Xu Kaici's hair is green or not

Xu Kaici still maintained the posture before Cheng Hang left, half leaning and half lying down, but the difference was that there were more and more cushions behind and around him.

It was too late, Ning Wang persuaded him several times to let him lie down, but he just didn't listen, so he just had to sit and wait.

Sheng Guannan angrily called several times and asked when Ning Wang was going to go home?Cheng Hangyi hadn't come back yet, Ning Wang didn't dare to leave first, so he coaxed Sheng Guannan to sleep first with vague and nice words on the phone, and he went home after a while.

After hanging up the phone, Ning Wang turned around and saw Xu Kaici fell to the side again.

It’s really been sitting for a long time, and this time he fell to one side and his body trembled slightly. Ning Wang didn’t even need to lift the quilt to know that his two noodle legs had been entangled, and he was beating irregularly in the quilt with.

But fortunately, it wasn't a very severe convulsion, it came and went quickly, Ning Wang just lifted the quilt and rubbed him a few times before calming down.

It's just that when he was in spasm, his legs kept kicking around, his feet rubbed against his calves, and even half of the socks he wore on his feet were taken off, revealing his barely degraded heel, which was round and smooth, like a shell that had been peeled off. eggs.

Ning Wang helped Xu Kaici remove the cushions behind him, supported his back to make him lie flat, and carefully opened the trouser legs to check whether the wound on his leg was bleeding again.

"I was scared to death, I thought the wound had opened again." Ning Wang helped Xu Kaici put on Xu Kaici's socks, while complaining in shock.

Thinking about it, it was still Xu Kaici's fault. He pouted and patted Xu Kaici's skinny leg. He didn't know who he was angry with. He wrinkled his small face and said, "I'll let you sleep, convulsions? I I have to change that for you, and I don’t know how to do it, and it leaked in the afternoon.”

Probably why Qi Chenghang didn't come back, Xu Kaici was paralyzed for three years, although Ding Wang came back to accompany Xu Kaici for a while when he was free, but he actually didn't know many things.

It's not that he doesn't care about his friend Xu Kaici, it's because he didn't have access to these things before.In the past no matter what, Xu Kaici always had a nurse by his side, even if there was no nurse, there was Cheng Hangyi.Things like changing diapers are really out of his hands.

This time it was very strange, except that there was no nurse beside Xu Kaici, and even Mei Jing, who would definitely appear whenever he was hospitalized, was not there.

Not to mention Xu Kaici's thoughts under his mouth when Cheng Hang left today.

At first he didn't think so, but Ning Wang really felt that Cheng Hangyi just wanted to go out because of something.When it was time to eat dinner in the afternoon, Xu Kaici asked Ning Wang in embarrassment, asking Ning Wang to change his diaper.It was only after Ning Wang realized that Cheng Hang had been out for too long.

I don't know when was the last time it was replaced, but when Ning Wang stretched out his hand, it was already saturated, bulging around Xu Kaici's body.

Ning Wang recalled, it seemed that when he was in his hometown, his cousin changed the diapers for her child, so it should be similar to this.In the end, he bit the bullet and lifted Xu Kaici's shriveled butt like a tiger, and changed him to a new diaper.

It's a pity that Ning Wang didn't fix it properly, and when he found out, there was a lot of leaks on the bed.As a last resort, Xu Kaici had to be carried into the wheelchair, and the bed sheet and quilt cover were changed again for him.

Ning Wang was not as tall as Cheng Hangyi, and certainly not as strong as Cheng Hangyi, so he accidentally knocked Xu Kaici's leg while moving him.Xu Kaici didn't feel it, and when Ning Wang turned around to carry him back to the bed, he found that the wound on his leg was bleeding again.

Then Ning Wang became very angry, with self-blame and anger, he wanted to call Cheng Hangyi, urging him to come back quickly.

Xu Kaici didn't say a few words all afternoon, and kept looking sleepy, but when he heard that Ning Wang wanted to call Cheng Hang, he talked more.

He couldn't move his body, so he could only raise the volume repeatedly to confirm that he was really fine, and he didn't need to call Cheng Hangyi.Seeing Ning Wang's dubious expression, he simply lied and said to Ning Wang: "He has important matters in the regiment today, so don't influence him."

He has covered up too many times for Cheng Hangyi, and now it seems that these words can be spoken casually.It's just that Xu Kaici really doesn't know where Cheng Hangyi went.

Probably somewhere, or a certain KTV, or the karting track he likes to go to.Cheng Hang liked to go to these places with Qi Tong when he was in college. The difference is that Xu Kaici was also a frequent visitor to these places a long time ago.

The last time Xu Kaici went to these places was three years ago.

Xu Kaici wanted to stay quietly for a while, but actually he didn't want Ning Wang to come over today, but he knew very well that if Ning Wang was not allowed to come over, Cheng Hangyi would never leave.

This is actually very tiring, very tiring. When Cheng Hang wanted to go out to catch his breath, Xu Kaici himself thought that for a moment, even if it was only 10 minutes, he could stay alone for a while without answering questions or thinking about things that are useless to think about. .

It's a pity that it doesn't seem to work, Cheng Hangyi still has to come back to face the paralyzed Xu Kaici, and it is even more impossible for Xu Kaici himself to leave others.

Xu Kaici grinned, showing a relaxed smile and said to Ning Wang: "You should help me up, he will be back in a while, otherwise I fell asleep and he will wake me up again when he comes back. .”

Ning Wang ignored him, just said that he put a cushion under his bent leg, and straightened his twisted foot.

"Just lie down for me. I'll watch over you. When he comes back, I'll take him outside and beat him up. I won't wake you up." When Ning Wang said this, his brows were still frowning. While worrying about Sheng Guannan who was alone at home, and thinking about where Cheng Hangyi died, he couldn't feel the same anger in his heart.

"Oh, you're going back to rest soon when he comes back. What are you playing? I found that Xiao Ning is becoming more and more shrews now. Is this what Sheng Guannan taught you at home?" Rubbing against the back of Wang's hand, he teased and laughed softly, trying to make the atmosphere better.

Ning Wang glanced at Xu Kaici, although every couple has their own way of getting along, but for Cheng Hangyi and Xu Kaici, Ning Wang really can't figure it out.

There will only be the two of them, so Ning Wang simply asked what he wanted to ask in his heart: "What are you talking about the two of you? Tell me you don't like it, what's the matter 'you have to be buried together', what's the matter' Only him', but you say you like it..."

Ning Wang sneered, and continued contemptuously, "I didn't really see it."

After sitting for a long time, Xu Kaici's back hurt a little when he lay down. He twisted his shoulder with all his strength, trying to deceive himself into thinking that this would make him feel better.

He paused for a while and said lightly: "It's the truth, I only have him, so of course he will be buried together when he dies."

"Then do you like him?" Ning Wang sat on the edge of the bed with his arms folded, squinting at the pale Xu Kaici, when he asked this question, he already had a firm answer in his heart.

"I like it, how good he is, why don't you like him?"

"Xu Kaici, you think about it before answering. Do you really like it? Like I like Sheng Guannan, and Sheng Guannan likes me."

It was a bit windy outside, and the windows kept making "bang bang" noises.

Xu Kaici looked out the window, it should be quite cold tonight.

He turned his head, the smiles on his face disappeared, and his eyes were half-closed lazily, as if he was talking about other people's affairs.

"Xiao Ning, can't you see it? It makes no difference to me whether I like it or not."

He wanted to raise both hands up for Ning Wang to see, and let Ning Wang see that his hands were deformed, useless, and unable to hold the erhu.

It's a pity that he even raised his arms tremblingly, and before he raised them much, he fell down in disappointment.

"Xiao Ning, I don't even like myself anymore, what are we talking about liking others?"

This sentence sounds like self-pity, but it is the truth.Xu Kaici really didn't like himself, he didn't like any part of his body, especially his hands.People who don't even like themselves, talk about liking others.

When Ning Wang heard what Xu Kaici said, he couldn't bear to get up again. It's so good that Duan Duan became like this alone. As a friend, he felt distressed even thinking about it.

His voice returned to soft and waxy, and he murmured to Xu Kaici: "Then why are you and him like this? You don't like him, and he is perfunctory to you, why does it have to be him?"

Xu Kaici smiled, this time his mouth was a little bit open, and a little bit of blood spilled from his chapped lips.

"I said it, because he is good."

"Xiao Ning, don't you know me yet? From the accident to now, I can only hold on to him. Only he, only Cheng Hangyi is so obedient, I can hold on to him tightly. I can still smile and be with my family." Said that even if I leave home, even if I am paralyzed, I am not considered a loser. What do you want me to do? Paralyzed, unable to move, and have to go back home with Xu Chunye face to face, nose to nose? It would be better to kill me."

Xu Kaici sighed, and then smiled in relief, his eyes were dimmed, and his voice was hoarse.

But his tone was the most open sentence tonight: "I don't like myself. It doesn't matter. If someone likes me and someone is willing to listen to me by my side, I don't count as a loser. Ningning , Cheng Hang and I are like this, he dare not leave me, he... is much better than me."

Ning Wang suddenly felt a little cold and got goosebumps all over his body.

He never thought that it would be such a reason for the two of them to be together again.One is because of guilt, and the other is because of the so-called not wanting to lose.

Ning Wang didn't know what winning or losing was, nor did he know whether Xu Kaici himself knew what his winning or losing meant.

Even when he opened his mouth to speak, he felt his upper and lower teeth trembling. He even felt that like Xu Kaici, his hands and feet began to tremble.

"Then if it was Cheng Hangyi who was lying on the bed today, would you treat him that well? No, no, you can't ask like that... I don't know what to say, I just didn't digest what you said all at once, you Don't worry about me." Ning Wang didn't even know what he was talking about.

He swears to God, before that, he really felt that Xu Kaici liked Cheng Hangyi, but Cheng Hangyi couldn't figure it out.

Xu Kaici looked at Ning Wang quietly, thinking he was so cute.

It seems that after so many years, only Ning Wang has not changed, only he is still so sincere.And others, it seems that they are not like themselves.

"It's okay, I know what you're going to ask. Xiao Ning, I won't. If it's Cheng Hangyi who is paralyzed, I won't stay. I have so many exes, and one of them asked me to visit him before he died. Did you see me? I’m not that noble, so adding this, I like Cheng Hangyi even more, he’s really good, I’m really satisfied.”

Ning Wang couldn't say anything to refute, he knew it was the truth, Xu Kaici was such a person.He could only hold his arms tighter, and for the first time in his life, he had the urge to smoke a cigarette.

After a while, he stood up slowly, stopped looking at Xu Kaici, walked to the window by himself and looked out the window quietly.

Xu Kaici didn't care about him anymore, and lazily closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

After a while, Ning Wang turned his back to Xu Kaici, and said wearily: "No, you must like him, but you just don't understand. I won't talk about what happened tonight. You should figure out for yourself that you just want to win. , still really like him."

Xu Kaici thought that tonight's conversation was coming to an end, but he didn't expect that there would be another sentence.

He nodded and replied wearily: "Probably, probably... I really like him. In fact, being with him is not as bad as I imagined..."

Ning Wang squinted his eyes and looked downstairs carefully, feeling more certain in his heart, and hurriedly interrupted Xu Kaici: "Ah Ci, I seem to have seen Cheng Hangyi."

Fortunately, Xu Kaici only lives on the fourth floor, and he can still recognize it clearly when looking through the window.Downstairs stood a man in a windbreaker, the smoke at his fingertips was on and off, with a little bit of red light shining.

He just took a puff of smoke, and there is still smoke around him.

The wind was so strong that it made his clothes fly up and down.

It was Cheng Hang who was right, it was just why he stood downstairs and couldn't come up.

Xu Kaici couldn't sit up by himself, so he was still lying on the bed, guessing that Cheng Hangyi should be back by the time.

He thought for a while and said, "I guess it's him, this meeting should be to get drunk downstairs."

Ning Wang always felt uneasy in his heart, he couldn't make out Cheng Hangyi's face, he just thought it was too coincidental.

Before he could speak, Xu Kaici suddenly opened his eyes again, stretched out his hand and said to Ning Wang, "Put me in the wheelchair, I'll go down and see him. It's quite cold tonight, the silly kid really thinks I don't know what he's doing tonight." You've been drinking, and you have to let the smell out before you come up."

Drinking is not important, and going out to play is not important, Xu Kaici can understand it, and it's not the first time, he knows that Cheng Hangyi just wants to go out to catch his breath, as long as he comes back.

It's really cold tonight, don't really catch a cold.

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This is not a smoking area, but it's already too late, and no one came to investigate Cheng Hangyi.

With his back facing the inpatient building and facing the flower bed, he stood smoking cigarettes one by one, and there were already several cigarette butts piled up on the ground.

Smoking is useless at all, it will only make you dizzy more and more. Fortunately, the wind is relatively strong tonight, so he can still stay awake.

But he would rather be dizzy tonight, and be in a coma, than now his mind is full of those words he heard while standing in front of the ward.

It's too ironic, it's so ironic.Cheng Hang laughed, the laugh was uglier than crying, and a strange sound came out of his throat.

Two hours ago, he had said on the phone that he didn't like any pretty man, he just liked Xu Kaici.As a result, an hour later, he heard the person he was thinking of saying these words lazily.

——I don’t like it, I can, but someone must like me, so it’s not too ugly to lose.

What the fuck is this?

Cheng Hangyi's calf was lightly bumped, but he didn't move, his muscles were stiff and clumped.Once Cheng Hang knew who was behind him, there was only one person who could do this kind of action.

He was bumped again, and through his trousers, he felt the plush slippers on the man's feet.This time the man spoke, his tone was much more relaxed and quicker than in the past few days, but his voice was still a little hoarse: "Why are you standing here and not going upstairs? Isn't it cold? Just wear this?"

It's still a fucking habit of hurting people, as long as you hear Xu Kaici's voice, Cheng Hangyi will turn around as if under a spell. It's really like what Xu Kaici said, Cheng Hangyi is a good boy.

What a fucking good boy.

Cheng Hang looked down at Xu Kaici silently, the cigarette in his hand had burned to the end, almost scalding his fingers.He suddenly threw the cigarette butt far away with his backhand, then squatted down and looked up at Xu Kaici as usual.

If it was daytime, Xu Kaici would definitely be able to see it, Cheng Hangyi's red nose, and Cheng Hangyi's tears that had been dried by the wind.

It's a pity that it's late at night, he can't see it, he can only see a little bit of light in Cheng Hang's eyes.

Cheng Hang stretched out his hand to touch Xu Kaici's hand, it was so cold, so soft, with distinct joints, but it was a pity that they all shrunk, unable to see how beautiful these hands were before.

He is already sober, but his body still has some reactions, such as talking now, and he is still a little vague.

He asked Xu Kaici vaguely: "Brother, if it was me who was paralyzed and broke with the family, would you stay by my side? If it was my hands curled up and deformed, they would never look good again, would you like me?" ?”

Xu Kaici's heart suddenly rose so high that it blocked his throat, and the hand held by Cheng Hang began to tremble, beating on the armrest of the wheelchair.

He said with difficulty but pretended to be relaxed: "Yes."

But at this moment, Cheng Hangyi's heart fell directly into the abyss.

When he stood at the door of the ward tonight, he was clearly guilty.I am ashamed of how I can leave the sick Xu Kaici out for so long, how I can be ambiguous with others after drinking, and I am ashamed of why I can only now see how much I like Xu Kaici.

Then it turned to anger, and then to disappointment.

Even now, before Xu Kaici said this, before he hesitated, Cheng Hang still had a glimmer of hope.I hope Xu Kaici will not hesitate, or Xu Kaici can coax him in another way, he can pretend not to know, and then stay with Xu Kaici.

——But Xu Kaici, why are you shocked, why are you hesitant, why do you still say such things to lie to yourself and me?

As soon as Cheng Hang suddenly laughed, with a smile, the tiny light in his eyes turned into vertical teardrops, and big ones fell down.

He took out his mobile phone, flipped out the page of Xu Kaici in the address book, and handed it to Xu Kaici.

"You know, since I fell in love with you, I have always called you a little fairy. You are my little fairy with your fairy demeanor, fairy style, and fairy talent. But——"

Cheng Hang stood up suddenly, slammed the phone on the ground, and asked Xu Kaici loudly: "But you gods, are you doing this to me?"

"You gods like to be supported and worshiped by people, so I want to be this believer?" Cheng Hang squeezed Cheng Hangyi's shoulders with both hands, and shook Xu Kaici vigorously. He asked and cried.

He cried so sadly, tears had blurred his vision, and he couldn't even care about Xu Kaici being dizzy from being shaken by him.

He cried uncontrollably, and finally staggered into Xu Kaici's arms, still asking: "Just because I'm obedient, and because I can't be ruthless, so you treat me...as the last bargaining chip, right? What if one day, I am determined to be cruel? What are you going to do? Are you going to find another good one? "

"No... Cheng Cheng, listen to me, behind me..." Xu Kaici endured the pain and opened his eyes, and squeezed out a few words from between his teeth.

I wanted to explain something, but felt that no matter what I said in this situation, it was useless.

He wanted to wait for Cheng Hang to calm down before speaking, expressing his thoughts during this time.

At least since waking up from the hot spring night, he really didn't think so.

But Cheng Hang cried so sadly and excitedly that he couldn't calm down and listen to him.

"No, no...Xu Kaici, I'm leaving you now."

Cheng Hang stood up and wiped away his tears with his backhand.Xu Kaici subconsciously raised his hand to pull Cheng Hangyi, but he just touched the corner of his clothes and couldn't even grasp it.

"You have won for three years, isn't that enough?"

When Cheng Hang saw Xu Kaici's hand fell outside, he couldn't retract it. Originally, he was supposed to help Xu Kaici pick it up, but he suddenly didn't want to.

I don't want to do this, and I don't want to be the fairy's bargaining chip anymore.