[National Table Tennis] Ping pong pong, dream collection

I don't remember when I first saw him.Maybe it was a youth competition when I was young, maybe it was a communication meeting, anyway, before we officially introduced ourselves, I met him, and he met me, but no one responded to the other.

Harm, talkative again.

My mother always said that my mouth is like playing table tennis, sloppy, and I just repeat a sentence, without a point, wasting the little saliva.

It's a waste of me, I just want to miss the person who never thinks I'm talkative.

I don't know the sadness of a literati, or the sentimentality of a singer. I can only tell you in my simplest words. He is my first love, and it can only be my first love. Status, whatever, affects the outcome, no why, we're all fine, it's just not the outcome.

In 2004, in the national team, I was really shocked when we met for the first time.It’s the first time I’ve seen a ping-pong boy with such a sign, bad, yes, in our business, there are a lot of five-year-olds and three-year-olds. After a long time, even huskies feel handsome.

I am from the Northeast, but later I went to Guangzhou to play, but I can't change the nature of our Northeast people, we are familiar with each other.I heard him say that he is a man from Shandong, hey, we northerners are all fellow villagers.

Later, I gradually got to know each other, but he is 16, I am 13, what can the two little kids have to say, at most, they can be counted as young sprouts.Thinking about it now, I don’t remember anything. Every day is training training. About him, maybe there is only that lollipop and orange-flavored soda in his possession.

We don't get along much, but I can clearly feel that little bit of preference. Now that I think about it, it's nothing but a little ambiguity.

In 2004, he violated the team rules and returned to the provincial team. The whole team felt sorry for him. We have worked so hard to reach the pinnacle of the national team. Once there is a little slip, the chances of climbing up with bare hands are very small Small, because there are countless people who will step on you to climb up.

We were all very sad, and I don't know if I was the only one crying for a long time in the dormitory under the quilt.

When he left, he didn't tell anyone, and left the training base quietly, not at all like his usual personality.That's right, I heard from them that Zhang Jike was originally very introverted, and then he became a little more lively when he was with me.

But why do I not believe it, I always feel that he is like a dog, the kind that can bite people, easy to be impulsive, easy to be proud, easy to lose his mind.

Which is the real Zhang Jike, I don't know.

I have no right to interfere with his choice. The only thing I can do is to encourage him to reach the peak again as a friend. It is cruel to step on others, but if it is not cruel, the one who falls off the cliff is himself. There is no way to change it. Only by becoming stronger can the impossible become possible.

When everyone said he was impossible, probably only he and I still believed in that myth, someone would make the impossible possible, why not me?

In 2006, he advanced to the quarterfinals of the National Championships and returned to the national team.

It was also that year that he told me under the big locust tree behind the cafeteria that the moonlight is beautiful tonight.

Later, there is nothing later, we will be together naturally, hold hands and hug naturally, he will deliberately create encounters, I will give him a bottle of milk, I will buy some trinkets of the same style, and I will fill the diary with each other The name, the romance of youth is nothing more than that, right?

People often ask me why we are together, childhood sweetheart, childhood sweetheart, I don't know, maybe it's because we have each other's company in the darkest hour, it's destined to be together.

When we were young, we were really good.Although the day-to-day training makes us tired, the youthful vitality can never be stopped.

The national team rarely has holidays, and the holidays are also subject to many restrictions. They dare not play or eat, and they have to watch the time all the time.It’s funny to say that we two sports students spent our rare date time in the library, the only place where our teammates won’t come, and the two of us did a good job of keeping things secret.One person pretends to be with a book, secretly sends some boring messages with his mobile phone, or imitates others to pass some notes, and he can be silly for a long time with a word, and the happiness is nothing more than that.

Of course, the topic of our chat is inseparable from table tennis, but we deliberately avoid the pain and helplessness, and just talk about the fun things in the training. The training is hard enough, and we just want to add more sugar to the other party.

The athletes of the national team have very strict food requirements. We cannot eat outside meat, so he tried his best to take me to eat authentic seafood, but he always said that the seafood in his hometown Qingdao is the best, and he said he would take me back to China. At that time, I was very yearning, and now I understand that it can only be yearning.

Just like many companies prohibit dating in the office, the ban on the national team is the same. Young and frivolous, I always feel that I am the most unique one. I will not affect my training because of my children’s affection. I always want to fight against the rules with a fluke mentality. He and I are both like this, so strong and stubborn.The two of us have done a lot of work for our underground relationship. We pretended not to be familiar with each other in public, and only dared to secretly glance at each other’s games. Sometimes we even deliberately created conflicts. Now that I think about it, it’s really naive. How could they not see it?A casual blush can give it all away.

We are both very painful when we are together. We are still children, immature, and both have a strong temper. He especially likes to be impatient. If we disagree, we will quarrel, and then we will ignore each other. We can have a cold war for a long time. It is also inevitable that it will affect training.

Although the state between us is not very good, we often quarrel, but after we reconcile, we will be more tired. At that time, we can always feel the love going in both directions. The noisy boy will also leave. We are a pair of friends who are destined not to receive blessings.

We were together in 06, and in 07 he has been making up for the lack of training in the provincial team in the previous two years. He lost in the mixed doubles, and I won the singles.

Facing the reality, facing the insinuations from parents and coaches, we had to choose to calm down for a while.

What does it feel like to be out of love?Especially this ambiguous relationship.

It's like being forced to take a breath of exhaust gas just after getting off the bus, feeling aggrieved and regretful, why should I get off the bus in such a hurry.

Yeah, why would you say such hurtful things.

In the eyes of outsiders, Zhang Jike has a bad temper, impatient and stubborn, especially when he was young and frivolous, no one can stop this arrogant little Tibetan mastiff.And I am their obedient "Zaoermei", and I will never blush with others, so when we quarrel, Zhang Jike blames it on time.

But they don't know that the gentler the person, the easier it is to make up his mind.

"Let's separate, being with you puts me under pressure all the time. Every game you lose is a warning to me. I can't delay you, and I can't... lose myself."

In the small lounge, my voice was trembling, and his heavy breathing was beating my heart.

"Okay, Liu Shiwen, remember what you said, you can't fail me or yourself, don't even think about breaking up, let's calm down first."

Who would have thought that a person who is so proud of him would accommodate me so much. I remembered what I said, but let him escape from my fingers year after year.

In 2008, we gradually got on the right track. He won the national championship and I entered the main team of the national team.

None of us mentioned the matter of getting back together, maybe we all tacitly agreed that being in love will really affect training.

In 08, I would see every post he posted. I just wanted to cry but didn’t dare to cry. I was afraid of being noticed by my teammates. I only dared to sob secretly in the shower. Only then did I understand that I can never hide from the fact that I I miss him so much.

January 2009, 1, Spring Festival.

Because of the training arrangement, I couldn't go home, so I could only spend the Spring Festival in the dormitory with my teammates in Beijing.Hearing that he can go home for the New Year, I am really indescribably envious.

It wasn't the sound of firecrackers that woke me up early in the morning, but a hasty knock on the door.

Distraughtly, I opened the door, and the boy standing at the door turned out to be the boy who made me envious of being able to go home for the New Year.

"Happy New Year, my jujube, the first blessing of the new year is for you, let's... be good, okay?"

Looking at the boy's bloodshot eyes and sincere expression, I wanted to relive the cold embrace again, but this time the smell was a bit unpleasant, mixed with the smell of sweat and Master Kong.

"Why are you so smelly! I hate you, huh!"

"My ancestors, I accompanied my parents to Beijing after the New Year's Eve dinner, and took a train overnight to arrive in Beijing. Well, you still despise me!"

Looking at his obviously tired expression, I really couldn't hold back my tears. It was the first time I cried in front of others. For him, it seemed to be for myself too. We all began to learn to reconcile with each other and with ourselves.

During the Spring Festival this year, I ate the Qingdao seafood he brought, and he ate the dumplings I made. We went to the cinema together, went to Beihai Park, went boating and sang, and bought couple cups...

Finally, like a pair of tired and crooked couples.

The old people say that if the beginning of the year goes smoothly, the year will go smoothly.

I hope so.