuan invited her to share a dormitory with her, and because the spring outing venue is one of the Lian family's properties, Lian Xuan's status is special, they can apply for a room for two, Lu Zizheng agreed to her without hesitation, and, Looking forward to it.

During the spring outing, Lian Xuan accompanied her all the way. After visiting several exhibition halls with the big team, Lian Xuan applied to the teacher leading the team to have free activities with Lu Zizheng.So, what was called a group spring outing turned out to be a two-person outing for the two of them.

It was the season when the grass grows and the warbler flies, and the spring is beautiful. Lian Xuan became interested in sketching, so the two found a good place, where Lu Zizheng could fish quietly, and Lian Xuan could paint happily without disturbing each other.

But when Lu Zizheng rented a fishing rod, dropped the bait, and concentrated on fishing, Lian Xuan stared at her for a while, and joked: "Although the scenery here is beautiful, it is not as good as yours, Zizheng." one."

Lu Zizheng's face instantly turned red.

Lian Xuan became more and more complacent, and said temporarily: "Zizheng, you are so beautiful and picturesque, how could I miss it, let me draw you and freeze such a beautiful moment."

Lu Zizheng had a shy face, but he refused. After putting down the fishing rod, he wanted to get up and grab Lianxuan's drawing board, but Lianxuan frowned, and told her solemnly: "Zizheng, don't move."

Lu Zizheng saw that she was serious, although he was still shy, he was happy in his heart, so he let Lian Xuan pick up the fishing rod again and started to be her model seriously.

Later, Lian Xuan always laughed at her stupidity, and after fishing for a long time, she didn't even catch a single fish.She didn't know that Lu Zizheng didn't feel that the fish was hooked, but he was worried that it would affect her painting, so he didn't dare to move rashly. He just let the fish get hooked, ate the bait, and swam away leisurely.

Later on, Lu Zizheng didn't succeed in asking for that painting. Lian Xuan said that she wanted to take it home and frame it in her bedroom, so that she could see it the first time she opened her eyes and the last time she closed her eyes. It's her.

At that time, what Lian Xuan said was so gentle and serious, Lu Zizheng almost fell into one of the three major illusions in life, that is, she likes me too.

Later, they went to the water world next to the Diaoyutai together, where the suspension bridge was placed thrillingly, and there were endless exclamations and laughter. Lian Xuan was not interested in it, but Lu Zizheng was a little eager to try it, so Lian Xuan encouraged her to give it a try .However, she did not have the guts to walk up the bridge a few steps. Because the students in front of her took big and heavy steps, the bridge began to shake violently, and the deck made of wooden boards began to fall, which wet her shoes.Lu Zizheng held the iron chain tightly with both hands, and his legs did not dare to take another step.

Lian Xuan also got on the bridge at some point, took her hand lightly, and comforted her with a smile: "Zizheng, don't be afraid, I will hold your hand, if you want to fall into the water, I will accompany you."

She held Lian Xuan's hands tightly, as if she was holding the whole world, she just felt infinite courage in her heart, with Lian Xuan accompanying her, not to mention such a small suspension bridge, it was like a mountain of swords and a sea of ​​fire, yellow springs and blue fall, She also has nothing to fear.So, they calmly crossed the small lake, and walked across the shaky chain bridge hand in hand.

After watching the party at night and going back to the dormitory, when it was curfew time, Lu Zizheng counted the stars on the window sill and saw the grassy slope in the distance, and suddenly had infinite romantic feelings, so he insisted on encouraging Lian Xuan to go with him.

"The stars are shining in the sky, the cool breeze is blowing on the slope, and the fireflies are flying past your eyes. Don't you want to feel it?" Lu Zizheng said so enticingly that even Xuan's heart was moved when he heard it.

So the two turned off the lights and walked down cautiously. As soon as they were about to leave the dormitory area, they were seen by the dormitory steward from a distance, and the dormitory steward shouted loudly: "Go back..."

Lu Zizheng pulled Lianxuan to run quickly, the louder the housekeeper yelled, the faster they ran.Panting for a long distance, Lian Xuan reminded Lu Zizheng, panting, "Should... I shouldn't be chasing you, you can stop..."

Lu Zizheng stopped slowly, looked back, and sure enough, there was no one else on the empty avenue except the two of them.

She looked at Lian Xuan, and saw that her face was flushed from running, her hair was disheveled, and she was panting lightly, but she was very cute.Lian Xuan complained to her: "It's all you, didn't you say you won't be found out, it's a lie..."

Lu Zizheng shook Lianxuan's hand in embarrassment, and obediently admitted his mistake: "It's me, and it's all my fault. If I get caught, I will admit that I led Lianxuan to the ground. Lianxuan is good. child……"

Lian Xuan looked at her being coquettish and obedient, and couldn't help but burst out laughing.Seeing her laughing, Lu Zizheng couldn't help but burst out laughing, and pulled Lian Xuan to run again, laughing while running, the laughter, overlapping with their scattered footsteps, echoed on the silent road superior……

But ah, time has passed, so why mention the past.Lian Xuan didn't know that all the past she gave her, when she thought about it later, it was just a reminder to her that the most unpredictable thing in this world is the human heart, and the most changeable thing is the emotion.

She also feels sorry for Lian Xuan's heartache and grievances, but this is not a reasonable reason for her to maliciously accuse herself of hurting herself.

Another gust of cold wind hit, Lu Zizheng couldn't help shaking his body, Lian Xuan noticed it, pulled away from the past, and said, "Sorry, I was the one who was abrupt at night, and went to bed in a daze and reckless I took you here on the highway, and it’s too late now, I’m wronging you and me to spend the night here, and I’ll take you back at dawn tomorrow morning.”

Lu Zizheng shook his head, expressing that he didn't care.

Lian Xuan got up, put her coat back on Lu Zizheng, and walked quickly to the front of Lu Zizheng to lead the way.

Fortunately, downhill, there is a hotel not far away, Lian Xuan showed her ID and asked for a double room, Lu Zizheng just quietly followed her, obeying her arrangement.

There are two beds side by side in the room, the layout is similar to the dormitory they used to sleep together.Everything that happened tonight was surprisingly similar to what happened back then, but in the end, it still ended with a different attitude.

That year, they came back after having fun watching the stars on the grass slope, and it was colder at night. After Lian Xuan finished washing, she didn't want to climb into her cold bed, so she climbed into Lu Zizheng's bed with a smile, and slipped into the bed tightly like Hugging Lu Zizheng tightly like a koala, she said coquettishly, "Zizheng, you are so warm, should I take you home, hide you at home, and warm my bed every night?" She didn't see , Lu Zizheng hid his red ears and a shy smile at the corner of his mouth under the quilt.At that time, Lu Zizheng hugged her back, and secretly answered her many words in his heart, "I am willing."

Now, after freshening up in the bathroom, the two said goodnight to each other, then went to their respective beds, turned off the lights, and fell asleep peacefully.

The watch was ticking, and Lu Zizheng could hear it clearly. She couldn't sleep in such a strange bed.

After a long time, Lu Zizheng discovered that Lian Xuan also suffered from insomnia, because she heard Lian Xuan calling her name softly in the dark: "Zizheng, are you asleep?"

Lu Zizheng pretended to be asleep with his eyes closed, and did not respond to her.

Then, she heard the rustling sound of the bed being rubbed, Lian Xuan's light footsteps, and she got out of bed.

Lu Zizheng felt Lian Xuan standing beside her bed, and as her snorting got closer, a pair of slightly cool hands stroked his slightly frowning brows, gently and slowly, as if wanting to Smooth out those little wrinkles.

Finally, Lian Xuan's breath came closer, and a warm kiss was printed on Lu Zizheng's forehead.

In the silence, Lu Zizheng heard Lian Xuan murmuring: "Zizheng, I'm so tired. I really want to hear you play the canon again..."

At that time, Lu Zizheng said to her Lianxuan: Kanon represents joy in sadness, happiness in peace, sunshine in darkness, and hope in frustration.

In the past, Lian Xuan existed like this for her, but, at some point, such a unique position has been replaced by Jiang Huaixi.

Feeling Lianxuan's warm breath beside him, Lu Zizheng's heart was cold.She couldn't help but tortured herself with a wry smile in her heart: How can you ask others for eternal life?How many times have you promised in your heart that you will love Lianxuan for the rest of your life, and you are willing to keep her worry-free and healthy for the rest of her life.But now, Lian Xuan hasn't changed, but haven't you changed too?

In this world, where are the flowers that bloom forever, people who stay together forever, and hearts that never change.

Huaixi, after all, I still dare not gamble again.

Just because, I can't afford to lose you.

Behind the forgotten photos on the desk in the study room, the full stop after the cross of "I wish you a long life, a thousand miles away" is only half an arc drawn, but it is still difficult to make a circle...