"Slag" is right

"Did you quarrel with the teacher?" Nan Nan looked at the door that Wen Jianming slammed shut, peeled off most of the remaining oranges, stuffed them into his mouth, and took another one.

"I have nothing against him."

The trash can was in the corner, so Nan put the orange peel on the bedside table.Lu Yi took the peeled orange peel and put it under his nose to smell it.

"Looking for an orange? You can't eat this right now."

"I know. Just smell it, the orange peel is delicious."

Nan Nan saw the thermos bucket on the table and the porridge that was still steaming, and chewed for a while, the sweetness of the orange disappeared, leaving only the sourness.

"Brother, you haven't had dinner yet, do you want some?" He raised the small table on the hospital bed again.

"I'm hanging the nutrient solution." Lu Yi raised his wrist.

"No conflict." Nan Nan brought the bowl of porridge back to him.

Seeing that Lu Yi didn't move, Nan picked up the porridge, brought it to his mouth, and said with a smile, "Do you want me to feed you?"

"Don't make trouble." Lu Yi took the bowl and started to eat slowly, "Have you had dinner yet?"

"Not yet, I'm going down to buy a meal now, and I'll be back in a while." Nan Nan stood up and ran away before Lu Yi could speak.

"Go..." Lu Yi said to his back.

Lu Yi turned his head and looked downstairs from the window, and saw Wen Jianming's figure coming out of the building.When Wen Jianming's figure was blocked by the outpatient building in front, Nan Nan also rushed out from the entrance of the inpatient building, and ran straight towards the direction where Wen Jianming disappeared.

Lu Yi threw the spoon into the half-eaten porridge bowl, pushed away the table in front of him, and lay back on the bed sideways.

"Teacher, teacher..."

Wen Jianming has already walked to the middle of the open space in front of the outpatient building, where there is a big sweet-scented osmanthus tree.Hearing Nan's voice, Wen Jianming stopped under the tree and waited for him.Under the light, mottled tree shadows fell on his face, as if the rich fragrance emanated from him.

Panting, Nan Nan stopped in front of Wen Jianming, and couldn't find a way to greet him, so he opened his mouth and said nonsense: "You are going back."

Wen Jianming looked at him and nodded.

Nan Nan stretched out her hand, as if she wanted to hold him back, but she retracted her hand halfway to hold her other arm, and said awkwardly: "Teacher, don't be angry with Brother Lu..."

"I'm not mad at him."

If he had to say it, Wen Jianming was angry with himself.

Qi dragged himself in the mud, and the mud feet were deep.If it weren't for Gu Nian's dignity, Lu Yi might have thrown the word "scroll" in his face, but he was even more hesitant and reluctant to part.

Wen Jianming, who has never been in a serious relationship, would occasionally imagine himself falling in love with someone, but before that, no matter how much he used his imagination, he would never have imagined that he would lower his profile like this, completely disregarding his dignity.

He also thought many times why he was so attached to Lu.Maybe it's his unrestrained lifestyle, which made the well-behaved Wen Jianming very curious, and made him want to peek into his heart more.However, when he really saw the pain and sorrow in his heart, Wen Jianming felt that Lu Yi shouldn't be like this.

Not knowing when it started, he had an idea to pull Lu Yi out of the quagmire of the past.Whether it's sympathy or distress, he can't say it himself.But he is very clear that he does not have this position, he can only keep a distance, like a bystander, watching Lu Yi struggle with his own emotions, and also like a bystander, slowly sinking from a distance...

Nan Nan saw Wen Jianming's complexion was naturally very bad, since he was not angry with Lu Yi, he asked cautiously: "Are you still angry with me?"

"Brother Lu was in a really bad mood that day, so I didn't stop him...I promise, there will never be a next time, I will definitely supervise him to stop drinking..."

Wen Jianming suddenly raised his hand and swayed it across Na Nan's face, but Na Nan stopped explaining.Did Wen Jianming touch his face just now?But he didn't feel anything...

Wen Jianming raised his hand again, but still didn't touch his face: "Does it still hurt?"

"........."

After reacting for a long time, Na Nan realized what he was talking about. Surprised, she smiled brightly: "How could it still be in pain? It's been gone for a long time..." Nan Nan's voice became softer, and she suddenly felt a little uncomfortable. Sorry, "...it doesn't really hurt..."

"I was too impulsive that day, and I didn't blame you for this."

Na Nan naturally heard that Wen Jianming was apologizing to him, although he didn't know if it was because he listened to Lu Yi's words, or he really felt sorry.But it doesn't matter, Na Nan is already flattered.

"Well... Teacher, have you had dinner? Why don't we go have dinner together. "

"No, you can buy it and go back to accompany Lu Yi, he is bored in the hospital by himself."

"……Um."

"You come to the hospital to see him if you have nothing to do."

"What about you?" Nan Nan remembered what they had just said in the hospital, "Aren't you coming?"

"I'll come." Wen Jianming patted Nan Nan on the shoulder, signaling him to rest assured, "I'll go back first. You leave the thermos at Lu Yi's house, and I'll go get it when I'm free."

Nan Nan nodded, the surprise just now was fleeting.Looking at Wen Jianming's tall figure gradually disappearing into the night, he always felt that that figure was like a hunched dog in the water.

And why not himself.

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It took Nan Nan a lot longer to go to the hospital.Lu added new illnesses to his old illnesses, and his body recovered very slowly.Wen Jianming still came, this hospital was not far from Lu Yi's home and Wen Jianming's school, he came once or twice a day, most of them brought lunch boxes, and often brought fresh flowers.It's just that he stayed for a short time, put down the lunch box, or replaced the flowers, and left after saying hello to Lu Yi.Sometimes when Lu Yi was resting, he would quietly finish these tasks by himself and then leave quietly.

Nan Nan put the fruit on the small table, saw the insulated box above, picked it up and weighed it, it was heavy.

"The teacher is here?"

Lu Yi stood up, raised one arm and slowed down the switch of the infusion.This nurse is impatient, and adjusts the infusion tube to the fastest every time, which makes him flustered.

"Come here? I don't know, I was just sleeping."

Nan Nan opened the lunch box, and the light meals were all high-nutrition and high-protein ingredients.He helped Lu Yi set up the dining table and put the food on it.

"Should have left." Nan Nan tried the temperature of the food with his hands. It should have been here for a while, but it wasn't very hot. "Do you want me to warm it up for you before eating?"

"No need to heat it up." Lu Yi took the spoon and handed the other fork to Nan, "I can't eat it, so you can eat some too."

"Forget it, I eat these bland ones every day, and I don't have any taste in my mouth."

Lu Yi took a look at Nan Nan, and jokingly said, "You also got tired of the meal your teacher made?"

Nan Nan rolled her eyes and thought, this is not for him either.

"Let's eat your meal." Nan Nan took out an orange from the fruit he bought.

Obviously oranges are the seasonal fruit of this season, but I don't know why, every time I buy them, they are so sour.

After eating two sour oranges, Nan began to peel the kiwi fruit, cut the peeled kiwi fruit into pieces and put them on a small plate.

"Peel me an orange, I want to eat an orange."

"You can't eat this."

Lu Yi frowned slightly, but quickly let go, not insisting on this issue, and said, "You like oranges very much."

"It's okay, it's very convenient to eat."

Lu Yi looked at Nan Nan with gentle eyes: "I will be discharged from the hospital the day after tomorrow."

"Don't drink any more after that." Nan Nan put the cut kiwi fruit in front of Lu Yi.

"Well, stop drinking."

After eating the fruit, Lu Yi wiped his hands, then looked out the window: "Go for a walk."

It was late autumn in November, and it was chilly in the morning and evening, but in the afternoon when the autumn sun was shining, it was still very warm outside. In the small square in front of the hospital building, many patients came out to breathe.

There is no major problem with Lu Yi's body, but he is still a little weak.Leaning on the bench, the sun shines on him through the gaps in the yellowing leaves, the light chestnut curly hair seems to be trimmed with fluffy gold, and the fair skin is moist red.He took La Nanan's hand and asked him to sit beside him, without speaking, silently, and did not let go of the hand he held.

"Brother, our club organized a training camp, and they called me out of town."

Lu Yi squinted his eyes to enjoy the sunshine and glanced at Nan Nan: "How long will it be?"

"Three months."

"It's been a while." Lu Yi said this, and moved a little closer to Nan, leaning most of his body weight on him, narrowing his eyes again, with a lazy look, "You go."

Nan Nan also squinted at Lu Yi, the sun had moved away, those false rosy colors were no longer there, a face that lacked blood and was somewhat pale.Nan Nan looked up at the yellow leaf above her head that was shaking in the breeze. Winter was really coming.For some reason, when he thought of winter, and then thought of the strong wind on the roof and the thick snow that no one had stepped on, he suddenly shivered slightly.

"Brother Lu, if I quit...you can stay with the teacher."

Nan Nan tried to speak as lightly as possible, but that voice also seemed to come from winter, wrapped in the sound of whining wind.

Lu Yi got up from him, looked at Nan carefully, and after a while, replied lightly: "I can't be with Wen Jianming."

"How do you know if you don't try?"

"Some things can be known without trying, and I can't give him what he wants."

He can't give me what I want - Lu Yi didn't say that.You can sleep together, and even live together, but you can't just be together, especially if one partner wants more.

"But……"

Lu Yi looked at Nan Nan and suddenly smiled, still the same kind of faint smile, so shallow that the corners of his lips could not go deep into his heart.

"This has nothing to do with you. Even without you, I would not be able to be with Wen Jianming in the true sense." As if he was tired from talking, Lu Yi leaned his weight on Nan Nan again, Lift your chin and look at the layers of leaves.

"If it weren't for you, I should have lost contact with him long ago."

Nan Nan bit her lip for a while: "Is it because he reminded you of Cheng Jinwen?"

"No, he and Cheng Jinwen have very different personalities." Lu Yi didn't wait for Nan Nan to ask again, "It's because he doesn't need me."

Nan Nan didn't understand, Wen Jianming obviously liked Lu Yi very much, how could he not need him.

Lu Yi gently touched Nan's chin and looked into his eyes.He knew that the so-called training camp was an excuse, and Nan Nan thought that as long as he quit, the entangled relationship between the three people in front of him would end, and he and Wen Jianming could be together happily.But these are all his self-righteousness.

"What will happen if you don't go to the training camp? Three months is too long." Lu Yiwan asked.

Nan Nan was silent for a moment, then shook his head.