accidentally lost love

14 years have passed, and Chen Haonan has become a sunny, handsome, tall and well-proportioned sunny boy.His fair skin is firm and delicate, even after long-term martial arts practice, it does not affect the smoothness of his skin in the slightest.The perfect oval face draws a gentle arc, and there is no lack of courage and fortitude in the softness.

A pair of charming and sexy double eyelids flicker from time to time, and the long eyelashes swing up and down, as if conveying a wordless message.The thin lips always maintain a slightly upturned appearance. When she smiles, the two shallow dimples are very dazzling and charming.

Yes, Chen Haonan likes to laugh very much, not the kind of perfunctory smile out of politeness, but the kind of sincere and dazzling smile from the heart.

Laughing seems to have become a habit of Chen Haonan, an indispensable flavoring agent in life.Laughter has been deeply engraved in Chen Haonan's heart until it penetrates into the bone marrow.

No matter who it is, the first time they see Chen Haonan, they will automatically classify him as cheerful, unrestrained and optimistic, and approachable.And the fact is indeed the case, he is such a natural optimist.

Chen Haonan's smile seemed to have unfathomable magic power.No matter who it is, when you are in a bad mood or irritated, you only need to take a look at Chen Haonan's charming and sunny smile, and the rain will clear up immediately, and your mood will open up.

Yes, there are still such sincere and warm smiles in this world, what else is there to overcome!

But, he is such a person who likes to laugh, but at this moment, his face is not in line with his nature, hurt, desperate, and grief-stricken.

Chen Haonan kept going forward, kept going, he didn't know where he was going to go, he only knew that he had to go on like this, and he absolutely couldn't stop.He was afraid, afraid that if he stopped, he would no longer be able to control himself.

Chen Haonan is not a person who is used to disguising himself. When he is happy, he will laugh heartily, and when he is angry, he will go into a rage. All his joys, sorrows, sorrows, and joys have always been used to express on his face.It's not that he doesn't know how to pretend, but that he doesn't bother to put on a false mask for himself.

Only when facing Li Zicheng, Chen Haonan had to maintain a high level of vigilance at all times, hiding his feelings, pretending not to care, for fear that if Li Zicheng accidentally discovered his impure feelings for him, he would leave him.

Only Chen Haonan knew that when he smiled at Li Zicheng, his heart was crying with pain.

Since they can't be together, he must at least show his best side to the one he loves.He didn't want Li Zicheng to see his bloody wound, his helpless and embarrassing mess.

Warm liquid ran down his cheeks, and Chen Haonan subconsciously reached out to touch it, only to realize that he had already burst into tears.

It turned out that the heart was hurt, and what flowed out was not blood, but tears.

The person Chen Haonan fell in love with didn't love him. Although he had already been mentally prepared, when he actually faced it, he really didn't know how to describe the mood at that moment. He could only let the tears slide down his cheeks .

Chen Haonan is not a person who can shed tears, he has always believed that shedding tears is the behavior of the weak, and a person will only shed tears when there is nothing he can do.But this time, he found that it was not the case, the man did not flick his tears easily, but he did not reach the point of sadness.

Li Zicheng didn't love him, he really didn't!Despite the heartache, despite the sadness, even though life is worse than death, Chen Haonan must admit that the person he loves really doesn't love him.

Chen Haonan knew that there was only sadness in his heart, and that kind of sadness made Chen Haonan suffocate.He also knew that his tears were flowing, not because Chen Haonan wanted to cry, but because Chen Haonan couldn't control himself.

It's like, it's not that Chen Haonan wants to love Li Zicheng, but that Chen Haonan can't control his feelings, he can't control his heart.

Chen Haonan loves Li Zicheng. From the first time he stepped into the campus and saw Li Zicheng for the first time, he fell in love with him hopelessly and unable to extricate himself.

Chen Haonan was deeply fascinated by that cold, rebellious, and arrogant temperament with a little bit of cold air.When he passed by Li Zicheng for the first time, Li Zicheng gave him that heart-thumping feeling. Until now, when Chen Haonan recalled it, it was still so real and clear.

Before Chen Haonan knew Li Zicheng's name and everything about him, Chen Haonan was already hopelessly in love with this person who haunted him and tortured him so much.

For some reason, he always clearly remembered what the injured and embarrassed little boy he accidentally rescued said to him when he was four years old - in fact, it's normal for men to be together!

Although he has already forgotten that boy's stable and handsome appearance, the childish and serious voice of that little boy, the scene of their brief night together, and even the unwavering and extremely important person to the little boy agreement.But for some reason, he could only clearly remember the words the little boy said.

A four-year-old boy is at an age where he is easily influenced and forms his thinking.It was that unintentional sentence that changed Chen Haonan's fate.From the young Chen Haonan's point of view, that little boy was like a special envoy sent by God for him and Li Zicheng, who came down from the sky to draw a red line for his emotional entanglement with Li Zicheng.

Therefore, when Chen Haonan found that he couldn't help but want to get close to Li Zicheng, and couldn't help but want to get his attention, Chen Haonan not only didn't feel helpless, panicky, and afraid of confusion like other people, but he accepted it very calmly. fact.

That little boy was the culprit for changing his sexual orientation. Chen Haonan didn't know whether he should resent him for torturing him, or be grateful to him for letting him and Li Zicheng get closer.

As time went by and his thinking gradually matured, when Chen Haonan understood that he was a man, and Li Zicheng was also a man, and it was abnormal for him to love Li Zicheng, he realized that he had already been deeply trapped in it, unable to extricate himself.Even though he later found out that Li Zicheng already had someone he liked, Chen Haonan still couldn't control his emotions.

Sometimes, falling in love with someone is just a momentary feeling, and when the feeling comes, you can't stop it.That pounding heartbeat, that feeling of being out of control, that feeling of desperately wanting to get closer, is something that I can't control in my hands.

Maybe, all because of too much love,

Perhaps, one glance is enough.

Before Chen Haonan was ready, when he didn't know what love was, when everything was unknown, Chen Haonan fell in love with Li Zicheng so hopelessly, without warning or reason.

It's so easy to fall in love with someone, so forget someone, can you just sleep on it and forget it after a while? !

In fact, Chen Haonan understands that this is just his own wishful thinking and self-righteous thinking. He has loved Li Zicheng for too long and invested too much energy. This emotion has already penetrated into the bone marrow.If love can really be controlled by oneself at will, you can take it when you want it, and kick it away when you don’t want it, then there will be no so-called love in this world!

He still clearly remembers all the scenes of their encounter, acquaintance, and acquaintance.

At that time, Chen Haonan was the treasure of his parents and the king of the family.Everyone, no matter male, female, old, young, familiar or unfamiliar, they all look like they can't put it down when they see him. I'm afraid it will be broken in the hand, it's a baby.Only Li Zicheng, who has always been defiant, arrogant and cold.

Chen Haonan has excellent grades, his skills are overwhelming, and he is the best among his peers in all aspects.Ever since he was a child, he was competitive and liked to be praised. Ever since he met Li Zicheng, he has been robbed of the top spot surrounded by the halo of glory.

A person with such strong self-esteem actually tolerated Li Zicheng's transcendence, all because he loved him.

Love blindfolds a person's eyes.

Love makes a person change himself.

In Chen Haonan's view, Li Zicheng was chosen by him, and he could tolerate Li Zicheng being stronger than himself and tolerate his arrogance.But, the person he loves has never looked him in the eye, this is something Chen Haonan can't tolerate.He was originally a little boy who was spoiled, and he was able to tolerate Li Zicheng's transcendence, and tolerate Li Zicheng's bad temper, which is already very remarkable, but now he is so ignored, this is something he can't accept no matter what.

There is only one person in my eyes, but I have never seen myself in this person's eyes, let alone Chen Haonan, I'm afraid it would be unbearable for anyone.

So, Chen Haonan began to trouble him unreasonably, and fought with him every now and then.When fighting with others, it is always him who is the only one to beat others, but when he fights with Li Zicheng, he is the only one who gets beaten.

Although Chen Haonan was beaten up every time, his nose was bruised and his face was swollen, and he was in a state of embarrassment, but he still enjoyed it, because only when Chen Haonan troubled Li Zicheng, Li Zicheng had himself in his eyes, and only himself.

When Li Zicheng beat himself so hard that he couldn't get up on the ground, and with that bruised but still expressionless pretty face, he glanced at him indifferently and disdainfully, and then left without looking back. , Chen Haonan would think such Li Zicheng is cool, handsome and attractive.

Thinking about it now, Chen Haonan wanted to scold him for being cheap, he was obviously not abused, but being abused by Li Zicheng was in a good mood, very happy.Sometimes Chen Haonan felt that he was a little abnormal and mentally abnormal at that time.