Thousand Willows

Jiang Yi came back to his senses, wiped away his tears, and switched the phone interface to the New Year's congratulatory message sent by Liu Minhui.The simple four words, as if through these four words, you can see the other party's stern face and a hot heart under the stern appearance.He knew that Liu Minhui's message was definitely not a mass blessing, and he could even imagine how Liu Minhui repeatedly entered and deleted in the dialog box, and finally only typed these four words.I don't know why, but Jiang Yizhong felt that these four words pulled him back from the abyss of memories, and those good memories are like sweetened sex with honey, sweet and intoxicating but poisonous.

Jiang Yizhong, who came back to his senses, felt a little guilty. Since the last time he escaped, the two of them hadn't been in touch. Although the time didn't seem too long, it gave him a strange feeling, like the two of them There was no so-called "ceremony" when individuals were together, so if they separated, they didn't need to say anything. If they didn't contact, they would separate naturally.The two of them haven't contacted each other these few days, and Jiang Yizhong's mood is even more complicated. A certain area in his heart keeps shouting "you broke up", "you finally broke up", "you should have broken up a long time ago"!Every night before going to sleep, he always harbors a strange expectation. He not only hopes that the other party will not contact him, but also hopes that the other party will not give up on him so casually.

"Happy New Year!" Jiang Yizhong replied.After that, he lay down on the bed, looked at the photo, and clicked delete, but when the interface popped up asking if he was sure, he hesitated again.Just when he was hesitating, Liu Minhui sent another message: "When are you free these few days?"

Jiang Yizhong's chest seemed to be hit by a ball of cotton, and somewhere in his body seemed to be heating up, as if he was excited about this invitation.He also noticed this change himself, and suddenly felt embarrassed. Although he was the only one in the room at this time, it was as if someone had caught a glimpse of the desire he was trying to hide. Feel a little embarrassed.

Seeing that Jiang Yizhong didn't reply for a long time, the other party got impatient and sent another message: "How about it, I'll find you in the third year of junior high school."

Did you come to break up face to face?Such thoughts popped up suddenly, and Jiang Yizhong was blocked in his heart for a while.

However, in the third year of junior high school, when Liu Minhui appeared in front of Jiang Yizhong dressed in a snowstorm, the two just looked at each other and smiled.

"Where do I live?"

"A hotel."

"But I want to live in your house."

"No, let's go to a hotel."

"Then you have to accompany me, or I will live in your house."

"it is good……"

When they arrived in the room, the two hugged each other deeply as if they had a heart-to-heart connection, and then they kissed each other long and long, all the way to the bed, as if they were both venting out the complicated emotions in their hearts, and they did it very intensely.

Afterwards, the two lay naked on the bed, looking at the color of the ceiling.

"I want to tell you something." Liu Minhui said.

Jiang Yizhong's heart skipped a beat, as if a burst of electric current had passed through his brain, he buzzed, his face became a little ugly.

Liu Minhui didn't seem to notice Jiang Yizhong's expression, and said, "I plan to go abroad for a while, and I haven't told anyone about it yet."

"Going abroad?" Jiang Yizhong asked suspiciously, he thought to himself, is this an implicit expression of breaking up?

"Yes, I've been thinking about it for the past few days. I've decided to go abroad for further study and see the outside world by the way."

"Then why didn't you go abroad when you were in college, and you can go abroad as a graduate student later, but you..." Jiang Yizhong suspected that Liu Minhui was just making an excuse, and for him at this time, clumsy excuses are not as good as frank words.

Liu Minhui turned sideways to look at Jiang Yizhong, and said, "Because I was actually afraid to delay making this decision until now."

"Fear?"

"Yeah, I'm just scared."

"What are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid of everything I'm not familiar with, afraid of challenges, afraid of unknown twists and turns and setbacks..." Liu Minhui said, his emotions seemed to become agitated, "I didn't have good grades, and my mother said that I could be sent to study abroad, but I When I thought about my English level, I was discouraged. Later, I also planned to take the postgraduate entrance examination. I planned to go to the graduate school for a few more years to avoid my mother’s expectations. I was hit hard, I tried to find a job, I wanted to get out of my mother's control, but... However, I found out that after leaving that family, I was a worthless guy with no solid education and no special expertise , I don’t even have the courage, interviews and rejections again and again, I can’t enter those glamorous companies, and I can’t look down on those companies that I can enter, so I just pass by It's been a long time. In the end, I returned to my mother in despair, and used my reincarnated identity to hang around in the company. I knew in my heart that I was my mother's only son, and she would naturally give me the best , and no matter what I do, people in the company will be polite to me and even flatter me. This feeling is much more comfortable than when I was looking for a job outside. I can't refuse, and I will only sink again and again ... I often regret a lot of things, but there is no way to redeem them, and I feel sad, but there is no one to talk about."

Seeing Liu Minhui's eyes twinkle, Jiang Yizhong raised his hand to help him wipe away his tears.

"I didn't even have the courage to tell you this before, I was afraid that you would feel disgusted knowing that I am such a person..." Liu Minhui stared into Jiang Yizhong's eyes and said, "But I think I still have to let you see my real appearance , not a liar in a disguise."

Jiang Yizhong was a little puzzled. He didn't understand why Liu Minhui said such things. In fact, no matter in his heart or in the eyes of others, Liu Minhui was indeed an excellent person. Even if he didn't rely on the blessing of his family, he could still Make a career out of yourself.Even though he said that he is afraid of challenges and the unknown, in fact, when he faces life and work, his aggressiveness is real.

"You just underestimate yourself too much." Jiang Yizhong said, "In the eyes of ordinary people like us, you have done a good job. Although you say you are not brave enough, what you have done is already brave enough. Just look at it yourself No, no feeling. If you are as bad as you say, how do you have everything you have?"

"You don't need to comfort me, I still know how much I have by myself." Liu Minhui was a little frustrated.

Looking at Liu Minhui like this, Jiang Yizhong actually felt a strange feeling towards him in his heart, as if he saw a wounded animal, he seemed to have a little pity, and he asked: "What's wrong with you? "

"I just want you to know that I am such a useless person, peel off those disguised skins, let you see clearly, and don't want to lie to you again."

Jiang Yizhong began to feel cold again. To him, this sentence was just a tactful way to tell himself that Liu Minhui didn't want to lie to him anymore, and didn't want to be with him anymore.

"Well, I see..." Jiang Yizhong closed his eyes and replied softly.

"Actually, there is one more thing I really want to tell you, but I'm afraid that you will look down on me even more..." Liu Minhui slid his gaze over Jiang Yizhong's face inch by inch. He looked at the full forehead, delicate eyebrows, and under the glasses. With the long and curved eyelashes, the straight bridge of the nose, the shallow lips, the slender chin, and the smooth mandible, Liu Minhui felt that this was a person he would never tire of seeing, no matter how he looked at him, he couldn't get enough of it, but I don't know what kind of fate has played tricks on the relationship between the two, but they get together less and leave more.

Jiang Yizhong closed his eyes and said, "Just tell me, I'll listen to you." He was already prepared in his heart, no matter what Liu Minhui said, he didn't intend to be too excited, he said to himself, since he already knew that this day would always be It will come, but it's just a matter of time, so I just need to accept it, as for the future things, I can think about it later, I can't move my mind now.

"I seem to have found my father..." Liu Minhui's voice was full of uncertainty and affirmation.

"What? What did you say?" Jiang Yizhong sat up from the bed all of a sudden. He didn't wait for the answer he expected, but he was stunned when he heard such a heavy news.

"Don't get excited, listen to me." Liu Minhui briefly explained how he accidentally found his father, but still deliberately omitted the role played by his mother Qin Zhenzhu.After talking about it, Liu Minhui smiled wryly, cast a look at Jiang Yizhong, and said, "So I'm a born gay, but it's genetic...isn't it ridiculous?"

Jiang Yizhong's focus was on the first half, and he asked, "Did you go to him later?"

"It's because of this that I feel that I have done something wrong." Liu Minhui frowned, "My mother doesn't want my father to come back. Seeing what she means, it seems that my father is no longer in this world. .”

Jiang Yizhong listened, and remained silent. He also had his own concerns in his heart.

"By the time I went to look for it, the person had already left." Liu Minhui sighed, "If I, if I had gone earlier, maybe..."

"I don't know if I should comfort you, and I don't know how to comfort you...I'm sorry...I..." Jiang Yizhong only felt very blocked in his heart. He felt that Liu Minhui didn't seem to intend to give up on himself, but at this moment, his heart was full of pain. There were other things, which were immediately hooked by Liu Minhui's words.

"I didn't come to seek comfort from you. I just wanted to see you. It would be nice to talk to you face to face." Liu Minhui smiled, "I just want to tell you the things that are deep in my heart so that you can know me. .”

"Then I also have something, can I tell you?" Jiang Yizhong looked at Liu Minhui's sincere expression and his trusting words, and suddenly felt that he could also try to trust him.

"Huh?" As if he didn't expect Jiang Yizhong to say such a thing, Liu Minhui also sat up and looked at the other party with eyes full of emotion, "This seems to be the first time you are willing to take the initiative to tell me about you."

Seeing Jiang Yizhong like this, he actually felt a little guilty, and retreated in his heart.

"Speak, I will be your audience and tree hole."

Jiang Yizhong thought for a while, and then he opened his mouth and said, "Actually, my business is also related to my father. To a certain extent, I am very similar to you, and I seem to have found my own father..."

"Your father, isn't he..." Liu Minhui was stunned, he remembered that Jiang Yizhong's father had passed away several years ago.

"I seem to have found my real father."