pretending to be graceful

Hua Yong finally took his mobile phone and put on his shoes and went out. The two little girls next door were tired from playing for the past two days, and they were leaning on the bed looking through photos, nothing could go wrong.And Gu Shui said lightly that he was at the door, Hua Yong has nothing to worry about——

Although Hua Yong felt that even if Gu Shui lightly greeted him, he would still be able to run over.

Tsk, that's what it's called, and though I'm full of uncertainty, I'm still willing to indulge in this kind of pleasure.

After running downstairs, Hua Yong saw Gu Shuiqing was holding a paper bag with his back to him, but his standing posture was not relaxed.Yuzhen's pace is too slow, if you want to put it aside, Mr. Hua usually can't notice these details, but now he really wants to call himself a "detail emperor", thinking too much about any small place, it's really scary.

Gu Shuiqing probably heard the footsteps, turned around, raised his hand and lifted the bag, his smile was not bright, even a little dazed - but it was much more sincere than before.He finally didn't hesitate for a second before laughing.But he no longer has, and Mr. Hua began to be afraid.

what did I do?am i worth it

Most of Hua Yong's friends eat, drink and have fun together, and he has rarely seen Gu Shuiqing who is so calm and self-sufficient. He approached with a heart of appreciation, and actually did not ask for any response from the other party.Gu Shuiqing is like this now, which makes him feel terrified.

However, Mr. Hua thought about the conversation with Lu Anke just now, and he was relieved: there is no first time in anything, anyway, he is serious, and he has nothing to be sorry if the other party is serious, so it is very good.It's just this kind of subconscious cautiousness... Hua Yong tilted his head and blinked fiercely.Still have to change.

"What book did you find?" Young Master Hua took the bag from his hand and asked while holding the book.There are two copies.

"I took a copy of "Tao Te Ching", which is different from the one you didn't know that day. I don't understand it anyway. There is another copy of "Zhuangzi", which can be regarded as compensation for you...well, it can be counted as performance fees. I don't know about your mother. What do you like, this book is also from Taoism, it is similar to yours, so I brought it." Gu Shuiqing explained.

Hua Yong flipped through it twice and put it away: "Actually, I don't know what she likes. I feel dizzy when I look at her books and theories. She has published a lot of papers and showed them to me. She also disliked saying 'If you If you don’t understand it, just use it as a draft paper.” A while ago, you took me to country D to participate in some kind of seminar... It’s just teasing me, what am I going to do? But she likes it, so I just watch it for her Point." Hua Yong didn't think much about it when he took the book himself, he took it purely because he had heard of "Tao Te Ching" because he had a mediocre Chinese score.

Gu Shui smiled softly: "You two have a good relationship?"

Hua Yong observed his expression, saw nothing unusual, and then replied: "It's pretty good. She is a person with a lot of ideas, devoted to the study of Chinese culture, and has shown me such things since I was a child. But see me After I didn’t like it, and after knowing something, I was still not interested, so I resolutely gave up on me... So I have never been forced to learn something I don’t want to learn. She is very busy and often flies around, but I know she is very happy. Love me..." Hua Yong smiled a little embarrassedly, "Oh, the oriental thinking is at work, and I usually can't say that."

Gu Shui shook his head lightly, walked forward, and signaled Hua Yong to keep up: "It's okay if you can't say it, people who should feel it will not miss it, you are a smart person, obviously your mother is too. So you can get along easily and happily .”

The place where Huayong and the others live is not far from Jinyu Town, and Gu Shuiqing obviously wants to go in that direction.And he seemed to want to say something: "When I was six years old, I went back to Yuzhen from City B, and my memory only became clear from that time—I couldn't remember clearly when I was younger. .”

"My mother is a very strange person. She may not have the ability to 'lover' and will only live by herself. So it is really not a good decision to bring me by your side." While speaking, the two had already come together where they park.A few days passed, and there were still only two of them.

He pointed there and said: "The person who sent us parked the car there. The driver asked if he needed to take us there. My mother said no, because there was very little luggage. Then he turned around and asked me if I could go by myself. I Said yes. And we walked home. She walked a little ahead of me to give me directions, but didn't say anything to me."

Gu Shui lightly narrated what happened back then, without deep pain or doubts: "Actually, we haven't communicated much. She has her own life, and she doesn't want others to interfere, so she doesn't interfere with others. Even if this other person is Her son... I don’t really have a problem with this. Maybe I had it when I was a child, but I don’t remember it now. After all, I am forgetful. There are so many things, just take care of yourself, which is quite practical.”

"What's wrong with you?" Seeing Gu Shui lightly stopped, Hua Yong couldn't help asking.Gu Shuiqing is not talking, especially this matter, Gu Shuiqing has probably been thinking about it for many years.But why did you mention it suddenly, or with him whom you just met?

"I bumped into my sister when I was just going out and she asked me, 'What are you doing?'."

Gu Shuisi?Could it be her?And a younger sister?Also here?

"Then I told her I was going to meet a friend. And she looked at me with a surprised and relieved look like it was such an incredible thing - you see, she didn't think I would have friends at all .Why? Because I am too selfish, just like my mother, I lack the ability to get along with others, I lack empathy, and I am very forgetful. People are moved for a long time by something I do, but when they tell me, they find that I don’t feel it at all... ...probably so."

Gu Shuiqing seemed to analyze rationally, and looked at Hua Yong with a blank face, but in fact, he was ready to break the pot in his heart - he didn't want Hua Yong to know this at all, and he has always done a good job of whitewashing peace. , I don’t like looking for trouble, but why——

He thought of the question Gu Shuisi asked again after hearing his answer, to be exact, the one he asked again.But he still couldn't give an answer.She said, what is the life of a normal person like?

——Gu Shuiqing knew why she asked.Because Gu Shuiqing said that he had a "friend", Xiao Si thought that he was getting closer to a "normal person".But how did he get here as a normal person?Playing it with the abnormality he is good at?

Hua Yong said so much to him, it's too unfair for him to respond like this.

Gu Shuiqing does his own thing, but the basic principle is not to affect other people's lives.Hmm... Because it affects the lives of others, it is inevitable that retribution will not come to me.It's self-protection.

But now?He let Hua Yong trust him, but he himself?That's too much.

Gu Shuisi's unintentional words awakened him who was about to whitewash the peace.Xiao Si has this kind of expectation... Although it is difficult for her to turn back, she still hopes that he will be better.In Gu Shuiqing's life, there has never been such a gentle expectation.He doesn't want to disappoint.

Hua Yong stopped and did not follow him, his face was a little gloomy: "After you belittled yourself so much, what do you want to express?"

Gu Shuiqing's heart sank.But no surprises either.Indeed, for a person like him who doesn't care about others in his heart, he can do things with half the effort, so it's better to forget about making friends.Untrustworthy, unable to learn sympathy, listening to everything is like listening to stories.Who would like such a person.

His timing was good, at least he managed to stop the loss in time.

"I'm not what you imagine. I'm not gentle, not helpful, and not good at sharing. I think most of the crying and laughing are unnecessary, and many troubles can be ignored... All in all, it's completely different from what it looks like on the surface, very It's not easy to get along with." Gu Shuiqing still smiled lightly, his eyes would be slightly narrowed at this time, and thin smile lines appeared at the corners of his eyes - people often say that only a smile with laugh lines is not a fake smile.

But people who take fake smiles as a habit will not ignore this point.Obviously Gu Shuiqing is a master of it.

Hua Yong was a little annoyed——what did this man say? Is it possible that he still thinks that Mr. Hua is a big fool who only looks at people's appearance?But it's more of a poking heartache: How confident is this, that his performance is impeccable?It is because of something that he has encountered that he has such an evaluation of himself-he is an age who has not encountered anything.They are still young and should not define themselves at this time.

So Hua Yong put his shoulders on his shoulders and turned him around, smiled but said firmly, "Where did you get your confidence?"

Gu Shuiqing's smile couldn't hold on anymore.This inexplicable question actually gave him a bit of unexpected expectation. "ah?"

Hua Yong laughed now: "Oh, I said, are you stupid? Or do you think I'm stupid? I took the initiative to approach you because I thought you were interesting. The interesting reason is that you can control yourself to express yourself efficiently even though you are clearly in a bad mood. To complete the things you are facing, you obviously have a bad personality, but you have a good temper with my crazy cousin who has nothing to do with you, and even she likes you very much. Isn't this a very good ability?"

"Sometimes I am very emotional, and I am willing to go with my feelings, so I have encountered some troubles... When I was in high school, I knew that studying is important, but I couldn't let go of playing, watching, playing games, etc., resulting in constant grades. Unstable, in fact, I didn't perform at my best level in the end. After I went to college, I felt that the lectures were boring. Now I just took a year off to learn to work everywhere. Tsk, to put it bluntly, I just play around. Many people say I don’t do my job properly. That’s how I am, but I actually like people who have clear goals, are rational, and know what they are doing. Look, don’t you?”

"People who are too emotional are rarely able to maintain rationality. On the contrary, you can't expect him to have any feelings for a rational person-this kind of person is generally not human. You can't think about it, but the latter is obviously Wouldn't it be embarrassing for me to want to express the former's qualities?" Hua Yong was a bit unlike the person Gu Shuiqing knew at this moment.

Gu Shuiqing's expression was unpredictable for a long time, but the question he asked didn't seem to get the point: "How did you figure this out?"

However, because Hua Yong could answer the question "Because I'm smart", he got stuck in the eloquent talk just now, and changed the subject: "Actually, I seldom make friends with my heart, let alone have bad memories. So I don’t look so reliable, really, you’ll know when you see more, now it’s purely because we’ve just met and haven’t gotten to know each other well, and I haven’t had a chance to show my faults. So, let’s not think that the other party is particularly good enough for us Won't you go up? Don't be cautious, you are uncomfortable, and I am also uncomfortable."

Gu Shui was stunned for two seconds, then pulled away Hua Yong's hand on his shoulder. "Oh, then don't get so close to me. People like us have a bad temper and hate close contact, you know."

Hua Yong laughed.

After Gu Shui's face was slightly cold for two seconds, he also showed a smile, a little helpless: "I mean it."

"I know, I know," Hua Yong stopped reasoning with a stern face at this time, and he looked like the heartless young man again, "I also know that you don't really like to laugh. If you don't want to laugh here, you can laugh." Don't laugh, let me laugh your part?"

Gu Shui said lightly: "Okay, if I'm in a bad mood, I don't laugh. Hey, this feels quite fresh." He suddenly wanted to bet that the "exception" in his plan really existed.

Hua Yong thought for a while, and the reflex arc was extremely long to connect to the question that Gu Shuiqing asked for a long time: "You ask me why I know... I will think about it, and then I will tell you later." In fact, Zuo is just someone who once " Tell the truth after drinking", he was so moved to death, it's ridiculous to think about it now.But he didn't want to irritate Gu Shuiqing by speaking out at this time.

Hua Yong saw that the two of them were about to leave Yu Town at this time, so he turned around and looked - not far away, around the entrance of the hotel, there was a girl looking at them.

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Well, it's almost there.Believe me, it will be really sweet.

Continue tomorrow.