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When Shen Feng called to tell him that Xu Zhao was hospitalized, Xu Yanxin hurriedly took a taxi to the hospital. Along the way, countless thoughts flew through his mind, and he was so anxious that his hands sweated.However, when he rushed to the hospital, he saw Xu Zhao half lying on the hospital bed with a plaster cast on his feet. When he saw him coming, he even frowned and said to Shen Feng, "I'm not Please don't tell him."

I sprained my foot while wearing high heels and suffered a slight bone fracture.

When Xu Yanxin heard what the doctor said, she seemed to fully understand why Xu Zhao refused to tell him.With Xu Zhao's temper, it is impossible for anyone to witness his embarrassment.Seeing him, Xu Zhao sneered and said, "After Wei Xun came out of the closet, he didn't dare to go home. He wandered outside for a few years before he dared to go back. As for you, you dared to hang out in front of me after a month. If I knew that you would become like this, I would have sent you abroad a long time ago." Xu Yanxin didn't speak, just pinched the corner of her quilt.Shen Feng stood beside him and sighed, put his arms around his shoulders, and said: "If you like boys, you like boys, as long as you don't mess around, dad supports you."

Xu Zhao squinted at him, and Shen Feng closed his mouth.

Xu Yanxin knew she was wrong, so she obediently sat on the edge of the bed and tucked the quilt for her. However, Xu Zhao didn't appreciate it, so she lifted the quilt again and said to him, "Hot." He said flatteringly, then I'll go buy a cold drink, Unexpectedly, Xu Zhaohan put on a face and said, "If you are born gay, I will admit it. If it doesn't work, you can also make a pair with Wei Xun. Our two families know each other well, and you won't suffer. The problem is that you are not born to like it at all. Men, what's more, look at what you're looking for?"

Xu Yanxin couldn't help but said, "He's pretty good. I said he came to see you, and he bought so many gifts for me to give you."

Xu Zhao ignored him, and said to himself: "I worked in a bar in high school, and got into fights with students from other schools, so I'm barely on the right track now, but do you know what kind of person his father is? ?”

After hearing this, Xu Yanxin looked in shock at Shen Feng who was standing beside him silently.These materials were obviously collected by Shen Feng relying on his authority. As an enlightened father, Shen Feng couldn't resist Xu Yanxin's questioning eyes. He hurriedly excused that something happened and left the ward. Only the mother and son were left in the room.Xu Zhao didn't care about his sullenness at all, and continued: "His father gambles and commits crimes in his name every day, and he is already exhausted just to deal with these, let alone he has a mother who asks for everything. and half-brother."

"He can't decide who his parents are."

"However, human beings are very fragile creatures and cannot withstand a little bit of torture. Can children who grow up in such a family not be contaminated with those ugly characters? You can ignore these, but I can't. If If you insist on being gay, then I would rather you choose Wei Xun. At least his parents can still communicate."

High above, not to be questioned.

Xu Zhao has always been like this, condescendingly commenting on other people's lives.It was only then that Xu Yanxin realized that what he couldn't stand the most was not Xu Zhao's desire to control and unreasonably high demands on him, but what he was most angry about was that his mother had no empathy at all.Xu Yanxin ten years ago only dared to eavesdrop outside the door, digested himself, then rebelled for a while, and finally obeyed such Xu Zhao.The man ten years ago must have had high hopes for him ten years later, thinking that he is capable enough to deal with such cruelty.However, he may still not be able to do it.

"Is that what grandpa told you before?"

Xu Zhao was startled, and looked at him with an unfriendly expression.

And Xu Yanxin just said calmly: "The relationship between you and grandpa is so bad, isn't it because grandpa refuses you to have any thoughts of your own, doesn't allow you to marry someone he doesn't approve of, and belittles and insults him in front of you. You now Aren't you doing the same thing as him?"

"Are you talking to me like this for an outsider?" She picked up the case in hand and threw it beside Xu Yanxin, making a deep noise.

Xu Yanxin said: "Grandpa has changed, but you, when will you change? When will you understand that I also have my own life? Including when grandpa left..." However, he still couldn't say those cruel words.Seeing his hesitation, Xu Zhao laughed mockingly, and said, "It seems that Xu Ruqing is not only my shield, but also your weapon. If you have anything to say, just say it directly. Are you hiding it in the court?"

Xu Yanxin couldn't help but said: "He's gone, why are you still making fun of his name like this? Grandpa went to the Aquarium to keep the agreement. Is it the agreement before I went to City B, or did you let you A promise to wait in front of the aquarium?"

Xu Zhao did not show any surprise, but raised his voice and asked: "What do you want to explain, can this eliminate your guilt towards him? This can prove that it was not you who killed him, but me. You are freed, and I'm chained, do you mean that?"

Xu Yanxin couldn't bear it and replied: "Why do you think so? What I want to say is that after he lost his memory and sanity, what he missed was not me, but the girl who was waiting at the gate of the aquarium back then."

When he finished speaking, he finally saw an expression other than sarcasm on Xu Zhao's face.

"So what, it's been so many years, or are you going to force me to make peace with a dead person?"

Xu Yanxin felt tired like never before, "I said this just to tell you that as long as you want, we can shake hands and make peace at any time, I regard you as one of the most important people to me, I don't want to imagine you and grandpa That way, we can obviously get along better, but maybe you don't think so. You should rest first. I'll come see you tomorrow."

When he was about to close the door, Xu Zhao's voice sounded behind him, "You are my son."

"But in the whole world, the person I'm most jealous of is you."

Xu Yanxin walked alone, as if he had returned to the day when he escaped from the competition ten years ago.

Confused, alone.

Perhaps this is the normal state of life, and he will always be disappointed if he expects too much.

He didn't take a few steps, but saw a hesitant figure by the flower bed, holding a basket of fruit in his hand, as if he was going to visit someone.The two of them always lack chance, but there are too many coincidences.It seems that they are separated under the sky, and they can meet each other at a certain point in the world.

"Why are you here?" Xu Yanxin poked Jiang Yu's waist.

Jiang Yu was startled, turned to look at him, but didn't speak for a while, Xu Yanxin looked at the fruit basket in his hand, couldn't help laughing and said, "If I don't see you for a day, you won't recognize me? Do you also come to this hospital to visit patients? "

He knows not.

That fruit basket was most likely for Xu Zhao—not that he was overconfident.He always keeps a keen eye on these trivial matters.Only for Jiangyu.Jiang Yu just remembered the fruit basket in his hand. He specially asked the clerk to wrap the best gift bag, use the best quality fruit, and wear the most solemn suit, looking serious when he saw his mother-in-law. He admitted generously: "Your mother is sick, so I have to come and see her anyway."

Xu Yanxin laughed when he heard him say that, "I thought you wouldn't admit it."

Jiang Yu looked at him and said, "As long as you ask, I am willing to answer you."

"Really?" Xu Yanxin tilted his head and asked him, "Then I want to ask, have you ever lied to me?"

He actually wanted to ask, who is your Bai Yueguang?

Do you still like him?

Are you also using me as a stand-in?

If Zhang An is with you for four years and you don't pay any attention, what about me—is ten years enough?That was the question he wanted to ask.But he didn't dare to ask that. If he lost his family and love at the same time today, then he would not be far from jumping into the Huangpu River.He pretended to be indifferent looking at the flower beds, the green grass on the side of the road, and the nurse pushing the wheelchair in the distance, but he refused to look at Jiangyu.Jiang Yu was rarely serious, and thought for a long time before replying, "I said so."

Xu Yanxin asked: "If one day I guessed it, would you admit it?"

Jiang Yu just looked at him and said nothing.

Xu Yanxin was a little powerless and a little lost, he yelled: "Forget it, I won't ask, let's go buy some ice cream and eat it. It's so hot this day, I'm almost dying of heat."

The sky was gloomy, as if about to cry, about to squeeze a bowl of teardrops.

He is so good at lying, but Xu Yanxin can't even make up a lie.

Thinking of this, his heart suddenly softened, and he felt sour. Jiang Yu quickly stepped forward, grabbed his wrist, and blurted out: "I will."

However, Xu Yanxin didn't ask anything, and just asked him to take him back to pack his things—the "garbage" piled up in the basement that Xu Zhao said many times, it was the first time that Jiang Yu entered Xu Yanxin's house openly, and it was also Xu Yanxin's house. This is the first time I bring my lover home, even though my parents are not there, it can barely be regarded as "going home".

As soon as the iron door of the basement was opened, there was a lot of dust.It made Xu Yanxin choke until tears came out.And Jiang Yu was stronger than him, just frowning, holding his waist, afraid that he would fall.It took Xu Yanxin a little effort to touch the switch on the wall, and the darkness faded away, only drawing papers piled up in the empty room.

"So many are you going to move away?"

"Of course, these are my precious treasures," Xu Yanxin waved the dust in the air, "I didn't even want to throw away the box of candy you gave me, it's been left here all the time, wow, no wonder my mom was in the basement before The mice caught are getting fatter one by one, what are you thinking, give me candies with such high calories."

Jiang Yu was startled.

Back then, he was unprepared for the box of candy he gave Xu Yanxin.He pretended to be romantic and put a note at the bottom of the box, writing sour love words, waiting for him to find out.However, Xu Yanxin never opened it, he thought Xu Yanxin had already thrown it away.

"Is it still available after the expiration date?"

"You gave me a birthday present, how can I be willing to throw it away?" Xu Yanxin buried her body in the garbage dump nonchalantly, rummaging through the dark things, "I found it, I didn't expect my mother to Put it at the bottom. It is well sealed, and it should not have been destroyed by mice." He was about to get up with the box of candies that had expired for more than a year, but he couldn't stand firmly for a while, but Jiang Yu supported him, and he was just like that He fell limply into Jiang Yu's arms.

Two black handprints were left on Jiang Yu's white shirt.

However, Jiang Yu hugged him without any temper, and took the candy box from his hand.

The "garbage" piled up in the basement was not enough for Jiang Yu's entire car, and two cards were lost.

When Jiang Yu picked it up, it turned out that when Jiang Yu sent him to the hospital, Xu Yanxin drew him from the back. In the painting, he was smoking and his back was lonely.He froze in place as if struck by lightning.Seeing him staring blankly, Xu Yanxin thought he was narcissistic, and said stupidly: "Well, I drew you handsome, right? You look like Edison Chen. But we agreed, we will Quit smoking together, and you won't be able to smoke in the future."

"Xu Yanxin."

The person whose name was called raised his head strangely, thinking that Jiang Yu had something important to say to him.

However, Jiang Yu just followed the afterglow of the setting sun and kissed his forehead, which made him embarrassed enough, "It's all sweat, why are you kissing?"

Jiang Yu said, "I can't help it."

This really makes people blush, Xu Yanxin thought.

The author says:

Is there a bug in the arrangement of the plot?

A: Yes, sorry.Although the original setting was "acting on the spot", the author with a bad brain forgot to write a plot (originally there was a plot where Zhang An showed a ruthless character, which made Xu Yanxin suspicious, it should be in the first few chapters of "Selfishness" ), so that everyone can't see the foreshadowing. Originally, I wanted to combine the previous "greasy" performance that did not fit Jiangyu's character, so that everyone could infer the relationship between the two of them "playing on the spot".I didn't set it up.It is a bit strange to suddenly insert the plot now, so I slightly modified the previous article, thank you for catching bugs.

Because the arrangement of my plot and unclear reasons affect everyone's reading experience, I am really sorry, and I promise that this situation will never happen again. (There are two more explanations. The author has something to say and can’t let it go, so he will post it on Weibo)