Instinctive reaction

"I didn't expect it was really you." The short-haired woman smiled, "I remember you lived near here."

"Live near here?" Lin Leyang repeated, with a bit of confusion in his eyes, but he quickly hid it and nodded.

"How are you doing recently?" Ning Qian looked at him with a gentle smile in her eyes, completely different from her memory... and her dream.

ten years.

Time did not stop because of his "amnesia", and he still moved forward, towards an unknown future.

At this moment, Lin Leyang suddenly panicked, how could he meet Ning Qian.

There were enough memories that didn't belong to him.

"It's okay." Lin Leyang said, with uncertainty in his tone.

How is he?

He also wanted to ask his 28-year-old self.

Ning Qian nodded, pinned her loose hair behind her ears, revealing a pair of delicate earrings, "We haven't seen each other for a long time, you are in much better condition than before."

Lin Leyang nodded again, and subconsciously hid his arms behind his back.He obviously wore a wristband, but he still didn't want to be seen by the person in front of him.

They should have had a good relationship before. The woman's concerned eyes fell on him, and he could feel that kind of importance.

"Are you busy now?" Ning Qian asked, "I just have time after I finish my business, can I ask you to sit down somewhere?"

Lin Leyang should refuse.

He is not familiar with Ning Qian.

But he agreed, and with a slight smile, "Okay, but let me treat you."

In the coffee shop, two people sat down facing each other.

Ning Qian watched Lin Leyang order a smoothie, and raised her eyes in surprise.

Lin Leyang looked back at her with the same confused eyes.

"I thought you stopped drinking kid stuff."

"Where is the child? This is a stereotype." Lin Leyang retorted aloud, as if they were familiar with each other.

Ning Qian really laughed, and said after laughing: "No one can contact you in the past six months, only Zhao Ruixiao knows your movements, I am very worried about you, but Zhao Ruixiao said you are fine, just need to be alone quiet."

"You've been quiet for too long, haven't you? You don't even contact your friends, are you still buddies?" Ning Qian said half-jokingly, but her tone was half serious.She somewhat blamed Lin Leyang for avoiding him. He closed himself up and refused to allow others to heal him, nor did he believe that others could heal him.

But more of a relief, a sigh of relief.

He was still sitting in front of him so vividly.

This is already good.

Lin Leyang on the opposite side was at a loss when he heard these words, Ning Qian was slightly stunned, and couldn't help calling him, "Lin Leyang?"

"Huh? Uh... I-I'm sorry."

Lin Leyang grabbed the tablecloth subconsciously, and the gray-brown grid was wrinkled in his hands. He looked like a lost child who couldn't find his way home.

Ning Qian was a little surprised, and then her expression became serious, "I'm just kidding, you don't have to worry about it, I understand why you did that, there's nothing you can do about it..." She didn't want to say more, and she believed that Lin Leyang didn't want to either Listen.

They all tacitly did not mention that person.

No one expected Ji Wanke's death.

Ning Qian heard the news

The first reaction is to cover your mouth and make no sound.

If she had to use words to describe her mood at that time, it could only be unbelievable.

Ji Wanke is too dazzling a person, no matter where he walks, he attracts attention. He was a hot topic on campus when he was in college, and became the object of heated discussions in the WeChat group of Moments after his death.

Because of this, Lin Leyang hid his own activity, quit the class group chat, and deleted a few friends whose names he could not remember for a long time.

The fact that he and Ji Wanke are together is not a secret, the two often appear in each other's photos, if you pay a little attention, you will know the relationship.

His withdrawal has attracted more wanton gossip, some commemorate love and others leave comments that cherish their eyes.

Ning Qian only thought they were cruel.

Lin Leyang must have seen it.

So she called Lin Leyang, without consolation, without asking if you were okay, she said: "Can't you go out for a drink?" Even though the two were separated by two cities at that time, the flight was at least four hours.

Lin Leyang rejected her, his voice was still gentle, he was already very mature at the age of 25, only in front of Ji Wanke he was still as naive as a child.

He said to Ning Qian: "I want to be alone now, is it okay next time? I will definitely go to the appointment next time."

Ning Qian shed tears on the phone, forcing herself to speak normally, "Of course, I'll wait for you."

When she was in school, she was the one who told Lin Leyang to stay away from Ji Wanke and also the one who helped hand over the love letters.

She is the one who witnesses the birth and death of love.

At that time, they were too young and their love was very fragile. At least she and Li Jiajia didn't make it to the end.

She knows how difficult it is to maintain a relationship, love is fragile, so she is even more sad, the two of them are clearly taking good care of each other, the love is still there, but the one who loved deeply disappeared.

One year after we met again, Ning Qian presented a bouquet of flowers to a college classmate who was once disliked, and there were only words on the tombstone without photos.Only then did she know that Ji Wanke's parents had passed away early, he had no family members, and all funeral matters were handled by the Lin family, Lin Ruoliu and Lin Leyang.

She saw that Lin Leyang was wearing a black uniform, with silver-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, his hair fell on his shoulders, and he was very thin.This outfit is more like what Ji Wanke would wear, Lin Leyang prefers to try different styles of clothes.Most of Ji Wanke's trendy clothes are bought by Lin Leyang, and he himself often wears all black because of his good looks. The most classic saying is: black is resistant to dirt.

Lin Leyang used to be very good at grooming himself. He was very good at dressing and curly hair. When he was in school, his clothes were very good. After graduation... After graduation, he restrained himself. The suit, and no longer showing an overly bright smile, but a more polite and soft smile.

But by Ji Wanke's side, he is still the short-hearted young man he used to be, who would stick out his tongue at the other party to make faces while others were not paying attention, and would quietly hold the other party's hand.

They have known each other for so long that their former classmates are their classmates, and their friends are their friends, and there are too many overlapping memories. No matter which part you give up, you are giving up a part of yourself.

When Ning Qian left, it was still raining in the mountain, Lin Leyang was still standing in front of the tomb with an umbrella and talking softly, he looked as if he was the same as before, so immature and young, he had endless things to say to the person he liked, his eyes were still Glittering.

But Ning Qian knew that there were tears in there, and sooner or later they would blink away.

After that, Lin Leyang tried to swallow medicine, but fortunately, he was discovered in time and went to the hospital for gastric lavage.

Ning Qian happened to be on a business trip, and after knowing about this for many days, she couldn't contact Lin Leyang and could only contact Zhao Ruixiao.

The man said: "He refuses to see anyone now, you'd better come back later."

Ning Qian couldn't go because of a phone call from Lin Leyang.

"I'm fine, but I can't remember things recently." Lin Leyang said on the other end of the phone, "How are you and Li Jiajia, are you still arguing?"

Ning Qian was silent for a long time, "I broke up with her a long time ago."

"Really?" Lin Leyang was genuinely surprised, and then he reacted and apologized very sincerely, "Sorry, I don't remember."

"It's okay, isn't it just a bad memory, and I don't have a good memory now." Ning Qian joked, but actually burst into tears on the other end of the phone.

She didn't go to see Lin Leyang.

Because I knew that I would cry when I saw him, and Lin Leyang would comfort her in turn.

She doesn't want Lin Leyang, who has experienced so much, to distract her from taking care of her.

It suddenly occurred to him that Ji Wanke took good care of Lin Leyang when he was around.

After hanging up the phone, she burst into tears.

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"You and Li Jiajia..." Across the table, Lin Leyang said, with a cautious look.

This is the only thing he remembers, the name appeared in the dream.

Ning Qian clenched her hands into fists on her legs, and her nails left traces of different shades on her palms.

She blinked as if she didn't know anything, "Huh?"

"How are you and her?" Lin Leyang was a little nervous, afraid that he might make a mistake.

"Well...we separated before, but recently I was transferred back here, and my work is here, and we got in touch again just last month."

"Really?" Lin Leyang laughed, "That's great."

He was really happy, but he didn't know why.

It may be that the separated people can finally meet again, that the person who has loved after a long time has a chance to love again, and is happy for some things that have nothing to do with him.

Ning Qian let go of her hand, and the palm was full of scars from her fist.

"Do you still have a bad memory?" She asked pretending to be relaxed.

Lin Leyang blinked, "You know?"

"You told me." Ning Qian put a smile on her face, feeling that half of her face had froze.

Lin Leyang breathed a sigh of relief, "Well...it's still the same."

I don't remember anything, I don't know anything.

Ning Qian thought that he just forgot some trivial things, "It's okay, if you can't remember it, you can't remember it, as long as I remember it, I can remind you."

Lin Leyang looked at Ning Qian, "Can I do anything?"

Ning Qian nodded.

"About Ji Wanke, too?"

Ning Qian's smile froze on her face and then disappeared.

"Is it so sudden?"

"Well, because I forgot." Lin Leyang faced her very calmly, and asked the same question as before, "What kind of person is he?"

He keeps asking this question, what kind of person is Ji Wanke, and everyone's answers are surprisingly consistent.

Ning Qian's heartbeat sounded like a drum, and her mind was already in a mess.

She didn't get to know Zhao Ruixiao well enough to keep in touch with each other frequently, so she didn't know what happened in the past six months.

Since Lin Leyang asked, she breathed out and decided to answer seriously.

"At first I thought he was a megalomaniac, but later I found out that he is the kind of awkward character who is only good to certain people.

"After graduation... During the time when he was with you, you told me that he learned to cook and clean on purpose. I couldn't imagine it, but I went to your house as a guest. He cooked delicious food. It's true. Unexpectedly, if it wasn't for the same face, I really suspect that the core has changed, and he has become very caring, and he has matured a lot for you."

Ning Qian thought he let go, so she was able to say the name.

Lin Leyang looked at the coffee cup in front of him, the circles of milk froth in it sucked him like a whirlpool, and finally he picked up the cup and took a sip, bitterness filled his mouth.

He wrinkled his face, picked up the smoothie next to him and took a big bite.

Ning Qian laughed, "You still say you're not a child?"

"I'm already 28." Lin Leyang raised his head and returned the same soft smile, "I can't say I'm a child."

The port where he stopped was slowly paddling towards himself ten years later.

"There is one more question I want to ask." Lin Leyang said calmly, "I hope you can answer me."

The smile on Ning Qian's face has not yet restrained: "What?"

The author says:

I can't tell you what it feels like, it's a chapter I like very much

I love you, what you like will become what I like, and my habits will become your habits. Looking around, you are not here, but there are traces of you everywhere.

Even if I forget, love is an instinctive reaction.