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On the old city side, Nan Youshu had already fallen into a drowsy sleep. She hugged her sister's pillow and lamented in a daze, she seemed too clingy and abnormal...

Before going to bed tonight, the girl made a very immoral plan. She had no expression on her frosty face. Although she was vicious, she could avenge her sister and relieve herself, so it didn't matter.

The next day, after much deliberation, the uncle decided not to go, but when the girl opened the door with sleepy eyes, he saw Xu Ruohua's pillow from the gap.

Without further ado, he led Nan Youshu on the green leather train, begging God in his heart, don't let this child repeat his mistakes.On the train, the two gossiped about family affairs and made a bowl of noodles.Nan Youshu raised his eyes and asked, "Uncle, I don't know where to go yet."

The uncle frightened Nan Youshu: "Aren't you afraid that I will sell you?"

Nan Youshu narrowed his eyes amusedly: "Of course I'm not afraid, because the uncle is an uncle, not...they. And I'm missing, my sister will come to find me."

The uncle sighed slightly in his heart, Xu Ruohua... really took good care of Nanyou.

Nan Youshu was not as timid as before, neither crying nor laughing nor talking, but a kind of self-confidence faintly revealed from his bones.Uncle Nan Youshu had never seen this kind of smile before. I'm afraid even Nan Youshu himself didn't notice the feeling that there was always someone standing behind him, feeling confident.

"Tell me about your sister, what kind of person you are, uncle, listen carefully." The uncle thought carefully in his heart, he was afraid that Nan Youshu would not be able to distinguish between "love" and "dependence" because of his lack of love. .If this is the case, I have to guide and guide myself, after all, the world is like this... Just like his own unresolved relationship, it cannot be made public, and it always pricks his heart like a cactus thorn, too thin to pull out , I accidentally touched it, and it hurts tight again.

The girl's eyes brightened a little. If she wanted to talk about her sister, she would have said something. Outside, when Nan Youshu and his uncle talked about Xu Ruohua, they only used "she" instead.Speaking of cooking by myself, I didn’t realize that Xu Ruohua was leaning against the wall behind her and staring at her thoughtfully. The girl’s delicate face was full of laughter; when talking about the escape from the secret room, her sister picked her up and ran away without any reason. Danger left himself behind, with a touch of tenderness in his eyes.

Uncle listened, his heart became clear, his old eyes seemed to be more tired, seeing Nan Youshu talking endlessly, he felt sad and helpless, if he was not wrong, this may have far surpassed the "dependence" "The extent of it.

"You go with uncle to meet a man, he... belongs to uncle... Yes, he is a former student of uncle."

"Well, okay? I'll listen to uncle."

However, upon reaching the destination, there is only one grave.The uncle led Nan Youshu closer as if he was enduring great pain again.Nan Youshu thought that his uncle and student were still alive, but he didn't think so. He was just holding a handful of loess. Seeing his uncle's expression, he felt extremely sad. He must be a very important person.

The uncle's voice trembled a little: "Shushu, this is the first time I've told you my secret. The people in the village only know that I've never been married and have no children, but they don't know that I also have a lover, but...he is now It's under the Yellow Spring, and I don't know if it's safe or not."

The photo in front of the grave is clearly a man, and it says that the son of a certain person, Zhao Shiyan, died at the age of 28.Nan Youshu's pupils widened, and he repeatedly confirmed what his uncle said. If he understood correctly, his uncle likes...men, and, moreover, his students?

"Shi Yan, I'll come to see you. Your family is doing well, so don't worry." The uncle avoided Nan Youshu's eyes, sat quietly beside the grave, drank a few glasses of white wine, and began to talk to himself Previous stories:

Uncle had just qualified for the post of teacher at that time, so he went to a high school here to work as a head teacher. Since he was a young new teacher, all the boys in the class were tall and big, and the uncle had a soft temper and couldn't control the students.Every time, there is a boy who helps me shout for order, but it is useless. Instead, everyone often laughs at this boy. His name is Zhao Shiyan.Later, when I became proficient, I knew the method, and I was able to control the students a little bit, only then did I pay attention to the boys who helped me from the beginning.

There were also some bad ethos in the previous school, for example, the children of workers looked down on the children of farmers.Zhao Shiyan is a typical farm boy.The uncle observed for a long time and found that boys talk less, and they always wear the same clothes and never change them, but there is no peculiar smell on their bodies.The uncle went back to school and dealt with him as a friend. At first, the boy was a little shy, but later he realized that the boy’s family conditions were not good, and he didn’t want to tell his family that he wanted to buy clothes. Boys, it’s not that bad. Delicate, so I wash a piece of clothing after school on Friday, dry it immediately after washing, and wear it again for 5 days on Monday... If it can’t be dried on a cloudy and rainy day, it will be a little moist, and I can put it on as usual. Good not to be sick...

The uncle looked at the shy boy and felt uncomfortable.After saving three months' wages, I took the boy to the market and bought a suit of clothes for the boy.Unexpectedly, an ordinary caring was indeed the beginning of this evil relationship.

Zhao Shiyan began to work hard, and he always put [-] points on spirituality in the subjects he taught, no matter how profound and boring the subjects he taught, it seemed that because of this kindness, Zhao Shiyan was always supporting him.To be honest, it would be very frustrating for a teacher to teach without anyone listening. With this serious student, other workers' children naturally don't want to be inferior to him, and they start to listen to the class seriously. If someone learns, the uncle will teach without reservation.

The two became confidantes because their ages were not much different.We climbed mountains together, read books together, yelled together on the hills at night, and waded on the grass to admire the stars together.In the eyes of the uncle, he was just a confidant, and he could have lived in peace like this forever, but one day Zhao Shiyan gently hugged him from behind, the uncle turned around in astonishment, the boy just said openly, thank you.

At that time, it was different from today. It was abnormal and wrong to have such feelings. It was to the point of being sent to a mental hospital for rectification. The uncle was very flustered, not because Zhao Shiyan hugged him, but because Zhao Shiyan hugged him. At that moment, he couldn't deceive himself, he was just a confidant.

But, how can that be?That's my student! He's still a man! I'm a beast for thinking like this, how many people have to spit on me?

Just when the uncle was about to submit his resignation letter to the school and intend to leave the city completely, something happened to Zhao Shiyan's family and he stopped studying.

The uncle was so anxious that he didn't go to class that day, so he ran to Zhao Shiyan's house after the class was transferred. Zhao Shiyan's eyes were red and he was trembling from crying. Incomplete, broken by gravel.When Zhao Shiyan saw his uncle coming, he avoided his uncle's naked eyes for the first time.

"You stopped reading?"

"My family is like this, how can I read?"

"I can pay your tuition."

"I heard that teacher, you drafted your resignation letter. I'm sorry, I forced you. It seems to be me who is sick. I also feel very disgusted."

"Zhao Shiyan! You! You... are not sick."

The two never said it clearly, but they both knew that this absurd and unspeakable relationship had already taken root.

"You...follow me." The uncle lowered his voice and said to Zhao Shiyan.

Zhao Shiyan suddenly smiled wryly: "Do you dare? Teacher Nan." After being silent for a long time, he said again: "You are the teacher; I am the student. Both of us are men."

"I dare." The uncle struggled for a long time, and when he looked at Zhao Shiyan, he was completely defeated. When he said it, he couldn't believe it.

Zhao Shiyan probably didn't expect it, he was stunned for a few minutes, and said softly: "Okay. After I finish burying my parents, I will follow you."

A wind blew through the skirts of the two men, and the uncle remembered that Zhao Shiyan was eighteen years old.A few days later, the uncle came to Zhao Shiyan's house as promised, but the door was locked tightly.

The uncle smashed the door of his house anxiously, but no one answered, and finally found a letter: Teacher Nan, I think, the moment you stepped into the classroom, I fell in love with you.Do you feel sick when you say like the word?When you turn around to write chalk characters, I will look at your straight back in a daze.I shouldn't have hope at first, but you took me to buy clothes. This kind of concern is unprecedented for me. Maybe I made a mistake. When I hugged you, I felt that you were hiding from me. Later, I heard from my classmates Said that you submitted your resignation because of this, plus the family accident, I think it is a punishment from God, and I also feel disgusted.

I don't know if what you said that day was the truth or a lie, but teacher, I suddenly understood that if you love someone, you can't be so selfish. I can't let you be criticized because of myself, and I can't rush into your life. If...you didn't meet me, you would have a virtuous wife, and a lovely daughter or son... So, rather than being my lover, I hope you are just my mentor.When the teacher saw this letter, I should have been gone for a few days.Meeting you is a blessing in life, but I hope we will never see each other again, best wishes.Zhao Shiyan personally opened it.

From then on, Zhao Shiyan disappeared without a trace, as if he had really evaporated from the world.The uncle's resignation letter is still handed in, and this place is still here, but without that person, what is left?Only the two parties involved knew about this matter, but speaking out, at that time, it was tantamount to seeking death. Zhao Shiyan gave his uncle a "perfect" love.

But only the uncle himself knows how many nights of guilt and longing he has experienced alone. His sense of morality and his own emotions seem to tear his head apart.The uncle became a teacher teaching everywhere to comfort himself that he could find the trace of Zhao Shiyan. Maybe it was hard work that paid off, and the two really saw each other again.

When I saw Zhao Shiyan again, he was wearing the kung fu of a chemical factory and was cleaning his bicycle. When he saw who was coming, his hands froze, and then he pretended to be suddenly enlightened, and shouted "heart-heartedly", "Teacher."

The uncle's eyes were red at that time, and he punched Zhao Shiyan, but it was useless because Zhao Shiyan didn't hide.

"Do you know how hard it was for me to find you?"

"I didn't expect you, teacher, to persevere until now."

"go home."

"Where are you going? Where is my home?"

"I'm here."

"But I already have a home."

The author has something to say: Why did I write this paragraph, because I want Nan Youshu to realize that my feelings are not dependence, but love, and love! (Roaring)

Uncle: I originally wanted Nan Youshu to retreat in the face of difficulties.

Nan Youshu: Thank you, Uncle, I understand, when you meet someone you like, you should cherish it and grasp it.

Uncle: ...Hey, you kid.

Xu Ruohua:?How can I become my own wife after supporting her.

感谢在2021-03-0613:57:13~2021-03-0717:28:06期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of sara;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!