I live longer than the incomparable

Young children run through the empty streets.

On that cold moonlit night, 12-year-old Atsushi Nakajima and 12-year-old Tong Mo escaped from the orphanage.

Although Tong Mo has been a very smart child since he was a child, his life experience is actually not rich. In the past 12 years, he has only lived in two places——

In blissful temples and orphanages.

Although the life in these two places is actually very special compared to ordinary children, especially the bliss religion at the beginning, although it was brought in by his parents, that place was under the influence of his parents. After the death, when the city police went to investigate, they found that the Bliss Cult was actually a cult.

Looking at it from such a premise, it seems understandable why Tong Mo's parents enshrined their child as a "Son of God" just because their child had white oak hair and colored eyes.

Everyone there is abnormal.

But for Tongmo, the two places are actually pretty much the same.

No one will beat or scold him, and no one will let him starve or freeze. He is born different from others - unable to feel the feelings of ordinary human beings, so naturally he cannot experience feelings like Atsushi Nakajima... because he is not loved by others. Loved ones, so the doubts about oneself arise.

But he saw Atsushi Nakajima who became a "white tiger" under the moonlight, and he has seen it many times.

Since he came to the orphanage, he has heard some weird rumors that some beasts will break into the orphanage at night, so when it is time to go to bed, all the children will be forbidden to leave the room.

But Tong Mo violated that rule, he ran out secretly at night, and then saw a huge tiger's child that transformed into a white tiger.

Tong Mo, who has always firmly believed that there are no gods, Buddhas and bliss in this world, suddenly began to doubt his own judgment.

Ordinary humans can't turn into tigers no matter what, right?

The boy named "Atsushi Nakajima" made him see a world he had never seen before.

He'd been watching him ever since, seeing him alone in the corner, and seeing him locked up in the basement covered in bruises.

Tong Mo wanted to talk to him, wanted to ask him why, and wanted to find traces of the real existence of gods from him.

So he ran away with Atsushi Nakajima, escaped from the painful "hell" in Atsushi Nakajima's eyes, and then... stepped into another hell.

It is a place called "ghetto" where even humanity is lost.

——*——

Babaichuni came to the shop he introduced to her together with the real estate agent.

The real estate agent took out the key from the briefcase, opened the door of the shop and introduced the details of the shop to her.

"The house was only built two years ago. The previous owner opened a bar, but because of poor management, there have been no customers. After too much loss, he had to sell it."

The real estate agent said: "But you see, the owner spent a lot of money on these decorations at the beginning. I remember that you haven't decided what kind of shop you want to open. If you continue to operate the bar, you can actually save a lot of money." A renovation fee..."

While listening to him, Bhikkhuni Bhabhikuni observed the structure of the house by himself, but when he mentioned that the cost of decoration could be saved, Bhikkhuni Bhikkhuni said: "Forget about the bar."

Although she often goes out drinking with friends, she has no idea of ​​running a bar.

"Then what store do you plan to open?" the real estate agent asked her.

"This..." Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni thought for a moment, then turned to him and said, "Let's go to the bakery."

——*——

"So you just bought this place?"

The young man with red plum eyes stood in front of Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni, his brows were tightly frowned, and his voice was a little helpless: "Do you know where this is?"

"Where?" Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni asked back.

Oni Wu Tsuji showed such an expression as expected, and said to Yabaichuni: "One street away is the most chaotic slum in Yokohama."

In fact, Babaichuni should have been able to sense it when she came here. The atmosphere here seems to be different from those places where she opened shops in the past.

But, "so what?"

There is a slum nearby, so what does it have to do with her opening her shop here?

Guiwu Tsuji Wucan didn't know what to say to her.

He often didn't understand what Bhikkhuni was thinking, and naturally he didn't understand what the unexpected actions she made from time to time meant.

But over time, Ghost Dance Tsuji Wumi has actually summed up his experience. When he doesn't understand, he can just ask.

——Bhikkuni Yabai will not be bored by always having to explain to him, and it can even be said that she actually likes Guiwu Tsuji to ask herself.

Necessary explanation is one of the important ways to help enhance mutual feelings.

If you bury everything in your heart, even if you don't tell the closest people around you, that is the real sadness.

"It's dangerous to open a store in this kind of place, and the business will be very bad..." Guiwu Tsuji Wuchan raised his doubts about why she didn't understand why she wanted to buy this place, and added at the end: "Why didn't you ask me in advance?"

Eight hundred bhikkhuni said sincerely: "Because I forgot."

Oni Wu Tsuji had a headache.

Probably seeing his helplessness, Babaichuni comforted him: "At least the prices of the shops here are very cheap, and the real estate agency also helped me contact the decoration workers, so I can start work tomorrow."

And this also means that if you go back on your word at this time, there will be a lot more trouble for nothing.

"Think about a better place," Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni comforted him, "At least it saves some money to buy a storefront."

Oni Wu Tsuji Wu Mi wanted to ask her, do I look like a ghost who needs to save this little money?

The optimism of Bhikkhuni Yabai gave Kiwu Tsuji no reason to refute, not to mention that the person who opened the shop was Bhikkhuni Yabai, and the reason for opening the shop, according to her, was actually just to pass the time.

But Gui Wu Tsuji said sadly that you were not like this before. When you shop around all day, you don’t feel that you need to open a store to pass the time.

"Because it's boring to stay at home alone," Babaichuni said naturally, "and we don't have children, so there is no need to be housewives now."

Hearing this, Onimai Tsuji's face changed slightly, and he looked away from her as if he was at a loss.

Although there were some unpleasant episodes at the beginning, Yabaichuni's bakery still opened. Even though she specially organized activities such as free tasting on the opening day, there were still not many customers in the bakery.

At this time, the importance of geographical location is clearly displayed.

Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi originally wanted to ridicule her a few words, telling her not to do such meaningless things, but seeing the sigh of Eight Hundred Bhikuni, he kept his mouth shut.

Not only that, after the sun went down, Ghost Mai Tsuji also ran around to find a group of children, and gave them some money to go to the bakery to buy things.

The white-oak-haired boy was about fourteen or fifteen years old. Although he lived in a poor area, he didn't have the slightest look on his expression that should belong to this kind of place.

On his face was a smile that subconsciously disgusted Onimai Tsuji, as if he was really carefree.

"Thank you, sir." Tong Mo said to him: "But if it's possible... can you give me a little more, although I know that such a request is rude, but my companions..."

Before he could finish speaking, Ghost Mai Tsuji took out a few more banknotes from his wallet and handed them to him—even though his face was not very good from the beginning to the end.

Among all the original tops, Oni Wu Tsuji Mumi especially hated the second top.

It is clear that Tong Mo's power has always been very strong, and he will hardly disobey his orders, but...he just hates this ghost very much, and he doesn't need any reason.

Even if he is now a human.

When seeing Tong Mo, Babai Bhikuni was actually very surprised.

The boy with iridescent eyes stood in front of her, and when he told her that he wanted to buy bread, Bhikkhuni was stunned for a moment.

It was probably because her gaze became a little obvious, Tong Mo smiled and said to her: "You seem to be looking at me all the time."

"Is that so?" Eight Hundred Bhikkuni shifted his gaze, and then said to him, "It's just a little accident, I thought there would be no guests at this time."

"That's right," Tong Mo echoed, "After all, the location here is a bit special... You know, it's not very safe nearby, so I find it very strange that someone like you would come to this kind of place to open a shop." .”

Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni really wanted to talk to him a few more words, but she didn't know what to say, so she packed the bread he asked for one by one, and handed it to him.

"Thank you."

When he was about to leave, Tong Mo had actually turned around, but as if by a strange coincidence, he turned around again, and suddenly said to Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni: "What is your name?"

Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni was slightly taken aback.

She saw the boy with white oak hair holding a pile of bread in his arms, his rainbow-colored eyes were full of smiles, and he said, "I always have a feeling as if I've seen you somewhere."

Tong Mo stared at her face, and when he saw the woman in front of him also laughed, she said softly, "Maybe I've seen it in my previous life..."

Such an answer made Tong Mo blink his eyes, and his face showed a somewhat innocent look: "Do you believe in reincarnation?"

"I didn't believe it at first," said Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni, "but now I believe it. Because I also feel that we really...have met each other a long time ago."

——*——

Tong Mo ran very fast.

The pile of bread in his arms is undoubtedly a huge wealth for the people in the slums, but any adult who sees it may be robbed by the other party.

He deftly walked through those alleys and arrived at his destination.

It is a house that has not been completely abandoned. After being found by them, it has been sorted out a little, and it has become their living place.

Although Tong Mo told Onimai Tsuji that he had companions at that time, in fact, Tong Mo's companions were only Atsushi Nakajima.

At that time, he was well-dressed and generous, and he looked like a rich man who was easy to deceive. He probably didn't care about the "small money" for him, so he lied and wanted Get more from him.

Atsushi Nakajima saw that he brought back so much bread, and he didn't want to pick it up from the trash can. His first reaction was to wonder where his food came from.

"Tong Mo, you don't know..." Go and rob.

Although he didn't fully say such words, Tong Mo could already see his doubts.

"It was given by someone else~" Tong Mo said with a smile, "So don't worry."

When they first escaped from the orphanage, Tong Mo and Atsushi Nakajima went through a difficult time.

None of them had the experience of living outside alone, and they escaped for that reason, so they couldn't go to the police for help. So at that time, they could only wander on the streets, and were even patrolled by the city police. catch up.

Compared with orphanages, slums are actually more difficult places to live.

There is no shortage of children like them in such a place, and there are even younger ones.

When a person can't even guarantee his own life, it is naturally impossible to care about others.The ghetto is exactly this kind of place... an extremely miserable "hell" where even humanity has been obliterated.

On a cold and hungry night, when Tong Mo and Atsushi Nakajima huddled in a corner they had finally found, leaning against each other and hanging their heads on each other's shoulders, Tong Mo once asked Atsushi Nakajima: "Do you think this place is more like 'Hell,' or is it more like an orphanage?"

Atsushi Nakajima was silent for a long time, and then said: "I... think this is... better."

Although such a big idea is really selfish, what Atsushi Nakajima has to say is that he feels that life today is actually better than life in an orphanage.

He couldn't tell the specific reason, but he just felt... breathing the air outside was like gaining "freedom".

Even for Atsushi Nakajima, he doesn't really know what "freedom" is.

He just felt that he escaped from the place that oppressed him all the time.

For Atsushi Nakajima, compared with the physical torture, the mental pain made him almost collapse.

What's more, he is not alone now - because Tong Mo escaped from the orphanage with him.

He thought that an existence like Tong Mo could actually lead a truly "happy" life, but because of a person like him, he made himself suffer so much.

Tong Mo is like a god and Buddha who is truly compassionate, because he pities existences like Atsushi Nakajima, so he will step into this "hell" with him.

If the gods really existed, if the gods would really give mankind salvation, then... probably it would be like this now.

——*——

"Is this what has been bothering you all this time?"

Atsushi Nakajima and Bhikkhuni Babai were sitting on the balcony, the moonlight shone brightly on their hair, and Bhikkhuni Babai's eyes fell on his lowered face.

Sitting in front of her was the former Atsushi Nakajima.

Four years ago, when she opened a bakery near the slums, she took in Tong Mo and Atsushi Nakajima, who were living in the slums at that time.

In fact, the eight hundred bhikkhuni realized it when he saw Atsushi Nakajima——from this child, there was a sound of mourning all the time.

This is not to say that he is really crying, but it can be seen from his every move and every subtle expression - this child is experiencing pain that cannot be described in words.

And the best evidence of this is his ever-careful behavior.

As for Tong Mo, life in the slums and the orphanage did not bring anything that can be called a psychological shadow to Tong Mo, it just made him think differently from other ordinary humans, but this way of thinking is actually quite different. Can be corrected in daily life, just need...

Give him enough love.

Both Tong Mo and Atsushi Nakajima are actually clumsy children longing for love and happiness.

Human beings were not born in this world to endure suffering, and this world is not the "hell" that Tong Mo said.

The eight hundred bhikkhuni stared at Atsushi Nakajima, and she said, "I remembered when you first came here."

Atsushi Nakajima was slightly taken aback.

Babaichuni said: "At that time, even if you drank milk, you had to add three or four spoons of sugar to it, and at the beginning, after adding it, you had to watch our faces carefully, as if you were afraid that we would get angry. Same."

Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi naturally couldn't understand his appearance, but before he frowned, Eight Hundred Bhikkhuni stretched out his hand to press his face, and smiled at him.

Such a hint is really too obvious.

But Atsushi Nakajima didn't understand the reason, he just felt that the relationship between Miss Yabai and Mr. Onimai Tsuji was really enviable.

Although Yabaichuni adopted two children, she did not change their surnames, nor did she let them call her and Kimai Tsuji as father and mother.

At the age of 14, Atsushi Nakajima didn’t dare to ask anything, and he didn’t dare to let go to do anything. He was afraid of being hated by them, and also afraid of losing it. "s things.

But Atsushi Nakajima suddenly summoned up his courage, and he asked Eight Hundred Bhikkuni: "Why did you take us in back then?"

"This..." Eight Hundred Bikuni tilted his head and said to him, "Because of your eyes."

She laughed: "It's like crying, confused, but wanting to pursue something."

The expression on the face of Babaichuni was extremely gentle, "I was moved by that look, so I want to tell you that the meaning of human existence and the so-called salvation... never depend on others to give."

She knew what kind of existence Tongmo was, and she could naturally imagine what kind of influence Tongmo would have on Atsushi Nakajima. That's why Bhikkhuni Babai wanted to tell him.

"It is not to endure torture and suffering that human beings were born in this world."

The reason why human beings exist is to enjoy the beauty of this world, to love and be loved.

But for Atsushi Nakajima, there is a gap in his heart that can never be overcome.

He couldn't forgive himself, and he couldn't let himself enjoy the happiness that he had so hard to have now with peace of mind.

Because Nakajima Atsushi once made a huge mistake, and in his own opinion, such a mistake will never be forgiven.

"I..." Atsushi Nakajima let out a deep breath and said to her, "I made a big mistake once."