[National Table Tennis] Ping pong pong, dream collection

"There was a slight drizzle in the city, I don't know whose memory will be wet."

In Beijing in 2010, it rained a lot.

The rainy day brought the recurrence of the pain, and it seemed to take away my luck.

Failed, failed, or failed, it was a day when I thought of it and wanted to cry secretly under the covers.

Maybe Zhang Jike and I really don't have a tacit understanding. Without that little bit of fate, the low point and the peak always meet, what should we do?

He's had a really good year, really, so good that I'd be jealous.

Just like all love is lost to time and distance, we are no exception. It takes time, effort and talent to play table tennis well in China. Table tennis is a gap between us that can never be bridged.

In 2011, he opened the way to the Grand Slam, Rotterdam, Paris, and later London, and his efforts have not failed him.But me, I don't know what happened to me. The coaches said that every athlete will encounter such a bottleneck period, but how could it be such a coincidence? My failure reflects his success even more.

My mother has always told me that one must be contented and happy, and this is one of the few words that I agree with very much.

At our age, it is too difficult to balance love and career.We are all strong people, and it is impossible for anyone to give up table tennis, even though I felt that table tennis gave up on me during that time.

Contentment is always a joy, Liu Xiaozao! ! !

I struggled for several days, and finally said the cruelest three words to him again.He didn't refute, didn't lose his temper like many times before, and didn't pester me to ask why.We all know that when there is a crack in the relationship between the two, the best way is to stop the loss in time, there is no need to pursue it to the end, and everyone will be embarrassed in the end.

Maybe we're all grown up, right?

2012, London, Championship, Grand Slam.

445 days, the fastest Grand Slam record.After watching the game, apart from being happy for him, I also felt a little bit sour in my heart, you see, he would be better without you, right?

Ma Long and Xu Xin are right, we are both stubborn in exactly the same way.He has a successful career, and he didn't look back for me, and I wouldn't look forward to it to make fun of myself.

Just freeze like this.

Fortunately, God did not abuse me too much, and my efforts were not in vain. I have won many championships, right?

In 2013, we were on the same field in many games. I knew he would watch me, just like I would watch him. I didn’t know what our relationship was. To borrow a popular saying later, it was more than friends, not lovers. Full.

I don’t play Weibo very much, but he has always followed the trend of the times, so I will learn to use it slowly. We may interact on Weibo, but when we return to reality, we become super timid and dare not look up. , dare not speak.

I had long hair, and that year I specially dyed a pink V. I felt that I was the prettiest boy, but who knew he also dyed a V, who cares, mine is prettier than his anyway.

However, as a member of the national team, I don’t look up and down every day, and I don’t have any deep hatred. It’s not a problem to keep silent. Coupled with the intentional or unintentional assists of other teammates, we gradually started talking, but Not as unscrupulous as before, just chatting about the ball, the weather, and the cafeteria.

In 2014, the trip to Dubai was the first time I went abroad with him.

Looking at the high-spirited young man in front of me, my heart was beating wildly uncontrollably.

"I would like to cook wine to recall the origin of the past, and look back at the lights, and I am not as good as you." "If there is any news about the two in the future, it is just a rumor

Apart from you, no one has talked about it and denied fate

Only you still humbly begging for a chance to meet again even if

When we meet, we don't see each other, we wipe each other silently"

It hurts, it hurts.

Maybe it’s because I just arrived in Dubai, I’m not acclimatized and I drank ice water, this time the menstruation was very painful. On the first day they went out to shoot, I could only sleep in the hotel, and I couldn’t sleep. I just lay down and felt more comfortable.

I was so scared by the trembling voice when I called Brother Long in the morning to ask for leave. He was frightened. He didn't contact the ambulance at my strong request, but they all came to my room to express their condolences.

Baby Ding Ning specially cooked brown sugar water for me. I didn't expect that she would carry brown sugar with her everywhere, woo woo woo, if I were a man, I would marry her right away.

He also came, unlike Brother Long and Ding Ning who greeted each other and didn't say a word to me, he was like an outsider, and he was very uncomfortable, yes, it's better not to enter the ex-girlfriend's room.

They still have a filming task, I insisted on throwing them out, and promised to call again and again, but it seems that someone cares very well.

Lying on the bed, half dreaming and half awake, I unconsciously remembered that when we hadn’t broken up a few years ago, he always remembered my days, and warmed my hands and stomach when I was free. It was easy for teenagers at that time Shy, I would blush when handed me brown sugar water, and I don’t know where I learned that girls can’t get wet in special periods, and almost didn’t let me take a bath. He usually only helps me wash my training clothes, he has helped me inside and out these days After washing his close-fitting clothes, his ears would always turn red. At that time, Zhang Jike couldn't flirt, and would really be shy and ignore others.

A burst of severe colic pulled me back to reality, feeling the cold blanket, tears streaming down my face, I don't know why, because of the pain, or because of him?So hypocritical myself.

I don't want to erase the tears, I don't want to recognize the reality so quickly, let me stay in the dream for a few more minutes.

The phone jingled several times, and I slowly stretched out my hand to unlock it, and what caught my eye was a message from Zhang Jike, "Open the door, I'll bring you food." There was also a message from Ding Ning, "Zaoer, your ex-boyfriend I went to find you, seize the opportunity! Also, he reminded me to bring you the brown sugar, you see he still misses you so much."

Reluctantly, he put on his coat and opened the door for the big shot.

He hadn't taken off his red shooting clothes yet, and he was still wearing a little makeup. He was carrying rice in one hand and texting in the other. His hair might have been messed up by the wind, which made me want to laugh.

"Stop laughing, get your food quickly! Seeing that your condition is much better."

I nodded silently, not sure if it was the brown sugar water or his effect in the dream.

I know that he came here sometime, and the time should be very tight. Knowing that I don't like western food, I bought Chinese food specially. When we first arrived, we asked that the nearest Chinese restaurant to the hotel was only three to ten minutes away.I know we haven't completely let go yet.

After eating to my heart's content, I feel a lot more comfortable. Sure enough, only love and delicious food can live up to it.

"Zhang Jike, take me to shoot this afternoon, I feel much better." I sat on the sofa and stretched my favorite Erlang legs and said to him.

He was obviously stunned for a moment, and the movement of clearing the table was slow. "Ancestor, you should rest well. If Ma Long faints again, he will kill me."

That was several years ago. I was a little anemic at the time, and I had a sensitive period. Once I fainted while practicing the ball, but it scared Zhang Jike and Ma Long next to me.Since then, Zhang Jike has supervised me to eat big red dates every day. Although my name is small dates, I don’t particularly like red dates, and I always feel tired, so I wanted to hide when I saw Zhang Jike at that time.

Harm, I said too much.

Fortunately, I was fully alive the next day, and I finally didn't delay the shooting. My relationship with him has taken a step further. How should I put it, it's a little ambiguity that we can say good night to each other on WeChat.

Everything in Dubai is like a movie, please allow me to selfishly imagine the hero and heroine as me and him.

Ding Ning kept teasing me, saying that we are not afraid of going to the news again and making Kewen love popular again.But I know that those are just rumors.

After returning to China, we were greeted with boring training day after day, "We waved but forgot to hold hands after all,

Muster up the courage but can only be friends. "

Going around and still can't go back to the past.

Remember 2015?People often ask me that.

How can I not remember.

Suzhou, failure, singles, and his back injury.

It's just that the girl in her 20s is no longer a young and frivolous girl, and there is no one who has always supported her. All the suffering can only be swallowed silently, and she has to pretend that there is no wave.

Adults have to wear a mature mask sooner or later, not because of any pressure, but because they understand that they really should grow up.

"Slight anxiety and depression, it is recommended to receive psychological counseling and take a vacation."

I expected it.

It's just that I didn't expect that my hands still couldn't help shaking, and I almost couldn't even hold the medical records.Ding Ning accompanied me to the hospital. I didn't want her to worry, but I really couldn't control myself, so I could only hold her and cry.

Following the doctor's advice, I applied for a week's vacation and tried psychotherapy twice.

The national team is such a big place, and the information spreads very fast. On the day I was going to take a vacation, many people came to see me off. Actually, I didn't want to cry, but I really couldn't help it.

"Zao'er, take a good rest, I'm waiting for you to go to Rio together!"

"Sister Zao, we are all here. If you are bored, send us a message and send you food at any time."

"Little jujube..."

Before leaving, Xiaopang specially stuffed me with his favorite egg-filled biscuits, not to mention really good.

Going home is more comfortable than being in the team, but I always feel empty in my heart and something is missing.

Oh yes, no news from him.

Pick up the phone and send a message to Brother Long and Big Mang, asking them to remind Zhang Jike to take medicine, recover, and don't mention my recent situation again.

It's just that I underestimated the gossip ability of the men's team. Even Zhang Jike, who was lying on the bed and couldn't move, knew the news of my leave.

As soon as I finished sending them a message, this WeChat bombarded me.

"Liu Xiaozao, do we count as sympathizing with each other and fighting together, a comrade in the trenches and a grasshopper on a rope?"

"Don't worry about it. If you are really uncomfortable, you can think about me. You have healthy limbs. I, a person who can't leave the bed, can continue to beat me. You can do it too."

"I told you to go back after the break, otherwise the whole team will not enjoy eating, after all, we have no appetite if we don't watch you eat."

"At any rate, you should also think about it for the canteen master. Without you, his braised pork would not be sold. How sad he is!"

Sure enough, the grand slam cheap swishing style of speaking was not affected by the back injury.

"Thank you, eat salty radish and don't worry about it."

I don't want to argue with him, and I don't have the qualifications. Only immature people care about the danger of ex-boyfriend's speech.

"I replied to the message, indicating that I am in a good mood."

"Liu Shiwen, remember, we will always trust you."

The recent tears are really low, how could he burst into tears just because of his words.

"it is good"

I definitely will, right?

Actively cooperate with the treatment, although I still often feel uneasy, but I can carry out simple training.I don't have much time left to prepare for Rio without distractions.

That night in Rio was so beautiful, the moment the national anthem played, the moment the red flag fluttered, the hearts of boys and girls were filled with the same passion and excitement, we won, we won glory for the country!

In 2016, we all hoped that the wind from Rio would blow to Tokyo, but no one thought that luck would make a difference.

The speed of the boy fire is astonishing. I only know that he has gained a large number of fans, but I don’t know that he has so many fans. If I knew it, I would not be soft-hearted. In order to take care of his back injury, I accompanied him on the plane back to China, and I was almost squeezed. Pacific Ocean.

Occasionally when I have free time, I will also watch Weibo and videos about him. He is really outstanding, no wonder so many people like it.I have always known that I tend to feel inferior, especially in front of him. I long to be evenly matched and go both ways.

Our unclear and ambiguous relationship finally came to an end after 17 years.

We had one of the calmest quarrels ever, for the simple reason that he proposed, I refused, and I wanted to fight Tokyo.

It's funny to say, we are not even lovers, and when he suddenly said that he was going to get married, everyone would be frightened.

But over the years, I have also gotten used to his character of thinking out as soon as he thinks out.

"You really think about it?"

"Think about it, I reject you, I have my dream."

Without hesitation, he slammed the door and left.

I thought I wouldn't feel bad, after all, I gave up on us, how could it hurt the person who said no.

However, that is the boy I have liked for many years, and that is the only secret of my youth.

In 2017, that female star was quite beautiful.

Actually I know her.

That day my dad took me to watch a movie. I heard that Andy Lau was his idol. The movie is called The Great Wall. It was pretty good. Maybe I haven’t seen any movies. I’ve trained every day. I don’t have much aesthetics. I can’t tell if a movie is good .

Now that I think about it, I can’t remember anything, I just like listening to that song, and the fate between Wang Leehom and Tan Weiwei is a bridge.

Later, I saw the heroine in the movie elsewhere, and it turned out that her name is Jing Tian, ​​so pretty.

It’s just that I have never heard the theme song of the movie again, what should I do if I feel heartache when I hear the name.

I don't think I can like him anymore and I might have to give up.

"You talk about beauty and those experiences,

You said that time is not as good as you and me. "

"Have you eaten yet? Remember to rest well tonight, or you won't be able to get up tomorrow!"

I was walking down the street with the egg fried rice recommended by the big python, and when I received a message from my blind date, I didn’t know how to answer it for a while, except for my parents and a few girlfriends, no one said such intimate words to me.The adult world, no matter how intimate it is, is separated by a thin layer of paper.

He's a great lawyer, and he's always comfortable talking to, much better than a straight guy, so I'd love to have more contact with him after meeting him on a blind date.

It's just that the tone of the message he sent today seems to have crossed the line.I didn't take it seriously, after all, no one wants to check every day before speaking.

"I bought fried rice with eggs, and I'm going back to eat."

The night in early autumn was still a bit cold. To save time, I took a small path. There was no street light, and the cold wind was still a bit scary.

I shrunk my head and took out my phone and slowly typed a reply.I don't know why, I don't have a special desire to chat, unlike the previous relationship, I can't wait to share all kinds of trivial things with him, even if the training is very busy, I have to hold the mobile phone and type on the keyboard.

"Eat more, little pig, you have lost weight recently."

After receiving this message, he was almost at the door of the house, he paused, and casually called him back.

"Who told you to call me that, I don't call it that name, I hope you don't mention it again in the future."

"Xiao Zao, can I call you that? You see, you still can't forget him. We just started dating. I really appreciate your character and your achievements. I also want to fall in love with you, but I can see Come out, you have knots in your heart, including your parents told me that your first love is very unforgettable. I am not such an uninterested person as a stalker. You see, you will be excited when I try it today, which means You still can't forget him, I hope you can have lovers and get married in the end."

After I hung up the phone, I realized that the tears had flowed down unconsciously. I squatted down and hugged myself. It was so uncomfortable. It was the feeling that the secret hidden in my heart was exposed by someone. But what he said was right, I can’t forget him .

It's 2019, Liu Xiaozao, you've always been the one you can't let go of. He's already known to everyone as a female star, and you have to compare yourself to him even if you have a blind date.

Reconcile with him, reconcile with yourself, and reconcile with the whole world.

I can only say that I lost.

In 2020, the sudden outbreak of the new crown pneumonia broke all plans. We were trapped in Qatar, but we were always concerned about the domestic situation. We felt worried every day when we saw the number of new people.

When I am abroad, the only thing I can do is to remind my family and friends to wear masks and avoid gatherings. Of course, there is also him, but I don’t need a reminder from them. His fans can @他八百回 a day.

I just didn't expect that the person lying on the WeChat list would contact me suddenly.

"I seem to have a fever."

That simple sentence made my heart pound.

"Hurry up to the hospital!"

"Don't be afraid, it doesn't have to be an infection, hurry up and do nucleic acid!"

"Is there anyone to take care of you? Are you alone? Call 120!"

His phone came in and my hands were shaking, almost wrong.

"Liu Shiwen, I'm afraid I don't have my life to accompany you, so I just want to ask you, can you still love me?"

"Yes, I have always loved you, Zhang Jike, you have to believe that you are fine, I will go to you when the epidemic is over, I miss you so much, I am waiting for you, you are fine."

"Okay, Liu Shiwen, remember what you said, I will wait for you too."

After I hung up the phone, I had no intention of training, and had been waiting for news from him.

Fortunately, the nucleic acid was negative and the fever subsided quickly. He is really fine.

Later, I hated my own mouth a little bit, why I would say everything when I met him.

When he completely resolved the crisis, he sent me a WeChat message.

"Xiao Zao, I support you in pursuing your dreams, but the price of pursuing your dreams is not necessarily our feelings. You can have both. Before the Tokyo Olympics, I was your best male friend. After the Tokyo Olympics, please invite Mr. Zao Give me a name."

"it is good"

2021, Tokyo Olympics.

My last Olympics.

I cried in front of the camera, I'm sorry for our group, I'm sorry for the country.

I cried even worse on the phone. I cried to him all night, and he cried with me all night, and then tried every means to comfort me.

What can I do but accept that, as everyone says, I've always been a little less lucky.I hope my teammates can win back the honor and win glory for the country.

Fortunately, they did.

After returning to China for isolation, I went back home, and sure enough, even the air in Beijing was very friendly.

On August 2021, 8, I have been looping a song, "Courage" by Leung Ching Ru.

"Finally the decision has been made,

No matter what others say,

As long as you are also sure

…………

Love really takes courage,

to face gossip

…………

Although I am too anxious,

more afraid of missing you

............"

At 12:21, I posted a Weibo.

"I have three loves, country, table tennis, and you @张维科"