Xu Kaici's hair is green or not

Although he knew in his heart that Cheng Hangyi would definitely drive back to his big G again, but when he got to the car, Xu Kaici still couldn't help but sigh in his heart.

I don't know what to actually feel emotional about. Anyway, when I saw this car, I had a lot of thoughts in my mind for a moment, and I suppressed them all one by one. In the end, I can only conclude that things are unpredictable in an old-fashioned way.

Xu Kaici looked up at Cheng Hangyi who was standing next to him indiscriminately. He never thought that he and Cheng Hangyi could go home together in this car.

He didn't even dare to think about this kind of thing, even when he thought he was dying several times, he didn't dare to dream about it. After all, for Xu Kaici, this kind of thought was too vague and out of his reach.

As soon as Cheng Hang came back, it was already beyond his expectations. When he couldn't control himself, he inadvertently expressed his thoughts.

How dare they hope that one day, they can be carried into the car by Cheng Hang and go home together.

As soon as Cheng Hang lowered his head and was about to say something, he found Xu Kaici looking up at him. He smiled at Xu Kaici, and started to rub Xu Kaici's fluffy hair that was now slightly brown.

With a bit of embarrassment in his smile, he bent down and untied his belt and said, "I don't know if I haven't carried you into the car for so long, whether I can hold you up now."

It was obvious that he was joking when he said this, Xu Kaici just smiled and asked him: "Then why don't you send me back to the ward?"

The car was still the same car. Because of the high chassis, it was a bit awkward and laborious to hold Xu Kaici into the car before. I didn't expect it to be so much easier this time. In the final analysis, it was because Xu Kaici was thinner.

He has lost too much weight, and every time Cheng Hang picked him up, he felt that his waist was so thin that it might break if he tried harder.

Thinking of this, Cheng Hang couldn't help but lowered his head and muttered: "Why is it so difficult for you to eat two more bites?"

A few days ago, Xu Kaici's condition took a turn for the worse, and now he doesn't even have much strength in his left hand, even if it's on Cheng Hangyi's shoulder, it's just a weak hand, and he can't use a little strength to hook it like before. with.

He just sat on the co-pilot unsteadily, and let Cheng Hang help him, but he didn't expect that when Cheng Hang helped him fasten his seat belt, he suddenly got very close, and the tips of their noses were almost touching. Together.

Cheng Hang's body smells really good, it's the smell of laundry detergent that the two of them used at home all the time when they were together.Compared with the smell of disinfectant and antibiotics that can't be dispersed on my body, it smells so good.

It's good to hear that Xu Kaici's mind is full of this smell, and he can't react to anything else.

Before he could react, and before he had time to turn his head away, he was kissed by Cheng Hang.Before he could get angry or shocked, he saw Cheng Hang smiling brightly again.

"I never thought I'd be able to drive this car home with you one day, but I've long wanted to hug you in the car and kiss you."

Xu Kaici felt very helpless, but he didn't seem to feel that he was against it when he came back to his senses. After all, he liked Cheng Hangyi, but he didn't like himself.

He turned his head and didn't say anything, but told Cheng Hang to quickly put away the wheelchair and get in the car.

After being paralyzed, Xu Kaici took his uncle's car and Xu's car. Later, he and his nurse also called Didi special car when they went out, and Qi Tong drove him for a while.

In comparison, Cheng Hangyi's car was the most difficult to get into, but it was the car he felt most comfortable to sit in.I can't tell why, but I just feel that this car is good everywhere, so good that the string he has been tense will relax.

There is no messy car aromatherapy in the car, and there is no fancy interior decoration, just a slight breeze blowing at a suitable temperature has already satisfied Xu Kaici.

He was so comfortable that he didn't even realize that he was smiling slightly, his eyes were peaceful and satisfied.

At the traffic lights, Cheng Hangyi moved his hand closer as before, but he retracted just as soon as he touched Xu Kaici's hand.

He smiled and scolded himself: "Look at my habit, I can't get rid of it. Don't be angry, I haven't touched it yet."

But he was also a chicken thief. Although he didn't touch Xu Kaici, he didn't put his hand back to the steering wheel, and put it not far from Xu Kaici's hand.Even after the car started, he didn't retract it, but his slender fingers tapped intentionally or unintentionally, very relaxed, without any embarrassment in his mouth.

He was concentrating on looking at the road, and didn't pay attention to his hand, but suddenly felt a trace of cold passing over the back of his hand, and touched him again after a while.

Cheng Hang thought it was Xu Kaici who was having convulsions, so he turned his head to look at Xu Kaici quickly, and found that it was not. His legs were still resting quietly, and the other arm was also quietly placed on his legs. Only his left hand dangled against Cheng Hang. The back of Hang Yi's hand.

Xu Kaici is like this, if he wants to really hold something or touch something, he is often inaccurate, and he always has to go back and forth several times before he can aim at the target.

Cheng Hang laughed, he retracted his eyes and controlled the steering wheel, and held Xu Kaici's hand with his free hand.Xu Kaici's hands were curled up, and Cheng Hang was afraid that it would be uncomfortable to hold him so whole, so he pressed his palms on the seat, then spread Xu Kaici's fingers with his fingers, and scratched his soft palm a few times.

Xu Kaici's palm is very soft, if you touch it carefully, you will feel a little nail mark, which is left by his last two fingers curled up so badly.

Cheng Hang didn't even need to look at it, he could easily move his fingers away, and then hold his fingers interlockingly.

Xu Kaici didn't utter a word or resist, just let Cheng Hang hold his hand, and stroked his particularly protruding wrist bone with his thumb.

If Cheng Hang couldn't get rid of the habit of holding his hand in the car, how could he get rid of it?

He asked for it all on his own, Cheng Hang is thick-skinned, and he is a scumbag.Saying no, forget it, in fact, he desires Cheng Hangyi's warm hug and interlocking fingers more than anyone else.

Thinking of this, Xu Kaici felt a little embarrassed, he coughed uncomfortably, then turned his head away, no longer staring at the interlaced hands of the two.

The journey took only four to ten minutes, and when Cheng Hang stabilized the car, he realized that Xu Kaici had turned his head and fell asleep.

Cheng Hang stood in front of the car door and smiled silently, "Brother, we're home."

Xu Kaici didn't open his eyes, and fell asleep with shallow breathing.Cheng Hang helped him unbuckle some seat belts, and he just fell softly into Cheng Hang's arms.

"Hold me up..." Xu Kaici tilted his head and rubbed against Cheng Hangyi's neck. He just woke up and didn't want to open his eyes, nor did he have the energy to raise his arms.Just leaning in Cheng Hang's arms without center of gravity, let him carry himself upstairs directly.

He really fell asleep, and he doesn't want to wake up this time. These 10 minutes of short sleep can be regarded as the most comfortable sleep recently, and he just wants to continue to fall asleep like this,

When his feet were in the air, Xu Kaici's toes pointed to the ground, and they were still shaking, and the shoes fell off his feet before he took two steps.

Cheng Hang ignored the shoes on the ground and still walked towards the elevator with Xu Kaici in his arms.

The stainless steel mirror in the elevator reflected two people's indistinct figures. You can vaguely see Xu Kaici's round, soft and hanging feet moving slightly. The socks are piled up to the ankles, making his exposed calf slender And fair.

In front of the elevator is the door, Cheng Hang felt a little sore, he lifted Xu Kaici up, and said in a daze: "Xu Kaici, we are finally home."

No one responded, and no response was needed.

Just looking down at the person in his arms is already the best response.

-

Xu Kaici didn't know how long he had slept, as if his memory was suddenly taken away for a few hours, when he woke up, he was already lying in a familiar yet unfamiliar room, and his clothes and pants were changed into his familiar ones Light gray loungewear.

It must have been prepared in advance, the quilt was fluffy, with the familiar smell of laundry detergent.The room was also kept spotless. Looking sideways, there was a cup of slightly steaming warm water on the bedside table.The wheelchair was parked aside, and the cotton slippers were neatly placed aside.

Everything is exactly the same as before, and it seems that everything is brand new.

Xu Kaici let out a muffled snort, twisted his arm to the side, and soon his hand was held by the person next to him.

"I'm here." Cheng Hang lay beside him, and hugged Xu Kaici along Xu Kaici's arm.

He held Xu Kaici in his arms, rubbed his waist lightly, put his head on Xu Kaici's shoulder, looked sleepily at Xu Kaici in his arms and said: "You have been asleep for a long time, I can't eat It's done, and I slept with you for a long time and you didn't wake up."

Every temptation to suppress fear finally got a response this time.

Xu Kaici was finally able to put his heart back to its original position once it fell slowly.

He didn't show any expression, but closed his eyes again and leaned against Cheng Hangyi.In the clean and soft quilt, quietly enjoying this rare peace of mind.

After a while, he turned his head slightly and asked Cheng Hangyi: "You still haven't said why you brought me back?"

"Hmm..." Cheng Hang didn't answer in a hurry, he just turned Xu Kaici over, and the two of them cuddled face to face.

He pulled Xu Kaici's weak arm over, wrapped it around his waist, looked into Xu Kaici's eyes seriously and said, "How do you say that line in "Happy Together"?"

……

Xu Kaici felt a sudden throbbing pain in his back, which made him gasp, as if something rushed from his body, and it was stuck in his throat.

Not caring about getting dizzy when he got up suddenly, he eagerly patted Cheng Hangyi, motioning for Cheng Hangyi to help him up.

Fortunately, Cheng Hang moved quickly, and he was prepared beforehand. He rolled over and got out of bed, helped Xu Kaici to the edge of the bed, pulled out the trash can, and brought him to Xu Kaici.

He vomited again, his chest rose and fell violently, causing his limbs to tremble.The legs and feet that were originally softly buried in the quilt suddenly twitched like clockwork, and the quilt was messed up, and the dropped socks were kicked aside by him along with the quilt.

There was vomit mixed with blood hanging around Xu Kaici's mouth. He felt so dirty, and subconsciously wanted to reach out to wipe it off, but his hand was shaking all the time, and he couldn't lift it up at all, and even fell under the bed with this movement.

"Bang bang bang" knocked on the edge of the bed, and her delicate fingers immediately turned red.

That bit of consciousness was occupied by pain, the twisted leg was out of his control, and the arm hanging under the bed was unable to lift it.

In addition to the pain, the little space in my mind that I can still think about is only circling that line.

— Why don't we start over.

Cheng Hang pulled the paper towel on the table to wipe off the stains around Xu Kaici's mouth, put his dangling arm back on the bed for him, and supported him in his arms.

He brought the water glass to Xu Kaici's mouth, fed him a sip of warm water slowly, and let him spit it out, so that his mouth would not feel so uncomfortable.

Xu Kaici wanted to speak, but his throat hurt so badly that he couldn't make a sound after moving his lips a few times. Instead, he burst into tears because of the unspeakable pain all over his body. The pain made him gasp for breath.

After the spasm passed, his right leg was bent again. It was not as soft as it was in the elevator at all, it was bent stiffly, and the kneecap was raised high.

You don't need to experience it personally, just looking at his appearance, Cheng Hang feels enough to imagine how much pain he has.

"Don't...don't make this kind of joke again...here...here..." Xu Kaici squeezed out a few words from between his teeth. Every time he said a few words, he had to take a few breaths before he could continue. It has only been a moment now, and there are already dense beads of sweat on his forehead.

"It's over again, do you believe it?" Before Lian Chenghang's face changed drastically, Xu Kaici finally said the last question.

Xu Kaici finally understands now that Cheng Hangyi still hasn't learned anything.

Even if he knows the answer, even if he sees his heart clearly, even if he understands how much Xu Kaici loves him.

But he is still that Cheng Hangyi, he is still that naive Cheng Hangyi up to now.

Cheng Hang could still forget the past with a smile, and then calmly said that it would be better to start over, but Xu Kaici no longer had the courage to start over.

Xu Kaici didn't even have time to start over.

"I see, would you like to get up and have something to eat with me?"

Cheng Hangyi's complexion was not very good, his eyelids fluttered slightly, and the stye was particularly obvious.After a pause, he said again: "It's okay if you don't want to, I'll help you lie down and give you a massage, and you can rest for a while. I don't mean anything else, I just think... the first meal back here, both of us Better sit at the table."

Originally, he wanted to claim credit in front of Xu Kaici. During the few hours after Xu Kaici fell asleep, he stewed a pot of delicious chicken soup, mixed the pot of chicken soup with scallops to make porridge, and tore up the chicken Made a plate of crumbled chicken floss.

I wanted to use this meal to celebrate his and Xu Kaici's first meal back home, or the first meal they had all over again.

It's just that I can't say these things now, and I can't even get the pot of porridge out of the kitchen.

Xu Kaici didn't speak, and Cheng Hang didn't even want to get up when he got up.Also, he was in such severe pain, how could he still get up?

He supported Xu Kaici's back and was about to put him back on the bed when he heard Xu Kaici say, "No, you clean it up for me, I want to get up."

Cheng Hang froze for a moment, his swollen eyelids throbbed again.He reacted quickly and nodded.

"Not urgent."

The chicken soup and porridge on the stove are slowly simmering, and there is a faint aroma.Cheng Hangyi was rubbing Xu Kaici's stiff muscles and joints with a hot towel until his legs softened.

He originally wanted to help Xu Kaici put the socks back on, but now his feet were a little swollen, Cheng Hang thought about them for a while, and finally decided to give up, just picked up Xu Kaici and put him in the wheelchair.

Xu Kaici leaned crookedly in the wheelchair, his arms dangling out of the armrest a few times before slowly retracting himself back to the armrest of the wheelchair, but he couldn't align the joystick no matter what.

Fearing that Xu Kaici's back would be even more painful if he moved around like this, Cheng Hangyi simply put his hands on his legs, and then put on and took off his shoes for him.

He raised his head and asked Xu Kaici: "Would you like to eat something later? Or just eat a few casual bites with me?"

Xu Kaici still had a sore throat, he shook his head, now he didn't want to eat anything, but was moved by Cheng Hangyi's first meal home.

The first meal at home is to sit at the dining table.

Cheng Hang nodded, instead of forcing Xu Kaici forcefully, he just pushed him to the dining table, and brought out a plate of side dishes and a bottle of white wine.

Before leaving the kitchen, Xu Kaici looked at the chicken porridge on the stove, smiled wryly, then turned back and turned off the fire.

Sitting at the dining table again, it was Xu Kaici who was puzzled. He looked at Cheng Hang calmly filling himself a glass and asked him, "Don't you drink the chicken soup on the stove?"

Cheng Hang smiled and said nothing, raised his head and drank the whole glass of wine.

"Don't eat, I'm not hungry at all, that's fine. I'll feed you when you feel better later, it's... specially prepared for you." Unable to escape Xu Kaici's gaze, Cheng Hang was still hungry after swallowing the liquor. Open your mouth to explain.

So what if it was specially prepared, it couldn't be forced into Xu Kaici's mouth.

"Actually, you don't have to..." Xu Kaici sat across from Cheng Hang. He moved his arm and still put his wrist on the joystick. He stepped back a little, and then slowly turned to Cheng Hang's side.

Raising his wrist, he held down Cheng Hangyi's hand, preventing him from continuing to drink.

"Actually, you don't need to do this. I just want to breathe a sigh of relief when I come back. As you said, I don't want to spend the last time in the hospital. I don't think it's worth celebrating this time, and I don't think I'm going home just because I plan to go home. Let's start all over again with you. As soon as Cheng Hang, let's finish this period quietly, don't make a fuss."

As soon as Cheng Hang let go of the wine glass, he turned around and looked at Xu Kaici steadfastly. Even wearing black-rimmed glasses, it was not difficult to see that his eyes were very dark, and those words that could not be said turned into fog that could not be dispelled. .

"I know. I just..., obviously I know that you like me and rely on me, even now you still want me to be with you all the time from the bottom of your heart, but why are you, there is no way to start over with me Come again?"

He was a little agitated, grabbed Xu Kaici's hand, pushed his fingers away as he did in the car and squeezed him tightly, and asked him: "Didn't you take the initiative to rub my hand when we were in the car? You still say you don't like it? Did you really feel moved when you heard that you were going home with me? Otherwise, why would you agree quietly without saying a word? "

Xu Kaici moved his fingers, he wanted to withdraw his arm, to step back, to stay away from Cheng Hang, and to stay away from this tenderness.

"But I'm dying..."

On the contrary, this movement made Cheng Hang grab his hand more tightly, and the disparity in strength made Xu Kaici have nothing to do at all.

"I know, did I stop you?"

"But I'm dying."

"I know, I know, but I still want to start over."

"But I'm fucking dying! Cheng Hangyi, what you said is useless. I'm not interested in whether you love me or not. I don't want to start over."

Sitting here and eating with Cheng Hang is already very reluctant. His body hurts, from his back to his limbs, as well as his throat. It hurts so much that he is shivering every time he moves or speaks. gas.

He sat tremblingly across from Cheng Hang, for some reason, he suddenly felt very sad, so sad that his nose hurt too.

Tears escaped from the eyes without permission and fell down the chin.

"Cheng Cheng, I used to hate a lot. You only guessed half right. I was anxious and fearful, but I also had hatred. I hated Xu Chunye and you. You may not know that these emotions mixed together almost made me confused. crazy."

Xu Kaici had tears in his eyes, but he laughed again, and said with a smile: "But I can't even hate now, I don't have any emotions, and your return is already the most comforting thing to me." Something happened. On the day you came back, I felt that the ward had burst into a new color, and I felt that I could see you before I died, which was already something to be happy about."

Cheng Hangyi's tears fell down in big drops.

Listen, Xu Kaici misses Cheng Hangyi very much.

He raised his hand to wipe away Xu Kaici's tears, these were Xu Kaici's tears that he had not seen much.I don't know if it's lucky or not, every time Xu Kaici shed tears, Cheng Hangyi was there, and it was Cheng Hangyi who wiped the tears off his face.

"However, these still can't stop..."

Before he finished speaking, his cold lips were covered by warm lips.

Still smelling of strong wine, he rushed towards Xu Kaici eagerly, blocking Xu Kaici's overwhelming grief.

"Xu Kaici, you'll be fine, I'll pull you back, I want you to last a long time, and then start over with me..."