what is your vision

"Teacher Lu," Tao Jin finally opened his mouth slowly, "I don't know what's going on, just now... I just want to be recognized, so that I won't be so... different. I don't want to be excluded all the time."

"Because of your orientation?"

I don't know if it was because the sound in the store was too loud, or because the people around him didn't make a sound, Lu Yunchu didn't get a response for a long time, and when he was about to say something again, he heard Tao Jin spit out a syllable: "Yes."

Lu Yunchu asked the bartender to bring two glasses of white water, and drank half of it in one breath: "I've been here before."

"Mr. Lu, you really—"

"Yes, otherwise why would I come?"

The noise around them seemed to have weakened, at least the booth space they were in was relatively quiet.

"Seven or eight years ago, maybe less than 10 minutes." Lu Yunchu glanced at him, "I can't find your so-called sense of identity here."

Tao Jin's body seemed to tremble again, and his voice was choked with sobs: "I don't really want to...but I don't understand, what did I do wrong..."

"Who said you were wrong?" Lu Yunchu asked speculatively, "Your parents?"

He didn't shake his head or nod: "Not only that, but he—"

There is a buddy in Tao Jin's class who has a good relationship and has always taken good care of him.

"I can't forget, he looked at me like he saw a psychopath, he said I was abnormal, I was so wrong, our relationship was completely over...

"I even came out to my parents because of him, and they don't know why."

Lu Yunchu finally understood where Tao Jin's heaviness came from: "Is your parents' divorce related to your matter?"

"Not completely," he said as if he had found an outlet, "their relationship is not good, and they blamed each other because of my affairs, Mr. Lu, do you believe it, I hoped that they would divorce a long time ago. "

Tao Jin's words reminded Lu Yunchu of a long memory. When he was in the first class of kindergarten, the teacher asked everyone to make wishing cards and paste them on the blackboard at the back of the classroom.

The children in the same class basically wrote words full of warmth and friendship, such as "I hope to become a scientist in the future", "I hope my mother will buy me a doll", "I hope my grandma recovers from illness". Only Lu Yunchu wrote "I want to Run away from home with my mother" a few words.In the end, he didn't hand in the card, no matter how the teacher asked him, he insisted that he lost it.

"My father said that I was a gloomy child since I was a child. I was not cute at all. I didn't know what I was thinking all day long..." Tao Jin continued, "Yeah, I am not cute and worthy of love. Become cheerful, but now he doesn't talk to me anymore, and I don't even want to go home..."

Besides being in love with a straight man, Lu Yunchu also experienced Tao Jin's many experiences.Because of his experience, he knows that the intervention of outsiders' words may be counterproductive.He neither stopped nor commented, and waited for Tao Jin to finish what he wanted to say.

"Is it better?" When he came to an end, Lu Yunchu asked again.

"Well," he turned his head, "Ms. Lu, do you ever feel very hard?"

"It used to be." It was hard work because I was different from ordinary people, and I couldn't seek approval from people close to me, but once I stopped pinning my hopes on others, those invisible shackles that imprisoned me would naturally disappear. "Now I want to Live for yourself."

He glanced at the other party lightly: "If you can't figure it out, don't think about it for the time being. I can't give you any guidance. There are no fixed answers to these things."

"I know, I'm much better, thank you," he stood up slowly, "Ms. Lu, let's go."

The lights of the city illuminated the dark night with colorful lights, and also injected boundless noise. After eight o'clock, there were no fewer pedestrians and vehicles on the street.

Just as the two opened the door, another strange man followed him: "Are you interested in playing together, two little brothers?"

The person he met this time looked fiercer than the previous one, with a scar on his forehead, Tao Jin subconsciously took a step back.

"No need," Lu Yunchu didn't want to confront people head-on, "We're leaving."

"Don't—" He put his hand on Lu Yunchu's shoulder from behind, "I saw you all inside, and you didn't drink any bars? It's still early, how about two more drinks?"

Lu Yunchu moved away calmly, distanced himself from the man, grabbed Tao Jin and was about to move forward, when he suddenly heard someone calling him: "Lu Yunchu!"

He looked around for the source of the sound.

Zhou Yanchuan was standing a few meters away, and he would quickly walk up to them.He had also seen Tao Jin before, only the man with the scar on his face didn't know where he came from.

The man with the scar probably drank too much wine, his face was flushed, and he said bluntly, "Do you know each other?"

"Of course," Zhou Yanchuan guessed that he was not a serious person, "who are you?"

"We don't know him," Lu Yunchu immediately said to Zhou Yanchuan, "Let's get out of here first."

Zhou Yanchuan looked at the flashing neon bar sign behind them, suppressed his doubts, and nodded.

The strange man still didn't look back, and was reprimanded by Zhou Yanchuan, "What are you looking at?" before turning around resentfully.

Anyone who has lived in Sencheng for a while knows what "Mei Shang" is, and Zhou Yanchuan is no exception.

He was extremely surprised to see Lu Yunchu and Tao Jin walking out of it.But the entrance of the store was indeed not a good place to talk, and there were many strange people staring at them, so they had to leave first as Lu Yunchu said.

"Why are you here?" Before Zhou Yanchuan said anything, Lu Yunchu asked first.

"Dining with someone at Baihe."

Just after he finished saying this sentence, Zhou Yanchuan noticed that Tao Jin who was standing beside him suddenly stopped in his tracks, staring at the front in panic, and he followed suit.

The source of Tao Jin's drastic change should be the middle-aged woman walking towards them with an angry face.

Sure enough, she stopped in front of Tao Jin, gave him a gouged look, glanced at Zhou Yanchuan and Lu Yunchu, and then fell back on Tao Jin, pointed at them and asked, "Which of them are you?" man?"

Zhou Yanchuan and Lu Yunchu were shocked when they heard the sound.