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I have always believed that men have the potential for schizophrenia, otherwise why can they separate their emotions and physical feelings so clearly.Even if you don't love someone, you can still have a primitive impulse towards that person's body.In fact, men are animals with incomplete evolution.I have no doubts.

I curled up on the bed uneasily, trying my best to shrink myself to the minimum. Only in this way can I feel a little sense of security. The world is so big, and only when I curl up hard can you feel that I am real It really exists and is alive.Drowsy in the head, there is a dull pain, like being hit by a blunt instrument.

The phone jingled. I took the phone and glanced at it. It was Lu Chao's call.At this moment, I don't know how to face him, and I don't know what attitude to use to treat our feelings.I stared blankly at the dear sign displayed on the screen of the phone, until the phone seemed to stop unwillingly, watching the screen gradually turning black, I was quietly relieved.

But the phone rang unwillingly, and I was so restless, looking at the dear sign there, as if laughing at my absurdity, I threw the phone out forcefully, and the noisy phone vibrated for a while It fell silent, like a frightened child who was unwilling but did not dare to make a sound.

I closed my eyes contentedly, in a quiet environment, finally without the noisy voice of the phone, the world belongs to me at this moment, and I can quietly immerse myself in my own world.No need to worry about messy things, no need to think about my failed feelings.

When I was dim, I seemed to hear the people in the room being knocked away by a great force.With a touch, the ground shook.

I stood up abruptly, opened my confused eyes, and looked at the person in front of me. For a long time, my eyes couldn't focus on the person who came, and I vaguely saw a slender body rushing towards me. He hugged me tightly in his arms, holding my body tightly with great strength.I groaned in pain.I want to forcefully push the person in front of me away.

"Xiao Hai, Xiao Hai! What's the matter with you? Look at me... look at me..." The man shook my shoulder crazily.I was dizzy for a while, and my stomach felt a little churning.I covered my mouth tightly, my face turned pale.

"Do you want to vomit?" Lu Chao looked at me in a panic, let go of my hand, rushed into the bathroom in a hurry, took out a clean basin and put it next to me.

"If you want to vomit, just vomit here!" He gently rubbed my back to help me breathe.Beads of sweat slid down my face one by one, and soon soaked the clothes on my chest.I pushed away Lu Chao's hand tightly wrapped around my shoulder, and quickly went into the bathroom barefoot.It was so dark that I vomited, and I couldn't squat because my feet were so soft, so I could only sit limply on the ground. There was nothing in my stomach, and I was still retching.

Lu Chao has been leaning against the wall nervously and looking at me without blinking, his body stretched into a straight line, like a cheetah ready to pounce at any time.Until he watched me sit softly on the ground, panting heavily.Lu Chao quickly squatted down and hugged me tightly in his arms.Putting his hands on my waist, he hugged me as soon as he exerted force on his hands.My body really has no strength at all, so I can only lean on his arms.Let yourself be intoxicated in this gentle country and cannot extricate yourself.

His embrace is really warm, leaning against it is like the scorching sun in spring, warm and hot, but now, will this embrace still belong to me in the future? Something called tears slipped down quietly and flowed into the mouth, bitter tears.

"What's wrong? Xiao Hai, why are you crying so hard? Are you really sad? Otherwise, I'll take you to the hospital!" He looked over with searching eyes, still so clear, so warm, and his beautiful big eyes blinked He blinked at me, with deep worry and heartache in his eyes.He sat with his back to the light, his eyes were as bright as stars shining in the dark night.My tears fell uncontrollably again, and I couldn't stop them.Maybe I don't want to stop at all!Such beautiful eyes and the light in them are something Hungry never wants to throw away, I love him, madly in love.Now that I think about it, is this God’s revenge on me?Do you think that I have desecrated the pure love between us, so you want to punish me like this?I closed my eyes in pain, believing that I was so sad that I was going to die.

"What's the matter, what happened, why are you crying all the time?" There was pity and worry in Lu Chao's eyes, which couldn't be faked.I know.

"It's okay, maybe something has been eaten!" I shook my head weakly, and replied softly, my voice was like a sigh.Sure enough, I still can't resist.

"If you're so careless, I didn't cook for you for a day, and it became like this. If I'm not here, what will you do yourself!" Lu Chao smiled shallowly, and touched my cheeks one after another. Forehead, said fondly and helplessly.I admit that it is very comfortable, and there is a nice smell that makes me intoxicated.

"Will you leave me?" I squinted and asked casually.I don't want him to see how sad I am right now.

"No!" His hand stiffened on my forehead, and he continued to touch my head as if nothing had happened, but his hesitation was like a knife wound on my heart, leaving a wound that will never die. Indelible scars.

"En!" I nodded slightly, rubbed vigorously on his hand, and sighed contentedly.Regardless of whether what you said is true or not, as long as you say it, I will believe you, I sighed softly in my heart, there is no way to leave him, I can only suffer the pain silently.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"It's past seven o'clock, it's almost eight o'clock!" Lu Chao raised his hand and looked at the watch on his wrist, and replied softly.I gave him that watch, bought it for him the day my mom approved of our relationship.When I took out the watch that day, Lu Chao habitually wanted to refuse. Although he lived a poor life before, he could still distinguish some brands.He saw that the watch was expensive.I knew he would say no.At that time, I looked at him excitedly and said, "Lu Chao, I will spend every minute and every second with you in the future. Look, I will give you a watch so that you can clearly remember our time together." Every minute and every second, this watch witnesses our love, so you can't refuse!" I put the watch on his wrist domineeringly.That is, he just looked at me and smiled, eyes full of happiness.Let me unconsciously indulge in that clear halo.

But now, when I saw that watch, I felt a little pain in my heart. Did that watch witness something else while we were in love?Or is it a mistake to send out the watch, and does it mean the end?I laughed at myself.

Lu Chao watched me staring at the watch on his wrist without blinking. There was an emotion that I couldn't understand at the moment slowly rising in Lu Chao's eyes, and I was a little puzzled.

"It's so late, why did you come back?" I asked, and then realized that I seemed to be asking something, and quickly closed my mouth. It was nothing to ask, but I thought of Lu Chao and that boy suspiciously, and I closed my mouth wisely. on the mouth.

"I was going to work overtime at night. I wanted to call you, but your phone was either not answered, or your phone was turned off. I was a little worried. I was always flustered and had a bad feeling. I just Come back quickly!" Lu Chao looked at me helplessly and said. "Fortunately, I came back to take a look, otherwise, what would you do! By the way, why don't you answer the phone?"

"The phone broke!" I pointed to a pile of broken parts of the phone piled up in the corner, and explained weakly, "I didn't mean to, I was going to clean up, but I forgot the phone on the bed Let it go, and I was blown out all of a sudden, and it became like this."

"I don't blame you, I'm just buying one!" Lu Chao smiled softly and patted my head fondly.

"Would you like something to eat?"

I shook my head, my stomach was empty, and I felt a burning sensation. "I want to drink iced Coke!" I looked at Lu Chao pitifully, with innocent eyes open.I just deliberately want to act like a baby in front of Lu Chao, I want to please him.

"No, you just vomited, let me make some soup!" He said with concern.

"But my stomach is very hot, I want to eat something cold!" I said pitifully.

"Wait!" Lu Chao gave me a stern look, and I shrank my neck, not daring to be willful.

Now I am really afraid of angering Lu Chao. I feel that as long as I provoke him a little, he will leave me and will never come back.I just have such a feeling.

Soon Lu Chao came out with a bowl of steaming soup. I took a closer look and saw a few pieces of yellow ginger-like pieces floating on the sauce-colored soup.

"What's this?" I asked curiously, I leaned up and sniffed it vigorously, it smelled of coke.

"It's cola ginger soup. Ginger has anti-emetic effects. And don't you want to drink cola? I'll cook cola ginger soup for you. How about a taste?" The lips moved together.

I took a shallow sip, "It's delicious!" I lowered my head and took small sips. There was a warm feeling in my stomach, and there was a comfortable feeling like pain in my empty stomach.

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