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Xu Yanxin.

Xu Yanxin——

Xu Yanxin!

Life has always been unkind to him. He thought this way when his parents divorced, he thought the same way when he saw his mother cheating, and he thought the same way when Xu Yanxin chose someone else.He always thinks so.When he thought he was pessimistic enough to accept all the bad endings calmly, the pool of blood still stung his eyes.He failed to stop the knife and ax like the protagonist of the TV series, and he watched him injured and bleeding.Xu Yanxin was bleeding, and his white shirt was full of blood red. He looked at him deeply, but no matter how Jiang Yu called his name, Xu Yanxin couldn't say a word, but closed his eyes heavily.

The arrogance in those bones seemed to come out again.

He grabbed Jiang Tao's neckline and looked at the so-called "father". His face was pale and his expression was ferocious, but the corners of his mouth couldn't help trembling. Looking carefully, it turned out that every pore was trembling, and the whole face was trembling violently. , as if he was not the murderer but the victim.He snatched the dagger from his trembling hand and pressed it against Jiang Tao's throat.

"You want to do business, I'll give you money, you got into a fight and almost went to jail, I bailed you out, even though you're trash, I still control you, but you can't gamble in my name, and you want to lose All my family property—but now I think, I was wrong. You want all my money, it’s fine, even if you want my life, it’s fine,” Jiang Yu’s fingers holding the handle of the knife were completely white , "But I don't allow you to use his brain."

"Kill, kill me, and you will go to jail too!"

"Don't worry, I will die with you."

Jiang Tao saw the shadow in his eyes and said, "You are crazy, you are really crazy—"

Everything is coming to an end.

Be it Jiang Tao or Liu Rong.The tears that were not shed in childhood turned out to be hatred.And hatred became pain again.

Throughout his life of more than 20 years, Maohou and Xu Yanxin were the only people who couldn't let go.Hairy Monkey is married and has a family of his own, so he can always let go of this nonchalant nephew.Only Xu Yanxin.It was Xu Yanxin again.This stubborn person.It would be great if I never met Xu Yanxin from the beginning to the end, he would rot in a dark corner, live a long and lonely life.However, seeing the light, the dark days are really difficult.

At the last moment, all he could see was the fear in Jiang Tao's eyes.

Let's end it.

"Jiangyu."

He suddenly felt his clothes being pulled down.

He turned his head to the side and heard Xu Yanxin say, "He's not worth what you're doing..."

Xu Yanxin's shirt was completely covered in blood, but he smiled.This smile is very similar to the smile before the leap ten years ago.With inexplicable kindness and trust.He said: "I was just a little sleepy just now... I will never leave you, Jiang Yu, don't be afraid."

"Obviously I have done so many things to disappoint you, why?"

"I don't know, I always have a lot of selfishness towards you," Xu Yanxin smiled, and said, "Jiang Yu, I'm a little sleepy..." Jiang Yu hugged him, feeling relieved, as if he had regained all.And those reporters who were belatedly rushed in, looking at the injured Xu Yanxin and the weeping Jiang Yu, looking at each other.The rumored cold-blooded lawyer cried like a child.

It turned out that he had been deceiving himself and others.

Obviously until the last moment, all he thought was that it would be great if he met Xu Yanxin earlier, and it would be better if he told Xu Yanxin earlier.

Although Xu Yanxin bled a lot and almost entered the ICU, but fortunately Jiang Tao was cowardly by nature and the stab wound was not deep.He blushed when he thought of what he said before he fell into a coma. At that time, in the ambulance, he thought he didn't have much time. Looking at the tearful Jiangyu, he couldn't help but confide in his heart: If I leave, can you not love me? on someone else?

Such selfish and willful words are really unlike what he said.

But what made him blush the most was Jiang Yu's answer before he passed out, he said yes.

In Xu Yanxin's vision, with Jiang Yu's extremely awkward personality, he would never admit to the past, so he would avoid him.However, Jiang Yu not only took good care of him, but also admitted his feelings uncharacteristically.

That day, when the nurse wanted to wipe Xu Yanxin's body, Jiang Yu said in secret, he came.Xu Yanxin glanced at his expression and couldn't figure out what to do, but she didn't say no, she just treated herself as the meat on the chopping board.

The curtains were blown softly by the breeze, and there were many children chirping in the garden outside the house, but neither of them said a word, Jiang Yu's movements were extremely gentle, not like wiping, but more like stroking, without Any eroticism, on the contrary, is more like touching a jade stone.

Xu Yanxin looked at the ceiling at a loss, hoping that time would pass quickly, but when he touched the wound, Jiang Yu asked, "Does it still hurt?"

Of course it hurts.

Jiang Tao was stabbed in the left abdomen. Although the wound was not deep, if it was a few centimeters higher, his life would be in danger.

But Xu Yanxin said, "It's okay."

Jiang Yu listened, only smiled lowly, and wiped the surrounding skin quietly.After it was over, Xu Yanxin sat by the bed with his legs dangling, but Jiang Yu knelt down on one knee, holding his calf with one hand, and after a long silence, he said, "I'm sorry."

Xu Yanxin thought he was talking about Jiang Tao, so she comforted her and said, "It's not your fault, it's just that he might retaliate against you after he comes out, so you have to be careful."

Jiang Yu said, "I don't care about him."

The curtains were blown and fluttered low, the sound outside was quiet, only the faint fragrance of roses.

"If I had admitted that I liked you earlier and stayed by your side all the time, wouldn't this kind of thing happen to you?"

"I know I always let you down, have a bad temper, and hurt you, but not anymore."

Xu Yanxin stopped breathing.

"Jiangyu..."

"I just said I like you now, isn't it too late?"

Xu Yanxin grabbed the bed sheet and didn't say a word for a long time.

Jiang Yu raised his head and looked at him quietly.Xu Yanxin's voice was softer than the wind, and he said, "It's not too late."

And Jiang Yu bowed his head and kissed his knee.

This superficial kiss made his heart itch.

This kiss seemed ten years late.

It is said that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but Jiangyu is sorrow in the eye of the beholder.Xu Yanxin was just watering the flowers in his hospital gown, but Jiang Yu looked at his empty hospital gown and thought a lot.In my impression, Xu Yanxin has always been slender, and with his difficult disease, it is not an exaggeration to say that he is fragile.However, the two injuries of such a fragile person were related to him.To him, Xu Yanxin is like the sun, giving him warmth regardless of return, but to Xu Yanxin, he is the greedy ghost who tries to hide the sun for himself.It's him who has been in love with him for ten years, but he always waits for Xu Yanxin to reach out to him, which is not cowardly.

However, even though he was so greedy and cowardly, he still won the mercy of the sun.

It turns out that all the misfortunes have become gifts from fate to him at this moment.

Jiang Yu thought, it turned out that what Maohou said was true at all, to love someone is to have no complaints or regrets, and to be reckless about the consequences.

He hoped that Xu Yanxin would be healthy, safe and happy for the rest of his life.

Jiang Yu went to see Zhou Suxi, Zhou Suxi still looked weak, but there were some inexplicable things in his eyes, as if supporting his physical body.

Before Zhou Suxi could speak, Jiang Yu said, "Sorry, I made such a plan regardless of your feelings."

Zhou Suxi didn't expect him to say that, he just said "it's okay", and said: "Jiang Lv doesn't care about my feelings, but he doesn't believe that there is justice in this world. In fact, I didn't believe it at first, but I saw it." After Xu Lu, I have expectations. You came to see me today, probably because of Xu Lu."

Jiang Yu was taken aback, and wanted to deny it, but Zhou Su breathlessly said: "In the past, you wanted to gain fame and fortune through litigation, but now you want to gain his approval by sticking to his faith, right?"

He never knew that Zhou Suxi was such an eloquent person, he just said: "No, on the contrary, he convinced me. I used to think that there is no justice in this world, only good or bad situations. So I want to take advantage of the situation , get justice for you, and take advantage of the opportunity. However, I just think I'm smart. To do one thing well, and to seriously want to defend someone, this is what he taught me. Justice It is a luxury, and I am not qualified to arrange it at will."

"So that's why you just came to apologize to me today?"

"Yes."

"But I want something more than an apology."

Jiang Yu looked up at him, and Zhou Suxi said: "The media has searched for a lot of evidence for me, and there will be a huge lawsuit. Can you still be my lawyer?"

Jiang Yu froze, thinking he had heard wrong.Zhou Suxi lowered his eyes and said, "Wanliu said, he owes you this."

"Why do you have to pay back his favor? What's more, how can such an important matter be decided so hastily?"

Zhou Suxi looked out of the window and said quietly: "Jiang Lu, I thought you also understood that feeling. When I was young, I was obsessed with what I wanted, and I finally got it after untold hardships. Whether it's justice, fame or fortune, I didn't realize it until I got it." , In fact, it is nothing more than that. Looking back, I just feel empty. When I think about it carefully, the reason why I am still willing to stay in this world seems to be the only one left. Whether it is good or bad, there is always A reason to live."

Jiang Yu fell silent, unable to imagine the despair and pain behind this.He didn't seem to understand Zhou Suxi. He thought Zhou Suxi was just a poor victim, but he never thought that people who had suffered such a tragic experience might have as much tenacity in their bones as him.

Seeing that he was silent, Zhou Suxi suddenly showed a sly smile, and said, "Let's not talk about that, Jiang Lu knows why Wanliu wants to see Xu Lu?"

Jiang Yu raised his eyes to look at him, Zhou Suxi approached him, and said softly, "Jiang Lu is not the only one who wants to monopolize the brilliance of the sun because of his liking."

"Then let him die."

Zhou Suxi hugged his stomach and laughed so hard that his flowers trembled.

Jiang Yu said: "You didn't seem to have such a personality before. It seems that I have never really known you."

Zhou Suxi half-truthfully said: "A person like me who can survive until now must learn how to act."

When he walked out of the coffee shop, it was the time when the sun was shining brightly. He stood there for a long time, but just shook his head and smiled.

When Xu Yanxin was sent to the hospital, he was so anxious that he almost broke his heart. When he left with him, he was worried. Jiang Yu always suspected that the doctor let him out of the hospital too early. The wound on the abdomen was not big or small, but it was just right It was stabbed at the tip of Jiang Yu's heart, he couldn't be as heartless as Xu Yanxin, he always joked about his scar.Xu Yanxin always said that this scar was like the edelweiss behind his ear, a symbol of his courage, but Jiang Yu felt that it was his criminal evidence.

He put his arm around Xu Yanxin's shoulder and asked him: "If I confessed to you at that time, would you agree?"

The person in his arms was silent for a while, and said, "Yes."

Jiang Yu was silent for a long time, and said, "That's it."

The author says:

It's coming to an end.