My name is Bai Xiaozi

Three months after I met Ms. Jiang, it was another New Year. Ms. Jiang went home to celebrate the New Year. I thought we would meet again in half a month at most, but I didn’t expect that this parting would take three months. A disaster that swept across the country came quietly.

I believe that there is no need to say more, we have all experienced that epic disaster, and the scene is still vivid in our minds.I didn't go out at home for three whole months, and I didn't have a job, let alone a salary. The financial situation was not very good, and I was even more stretched.Originally, I could still rely on my salary to support me, so I could only borrow a small loan again in these three months to repay the debt owed by the bank.

Fortunately, the disaster was brought under control, and production and work resumed in just three months.The domestic situation is under control, but the international situation is still very serious, the whole sky is still gray, and I don't know what seems to be a real sigh of relief.

During these three months, Ms. Jiang and I could only communicate through WeChat. As soon as production resumed and I was able to go out for a walk, I couldn't wait to find her. Maybe it was because of such a difficult disaster that we had a little miss Feeling like crying, the two couldn't help crying.It's a pity that I don't have any experience in love, and I didn't say anything, I didn't even say "Be my girlfriend". I thought it would be okay if I didn't have to say this. Of course, it may be because I have a thin skin and can't say it. .

We resumed the previous walks, and now it seems that our relationship at that time can be described by a classic saying: more than friends, less than lovers.

On a certain weekend, I made an appointment with her to go out to play, but she said that the leader suddenly asked her to work overtime and couldn't come. I also said it was okay, so I made an appointment with a coach to do exercise.Originally, this day passed like this, but I didn't know why my brain cramped, and I came near her company without making an appointment with her in advance.

Although it wasn't too late, she probably had already left work at that time and went back to the dormitory to sleep.I don't know about this situation. She didn't reply to me after she said on WeChat that I was near her company. After a while, I called her directly and wanted to ask her out for dinner, but when she asked me When it came time to eat, I didn't have anything to prepare, so I said, why don't we eat jelly.

I don't know why she was a little angry, and suddenly burst out a little bit, she said: "What's the matter with you, I have already said that I may be very busy and tired from working overtime today, so I told you not to come. I just After work, I didn't even want to eat dinner, so I just lay on the bed and fell asleep, but you called me up, do you know how tired I am? That's fine, you haven't decided what to eat when you come, In the end, I choose a Liangpi. Do you think that I am only worth a Liangpi? I know you are far away from here, and it is not easy to come here, but if you do this, I will be happy to welcome you? Are you Children? If you are always like this, I think it is better for us not to meet again in the future. "

I was a little annoyed when I heard her say that, "What do you mean? Could it be that our happiness in the past three months was all fake?"

"It's true that you're happy when you're happy, but you don't look at a person at his best, but at his worst. And every time I eat, I have to consider your eating habits. I dare not Order something too spicy, and I have to think about what to eat every time, shouldn’t these be things you should do as a man?”

"Isn't letting you choose that respecting your ideas? Is it wrong? I didn't tell you not to eat spicy food. You order what you like, and I order mine. In the end, it's not your big bag." Have you ordered everything? Besides, didn’t I pay for all the money, and I didn’t ask you to pay a penny.”

"Anyway, I just feel that you are like a child, and I have to teach you how to chase me. Am I tired?"

We were silent for a moment when we almost had a quarrel, and decided to calm down for a while before talking. We didn't contact each other for a week after that.There is a saying that in a relationship, whoever admits his mistake first loses first, but I still couldn't help but contact Miss Jiang first.But no matter how much she sent messages, she didn't reply, and she didn't answer the phone calls. She never saw her when she went to wait at the door of her company. She wanted to enter her company to look for her, but the guard stopped her.

After another period of time like this, I couldn't get in touch with her, and I couldn't contact my friends, and there was no good way for friends. He said that he couldn't persuade Ms. Jiang, and the matter between the two of us can only be resolved by ourselves.I know that maybe this relationship will end without a problem.For a long period of time, I became more decadent and began to give up on myself, spending money even more unrestrainedly, and sometimes I didn't even pay attention to where the money was spent, as if it disappeared out of thin air.

It can be said that this incident was a personal disaster for me. The previous disaster was a national disaster. Although I experienced it personally, I still don’t feel so deeply because the disaster did not actually happen to me. I still feel the horror of the disaster by relying on those things shown on TV.But this time is different, this time it can be said that the disaster actually befalls me and pushes me into the abyss.

I didn't wake up until I spent all the money on my body, and the borrowing of Huabei and Bianbei was full again.Isn’t there a saying that goes like this: The sad thing about life is that there are no people left, and the money has not been spent, but what is even more sad is that the people are still there after the money is spent. This is what I am currently in.Not only did I run out of money, but I also owed a whole lot of debt, and I couldn't even pay the next month's repayment.

what to do?I even thought about dying, but I didn't dare to die. Finally, I thought about looking for a loan intermediary again and trying to get another loan.The previous broker went out of business perhaps in a disaster and I had to go online and look for a new lender.Maybe it was because of the disaster that it was difficult to find a business institution even on the Internet. After being confused for a while, I finally found an institution. I ran from one catastrophe to another, worse one.