Idol's Doomsday Survival Guide

Always.

Always.

The word echoed in his head.

Had he really, been watching him all this time?No matter when, that kind of youthful and ignorant, loving and stupid eyes never moved away from him?

He kept watching him.Keep looking at him.Been looking forward to something.

For the first time, Zou Tu had the courage to face the answers to all the questions.

His lips, his words betrayed the shrinking and the fear that had been kept to this day.Zou Tu's pupils contracted violently, his heart was beating wildly, and his blood was boiling all over his body.He couldn't control himself anymore, under the gaze of Ji Nanze who was so tender that he didn't blame him at all, he believed it.

He believes that all confessions can be forgiven.

can be understood.

Dry lips collided up and down: "I have been watching you since a long, long time ago, senior."

"I said, it's really been a long time. I've been waiting for you for a long time too. Even...a year ago, at the student congress, it wasn't the first time we met."

"It's just that you forgot about me." Zou Tu lowered his head, his lips trembling, he hesitated, and said, "You just forgot, many, many years ago, so long that you might not even remember. There is another one, almost A person who has been forgotten by the world. He is waiting for you, waiting for you every day, waiting for the food you donate, waiting for the...you figure that you can see every time you look out of the broken window."

Zou Tu looked at him, his lips pursed.

"Senior, how many days is 15 years? More than 5000 days..."

"I have been waiting for you for 15 years, and for more than 5000 days. Every time I lie on the window, every time I look at a street I have never seen, a strange world, and pedestrians coming and going, I feel, It's like I don't belong in this world."

He was embraced by a pair of arms.

He buried the other party's sleeve, buried in his elegant scent, and wept softly.

Those tears of blood, confession of love and sin, strangled his heart.Everything that Zou Tu used to have, all the things that they couldn't sort out between them, everything was finally explained today.

Fifteen years ago, he had given away only one thing, and it seemed like nothing worth mentioning at all.

Just a warm meal.

Just a mother and son living next door to him.

The sacrifice of life and death along the way, the trust along the way, and even the pain and dedication along the way are not without reason.

It's not something that can be explained in a single sentence of kindness.Zou Tu's reason for doing this was never to repay his small favor at the congress, it was just an excuse.

An excuse to make his contributions not seem so absurd, an excuse to avoid being questioned by his own conscience.

Ji Nanze couldn't say anything, he hugged Zou Tu tightly in his arms.The lips eagerly brushed his ears, his face, and then moved to the other's trembling lips.

"Oh it's you."

The soft tongue pried open the clenched jaw in one fell swoop, and he watched Zou Tu's eyes from below.Those were a pair of firm and wild eyes. Only when they met him, these hard camouflages would be frozen into aggrieved, helpless, attention-seeking eyes.

"Oh it's you."

His index finger brushed against each other's cheeks, and his eyelashes scraped against each other's skin.Ji Nanze's hands gradually closed on the back of Zou Tu's head, and he felt a little out of breath, but their colliding lips and entangled tongues seemed to be burning, the sticky saliva, and the panting between the lips and teeth.He realized they were kissing, but so what?

This is a kiss, a real kiss, a kiss that both parties agree to, a mutual understanding, a kiss that neither party is willing to admit defeat first.

It was the end of a century in 15 years.

It is the first time in 15 years that the earth has returned to spring.

We are not petty favors, nor are we easy to do.Not a charity, not a request.

We are meant to be.

"Oh it's you……"

***

"So you lied to me that your father wasn't in jail at all?"

"I'm sorry, I was afraid that you would be afraid, so I lied. But my mother's story is absolutely true. "

Zou Tu blushed and looked up at the number board inside the elevator car. It seemed that Shouhou and the others had left the key in the elevator room, which gave them the opportunity to use this elevator.So far, the power issue has not affected the elevators.Before they went in, the numbers had already stayed on the second basement floor.It seems that the thin monkey and the others may have arrived at the underground garage safely.

They stood close together, standing in the corner of the elevator, silently watching the numbers slide down from the 25th floor.The numbers jump very slowly, and the time seems to be infinitely extended.

"Zou Tu, why didn't you tell me at that time?" Ji Nanze spoke first, he looked at the numbers, and then gently pulled Zou Tu's hand behind his back, "You even lied to me, saying it was only because of the student congress. "

"I don't want that either." Zou Tu's face was still blushing fiercely, "I'm afraid that my senior will misunderstand, and I'm afraid that that night will really become your psychological shadow. So I have never dared to confess."

Ji Nanze couldn't help laughing: "For my age, it was indeed a bit. However, after knowing that the child is you, I don't feel scared anymore."

"Why, why." Zou Tu swallowed as if he wanted to hear the answer.

"Because it's you, Zou Tu." He looked ahead with an extremely gentle expression on his face, "Because it's you. I don't need to argue, I will trust you unconditionally."

Zou Tu lowered his head in embarrassment, staring at the toe of his shoe, blushing as if bleeding: "Si, since you really believe me, senior, do you want me to explain?"

"Well, listen."

"That man was a researcher at the base laboratory at that time. It's a long story. I told my seniors before that 17 years ago, my grandfather's 'immortality' experiment was suspended. In the same year, the laboratory was also urgently closed down. The fundamental reason is that the news of the human experiment was leaked by insiders." He said, "After that, the laboratory was pushed to the forefront, and it also split into two factions, the conservative and the radical."

"Which faction does your grandfather belong to?"

"Conservatives, he believes that once the experiment is launched, it has developed in an irreversible direction. Even if there is no financial support, this experiment must continue."

Ji Nanze's face was a little ugly when he heard it: "But you were also the only experimental product back then, and you were the center of the storm."

Zou Tu looked at him as if comforting, and gradually tightened his fingers: "It's okay, don't worry about me. These things have passed, 17 years ago, even if the grave is dug up, the wound will not hurt. So, Since the senior doesn't mind my past at all, I'll tell you everything... I won't hide anything from you anymore."

Ji Nanze scratched his palm with his fingers: "Okay, I'll listen."

"I was still very young at the time, and I didn't remember many things. But when I was young, I was locked in the room of the laboratory. I couldn't get out, and people outside couldn't see me. I could only wait for them to come in , looking at a room that will not change in any way, reading an almost torn "Little Tin Soldier", spending countless years in the laboratory where I don't know the number."

Ji Nanze leaned his head on his shoulder and didn't speak.

"The experiments were basically performed after injection of anesthesia, so I don't know the specific content. It's just that one day, a woman broke into the room I was in. She didn't say anything, but I could see through the glass. People were running chaotically in the corridor. She injected three shots of sedative into my neck, put me in a sack, and took me out of the laboratory."

Hearing him talking about experiments and sedatives, Ji Nanze turned pale, moved his lips, and touched Zou Tu's neck a few times with his fingers.There are no pinholes on it anymore, but his movements are very gentle, as if he is really comforting a big dog with bruises all over his body.Zou Tu looked at him and couldn't help but smile.

"Is the senior feeling sorry for me?"

"It hurts, it hurts so much." Ji Nanze looked at him, a little sad, "How old were you at that time, I was at an age when I couldn't bear the pain at all, and I was subjected to human experiments and overdose of sedatives. They seemed , did not regard you as a person at all, but a beast, a beast that can endure no matter how it is treated."

Hearing what he said, Zou Tu felt warm in his heart: "I don't hurt, really, we don't worry about it anymore. I lost consciousness at that time, so I didn't know how it hurt."

But those scars remained on his body, every inch of his body was painful and bleeding.

It is a child who has endured the greed and selfishness of others at an age he shouldn't be.

He shouldn't have put up with this.

"You don't hurt, you can say you don't hurt." Ji Nanze lowered his head, looking very disappointed, "But I hurt for you, you don't care that when you tell these stories, my heart twitches with you , It hurts unbelievably. But I want to keep listening, I think... I know you better than I did 15 years ago." He said, and slowly clasped his ten fingers together.

Zou Tu looked at him in surprise, and finally smiled happily: "... Later, after I woke up from a strange room, I became that woman's money-making tool."

"A money-making tool?"

Zou Tu nodded and said, "Senior, do you still remember the 'immortality' experiment I accepted? The experiment had an irreversible effect on my body. Similarly, this made my organs and blood retain part of the vaccine's effect. So , she sold me as a source of organ transplants to powerful elites at home and abroad, and by her side, I endured operations without anesthesia and endless blood draws all the time."

"Why? Why did she do this? Is it because of the healing effect of blood when you saved me before?"

"She can only do this, senior. My organs and blood can only be effective once on a person. If they are injured again, they will need to be re-transplanted with new organs."

Ji Nanze's face turned blue and white, his lips were murmured for a long time, and he couldn't even utter a word.