return to peace

In the early summer, it was bright early, and the birds outside the house were singing one after another.

As soon as Chu Lingshang opened his eyes, he saw a pair of big clear eyes staring at him without blinking.Only then did he belatedly recall what happened yesterday.At the end of the tossing, he really couldn't open his eyelids, but he had a vague impression that Ji Fan seemed to wipe his body for him and changed into a clean underwear. Indeed, he didn't feel sticky on his body, but his whole body was sore. pain……

The instigator was refreshed, with a smiling face: "Ling Shang, you are late for court."

"What?!" Without even thinking about it, Chu Lingshang sat up quickly, but when he got up, he took in a hiss of cold air, his waist hurt, his legs hurt, and his tailbone hurt.

"Hahaha, don't get excited, don't get excited, I lied to you, take a rest today." Ji Fan smiled and pulled him back to lie down.

Chen Lingshang has been getting up since he was a child. Even though he has become calm and restrained now, this is the only point that cannot be changed.In addition, after being teased by him, I felt uncomfortable, and I was a little angry for a while, so I turned around and ignored him with a "hum".

"What? Are you angry?" Ji Fan hugged him from behind, reached out to touch his forehead, and felt relieved that it wasn't hot.

"Are there any discomforts on your body? Let me check it out?" As soon as Ji Fan started his hands, Chen Lingshang pushed him away angrily, but Ji Fan still saw a few marks on his slightly parted neckline, and he couldn't help but regret his loss. Proper.

"Don't be angry, just teasing you." He gently rubbed Chen Lingshang's waist while talking.

Chu Lingshang was thinking to himself, why couldn't he suppress his emotions in front of him?Seeing Ji Fan rubbing his waist flatteringly, and there was a burst of warmth from his waist, he was not willing to refuse, and pretended to say: "Get up quickly, it's getting late."

"You go to sleep again. I'll call someone to prepare to take a bath." He rolled over and got out of bed, put on his clothes, and walked a few steps. What will the servants think?"

Chen Lingshang was stunned for a few seconds, then turned over and ignored him again.

Ji Fanxu was so happy that he even opened the door to summon the servants with a pleasant face.After giving all orders, he was about to go back to his room when he saw Lin Feng standing not far away. Ji Fan took a deep look at him, and finally went back to his room without saying anything.

Perhaps Chu Lingshang was really tired last night, and fell asleep groggy after only such a short time.Ji Fan walked gently to the side of the bed and continued to massage his waist, bringing some internal strength, trying to dispel the pain with warmth.At the beginning, Chu Lingshang could still feel Ji Fan's touch, but then he really didn't know anything about it.

When Ji Fan stripped his clothes off and carried him into the tub, he opened his eyes halfway to take a look, and then closed them again.Ji Fan loves his dazed and defenseless appearance, there is no loneliness and arrogance when he is awake, only complete trust.Seeing the mark on Chen Lingshang's body, he realized that he was a beast, but he still couldn't help kissing him on the cheek from time to time.

Chu Lingshang went back to the cage and fell asleep until noon. When he woke up, Ji Fan had just returned from sword practice.

"Are you awake? You slept so long that you slept until lunch."

Seeing Ji Fan wiping the sweat off his forehead in good spirits, Chu Lingshang finally woke up, got out of bed and put on the clothes Ji Fan put beside the bed, and returned to his cool and noble appearance, but the pain in his waist was still there.

"You wash up first, I'll pass the meal."

"Ah."

Chu Lingshang simply washed up, and was about to comb his hair, but was snatched away by Ji Fan: "I'll help you."

Chu Lingshang took a look at him, but sat down obediently in front of the mirror. Ji Fan picked up the comb and carefully combed his black hair from top to bottom. The mirror reflected the two of them. Although he didn't say anything, there was plain happiness flowing in the air.Chu Lingshang couldn't help but think, this is the life he wants, retreating to the mountains and forests, and being with him for the rest of his life.

There is no need to dress up too grandly for taking a rest today, so Ji Fan only combed his hair halfway up, and then tied it up with a headband.After combing, he leaned closer to Chu Lingshang, looked at his figure in the mirror carefully, and couldn't help but smile and said, "It's so pretty."

Rao has a physical relationship, every time Chu Lingshang heard such words, he was still embarrassed, and he coughed in a disguised way: "Hurry up and eat, I'm hungry."

The meals were relatively bland, and Chu Lingshang could tell at a glance that this was specially ordered by Ji Fan, and he felt a little happy.Chu Lingshang didn't like to talk when eating, so Ji Fan kept talking about some interesting things, and he occasionally responded with a sentence or two.Halfway through eating, Ji Fan suddenly said: "Ling Yan, I have decided to leave for the Wilderness in one month."

Chu Lingshang immediately stopped his chopsticks, stared at him for a long while without saying a word, then lowered his eyes, continued to pick up vegetables, pretended to be nonchalant and said: "July is the time when the wilderness is full of miasma, do you really want July? go?"

"The wilderness has poisonous gas in summer, glaciers in winter, and sandstorms in spring and autumn. It's the same no matter which season you go to. You have to go sooner or later. It's better to go early. Besides, in another month, my body will definitely recover."

Chu Lingshang suddenly lost his appetite, put down the bowl and chopsticks: "Okay, I respect your decision."

Ji Fan held his hand, but Chen Lingzhang didn't say anything, just held it back silently.

Ji Fan knew that Chu Lingshang was reluctant.He also really wanted to stay with him forever, but he knew that without peace in the world, there would be no peace for them.

The two of them didn't go anywhere that day, they just fished comfortably by the pond in the mansion.Seeing that Chu Lingshang didn't eat much for lunch, Ji Fan asked him to make another osmanthus cake.Chu Lingshang calmed down a bit, and ate a lot of tea. Ji Fan joked: "You have loved sweet-scented osmanthus cake since you were a child, but why doesn't your taste change when you grow up?"

"Some things are hard to change in a lifetime." Lying on the recliner, half-closed his eyes, Chen Lingshang replied leisurely.

"It's like I treat you, isn't it?" Ji Fan's love words came out of nowhere, making it hard for Chen Lingshang to guard against.

He avoided answering his words, pointed to his fishing rod and said, "The fish is hooked."

Ji Fan smiled lightly, and lifted the fishing rod vigorously, and it was a big koi.

That night, Chu Lingshang did not continue to stay overnight in Ji Fan's room. He couldn't guarantee that there were no other people's eyeliner among his servants, and he still didn't want to leave too obvious a clue.

Just as he took off his coat and was about to go to bed, he heard movement from the window. He opened the curtain and saw Ji Fan closing the window quietly like a thief.Seeing him looking at him, he shook his head and said quite proudly: "Ling Shang, I think the guards in your mansion are really bad."

Chu Lingshang ignored him, put down the curtain, and said coolly: "Lin Feng let you in on purpose."

Ji Fan touched his nose, noncommittal, obediently followed into the tent.Chu Lingshang lay down on the bed except for his coat, and saw that Ji Fan was still standing there, so he moved his position to make room for the outside position.

"Come up."

Ji Fan smiled, quickly took off his clothes, lay down inside, and rolled with Chen Lingshang.He hugged Chen Lingshang into his arms, kissed him, and patted him on the back: "Go to sleep. You have to get up early tomorrow to go to court."

Chu Lingshang was indeed tired, so he hummed lightly, and fell asleep in his arms within a short while.

Ji Fan quietly looked at his delicate and handsome eyebrows, and for a long time, gently rubbed the top of his hair, like Wen Lin did to Ji Fan when he was a child, and closed his eyes.

It's been years, I don't know when I can see you again.He just wanted time to slow down, and then slow down.

The night can often draw out those thoughts hidden in the deepest part of a person's heart, and they are out of control, such as love, reluctance and pity that go deep to the marrow.Those pretending to be peaceful and joking during the day fade away one by one in the middle of the night, and what emerges is the helplessness of reality.

That year in the peach grove of the Jokhang Temple, Chu Lingshang told him that he wished Chang'an forever.Therefore, he wanted to promise him a lifetime of Chang'an, even though he was reluctant, but when the world was in chaos, he had to give up for a while in order to have a lifetime.

His long-cherished wish in this life has always been him.