Xu Kaici's hair is green or not

10 never regret

Xu Kaici didn't really fall asleep. He couldn't fall asleep when he was extremely tired and uncomfortable, but he didn't even bother to open his eyes. He just wanted to keep his eyes closed until his brain stopped functioning, and he fell asleep.

"But it's not."

This sentence sounded like angry words, he wouldn't be really angry, and when he got up with strength, he went to coax Cheng Hangyi, and Cheng Hangyi softened his heart.

It's not that he and Cheng Hangyi have never had a quarrel like this before, and every time Cheng Hangyi would be so angry that he would say a lot of useless nonsense.

But after all, it is a child, and the anger comes and goes quickly.

Maybe Xu Kaici didn't have to wait until Xu Kaici had the strength to get up, as soon as Cheng Hang came back in the middle of the night with his pillow in his arms, he got into bed again.

The nurses outside are still cleaning up the mess, and the glass pieces are probably flying everywhere, and you can hear the jingling sound when you sweep the floor.

Xu Kaici closed his eyes and frowned, wondering what reason and excuse he would find to replace her.

In fact, what Cheng Hangyi said was right, two people living together, what's the point of always having someone watching every move?

In life, there is always noise and noise, but it is not the case when it is heard by parents.Mei Jing would feel that Cheng Hang didn't take good care of him, and Xu Chunye would feel that he deserved it.

Xu Chunye would always say "Xu Kaici, I think you will regret it sooner or later!", he had been waiting for the day when Xu Kaici regretted it, waiting for Xu Kaici to return to the door of his house when he had nowhere to go, and knocked on the door with his paralyzed hand.

In this way, Xu Chunye can reprimand him condescendingly for the evil things he has done over the years, and then play the role of a father who hates iron and can't make steel.

But Xu Kaici didn't seem to feel that he had done anything wrong until now.Even today, he has become a paralyzed man who needs help from others to eat, and he has never felt that he is wrong.

Nothing wrong, no regrets.

Not to mention knowing and repenting.

He doesn't regret insisting on learning Erhu, or confessing his sexual orientation, and what's more, he doesn't regret stubbornly moving out with Cheng Hang after being paralyzed.

When Xu Kaici was young, he grew up with his grandfather.

At that time, Mei Jing was still in a semi-retired state, and occasionally a script would come to her.Xu Chunye's behind-the-scenes career is in full swing, with dramas and movies in succession. The highest record is five movies and two dramas in one year. He is a well-known desperate Saburo in the circle.

The couple really didn't have the time to take care of a child who needed to worry about everything, so they could only throw Xu Kaici to his grandfather who had retired from the art troupe.

Little Xu Kaici fell in love with folk music at that time. He played the Zhongruan, the flute, and even some simple pieces on the pipa.

But his favorite is the erhu.

If I like it, I am willing to delve into it. At first, it was just because my grandfather had these musical instruments in his room. He was interested in it, so he handed over some of them. Anyway, the grandpa and grandson are together, just as a pastime.Children are always innocent and serious. Although their fingers always hurt when they practice the piano, they grit their teeth and practice the erhu seriously for hours every day.

The baby fat on his face hadn't faded at that time, with a serious look on his face, coupled with the faint red mole between his eyebrows, he looked like the little Letong doll in the portrait.

Later, Xu Kaici's grandfather discovered that his little grandson was not simply interested, but he really liked it.

Realizing that he could no longer teach Xu Kaici, his grandfather helped Xu Kaici buy a new erhu, and took him to find a professional teacher for him to study.

It's probably because he was eating this bowl of rice in the first place, and Xu Kaici had already passed the music grade exam before the fourth grade was finished.It's just that he didn't regard this as an interest at all. He always felt that the erhu was an instrument that he would follow all his life. He even fantasized about taking the erhu as his career.

When Mei Jing brought Xu Kaici home, Xu Kaici had already been taking one-to-one lessons for almost a year.

He showed Xu Chunye the certificates he had won in the city with great interest, expecting this strange and familiar father to give him affirmation and praise.

But Xu Chunye just said something good in an understatement, and then put the certificate and trophy on the table, and stopped mentioning a few words about the erhu.

After all, I was still a child at that time, and I would always ask straightforwardly about what I was obsessed with: "Dad, don't you praise me? I am number one in the city, and the classmates under the same teacher are all envious of me!"

Xu Chunye turned around and said to him: "It's just an erhu competition. There's nothing to be happy about. You have to study hard. There's no need to be so concerned about these useless things. You are my son, Xu Chunye. How can you be so happy in the future?" Just playing the erhu?"

Xu Kaici suddenly felt as if he had nothing to say, and had nothing to say.He is 13 years old this year. Before that, no one knew that he was the son of a national goddess and a great director.

The only thing he can show off is his face that is far superior to his peers, and his erhu that he never dares to slack off for a day.

Now the aura belonging to the second generation of stars has not been enjoyed, but the shackles have been put on in advance.

From that meeting onwards, Xu Kaici didn't seem to have hoped to get any support and encouragement from his father.

Since the things he likes and loves are different from what his father expected, there is no need to fight for anything.

Fortunately, Xu Chunye was still very busy, Mei Jing was the only one who was kind enough to be kind at home, even if he practiced the piano for several hours, it wouldn't matter.

When he was in high school, his father hoped that Xu Kaici would study choreography, directing, or acting. Anyway, the family has already provided enough resources for him, and entering this circle will only make him better, saving a lot of trouble, yes A blessing that others cannot envy.

It was the first time after so many years that Xu Kaici had a conversation with his father alone in the study, about what Xu Kaici was going to do in the future.

Different from the time when he was young, Xu Kaici has fully grown up now, and even wearing a baggy school uniform can't stop his handsomeness.

The more Xu Chunye watched, the more he felt that this was what he was supposed to eat. He talked to him a lot excitedly, and even began to imagine that if Xu Kaici was obedient, as long as he entered university, he could spread out good scripts for Xu Kaici to choose at will.

But Xu Kaici is already 17 years old. In the past 17 years, this man called father has rarely asked him about his life, and even less cared about what he wants in his heart.

He would only point to Xu Kaici's head and scold Xu Kaici when Xu Kaici was too noisy and caused some big disasters at school: "You will regret it sooner or later!"

Of course Xu Kaici didn't listen to him. A week later, Xu Kaici flew to Beijing alone with his erhu on his back and his luggage.

Later, he didn't notify his family until he got the certificate of passing the art examination. He had obtained the certificates of several conservatories.If there were no accidents, he should be taking classes in the folk music department of the Conservatory of Music when school starts in September.

That was the first time Xu Chunye slapped Xu Kaici, he slapped him hard on the face, and five finger prints appeared immediately.The beating Xu Kaici was in burning pain, so painful that tears fell down.

At that time, Xu Chunye also said that he would regret it sooner or later, but Xu Kaici still felt very happy, and didn't mean to regret it at all.After talking with his family, he turned around and rode his bicycle out.

When he was in high school, his grandmother gave him a really cool off-road bike. It was fast, good performance, and most importantly, it was very cool to ride.

He found an open downhill road, sprinted with all his strength when going uphill, and then rushed straight down.Experience the excitement and enthusiasm brought by the speed and wind while shouting loudly, and throw all the disapproval of him in the wind.

When he was about to graduate from high school, Xu Kaici talked about his first boyfriend, who was also a little boy who was going to go to music with him.

According to his aesthetics today, the boy was actually nothing special, but at that time his doggy eyes looked innocent and charming, which was really hard for Xu Kaici to refuse.

For a long time, he really liked that boy, and words such as "forever" and "later" that he doesn't say casually now have been uttered in that boy's ear countless times.

On the day of the graduation ceremony, there is a ceremony in the school where you can say what you want to say most to anyone, whether it is a teacher or a student.The purpose is nothing more than to thank the teacher and bless the students.

Xu Kaici remained silent until the teacher left. He walked straight from the last row to the front of the little boy, picked up the little boy, and said to the little boy with a bright and charming face: "On the volunteer form, fill in Shangyin, I went to the same university as you."

Although they broke up later, their feelings at that time were real, their obsession with music, and their love for that little boy were all real.

He has never regretted it, from his profession, to his dress and style of doing things, to his confession of sexual orientation behind and at home.

He has never regretted it.

Including when he was with Cheng Hang later on, and when his father found out and dragged him home without any explanation and almost broke a stick, he never lowered his head.

After the beating, he stood up humming and stumbled out of the house, without any regrets.

Not only did he not regret it, the first thing he did when he left the house was to call his friends and make an appointment at KTV with a smile on his face, and then he went to school to hold Cheng Hangyi's hand and lead him to the door of the KTV.

Fortunately, it was very late that day. Even if everyone found the wound on his face, they didn't think it was serious because of the darkness.

Maybe it was because they were too familiar, and everyone tacitly didn't ask him too much, which saved Xu Kaici's face.

That night, enduring the pain in his body, he sat in front of the microphone and sang "Immortal Body".

When he sang "After the earth is destroyed, I still love you so much...", his beautiful and charming eyes kept smiling at Cheng Hangyi.

He just doesn't know the heights of the heavens and the earth, and feels that these are not important. As long as it is what he wants to do, no matter how high the sky is, who can stop him?

Don't complain about the years, be invincible.

As long as he thinks, as long as the thoughts come from his heart, he will not regret it.

Xu Kaici still remembered that before the song was finished, Cheng Hang had already stood up and walked in front of him.

At that time, Cheng Hangyi's hair was not as mature as it is now, and he still looked like a student. The dim light of the ktv couldn't see anything clearly, only half of his handsomeness could be vaguely seen.

Before he could see the remaining half clearly, Cheng Hang came over to Xu Kaici, hugged his waist and kissed him.

How to make children take the initiative?Xu Kaici, who quickly reacted, hooked Cheng Hangyi's chin and turned back, and kissed Cheng Hangyi again.

Unlike Cheng Hangyi, Xu Kaici's technique can be regarded as proficient.

Half of the song was not finished, and there was no need to continue singing later, Xu Kaici took Cheng Hang back to the apartment that night.

Everything is the first time, except for the first hug to Meng Xinci, Cheng Hangyi explained all the first times tonight.

After taking off his clothes, he saw the injuries on Xu Kaici's back in the bathroom, and felt distressed sincerely.

He didn't dare to touch it, but couldn't help but gently touch Xu Kaici's butterfly bone like a knife with his fingers.

"Does it hurt?"

Xu Kaici turned around, smiled and waved his hands, "It doesn't hurt, I'm used to it. But you, do you regret it? Now you and Meng Xinci really have no chance. He has a master, and you have me."

The bathroom was steaming, and the light shone on the two of them, making them feel a little hot.

The young man blushed, his eyes flickered, but he said firmly: "I don't regret it, not at all."

It's been a long, long time since I was 17, and it's been three years since I was 23.Until now, Xu Kaici has not bowed his head to go home as Xu Chunye wished.

There is nothing to regret, at least Cheng Hangyi hasn't said regret yet.

There was nothing to regret, at least he felt that he hadn't lost all.

Xu Kaici opened his eyes, and laughed in the dark night, which was full of self-mockery.

"Forget it..." He muttered in a low voice, shaking his head slightly, thinking that he shouldn't think so much at night.

Through the crack under the door frame, he saw that the light was still on in the living room, and he didn't know if the nurse was still awake or Cheng Hangyi was still awake.

He couldn't raise his hand to turn on the light on the bedside table. The only light in the whole room was the little light coming in from under the door frame.

He stared at it for a long time, and some messy voices kept echoing in his mind.

Suddenly, the light under the door frame was partially blocked, outlining the appearance of a person standing in front of the door.

The door was opened, and the person who went out with the pillow in his arms came back with the pillow in his arms.