brave and coward

But after all, this incident still left a psychological shadow on Hualin.

Well, a person with a bright future just disappeared. To use an old saying: I didn't kill Boren, but Boren died because of me.Although there are too many twists and turns, there is always a connection.

Hua Lin was sad for a while, and his enthusiasm for Xue Younian faded. Whenever he made out with Xue Younian, he would think of Zhang Bo.

Hua Lin knew that Xue Younian must have noticed his entanglement, but the other party was as gentle and considerate as ever, and did not argue with him about it, but just tolerantly comforted him again and again, and even gave Zhang Bo's family a few times of pension .

Seeing that Hua Lin was still brooding, Xue Younian decided to go back to China.He planned to falsely pretend to be a close friend of Zhang Bo's teacher and friend, and go to Zhang's house to see the situation with his own eyes. In addition to giving money, he could show some care and say something good for Zhang Bo to soothe the widow's heart.

After doing this, Hua Lin really has nothing to say.

In the evening, when the two had a phone call across the ocean, Xue Younian asked, "Is there anything you want me to bring from China? I can change the route to your house and get it for you."

Hua Lin thought for a while, and said: "I don't have anything for you to take, but you can really go to my house instead, my dad's birthday is the day after tomorrow, you haven't attended his birthday party for many years, he wants Nagging. Just go to the hotel and have a meal, and you will leave after eating. "

Xue Younian apologized, "If you don't tell me, I'll forget about it. Maybe I don't have the time."

Hua Lin asked: "Didn't you come back in the day after tomorrow?"

Xue Younian said: "I promised to help Zhang Bo's younger brother to look at the factory site, and his children may have to rely on him to take care of him in the future."

Hualin let out an "oh" and asked, "Would you like to see the factory site too?"

Xue Younian said: "I have a friend who understands this, who happens to live in a neighboring city, so I asked him to take a look. It's just that it's more appropriate for me to accompany me to some extent."

Hua Lin didn't talk about this topic anymore.

The two chatted on the phone for a while, Xue Younian urged Hua Lin to go to bed early, if he had something to say tomorrow, Hua Lin hung up the phone and went to rest.

There was no class the next day, Hua Lin originally wanted to sleep in, but was woken up by the ringing of the phone on the first floor after [-]:[-] in the morning.

Who is calling the landline... Hua Lin sleepily went downstairs to answer the phone.

It was a call from the police station in a neighboring city, saying that a den of thieves had been uncovered, and there were a lot of stolen goods inside. They were trying to contact the owner, and one of the old passports belonged to Xue Younian.Although it is estimated that the owner of the passport has reported the loss and reissued it long ago, I don't know if other property was stolen at the same time, let Xue Younian identify it.

This thief is also funny, what are you doing with this old passport.Hua Lin complained like this, without thinking too much, and sent a message to Xue Younian.

Not long after, Xue Younian called back: "There is such a thing. It happened several years ago. I didn't expect to get it back. Nothing important, just a passport and a little cash. I went to renew the passport at that time." If it’s done, there will definitely be no cash to pay back.”

Hua Lin said, "Oh."

Xue Younian said again: "By the way, Linlin, I need your help with something now."

Hua Lin asked, "What?"

Xue Younian said: "You open the computer in the study. You know the password. There is a folder on the desktop. It contains several doctoral theses that I brought. Please help me to change it."

Hua Lin asked in disbelief: "Me? Revising a doctoral thesis? You're not mistaken, are you?"

Xue Younian laughed: "That's right. There's no way, you don't think there won't be any annoying unprofessional sudden inspections from the administrative side, do you?"

Hua Lin suddenly realized and laughed twice.

Xue Younian said: "I also just received the news, and I have to hand it in tomorrow to deal with it. It doesn't matter, you just try to find something wrong. The more professional and complicated the wording of the revised opinion, the better. If they don't understand, they won't will affect the original author."

"Oh, good." Hua Lin said.

"Excuse me. Send it to me when you finish it." Xue Younian said.

"It's okay. Let's not talk about it, I'll do this first, in case it runs out of time."

Hua Lin wanted to hang up the phone while talking, but Xue Younian stopped him: "Wait."

"how?"

Xue Younian's voice was suddenly tender, and he said, "I miss you."

Hua Lin laughed: "Suddenly it's disgusting...you miss you, I'll go and do that first, before it's too late."

Then, I want to hang up the phone again.

Xue Younian said again, "Wait."

Hua Lin smiled for a long time: "What are you waiting for!"

Xue Younian's voice was a little hoarse than usual: "I'm at the hotel."

Hua Lin was puzzled: "Huh?"

"I'm thinking of you." Xue Younian said.

Hua Lin was still confused, and asked while holding up the water glass, "So?"

Xue Younian said lingeringly, "I want to hear your voice..."

Hua Lin was stunned for a few seconds, and sprayed water on the coffee table: "What are you doing!"

Xue Younian's laughter came from the phone, but he said, "It's true."

"How did you tell me about the thesis in the first place!" Hua Lin was almost speechless.

Xue Younian didn't answer the words, he didn't say anything else, he just called Hua Lin in a low voice and repeatedly on the phone, not to mention the sexy voice.

Hualin: "..."

After all, he is full of blood and hasn't been intimate for a while, Hua Lin became irritable after being teased by Xue Younian, put down his cup, and ran to the bedroom to play with Xue Younian on the phone.

After being tired, Xue Younian refused to hang up the phone, and talked sweetly with Hua Lin for a long time, and then coaxed Hua Lin again.

Finally, Hua Lin ended the phone call, and couldn't get up anymore. He tilted his head and fell asleep.

Hua Lin woke up in the middle of the night, his sperm-free brain recovered, and suddenly remembered about Xue Younian's thesis, he quickly got up to turn on the computer, and then stared at the five papers inside.

Although Xue Younian said he was perfunctory to the inspectors, but perfunctory is perfunctory, you can't completely treat people as pure fools.

Hua Lin suddenly couldn't care about anything else, opened the document and began to read it.

First of all, he had to read it from beginning to end, and then due to his personal habits, he couldn't help but want to find out what he couldn't understand, and there was a gap in level, and there were many places in it that he couldn't understand...

dying.he thought.

Hua Lin didn't sleep all night, and at noon the next day, he only ate two pieces of bread, and he was only half done. He was about to despair.I can't take care of my perfectionist tendencies in the future, forcing myself to work hard to perfunctory, so I don't understand what I don't understand!talk about it later!

In the end, he himself didn't know what he had annotated.

In the evening, Hua Lin died in a hurry to finish it, and quickly sent it to Xue Younian's mailbox, and then called him to remind him to accept it.

As a result, he made a call, and he vaguely heard a familiar ringtone from downstairs...

Hua Lin tentatively went downstairs, stretched out his head, and saw Xue Younian standing in the entrance who deliberately refused to answer the phone to let him hear the ringtone.

"Didn't you come back the day after tomorrow?" Hua Lin asked in surprise.

"I miss you so much, I can't wait for a moment, so I changed the contract." Xue Younian smiled and opened his arms to him, "Aren't you welcome?"

Hua Lin laughed, ran towards him, hugged and kissed him for a while, finally calmed down, and remembered to ask: "Where is the factory site of Zhang Bo's brother?"

Xue Younian kissed his neck while saying: "I forget my friend because of sex, let him go alone, and I will make amends to him later."

……

Hua Lin leaned on the bed, watched Xue Younian come out of the shower, put down the book, and asked, "By the way, when will you get your old passport? Do you want me to go with you?"

Xue Younian took off his glasses and put them on the bedside table, saying, "No need. I contacted the police station and asked them to help destroy them. I don't have anything else to claim, so I'm too lazy to make this trip."

"Size is a commemoration." Hua Lin was quite reluctant. He is naturally fond of hoarding old things, especially passports, which are of great commemorative value. "If it wasn't for that revised thesis, I happen to be fine today, so I'll go get it for you." .”

Xue Younian smiled and leaned over to kiss him.

After making out for a while, the two of them were about to go to bed, Hua Lin suddenly remembered: "Hey, I suddenly remembered, I want to see your passport, the photo of me on my passport looks pretty good, let me see yours. "

Xue Younian's movement to turn off the desk lamp stopped for a fraction of a second, then he turned his head to look at Hua Lin, and said with a smile, "My pictures are ugly, I don't want to show you."

Hua Lin became more and more curious: "Look, I don't dislike you, and it's not an online dating."

Xue Younian hesitated, but still shook his head: "It's really ugly, I don't want you to see me so ugly. I'm so much older than you..."

As he talked, he felt inferior, so Hua Lin had no choice but to say no to watching it.

When Xue Younian turned off the desk lamp and lay down, Hua Lin groped over to hug him, and suddenly asked, "Why is your heart beating so fast?" Before he could answer, he asked himself, "Oh my God, how big is your passport photo?" Ugly? Isn’t it? If I say I won’t read it, I promise.”

Xue Younian laughed, kissed his forehead, and whispered, "Thank you."

Thank you for being naive and letting the bad guys get their way.

In the dark, Xue Younian stared obsessively and melancholy at Hua Lin who was sleeping with his eyes closed.

When Hua Lin told him about the old passport, he panicked to the extreme.

He knew that Hua Lin liked to collect old things, things like passports must be Hua Lin's favorite.Even, it is very likely that Hua Linhui would enthusiastically go directly to help him get it.

In that way, Hualin will see the records of his previous trips to and from China.

It might not have occurred to him that he would secretly share every memorable moment in Huashicheng's life when he returned to China, but he has always said that he rarely returns to China.And, what if Hua Lin got the timing right?Every time he returns to China, the timing is so delicate, would Hua Lin think: Is it really just a coincidence?

He didn't dare to bet even if there was only one in ten thousand chance of this possibility.

He knew that with Hualin's temperament, it was absolutely impossible for him to forgive himself after knowing the truth.

Hua Lin would hate him and leave him.

And he also knew that he could not bear such consequences.

When Hua Lin was about to fall asleep, Xue Younian suddenly kissed him.He was in a daze, and originally planned not to respond to the kiss, he was really sleepy, let's talk about it tomorrow.But Xue Younian said, "Linlin."

After hesitating for a few seconds, Hua Lin reluctantly agreed: "Mmm..."

Xue Youyou said in a young voice: "I have a deep feeling when I visit Zhang Bo's family this time."

Hua Lin sighed silently, and looked at Xue Younian with his eyelids propped up for fighting: "Are you blaming yourself again?"

Xue Younian said, "I didn't mean to say this, I have new and different feelings."

This is new.Hua Lin asked, "What?"

Xue Younian fumbled to hold his hand, intertwined his fingers, and said in a low voice: "You know, I used to be a non-marriage and infertility advocate, and I used to think that I would never meet someone I love. I never I never thought that you and I would fall in love and be together, but the world is so mysterious. Human beings try to decipher all the laws of the world, including feelings, but everything proves that this is just human arrogance, narcissism, and self-delusion."

Hua Lin listened quietly.

Xue Younian continued: "I spend most of my time teaching in schools, and I seldom face death directly. Perhaps, that's why I used to have those unrealistic and floating thoughts. But this time, I was very straightforward. To Zhang Bo's family after his death, his wife, his parents, his unborn child.

They were very sad because they lost him, but they didn't have the despair I imagined.It's not that they don't love Zhang Bo, but they know that life will continue in the future, and Zhang Bo's child will be born, which is the continuation of Zhang Bo's life, so they have hope again.

Perhaps, reproduction is not the greed and narcissism of human beings as I used to think, but the meaning of life. I didn't really and truly realize it until this moment. "

Hua Lin gradually woke up from sleepiness, and looked at him in surprise——

Does this mean that you want to get married and have children? !

Xue Younian saw his surprise, touched his face again, and said softly, "Linlin, let's have a baby."

Hua Lin asked dumbfoundedly: "Can you give birth? Anyway, I can't."

Xue Younian hinted: "There is always a way."

Hua Lin was stunned for a moment, and his smile gradually disappeared: "You mean... a surrogate?"

Xue Younian didn't speak, just looked at him.

Hua Lin frowned slightly: "No."

Xue Younian clenched his hand even tighter and said, "I don't want my child, but yours."

Hua Lin frowned more and more tightly: "It's not a question of whom, surrogacy is against the law."

Xue Younian said: "When we represent abroad, it is legal in many countries."

"No matter how legal it is, it violates basic morality." On this issue, Hualin is still firm no matter how much he falls in love.

Xue Younian refused to give up: "I know, but we are different from those. We can compensate the woman as much as possible."

Hua Lin's expression turned ugly: "Are you okay? Why suddenly..." He suddenly said such absurd and even ignorant words, "It's not about money, it's a business, and it's a serious violation of human rights. Ethical business, full of exploitation of women, and contempt for basic morality."

Seeing his fierce opposition, Xue Younian hurriedly said: "I'm sorry, Linlin, I misunderstood, you're right, I don't think so anymore."

Hua Lin calmed down, and comforted him instead: "Okay, you may have been stimulated this time, and it's easy to think wrong in the middle of the night, don't think about it, go to sleep first, and don't think so during the day." Xue You Nian shook his head and said, "That's because I was thinking wrongly, but I really want to form a family with you."

Hualin: "..."

Xue Younian almost begged him: "Linlin, this may be an unreasonable request, maybe you still think I was stimulated for a while, but it's really not. I have been thinking about this problem all the way back. I love you , I want to be with you forever. This is a very selfish thing. I am so much older than you. When I am old, you are still in your prime. You still have many choices, but if there is a relationship between you and me Marriage and children, I will feel much more at ease."

Hua Lin was stunned: "Why do you speak like I'm a scumbag...I won't do it, don't worry."

Xue Younian said, "Linlin, at least let's adopt a child, shall we?"

"...Huh?" Hua Lin was confused.