Instinctive reaction

Wu Xu told the other two people about Lin Leyang's recovery of memory. Although he only remembered a little bit, it all happened in college.

Zhao Ruixiao was very calm about this: "Otherwise, do you really expect him to never remember it for the rest of his life? Or do you really believe that he traveled here from ten years ago?"

Wu Xu was dumbfounded at Zhao Ruixiao's calmness.

At this moment, they no longer know how many lies they have told. If they are punished for lying, then that's fine. They are accomplices, and it's not a problem to go in together for a few years.

Wu Xu didn't dare to face the 28-year-old Lin Leyang at all. Those ten years were not only the past, but also made a person grow from a young boy to a stable young man.

Lin Leyang's personality has changed, and even his behavior habits have undergone earth-shaking changes.Everything was not ten years ago, everything was falling apart, so when Lin Leyang woke up and declared himself, speaking to him in the same tone, it is no exaggeration to say that at a certain moment, Wu Xu's eye sockets were hot.

It would be nice to start over.

He believed that Lin Leyang thought the same way.

Is love composed of intimacy and kisses all the time?

Lin Leyang couldn't help but think so.Young people have too much energy, and whenever they have time and opportunity, they will touch themselves.At first, Lin Leyang meekly didn't know how to refuse, there was no way, this kind of thing was your wish, and he was also comfortable when the other party was comfortable.

Li Chuan didn't give him room to refuse, and he didn't even think about refusing.

But too often.

Drenched in sweat almost every day, going to the bathroom more than twice, seems to consume all the heat in summer on two beds.

Two, his and Li Chuan's.

Lin Leyang found that he could sleep more peacefully in that humid and stuffy rental house. Beside Li Chuan, on that crowded small bed, he slept until dawn—of course, he may be too tired, so he fell asleep. Very heavy.As for why he was tired, it was Li Chuan's fault, undoubtedly the fault of this energetic young man.

Now facing Li Chuan's sleeping face, Lin Leyang looked at the blue blood vessels under his thin eyelids. From such a short distance, the eyelashes were clearly displayed in front of his eyes. He stretched out his hand to poke the air, and felt troubled. The corners of his lips curled up in excitement.

They share the bed again.

Lin Ruoliu no longer restricts him, he can freely enter and leave that house, bring people back or be taken out.

Women are all as if they turned a blind eye.

This was something that would never have happened in the past. Ten years ago at this time, she would not allow it, but now, ten years later, she allows Lin Leyang of "" to stay out at night, and allows him to like someone who is many years younger than herself. Boys, they are also allowed to be together.

She no longer cares about who loves more, there is no fairness in love, love is everything, when I like you and you like me, the other party gives everything, and you also give everything, this is enough.

Lin Ruoliu figured it out later, and now she let this love go her own way.

In fact, she didn't hate Ji Wanke as much as she described, and Ji Wanke didn't hate him that much either.

But they all need Lin Leyang too much, they unconsciously compete for favor and fight against each other, no one is pleasing to the eye, let Lin Leyang be caught in the middle of two people, let him choose one of them, who is the most important.

They always made things difficult for Lin Leyang before, but now that they think about it, they are too naive.

Lin Ruoliu completely accepted Ji Wanke after that incident.

She didn't say anything, neither did Ji Wanke, they still quarreled and bickered, but they both tacitly agreed not to let Lin Leyang make a choice.

This is their growth, and Lin Leyang's growth is further behind.

She used to blame her younger brother for never growing up and being innocent, but now she only hopes that Lin Leyang will never grow up and be innocent.

Li Chuan was still asleep, breathing evenly, his eyelashes trembling slightly, his brows furrowed unconsciously, and then he woke up suddenly.

Lin Leyang looked at him, stroking his sweaty cheek from the nightmare, tender and docile.He seems to be a watered and ripe fruit, full of the charm of an adult now, such a fruit is destined to be picked.

Li Chuan held his wrist, put half of his cheek on his palm, and asked him to touch himself.

But only me.

He said silently in his heart, but Lin Leyang could only be his.

"Brother." He called him, and leaned over to kiss his forehead, the only sweet dew in the dull summer and early morning sunshine.

And Lin Leyang responded to him.

##

Zhao Ruixiao met Li Chuan again, still at Lin's house, and this time the person who opened the door was not even the owner of the house, nor Aunt Chang.

Li Chuan stood at the entrance, and he stood outside the door, not knowing what expression to make for a moment.

The last time we met, he revealed too much.

It shouldn't be.It's really not in his character to tell something to a 19-year-old mentally immature boy.

But he just said it, and got the look he expected—the look that belonged to Ji Wanke.

He wasn't sure if this was the case when people were in love with another person. He had no reference, so he could only bring out his former friends and imagine how he would look when he heard these words. Li Chuan was perfect Replicated everything.

This made Zhao Ruixiao feel absurd and terrifying thoughts at the same time.

It would be great if Li Chuan was Ji Wanke, then things could be solved easily.

He had the idea, and immediately denied it.

This is impolite to the teenagers around you.

He said sorry in his heart, arbitrarily treating him as another person.

A person who disappeared for a long time and will not come back.

"Good afternoon." Zhao Ruixiao greeted him.

Li Chuan nodded to him, and said casually, "Lin Ruoliu asked you to come again?"

The smile on Zhao Ruixiao's face froze for a moment, but he recovered quickly.

Li Chuan made no secret of it, he did not regard himself as an outsider, nor did he treat him as an outsider.

Zhao Ruixiao said, "This time I wanted to come."

Li Chuan obviously didn't believe it, and stepped out of the way, "Okay, let's see brother Le Yang?"

Zhao Ruixiao said to him, "Come to find you."

Li Chuan looked at him, "Do you think I should believe it?"

"Believe it or not is up to you." Zhao Ruixiao showed a smile he was good at, kind and unpredictable, "Do you want to go out and have a chat?"

Li Chuan turned his head and glanced upstairs, "No."

"What is Le Yang doing?"

"sleep."

Zhao Ruixiao looked at him, Li Chuan looked calm.

"Ruoliu didn't take him that seriously." Zhao Ruixiao pointed out.

Li Chuan raised his eyelids lazily, "So you called her that in private?"

Zhao Ruixiao: "..."

Li Chuan: "..."

Both sides are silent.

"Don't you want to know more? About Le Yang." Zhao Ruixiao threw out a bait.

Li Chuan was unmoved, "I don't really think about it now."

"Now?"

This time Li Chuan didn't look back, but still looked at him, "Because there are more important things now."

What is important?Zhao Ruixiao didn't ask, he knew the answer.

"I'm going to stay with him."

The kind smile on Zhao Ruixiao's mouth disappeared, and he stared at the boy opposite him with a more complicated expression.

It's offensive.

He reminded himself again that he shouldn't treat the boy as someone else.

"Uncle." Li Chuan said, "Whether you can get in or not, the air conditioner is on, and the air is blowing out."

Zhao Ruixiao came back to his senses, nodded, and stepped into the cool room.

Ji Wanke will not appear here.

The person in front of him is not him.

##

Lin Leyang's memory began to decline at this time about a year ago, no, it was cooler and more pleasant than this time, and it was at the end of April.

At first, Ji Wanke would be mentioned at the dinner table. When everyone arrived, Lin Leyang suddenly said, "Wait a minute, Ji Wanke hasn't arrived yet."

As a result, the whole table fell silent.

Then Lin Leyang apologized and said very sincerely: "I'm sorry, I forgot."

Lin Ruoliu was very worried about his mental state and proposed to go to the hospital to have a look.

Lin Leyang felt baffled: "I'm not sick, why should I go to the hospital?"

No one dared to answer.

But this matter was far from being so simple, and Lin Leyang frequently mentioned Ji Wanke many times afterwards.

Lin Ruoliu started to get scared, but Lin Leyang comforted her, "Sister, don't worry, I can take care of myself."

Lin Ruoliu believed it.

The result was a phone call from the hospital. The doctor informed the family that the patient had severe anorexia behavior and tried to swallow a whole bottle of sleeping pills.

When Wu Xu and Zhao Ruixiao arrived, Lin Leyang was about to pull out the needle and escape.

Wu Xu asked him why he did this. Lin Leyang was sitting on the hospital bed. He was already very thin at that time, with an innocent look on his face, but he said calmly: "I just can't sleep, my consciousness is in a trance, I can't concentrate, no There will be a next time, so when can I get out of the hospital? I don't want to be in the hospital."

He hated hospitals, where disinfectant mixed with alcohol, howling mixed with blood.

He did have good reason to hate hospitals.

In the end, several people compromised and let Lin Leyang go home to recuperate, but different people visited him every day.Lin Leyang didn't like them coming in and out of his home, so he went back to work in the company. He hasn't been here for a long time, and the employees in the company are a little afraid of him, because this little boss who doesn't come to work often has a bad temper and is always in a cloudy mood. .

Obviously it wasn't like this before.

But no one dared to mention the past.

The weather warmed up in May, with the scent of flowers and grass blowing in the wind, and then it rained.

Zhao Ruixiao will always remember this day, or they can't help but remember this day.

After the rain, the air is very fresh. On the rocky road that has been watered by rain in the mountain forest, the shadows of Lin Leyang and the gray-white umbrella are reflected in the puddles of different depths.

He didn't put away the umbrella until Lin Ruoliu behind him reminded him that it was no longer raining, but suddenly raised his head, showing a dazed and helpless expression to Lin Ruoliu.

This is very unlike him.

He's grown up, 27, and shouldn't be seeking refuge with his family.

But family is always family.

He finally peeled off that hard shell, and said to Lin Ruoliu, "Sister, I regret it a bit."

Wu Xu who was walking in front stopped, and Zhao Ruixiao also stopped.

The rain has stopped.

But there is a heavy rainstorm brewing in everyone's heart, and they are all waiting for it to fall, waiting for the rain to cover the valley-now is the moment.

Lin Leyang's eyes were full of tears, he said regret, his voice trembling slightly.

He never said he regretted it.

Does he regret meeting Ji Wanke?

Then he must be lying.

So Lin Ruoliu said, "What silly things are you talking about?"

But Lin Leyang's next words silenced everyone.

He is sincerely regretting.

Lin Leyang said: "I wish I was braver. I told him that I liked him on the first day we met, so that we could be together for two more years. Recently, my memory has started to become bad, and I will forget many things. I don’t remember some things with him, and I often have to think for a long time before I can remember. It would be great if I could do it all over again, this time I said that I like him earlier, anyway, he will like me sooner or later.”

He and Ji Wanke met in the summer of that year,

The first year was just a roommate relationship, and we didn't stay together until the third year.

His tears finally fell down, like falling rain, scalding the hearts of everyone present.

It turns out that language can also cut out pain.

"I regret it, if only I could meet him sooner."

If Ji Wanke saw this scene, maybe he would accuse everyone present.

Zhao Ruixiao guessed that he would say: "Is this how you take care of Lin Leyang?! It's not as good as when I was here, are you trash?"

When the man was alive, he kept his mouth open and closed: "Lin Leyang, Lin Xiaoque, you confessed to me before I agreed to you. If you dare to change your mind, you will die."

In fact, I feel extremely insecure. I have to act like a baby to Lin Leyang, who is only half a year older than him, and ask him to care more about himself. I don’t restrain myself until after graduation, and become reliable and calm. I also learn to speak out my love, so as to appease the fragile and helpless back then. Lin Leyang helped.

Zhao Ruixiao used to be very envious of such a relationship, knowing that if that accident hadn't happened, these two people would be together for the rest of their lives.

After Ji Wanke's death, he often thought how it would be a blessing not to have such feelings.

They supported each other through the seventh year.

Ji Wanke died in a rainy season at the age of 26.

The author says:

Ji Wanke died two years ago.