Thousand Willows

Liu Minhui heard Jiang Yizhong finish his discovery, and said, "Do you think your biological father is that educated youth?"

"Nine times out of ten..." Jiang Yi sighed heavily, neither happy nor sad in his tone.

"Then are you going to find him?"

"No, I've thought about it for a long time. In fact, the current state is not bad. I don't want to make everything so clear. After all, what can I do if I figure it out? And I don't want any changes in my family. Just now In this way, live your life slowly.”

"You know? I seem to be able to understand my mother's thoughts more and more." Liu Minhui blinked slowly.

"I'm not your mother." Jiang Yizhong said with a smile.

Then there was a moment of silence, Liu Minhui looked into Jiang Yizhong's eyes, and suddenly hugged him, it was a warm hug without sex, and the other party hugged him back after a moment of surprise, the two of them were so quiet Hugging each other, listening to each other's rhythmic heartbeat, the hearts of both of them are extremely stable at this moment, no longer worrying about gains and losses, no longer thinking about the past, no longer entangled, no longer resentful... just feeling the warmth of the other's body , fell into this warmth.

"Go abroad with me." Liu Minhui said in Jiang Yizhong's ear.

Jiang Yizhong's heart skipped a beat. It's not that he didn't think Liu Minhui would say that just now, but he is actually a pessimistic person. Compared with always thinking of the good in every situation, what he often does is always think of the bad when things happen— — After all, I have already prepared for the worst, no matter what the final real result is, it doesn't matter, any result can't be worse than the worst plan, right?In this case, even if the final result is as bad as I expected, at the very least, I won't feel so uncomfortable in my heart. At least I already have my expectations in my heart, but I just accept it calmly.But the current state is another, that is, other results, better than the psychologically expected results.

But Jiang Yizhong pushed the other party away and said: "Liu Minhui, I can't go with you." Ever since the two of them got together, Jiang Yizhong seldom called Liu Minhui by his full name directly, and he usually called him "Liu Minhui" when he was in a company. "President Liu", although Liu Minhui was not happy, but he couldn't hold back Jiang Yizhong, so he had no choice but to follow him.But Liu Minhui likes to call Jiang Yizhong "Old Jiang", not because he thinks that Jiang Yizhong is really old, but when he calls Jiang Yizhong that way, it seems like he can see that two people can still be together when they are old.Later, it seemed that more and more people followed Liu Minhui and called Jiang Yizhong "Old Jiang". Liu Minhui was a little annoyed. , That's it, it sounds smooth, but it's really not easy to change it.

"Why?" Liu Minhui seemed unable to understand Jiang Yizhong's straightforward refusal, "Do you want to stop thinking about it?"

"I've thought about it. I won't go with you." Jiang Yi laughed again. He looked at Liu Minhui's stunned expression, as if he could see the bottom of his heart. He seemed to be able to feel Liu Minhui's unwillingness and unwillingness. Solution, not happy.

"I just told you that you don't have time to think about it. How about this, I'll give you a week, and you can think about it later." Liu Minhui avoided Jiang Yizhong's sight as if fleeing.

"What if I said, what you said, I thought about it a long time ago?"

"..."

"You always feel that I never think about being with you, and you are afraid that I will leave you. But you never think that I am the one who is afraid, that I am the one who feels insecure. You It gave me too many things, making me feel in a trance without a sense of reality. Sometimes I feel that everything I have now is just a mirror image, and maybe one day it will turn into a cloud of smoke and disappear. At that time, I What should I do? Can I bear such a gap? Compared with never getting it, it is more painful to get it and then lose it..."

Hearing this, Liu Minhui hurriedly interrupted him and said, "I can find a way to transfer all these things to your name..."

Jiang Yizhong shook his head and said with a smile: "It's not like that. I don't mean those things, but this feeling of being liked and loved, which makes me feel that I am also a very important person."

Hearing this, Liu Minhui hugged Jiang Yizhong again, not knowing what to say, Jiang Yizhong's words really made him feel distressed.Recalling that when we first met, he just felt that Jiang Yizhong's appearance, body, personality and personality were not good, and he was the type he liked. However, with the deepening of these years of communication, he felt that Jiang Yizhong was a person who really made him feel distressed. He himself always feels that he is not such a powerful person, but even so, he still wants to protect this person well, and do as much as he can for him, so that the other person can always be in his not-so-abundant wings. To find a safe place.

"So, it's not that I haven't thought about going abroad. After all, the domestic environment is still not open and inclusive enough. Just like now, even if some people say that they don't look at people with colored glasses, once they come out of the closet, they will It's not a question of whether others wear colored glasses, but that you yourself seem to be shrouded in a multicolored chaos. When others look at you, it's like looking at a bright banner, instead of you as a person. Before I saw a news that a teacher was expelled from the school after coming out of the closet, because the parents of the students were afraid of teaching bad children... I felt very sad at that time, those scumbags who molested students could hide in the school for so many years, even if they What about people with so-called 'normal sexual orientation'? Why do you judge a person's character and ability based on the difference in sexual orientation?" Jiang Yizhong was a little excited when he said it, and he found it himself, so he slowed down Tone, continued, "But, the two of us are in such a place now. I dare not tell others, my family members, or my friends. The two of us are like two mice, sneaking around Together, I was worried, and I didn't dare to ask for more... I wondered if it would be better after going abroad, and would it be possible to get the so-called Happy Ending like those who went abroad to get the certificate?"

"We can." Liu Minhui couldn't help but said again.

"But I'm afraid." Jiang Yizhong said in a low voice.

The room fell silent again.

After an unknown amount of time, Liu Minhui suddenly stood up and began to put on his clothes.

Jiang Yizhong lay down under the quilt, and buried himself in the white duvet, head and feet.He curled himself into a ball under the quilt, listening to the voices outside the quilt, he heard Liu Minhui put on his clothes in a rustle, buttoned the metal buttons of his belt, picked up all kinds of small things scattered on the table, and There was the hiss of zipping a handbag.At last he heard the slam of the door shut.

Finally left, Jiang Yizhong felt so stuffy, he must be covered in the quilt, but he didn't have the courage to get out of the quilt, he didn't dare to look at this empty room, it would make him feel empty in his heart - but now, He also felt empty inside.I don't know why, but he was the one who slashed that person fiercely, and then pushed him lightly, pushing him to the bottom of the abyss, but at this moment, it seemed that he was the one who was abandoned by the gouging out, a kind of unbearable feeling. Yan Yu's heartache spread in his chest, and the bits and pieces of the past with Liu Minhui began to surge up like bubbles at the bottom of the water, and they couldn't be stopped.

"Woo..." Jiang Yizhong finally cried while hugging himself in the quilt. He suppressed his crying, and the sobbing vibrated between his throat and head cavity, making him feel dizzy and even more unable to control his emotions. Emotionally, he cried more and more, and his body kept shaking.It's finally over. He really didn't expect this relationship to be like this. Today, not long after the Lunar New Year, after the two of them confide in each other the most unbearable things in their hearts, the things they don't want people to know or see , after he was finally able to tell his heart, after the other party made a beautiful plan for the future of the two of them... It seemed that the two of them could last forever in the first second, but they were strangers in the second.