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When Xu Yanxin received Jiang Yu's call, he was taking a competition mathematics class. The teacher who taught him was Lin He, a graduate student Xu Ruqing used to lead. He spoke rigidly, but his thinking was clear.After he said he was sorry, he hid in the bathroom and listened to Jiang Yu's phone call. Jiang Yu was rarely irritable, and kept asking him to come out over and over again. He looked at Shen Feng and Xu Zhao who were guarding the checkpoint on the ground floor, and could only decline politely.

And Jiangyu was silent for a long time, as if he had come to his senses, he said to him, let's talk about it next time.

But he was embarrassed to say that Xu Zhao hardly let him go out now. In the past, he could find excuses to go out, such as going to the supermarket, grandpa’s house, etc., but recently Xu Zhao cut off all his small thoughts and only let him go. In the remedial class, even when eating, we have to talk a few words about the new cup.

Occasionally, Xu Yanxin would say: "I want to go to my grandfather's house. I heard that the teacher who gave the question this time is his old classmate." Usually Xu Yanxin would get approval as long as he made an excuse about mathematics, but this time Shen Feng and Xu Zhao both showed a hint of Panicked and hesitated for a while, Xu Zhao quickly regained his composure and said, "You learn at home."

He still wanted to say something, but Xu Zhao changed the subject and asked, "How are you preparing for the closing ceremony piano music?"

He didn't dare to mention anything else, he went to practice the piano obediently, but what he was thinking about was about Jiangyu.

However, when I saw Jiang Yu the next day, Jiang Yu put on the handrails and wrote lightly: "I just saw this pendant in a roadside shop, and I think it suits you very well." In Jiang Yu's palm lay the pendant of the little sheep. , Xu Yanxin laughed, dimples on her cheeks: "That's why you called me to go out that day?" Jiang Yu said: "Can't I call you if I have nothing to do?"

Of course Xu Yanxin didn't mean that, but he thought that Jiang Yu would tell him something very important, but the lamb pendant seemed to be important as well. He hooked the tender face of the little sheep with his fingertips, and didn't think about it anymore , just took out the long-prepared gift from the schoolbag like offering a treasure, that exquisite record player, Wu 1900.Jiang Yu had never seen a record player, and never thought that one day he would listen to vinyl records, but Xu Yanxin thought carefully and specially prepared a TwilightWay vinyl record.

Jiang Yu frowned slightly, and said, "Why did you give me this record?"

"Every time I practice the piano until I vomit, I will listen to this song. If I didn't have this song, I would probably suffer from piano phobia. You can also listen to it, maybe you will have a lot less trouble."

"Because of that little liar?"

"What little liar?" Xu Yanxin was stunned for a moment, only to realize that he was referring to the girl he met when he was a child, and said angrily: "She is not a little liar, she is my friend, but she has never replied to my letter... Maybe it is I used to be too introverted, so she doesn't want to play with me. Calculate the time, she should also be preparing for the college entrance examination, or has she already finished it? I don't know if she still remembers me. "

Jiang Yu watched him quietly, chuckled, and said firmly: "He must not remember you, for him, there is no friendship, no childhood memories, only a young master who is a fool with a lot of money, Send him some expensive junk every day."

Xu Yanxin frowned lightly, and rarely raised her voice: "Why do you say that?"

"Have you ever thought that none of the people in your fond memories grew up as you imagined?"

Jiang Yu said so.

At the beginning of autumn, Xu Yanxin put on a thin fleece sweater under his school uniform to wrap around his snow-white neck. The soft wool hooked the tip of his chin, which was as soft as ever, and there were two balls of powder floating on his face, like glutinous rice balls.But after listening to Jiang Yu's words, that snow-white face rarely became more serious. He just stared at Jiang Yu like this, as if he wanted to extract a trace of kindness from his arrogant words, but Jiang Yu didn't speak, so he turned sullenly. Turning around, the back revealed three points of sadness and awkwardness, as if waiting for him to stop, but Jiang Yu didn't, but put the gift on Xu Yanxin's desk, saying, I don't need it.Jiang Yu always reserved his words, but not out of kindness but ambiguity. He was just out of arrogance and indifference, too lazy to explain his "I don't need it". Halfway through the class, Xu Yanxin couldn't help thinking about Jiang Yu's words. It doesn't need to refer to his gift, or himself.Once he thought about this question, he couldn't stop.Is his kindness that has nowhere to be placed also "unnecessary"?

When class was over, he lay down on the table sullenly, staring at Fang Keshi's side face in a daze, and Fang Keshi, who was correcting the wrong question, noticed his gaze and said in horror, "Don't look at it. Come on me, I can't beat Jiangyu."

"But Jiang Yu really likes the squad leader. You are already the second squad leader to fall." After speaking, Fang Keshi patted his mouth again as if he had said something wrong.

Xu Yanxin straightened up and said, "Who is the first one?" Fang Keshi rolled his eyes, evading, and muttered in his mouth: "If Jiangyu knows that I said it, he will definitely kill me. Can you Pretend you didn't hear it?"

"You don't claim to be Baifangtong, recruit quickly, or wait for torture to succeed."

"Your little trick, how can it compare with Jiangyu's iron fist, I won't say it, I really won't say it!"

But Xu Yanxin knew his weakness, he let out a few breaths on his fingers, scratched Fang Keshi until he curled up into a worm, and couldn't stop laughing.It took Xu Yanxin 5 minutes to get Fang Keshi to explain clearly.According to Fang Keshi, the thing is like this - Luo Shishi, the previous class monitor, had a crush on Jiang Yu for a year and chased him for a long time, but Jiang Yu was not only not moved by this, but almost wanted to beat Luo Shishi and hurt Luo Shi Poetry has psychological problems, so I have to stop until now.

After listening, Xu Yanxin frowned, and retorted: "It's definitely not the case!" He completely forgot that he was still slandering Jiangyu just now.

Fang Keshi saw that he was so angry, so he said weakly: "That's what I heard, but everyone said so. It is said that someone witnessed Jiang Yu pointing an iron rod at her." Xu Yanxin stood up fiercely, Said: "It is said that there is no real evidence. If it is true, the school will definitely suspend Jiang Yu from school. How could it be possible to let him study like this? Your version is not credible. How can unreliable things be passed around?" Fang Ke Shi had never seen him angry before, he was stunned for two seconds, and said hesitantly: "Jiang Yu has never refuted, besides, Jiang Yu, how could he be affected by this?"

"A lot of injuries are invisible and intangible, and not everyone will show up when they are injured."

Fang Keshi was frightened by his madness, he only said sorry in a daze, and Xu Yanxin came back to his senses.

"Sorry, I was too excited just now, I was just a little anxious."

Fang Keshi waved his hand and said, "It's okay, it's just that I didn't expect you to speak for Jiang Yu like this. You misunderstood him collecting protection fees before. Why do you suddenly have such a good relationship?"

"I don't have a good relationship with him, it's just a matter of two words." Fang Keshi nodded half-understood.

Jiang Yu not only said exaggerated words, but also returned his gift. Xu Yanxin secretly decided that this time he should grow up a little bit.He waited for Jiangyu to show his favor, just like in Qingshui County, but Jiangyu at that time and Jiangyu now are two people, not the Jiangyu who taught him to count sheep and bought pomegranate juice for him .

Go to the canteen by yourself and buy cold drinks by yourself.Xu Yanxin was as lost as if he had lost the whole world. Even during rehearsals, he couldn't help exuding that bit of sadness.Even the senior sister who put on his makeup said: "Even your piano sound is sad." But Jiang Yu was lying on the desk like before, with his strong arms under his pillow, two blue veins pulled out, and he watched boredly. The ivy on the opposite teaching building.

He suddenly had a premonition that Jiang Yu was returning to the past.

They didn't know each other before.

There are no houses destroyed by fire, no fish swimming by the lake, and no sky full of flowers and greenery.

He once thought that friends were nothing more than similar tastes, but now he realized that he and Jiang Yu were completely different people, their hobbies were very different, their tempers were completely different, and they had nothing in common.

Even when he was angry, whenever he caught a glimpse of Jiang Yu standing up, he would pause, but Jiang Yu just stroked the back of his neck, brushed lazily past everyone in the class, and walked out through the back door leisurely, No eyes would even glance at him as they passed the front door.Jiang Yu is so tall, it seems that even when quarreling, his self-esteem is higher than him.

His study time was infinitely prolonged, filling every corner, and he didn't forget to memorize a few Spanish words even when he went to fetch water.

He divided his brain into small compartments, stuffed with knowledge, just to dilute the influence of Jiangyu on him.But he's not a cool boy after all, and he can't ignore him like Jiang Yu.

Before the sports meeting, Xia Song jokingly urged him to let Jiang Yu join the basketball team. He lowered his head sullenly and said, "Go and tell him yourself that I don't know Jiang Yu well."

Xia Song laughed, plucked his fluffy hair, and burst out laughing: "Why, the Condor Heroes quarreled? Jiang Yu is willing to quarrel with you?"

Just as he was about to say no, Jiang Yu happened to be passing by, and it was clearly autumn, Jiang Yu was still wearing that thin white shirt, with the cuffs rolled up to his elbows, and glanced indifferently at Xia Song's palm on his head , without any emotion in his eyes, he just smiled at Xia Song and said, "You look for someone else, I'm not free." Then he brushed Xu Yanxin past, as if he didn't exist.

He stared dazedly at the floor, only thinking in a daze—it turns out that Jiang Yu is really different from other friends, not because of the dramatic encounter between Jiang Yu and him, but because he seems to have given Jiang Yu a privilege: He is always there and never leaves.

And Jiang Yu, as he himself said, is cruel and mean in his nature, so he stays away from him and approaches him without fear, and can give him a lamb pendant, or alienate him immediately.

He was lost in such hot and cold, but what made him even more lost was that he never wanted to take back such a privilege.

He tore off the pendant on the phone and looked at it in the palm of his hand.

He doesn't want to be a sheep, he just wants to be Jiangyu's friend.

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