Peripheral vision flooding

In mid-April, the bouquets of roses behind the school were finally in full bloom, but the sign on the fence at the side was gone, and no one was looking at it, let alone a fine of 100 yuan for picking one.

Gardenias are too white, white too pure, we are not worthy, he thinks roses are just right, just like flowing blood, fallen in the depths of the abyss, even so, still blooming proudly, exuding a sense of belonging It's floral.

When the flowering period was in full bloom, Lin Ziqiu gave the security guard 100 yuan and picked a rose back. At that time, Jiang Zihan was sitting on the seat, staring at the pen in his hand in a daze.

Lin Ziqiu smiled and said, "Brother, the roses behind the school are in full bloom, I picked one and gave it to you."

They suddenly woke up and figured out many things at once.

Even if there are not many days left, they must be born facing the sun and move forward boldly. He said that even if the road ahead is full of thorns and difficulties, since it is the road they choose, they must be brave. go on.

They no longer spend their days in panic, they start to live their every day with heart, full and ordinary, and feel very satisfied in their hearts.

Roses are easy to wither, but they have no way to stop the roses from withering, they can only cherish the time when the roses are in full bloom, and slowly wait for it to wither.

Their hearts are full of hope and full of hope, and they firmly believe that they can, they will definitely be able to do it.

In this faith they passed day after day, from April to May, from May to June, and from June to July, all the way through the summer vacation, and they are still there.

You have to ask, didn't Jiang Zihan predict that he would die soon?Didn't he know that his time was running out?Why until now, nothing happened.

They have no way to answer this question, because even they themselves don't know why the person who should have left is still there.

But Jiang Zihan knew that what should come will always come, death will only be late, and will not be absent.

He may be living for one month, or two months, maybe one year, or two years, or even more, which means that he is very lucky, and he can live for five or six or seven or eight years.

If you want to say that he was lucky, he died within one or two months, he was indeed very lucky, but if you want to say that he was very, very lucky, not all, because after all, he could not live for seven or eight years.

He can only say that he took the college entrance examination.

He had one regret. At the moment when the report came out, he thought he would not be able to take the college entrance examination, but in the end he took it anyway, and his grades were very satisfactory, ranking first in the school and first in the province.

Can he say that he is playing normally, the real situation is anyway.

Before the college entrance examination, everyone in the eight-person group knew about his illness, and no one comforted him, and he didn't need it, so he might say more, and he should be at a loss.

For such a situation where a person has a heart attack and is about to die, they may only have seen it on the news or on TV, and there are very few people who actually appear around them.

So I don't know how to face it or what to say.

I simply stopped talking, just accompany him slowly, just stay with him.

Jiang Zihan is a myth, an eternal myth, he may have fallen from the altar, but a god must have the appearance of a god, and he will still go back spotless, and step on the height that belongs to him.

Today's God is still spotless, but his heart is gradually rotting, spreading to the surroundings, and where he passes, not a single blade of grass grows.

His condition gradually deteriorated, although he was still full of faith every day and lived a good life every day.

He had seen Lin Ziqiu wiping his tears secretly more than once. When he passed by, Lin Ziqiu was afraid that he would see him, so he hurriedly wiped it off.

He said to Lin Ziqiu, "Good boy, don't cry. Once you cry, I want to cry too..."

……

It took them a year and a half to accept the fact that he would eventually disappear in this world, and finally they thought, no, he just went to another world to see the life system of another world, Look at people from another world.

Often at this time, Lin Ziqiu would say: "Brother, don't forget me after you go there! If you dare to forget, I will never, ever hold your hand again..." He couldn't say anything serious , only dare to use these insignificant things to try to threaten that person.

Jiang Zihan would wrap his arms around him and say like a promise: "I will never forget, I will definitely never forget..."

Sometimes when falling asleep, Lin Ziqiu would mutter to himself in his dream: "Brother, why didn't you wait for me..."

He didn't know it himself, but Jiang Zihan knew that after hearing these words, he only felt that his heart had been cracked, and with a light touch, it would be torn apart and never heal again.

It really hurts...

His heart hurts so much, and so does his Ziqiu...

The illness was getting worse, Jiang Zihan knew that this time, he might really not be able to hold on.

He has many, many, many things that he has not done, and many, many wishes are gone.

But he can't help it.

In the last month, they took out part-time jobs to earn money and travel.

They went to so many places, but they can't remember clearly, only remember one Shangri-La, one Changbai Mountain, and more can't remember clearly.

No one looked very sad along the way, both of them had gentle smiles on their faces, very clean.

The evening breeze along the way is just right, and the boy is still young, but the time is not for me, and there is nothing I can do.

I can't remember many details. I just remember that every place they walked is in their mobile phone photo album. In the last period of time, they took a lot of photos.

The number is also countless.

In the end, Jiang Zihan said that he wanted to go to the beach to see the sunset on the beach.

Lin Ziqiu knew that this might be the last day, so the two of them went to the beach in the hottest summer by train.

It was still noon when we first arrived, the sun was shining brightly, and the wind was very dry and hot.

I had lunch at a nearby restaurant first. The owner of the restaurant was very kind. He knew that the two of them were here for tourism, so he specially sent two special dishes.

They smiled and thanked the boss. After lunch, Jiang Zihan said he was tired, so Lin Ziqiu handed him his shoulder for him to lean on.

Jiang Zihan smiled faintly, shook his head, got up and found an umbrella, the umbrella was transparent, with two small white flowers dotted on it, very pretty.

However, against the scorching sun, this little white umbrella is useless.

The two of them didn't speak, they took off their shoes and walked barefoot along the edge of the beach.

The sand on the beach was a bit hot to the feet, so the two of them walked in the wet place, and a few waves rolled over from time to time, and the sea water splashed on their insteps, leaving a cool breeze.

Even after such a long time, it's been a long time... Their hands are still tightly clasped, overlapping, and never let go.

They wanted to use it in the scorching hot summer, even though they were wet with sweat, in fact, the waves covered them and hit them, and they never took half a step back.

Exhausted from walking, the two of them found a better place to sit down, quietly waiting for the sunset.

He heard his brother say: "At first I thought, if I really leave, you should find a good person again, find someone you like, and be together." After a pause, he said, "But , I am very selfish, when I think of you being with someone else, I can't help but want to kill that person." He smiled to himself first.

Lin Ziqiu lowered his head, answered, and listened to him quietly.

"I have never thought about this kind of ending, and now I have personally experienced it, which is quite a pity."

"Many things cannot wait for the next life. If you don't do it in this life, you will regret it in the next life."

"Did I never say that I love you very much?"

"Well, it's too late for me to say it now, Ziqiu, I love you, I love you very much..."

"Actually, these words are quite vulgar. Then think about it carefully. Some people can't say these words in their entire life."

"It's only now that I sigh, I love you, it is really the words that can only be described after exhausting a lifetime of romance."

……

Later he said a lot more, Lin Ziqiu couldn't remember clearly...

The sun in the distance is just right, the sea is sparkling, and the breeze is blowing. The boy I love is about to pass away.