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His tossing and turning for so many nights back then became blurred in front of the sentence "I will".That is the symbol of Xu Yanxin's courage, and it is also the regret of his life.If he had acted like a fool at the time, they would never have known each other's intentions until now.Xu Yanxin seemed to know what he was thinking, and said to him: "But it's better now. At that time, I lived in a muddleheaded way, and I might disappoint your liking. But now I know what I think, so I won't. "

Jiang Yu smiled and said, "You're so stupid, how can you ever let me down."

"Before I went to find you that day, I was sorting things out at home, and found out that box of candy, only to see what you wrote to me..."

Jiang Yu was stunned.

He still remembered that at that time he gave Xu Yanxin a box of candies, and at the bottom of the box was written the confession "Would you like to be with me", but Xu Yanxin had never touched it, and his thoughts were buried for ten years.He asked, "How did you get up and watch?"

"I was just curious, how did you become like this?" Xu Yanxin touched the tip of her nose in embarrassment, and looked down at the ground, "but I didn't expect to see those. I know you like me, but I didn't expect it to be so early. In fact, I I don’t know you very well. When I was young, I always thought of you too well. When I grew up, I thought too much of you. In fact, you let Zhou Suxi say that because you thought it would be counterproductive to say those high-ranking people. You will be restricted everywhere in the following lawsuits, so it is better to win half of it first, in fact, I understand all these, but at that time, I patronized and thought that you were too much and had no professional ethics."

"It's true that I was too much."

Xu Yanxin looked up at him, her amber eyes were still as round and round as before, and said: "From now on, you can honestly tell me what you think in your heart, how about it? It saves me from guessing."

"it is good."

Xu Yanxin didn't believe it, and said, "You will be struck by lightning if you lie."

This is exactly the same as before, and the curses spoken out are always so childish.

"it is good."

Xu Yanxin asked him: "Then what are you thinking now?"

Jiang Yu looked at the sun in the distance and said, "I was thinking, I hope you will never get hurt again. Be cowardly, Xu Yanxin, and let me be that brave person."

Xu Yanxin was speechless for a moment.

Jiang Yu asked: "Xu Yanxin, can I chase you?"

The weather was so good that day, the sun was shining brightly, Xu Yanxin's face was red and hot, looking like a fool when he was sixteen or seventeen.

He said, okay.It was extremely forced, but only he knew that his heart was hotter than his face.

Jiang Yu is very good at chasing people, he doesn't send flowers or sweet talk, just accompany him to do what he wants to do, Jiang Yu accompany him to see art exhibitions, play basketball, drive with him, watch the moon, accompany him Doing a lot of stupid things, he doesn't seem to be pursuing Xu Yanxin, but he is accompanying Xu Yanxin to live a life of sixteen or seventeen. They even went back to Qingshui County once. There used to be three people, but now it's just the two of them. With a family atmosphere, he followed Jiangyu to Qingshui County without hesitation. To him, Qingshui County is like a peach blossom garden, and Jiangyu, which is completely opposite to him, is also a symbol of the freedom he yearns for. There is no Taohuayuan, and no one can get full freedom, but it is the majority who report to the group to keep warm.

After ten years, they have changed, and even Qingshui County has changed a lot. The original Chinese and Western restaurant has disappeared, and it has become a Michelin restaurant. The night market they used to visit has disappeared, and it has become a high-end department store. Back then, he lived in a dilapidated guest house, but now he lives in a five-star hotel in Qingshui County.Both felt a sense of loss for no apparent reason.Coming out of that Michelin restaurant, Xu Yanxin didn't think it was delicious, but felt that something was missing. The street was full of neon lights and bustling with people. He asked Jiang Yu to buy him a drink, and he stood there bored. Crowds of people coming and going on the street.Xu Yanxin said that he wanted a drink, but he didn't say what he wanted to drink. He probably wanted him to figure it out as a suitor. Jiang Yu thought about it and chose the pomegranate juice in the shortest line.The young couple in front were flirting, sometimes angry and sometimes sweet, even more unpredictable than the weather, the girl said delicately, when you are 30 years old, you won’t like me as much as you do now.The boy immediately said, how come, I will definitely like you more when I am 30 years old.The girl questioned, you have money and status, why do you still care about me?The boy stuttered a little, but he said very seriously, if I don't like you at the age of 30, you beat me to death, I must have lost my head, how could I not like you?The girl burst out laughing.

It's silly, but it shows the warmth between the two.

Jiang Yu looked at the boy with such firm eyes, just like he used to.

If someone told 17-year-old Jiang Yu that you would not like Xu Yanxin when you were 30, he would probably beat that person until his mother didn't even recognize him.

It is said that teenagers have short love, when they like it vigorously, and when the love disappears, it is like a gust of wind and a shower of rain.

But Jiang Yu didn't think so.

His gust of wind and rain came vigorously, but never passed.

Whether he is 17 years old or 27 years old, he always likes the same person, day after day, year after year.

When it was his turn, the aunt enthusiastically handed him the drink and said with a smile: "This is our specialty, pomegranate juice, sweet and refreshing!"

Jiang Yu was startled, feeling inexplicably familiar.

When he went back to find Xu Yanxin, he was digging out his pocket with cotton candy in his mouth. Just as Jiang Yu was about to step forward to help, Xu Yanxin smiled and gently put the banknotes in his pocket into the cloth bag in front of the homeless artist.

He finally knew where it was familiar.

Qingshui County has changed, their age and state of mind have changed, but Xu Yanxin's kindness and his little miss for Xu Yanxin have not changed.He seemed to have returned to ten years ago, and Xu Yanxin in his memory seemed to be waiting for him like this. He seemed to see himself ten years ago, and he raised his chin domineeringly and said to himself, you went to England and escaped like this Far, isn't it useless?You just have to have him.

He seemed to have had a ten-year dream, intermittent and muddled, this dream was so long that he almost thought he had changed.He thought he could face Xu Yanxin calmly, keep his love in front of him, and put on a show, but he couldn't. The 27-year-old Jiang Yu, like the 17-year-old Jiang Yu, cannot hide the love in his eyes. The 17-year-old Jiang Yu's desired ending has never been a good get-together and good break-up under the balance of the pros and cons of adults, but he has to be single-minded.So persistent, so naive, so sincere.

For ten years, he has been addicted to it all the time.

He was acutely aware of it.

In just a few steps, he actually felt as if he had passed away.Xu Yanxin didn't know what was going on in his heart at all, and only complained: "You are so slow, what is this, pomegranate juice? Thank you for remembering—"

Jiang Yu said, "I remember everything."

Xu Yanxin said stubbornly: "Didn't you want to chase me, of course you have to remember."

He remembers it all.Never forget.

These small memories supported him every night in England.

It turned out that he loved him more, more than he imagined, so much that he couldn't hide it, and so much that he couldn't deceive himself.

Jiang Yu suddenly said: "Zhou Suxi said, Wanliu likes you."

Xu Yanxin was taken aback, then frowned, and said, "How can I like him so much? Actually, I don't have any impression of him for a long time. I only remember that he pushed me down the stairs."

Jiang Yu only said: "You always attract weird people."

Xu Yanxin shook his hand and retorted, "You're not surprised."

"Actually, I'm also surprised. I've been a liar since I was a child. I traded a few marbles for your game console."

Xu Yanxin was stunned, looked at him in disbelief, and said, "That little girl..."

"There's no little girl at all, just a kid who loves to cheat."

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?!"

Jiang Yu had imagined how Xu Yanxin would react countless times. In his youthful fantasy, it was like the ending of a movie, grand and gorgeous.But the reality is that the two of them stared at each other on the side of the road. Xu Yanxin scolded him for his various ruthless behaviors when he was a child, such as not answering, refusing to tell him his name, or disappearing too quickly. Jiang Yu explained them one by one with a good temper Well, he left without saying goodbye because Liu Rong lost his job, so he naturally didn't need to go again.After listening, Xu Yanxin frowned in disappointment, muttering that it was so.

Jiang Yu couldn't see him getting lost, bent his head and said, "If I knew that I would be entangled with you in the future, I would have written you a collection of poems by then."

"Who wants you to be so sour."

"Then why are you disappointed? Oh, disappointed that I'm not a girl?"

Xu Yanxin immediately retorted, saying: "Of course not. It's just hard for me to accept for a while, that the person who has been curious is actually by my side, and, moreover, it's you. There is a feeling of being destined and like being teased by fate."

"That's it."

"When did you find out? Couldn't it be the first time?" Xu Yanxin squinted his eyes, looking a little angry.

"Of course not, I also discovered it by accident. At that time, I just fell in love with you, and then I found out that I was the 'little girl' in your memory. At that moment, I really felt that the two of us were destined. Apart from being with me, Who else can I go with?" After talking about it, Jiang Yu's tone gradually lowered.Not long after that, Xu Yanxin and Ye Yuqing were together.

Just as Xu Yanxin wanted to explain, Jiang Yu pinched his face and said, "I don't care about your future, I just want to do it now."

"From now on, you have to be single-minded."

Xu Yanxin muttered in a low voice, I'm not half-hearted either.

But Jiang Yu tapped his lips lightly, so he stopped talking.

There is really no progress. After ten years, why is my heart still beating so fast?

Xu Yanxin looked at the rows of strings of lanterns in the distance. They were fiery red, resembling the fire that year.Xu Yanxin never told Jiang Yu that the moment he jumped, there was nothing in his eyes except Jiang Yu's eyes.

Perhaps at that time, he had already guessed that he would fall into his world countless times in this life.

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Replaces a previous chapter, so there will be a repetition.