Fate replacement

"Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" was breathed out, walking on the bustling street, the work has long since ended.There are only three days left until New Year's Eve, and after returning to live in my small apartment, no matter how many times I walk in, I no longer feel the sense of security I used to feel.After standing still at the coffee shop at the corner of A1, I waited for someone to come.

The same appearance as it was more than a month ago, but with a different development, "Ha, ha, Huaer, have you been waiting for a long time?" Looking at Yu Mu who was panting and running in front of him, it was different from more than a month ago The panic made me want to laugh a little more, "I just arrived, sorry for being so sudden." He smiled apologetically at the person in front of him.

"No, I'm also very happy to be able to date me. I can't go home for the New Year's Eve, and my friends have other schedules. I was just thinking about sleeping at home for the whole year." He blinked and showed a playful expression , but the words spoken are like, um, nerd?

"It's not good to sleep all the time!" With a grinning expression, "Did you come by car?" Looking at the white sports car across the street, it was very similar to the one from last time, but he couldn't be sure it belonged to him.

"Well! That's right, I came by car. Let's go, get in the car." He took my hand, saw that there was no car on the road, and rushed over, completely ignoring the traffic rules. "Wow——did you look at the traffic lights again?" I shouted to the person in front in panic, but the answer was ready to come out as early as he pulled me across the road.

After getting into the car across the street, he winked at me innocently, "You, you are really..." He sat in the passenger seat panting, not knowing what to say to him.

"Hey, don't do this! Give me the address?" He said to me while starting the car engine, "here, here." He took out a small note with a string of digits in B "I'm looking forward to it." He took it with a smile, started the white sports car and drove on the road smoothly.

Staring at the gray sky outside, talking to him from time to time, maybe it's a long-standing habit, every time I sit in the car, I feel sleepy, leaning against the window and falling asleep with the vibration of the car.

When I woke up again, it was Yu Mu who woke me up, "It's time, is Hua'er awake?" He shook me awake with a mischievous smile, and I no longer feel any fright when facing his enlarged face. "Wake up." Shaking his head to shake off the drowsy drowsiness, "Let's go." He stood by the door of the passenger seat and pulled me up.

"...Where are you going?" There were no pedestrians on the empty streets, but every house was lit with soft orange lights. Presumably every family was having a party? "Here." He led me to one of the houses. The address was the one he was looking at, and it was the car he was driving. It doesn't matter if you lead him the way, right?

"Your hands are so cold." After he pressed one of the electric bells, he suddenly turned his head and said to me, "Well, I'm used to it." Rubbing his eyes that were still astringent, he yawned and his hands became wet A temperature, "Is it warmer to hold it? Although it shouldn't be so cold when they open the door." When the door opened, he led me in, and kept this posture in front of my sister's house.

I don't have much resistance to his actions. Anyway, we have to pretend to be intimate in front of my sister and mother. I started to pretend from downstairs. Maybe it will be more natural after going up?I hypnotized myself so much.

"Welcome—wow, so affectionate?" My sister's teasing tone came from in front of Yu Mu, and I couldn't help but feel a little helpless, "Sister Hua has won the prize, we have already restrained." Yu Mu His speech is very relaxed, without the slightest sense of deceitful rigidity.

"Tsk tsk, okay, come in first, isn't it cold outside?" My sister moved away from the door so that we could enter the house, "Mom, Happy New Year." After entering the house, she saw her mother and congratulated her with a smile.

Although it was less than a week after my mother moved away, she was supposed to come back to live with us yesterday, but it happened to be the Spring Festival, so it turned into inviting me and Yu Mu to stay at my sister's house and spend the New Year together by the way.

"Hehe, it's good that Xiaoqing is here. It's been a long time since we celebrated the New Year together." Every time my mother said that I haven't done anything together for a long time, I would feel guilty for a while.Because I was an unfilial son, my mother worried about me day and night, and maybe I didn't do something or celebrate a festival with me for a long time.

I paused for a moment and didn't know what to reply, then Yu Mu interjected, "Thank you, Auntie, for the invitation, otherwise I'm still worried about how I'm going to live this year, because I don't even have to think that Hua'er will definitely come back, leave me behind." I'm really lonely there alone—" He looked at himself and his mother with pitiful and innocent eyes like a puppy, as if he would cry if you didn't believe him. "Hehe, you can come here if you want, you are like my second son!" The mother gently patted him on the shoulder, very happy.

During the week of the Spring Festival, we passed in a joyful atmosphere. I was disturbed for several days at my sister's house, but it was the happiest moment I had this year.

Every day when I wake up, I can see the family members I have missed for many years, chat and eat with them, do all the things I miss, and return to that small apartment with a smile, and a sudden sense of uneasiness sweeps through my body.

It was like this every day in the following days, and only when Friday passed and lived with Yu Mu and waited for his mother to come did he feel at ease.Maybe it's because I'm used to the warmth because I'm greedy, that's why I feel so uneasy when I return to the lonely small apartment. It's like the world is ending and Friday won't come, and I feel extremely lonely.

It’s the same working day as usual, but what’s even more different today is that I’m going to live with Yu Mu again, waiting for my mother’s arrival, “Haha——” I yawned and walked on the street at night, now I’m in 07 At :30, the pedestrians coming and going made the street look very lively. Just as he came out of the publishing house and was about to walk to Yu Mu's house, he saw a person walking towards the light and shadow of the car at the other end.

It is the person I never want to see again in my life, Ruoyu.

He turned his head and wanted to go from another place, "Xiaoqing!" The sudden voice caught him off guard, so he could only freeze in place, unable to move.As the footsteps of the other party got closer, the beating of the heart became more violent. "How are you recently? I...maybe it's mean to say this, but I... miss you so much." I turned my back to him and didn't turn around, but he took his hand from behind and continued. , "Would you like to come back to my side?"

His words made his body shake a lot, this is already beyond the level of despicability, right?

"Qing? Let me see your face, okay?" He turned his body to face him, "..." He bit his lower lip and looked at the person in front of him. He was not strong, and his pale face was Even more delicate under the cold of winter. "I'm sorry, would you like to come back? By my side."

He is like this every time, after abandoning me, he refuses to really let go. He thought that this time he really abandoned himself, but he came back to look for me at this moment. What am I in his heart?

"Sorry, you and I have... nothing to do." I gently shook off his hand, turning my head away from looking at him. If possible, I also want to start over with you, but you don't love me, even if It's the same when you come back to me. I always know your answer. Otherwise, after being together for so many years, how could we have such a result?

So even if you really like me, it's too late.Those wounds in my heart are hot and painful, and the stinging feeling has tortured me for more than a year. How do you want me to accept your apology?

Not daring to stay by his side for another second, I turned around and left again, but he didn't catch up again, but I lost my way on the street.I dare not go to Yu Mu's house, I am afraid that seeing his face will remind me of Ruoyu; I don't want to go back to my small apartment, I am afraid that I will keep thinking of the scene when I go back.

Light and shadow are constantly intertwined into a net, cars are driving to different places, and everything has a purpose, but I am floating on the street like a drowning child, not knowing where my destination will be .

My body seemed to be carrying lead weights, and I couldn’t move an inch. I turned into an inconspicuous Pub on the street full of people, and sat down in the darkest corner, ordered one glass after another of mixed drinks. As a result, the subconsciousness gradually became blurred, and I have always known that I have a constitution that is not very good at drinking.

But who should I turn to to vent my emotions that I really want to cry but can't cry?I don't want my family members to know the truth, so I can't find them. Who else can I find if I have no friends?I had no choice but to sit here alone and drink wine, ha ha.

My eyes have been blurred into patches of color, I can't distinguish things or people, I just continue to pick up the wine and drink it with my head up, and I don't care about the heat on my cheeks, is that thing tears?The one I drank with the wine is sad and sad, what else?

There are many things that I dare not face, and there are many things that I am forced to face, but how many of them let themselves put in so many emotions but still fall hard and hurt?

A series of familiar ringtones came from him abruptly. With a vague consciousness, he searched for his mobile phone and picked it up, "Hello? Who is it?" Although the voice was vague, it was still familiar.

"Hua'er, where are you? Aren't you coming to my house today?" It was Yu Mu.

Hearing his voice, I felt a burst of missing. Since when did you rely on him so much?A glass of wine was poured down my throat again like a hot stream. I don't know what I said to him, I just know that he said: "Wait for me." The phone was hung up, and the phone was placed on the table by me, blurred Looking at everything in front of him, the light and shadow swirled in front of his eyes, and he smiled and didn't know what he was doing.

Yu Mu rushed downstairs, boarded his white sports car, and came to the Pub where Hua Yueqing was according to the vague description on the phone just now. As soon as he entered, he saw a drunk person on the table, "Hua'er? Huh—the smell of wine It’s so heavy.” Yu Mu watched the wine glasses scattered on the table one after another, called the bartender and paid for him to help him up, planning to carry him into the car before talking.

"Uh haha, it's like this every time... Thing, hiccup... I'll talk about it after the fact, sorry hiccup! Liar, a bunch of liars..." Hua Yueqing was talking restlessly in Yu Mu's arms, talking excitedly and chaotically Some words that Yu Mu couldn't understand.

"Hua'er, don't move yet... May I help you out first?" He softly comforted the restless man in his arms, while carrying him into the car.

Looking at the tear stains on his cheeks, he sighed.

"Go home first." He lightly helped Hua Yueqing fasten his seat belt, trying not to move him, but the person on the chair was still restless, he began to cry, babbling like a child , whether driving or stopping, it is still the same whether he is comforted or not.

When I finally got home, the person in the chair was already tired from crying and fell asleep.Gently picked him up and returned to the upstairs home, seemed to be awakened by the shaking, and sat on the bed in a daze.

"Why did you go to drink suddenly? Don't you know how to drink?" Yu Mu patted Hua Yueqing who seemed to be about to vomit, and asked softly to see if he could get a response, "Woo-hehe, Mu?" Hua Yueqing Touching Yu Mu's face in a daze, he moved very far away, "Huh?" Yu Mu responded, holding his restless hands after drinking.

"You, do you know? You and him really seem... He, came to me today. He said he missed me and hoped that I could come back to him." He said while crying, what is it? Sad or happy, Yu Mu couldn't figure it out.

His voice was very small, but it was enough for Yu Mu to hear clearly, "But, I rejected him, because I knew, he didn't love me." Hua Yueqing smiled with the corners of her mouth curled up, she was beautiful but also very beautiful desolate. "I don't want to be a stumbling block to them anymore, and I don't want to go back and see his gloomy expression again. He won't show a sincere smile to me, and he doesn't love me. Why should I? Pick me up after giving up, Over and over again, my heart hurts, really hurts." He rested his head on Yu Mu's chest, talking.

It was as if he was about to explode the grievances he had accumulated over the years, as if he had cried enough, he stopped crying, but he still kept talking. "Is it a good thing or a bad thing to meet you?" Hua Yueqing giggled. I really don't know if the influence of alcohol on him is too big, because Yu Mu doesn't even know if he is sober now.

He speaks smoothly, but other actions don't look sober.

"...If possible, I want to take away all your sorrow." Yu Mu said softly, but she didn't know how gentle her expression was. "If I could, I'd like to do it again, but it's too late... It's already gone." Hua Yueqing continued to say with a smile as if she didn't hear that sentence.

Suddenly there was no next sentence, Hua Yueqing stared at Yu Mu with confused eyes, and Yu Mu also stared at him, "Why are they so similar but so different?" He was suddenly confused She asked Yu Mu vaguely, and kissed him before he could answer.

Alcohol passed from his mouth, Yu Mu is also a person who can't drink very much, just now Hua Yueqing drank too much and strong wine, and Yu Mu was a little confused by the kisses, "Ha, you...you drank Is it like this with wine?” Knowing that he would not answer but still asked, Hua Yueqing giggled, blushing in confusion as if she had touched a switch, her lips touched again, and the two were warmed Wrapped in the breath, like being wrapped in a soft and warm water, the body is lurking with the heat wave, I don't know who unbuttoned the shirt first and took off the trousers, I only know that each other's bodies are getting closer and closer. The hotter, the trembling hands hugged each other tightly, the soreness of the legs and the shock in the heart, all catalyzed by alcohol, swept towards the two of them like a wave, showing each other the truest self in the cloying intoxication .

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