dust and ash

University

When I went to college, I seldom met each other, and almost became strangers.

Zhuo Minhao and I are separated in two places. I went to other places to study in university, and he stayed in his hometown.Later, I don’t know who told me that he became an internet writer and would share some emotional stories in his life online.In order to catch up with him, I also registered an account and started blogging.My writing is bad, I can't write anything good, and most of the time on the Internet is just to get closer to him.

Almost every one of his updates is about women, meeting, acquainting, and getting to know them.In a dark room, an ignorant teenager, telling endless stories about the past.He said, "Every relationship is hard to come by. I give [-]% of my sincerity to each of my women, but I always tell them that deep in my heart, there is an indispensable position, and that position belongs to someone who means a lot to me."Can I expect that person to be me?

I asked him about it a long time later, and he said, "Fool, who else is there?"

meet

We stuck together every day when we were young, but seeing each other is a luxury when we grow up.I can see him once or twice a year, and I bring my girlfriend with me every time.That time the four of us made an appointment for dinner, and finally I brought not my girlfriend, but my boyfriend Ji An.I told him that I was going to come out, but he didn't seem very happy and ran out.

I followed and hugged him from behind.

"What are you doing, it's not good to be seen," he shook off my hand.

"Even if it's a friend, what's wrong with hugging?"

"My girlfriend will misunderstand when she sees it, and so will your boyfriend."

Even though they are two people whose hearts are so close, even a hug is a luxury.

"I just want to hug you, can't I?"

"We are not children anymore, we have to know how to measure. Besides, after graduation, I plan to get married and have children. My parents are divorced, and my mother wants to have a grandson."

That's right, there is no hope in the first place, isn't it asking for trouble if you have too many extravagant hopes?

marry

That's not a problem, it's not a big deal, as long as he is doing well, we can see each other once in a while.

The four words "indispensable" he wrote supported me for many years.Whenever I think of it, the corners of my mouth can't help but rise slightly.

I couldn't help but miss it, and I often read the letters he wrote to me.Neither of us caught on to our past.I often think that if one of us had been braver and taken even one step, maybe we wouldn't be what we are today.

Before getting married, he told me that he burned all my photos and tokens, and his wife was jealous.Forget it, he can't burn me, right?As long as I am here, he will still want to see me.

I didn't go to his wedding, I'm afraid I can't help crying in front of so many people, I can't afford to lose this person.

The bride was the girl he hugged in the hotel that night, a year younger than him, and soon gave birth to a boy and a girl, and the happiest one must be his old mother.

I have seen his two children once and held them in my arms. They are very clever and resemble him very much.

At the age of 30, with such a happy family, should I be envious?

I decided to go abroad for a while to relax and came to Holland and found a job in Amsterdam.I often think of him and call once every six months. He said that he also misses me very much.

Some people don't necessarily have to be together if they like each other, they are probably talking about me and Zhuo Minhao.