Peripheral vision flooding

The wind in the old city is always blowing slowly, which makes people feel very comfortable and can't help but stretch their waists.

After three days of playing, it's time to calm down. It's still the same as before. Maybe it's because I'm used to that kind of learning method. This time, it's not as difficult as before.

But even so, the busy study will still make people physically and mentally exhausted, but even so, a group of teenagers are full of fighting spirit, and they are bound to be admitted to a good university, so they can't lose face, right?

In the past, there would always be many girls, from their own class, from other classes, or even from the lower grades, one by one, they would go to the window of Class [-] to watch, who are they looking at?Look at the school grass and his brother!

But now it doesn't work anymore. Everyone knows that Class [-] is a good class that strives hard, and everyone dare not disturb them.

Busy study and life always need some seasoning. When going through a series of boring studies, Lin Ziqiu will often ask Jiang Zihan for a kiss or a hug, which must be long-lasting.

He relies on these things to recharge himself, so that he still has the desire to continue working.

The two of them will still go to the part-time job on Saturday and Sunday, after all, it is difficult to move without money.

Day by day, time goes by day by day, the number on the blackboard newspaper at the back decreases day by day, and their youth also decreases a little bit.

It used to be said that you are young and frivolous, youth can be reckless and squandered at will, but you don’t know how many youths you can squander in this life.

Life is very small. A disease, a car accident, or a drowning can deprive others of their lives at will, very, very easily.

Later, Jiang Zihan took time to go to the hospital. After all, deep down in his heart, he always held a glimmer of hope. He hoped that the diagnosis was wrong, and he hoped that he didn't have it.

The moment the report card came out, he still collapsed, he couldn't understand, he was clearly talented, talented!

At the age of 18, he has not seen all kinds of scenery in this world, he has not eaten all kinds of delicacies in this world, and he has not completed a trip with Lin Ziqiu.

Not reconciled?Yes, I'm really not reconciled...

He threw the report card in the trash can of the hospital, and he dared not take it back for fear of being discovered by the family member.

At this time, you look into the trash can, and there is a line of words on the report: Hereditary heart disease, no solution.

Very rare diseases, once discovered, there is no way to cure them, only to wait slowly for the arrival of death.

You don't know when you're going to die, and you don't know when you'll be silent, you just know that your time is running out.

Almost collapsed, he didn't rush back to the rental house, he was afraid that Lin Ziqiu would ask what was wrong with him, he was afraid of being separated from Lin Ziqiu, he was afraid that he would die in the next second, he was really, really scared...

But it is because there is not much time left, so it is even more important to stay at home and spend time with Lin Ziqiu.

After struggling again and again, he returned to the rental house, where he thought he could live for the rest of his life.

He couldn't calm down his emotions, probably no one could calm down his emotions, so as soon as he got home, Lin Ziqiu found out that something was wrong with him.

He waited for Jiang Zihan to say it himself, talk it out, what's the matter.

He didn't ask, Jiang Zihan just took a chance and didn't say anything.

One didn't ask, the other didn't tell, and the cycle slowly went on and on, and it's been like this for a long time.

At the beginning of April, Jiang Zihan had a premonition, he could clearly feel that his time was running out, he was running out of time...

If you don't say anything else, it will be too late.

So when they returned to the dormitory that day, they held hands as usual, and slowly went up to the rooftop to watch the stars and moon, blow the wind, and listen to music.

With the wind that night, Jiang Zihan was much calmer than he imagined. He seemed to have no idea what fear was all of a sudden, because he knew that someone would be more afraid than him, so he couldn't be afraid.

In fact, even if Jiang Zihan didn't say anything, Lin Ziqiu could vaguely guess something.

But what I guessed in my heart is different from what I heard with my ears.

One is just a hypothesis, and the other is a fact admitted by the protagonist himself.

Did he cry?Like yes, he can't remember...

He only remembered that the wind was really cold that night, and it made his bones ache. He knew that his brother was also very cold. They hugged each other, warmed each other, and comforted each other.

Their blood is still flowing, their hearts are still beating.

Maybe after a long, long time, he is destined to be a single movie solo, if there is a cold wind blowing, the only thing he can remember is the hug that night.

No one knew what happened, no one knew why the two of them were suddenly depressed.

In fact, it is not considered depression, just spend a period of time to calm yourself down, think about it, what should you do with the rest of the time?

Or, take a moment to let yourself be well and accept this fact.

Lin Ziqiu wondered if he was doomed to be alone. He had no father when he was a child, and later Lin Yue also died. Until now, in the end, he thought that there would be someone who would be with him forever, but in the end, he still missed it. .

Think about it carefully, parents, that grass, the gardenia tree, and even his brother...

One pile, one piece, will eventually dissipate and stay away from him.

bro...

What should I do?

It really hurts!It hurts... My heart hurts...

Brother, you...

……

It's raining again, a unique weather in the old city.

The mottled traces on the alley were washed away by the rain, and countless water droplets splashed in the low air.

It was the same weather when he first came to this city.

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Cheek to cheek, after a long time, he put his ear on the right side of the other's chest.

So clear, really so clear.

"Bang, bang, bang..."

Once he thought that in the near future, the same position would no longer beat, his heart seemed to be twisted, and there were bursts of pain.

"elder brother……"

Jiang Zihan picked him up and lightly kissed the corner of his lips.

"Remember, this place will always beat for you."

A rose-wrapped funeral is romantic, but if it's untimely, he thought, no one would want it.

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Live, live, die, exist, disappear...

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Youth, youth, campus, home...

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Relatives, lovers, friends...

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Tossing and turning things, searching and searching, and then looking back.

What's left...

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After stepping through the abyss, what greets you is even more endless darkness. After the abyss, it is still the abyss.

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