fifth year of divorce

Although Qin Weiji and I got married once and have done intimate things countless times, I still feel that our hearts are far away.

Probably because the marriage is too short, and there is no time for the soul to be together, so it can't be regarded as unswerving until death.

We are in love because of drama, I am obsessed with his indifference, but also his tenderness.

But what is he obsessed with me?

Are you obsessed with my beautiful face or my young body, or is it because I was so beautiful at the time?

But now I have nothing.

He shouldn't be such a superficial person, but aren't all people superficial? Do I still expect Xie Yaoyin to be the one he falls in love with?

It is too despicable to speculate on Qin Weiji like this.

I'm just not confident in myself.

What is it that can keep Qin Weiji in my body?

Or, there is nothing left to keep him, otherwise why would he look for someone else?

I am determined to be lonely for the rest of my life, how can he have someone new?

But we are already divorced, so saying this can be regarded as a moral kidnapping, and it is against public order and good customs to keep getting entangled.

You see, because of emotion and reason, I shouldn't bother him anymore.

But I am not reconciled.

I always feel that I love Qin Weiji more than he loves me.

I can't bear to let him shed a single tear, I don't know how many times he has made me sad.

I feel that brother Qin doesn't love me anymore.

He said that he would give me whatever I wanted, and I wanted him, why would he just refuse to give it.

It was Qin Weiji who felt that I didn't want anything when I divorced, so he used this sentence to make up for me.

As long as I want, he will give me a bright future, a smooth career, and money for the rest of my life, but he will not give me a chance to love again.

Why didn't I know that Qin Weiji was so cruel.

I stretched out my hand to cover my eyes, as if covering thousands of stars, the light disappeared in my eyes, and the smile I pulled out looked sad.

I went through the past in my mind again, and it was all about the geese flying apart, gathering less and leaving more, I can't even recall a trace of warmth.

When Jiang Ling called me, it was rare for me to have a peaceful sleep, and I answered the phone in a daze.

"Where are you?"

I slowly opened my eyes, remembering that I came directly to Fenghuali after I came out of the hospital last night.

"Fenghuali."

Jiang Ling paused, his voice a little hoarse, "Leave my son behind me?"

I smiled, there is no such thing as romance, after a night of wind, frost and swords, it is almost the same, "Your son is alive and kicking, it will be fine if you leave it all night."

"What happened to the flowers in your bedroom?"

I smiled lightly, "I can't support it anymore, throw it away."

Jiang Ling sighed helplessly, "Don't you know that cats can't keep flowers in their homes? It doesn't matter if the flowers die, don't eat my son."

I sat up suddenly, "Your son made my flowers look like that?"

"Otherwise? Don't look at him as young, he has a lot of skills to keep the family from growing."

I froze, and shook my head funny.

If I tell Jiang Ling that I cried all night because of this potted flower and went to see a psychiatrist, I wonder if Jiang Ling will laugh at me.

I suddenly thought of something and stopped, "Are you back in China?"

"Well, just arrived for a while."

I frowned, "Don't you still have more than two months to shoot?"

Jiang Ling responded lightly, "No more shots."

"what happened?"

"I still have to ask you." Jiang Ling's voice slowly cooled down, "Why didn't you tell me about the blue whale pouring your wine?"

I was stunned for a while, there was no way to hide things in the circle, but if it could be spread across the ocean to Jiangling, this group of people would be too open-minded.

"I told you it wasn't for nothing to worry you. I didn't suffer from Brother Qin being with me that day."

Jiang Ling paused for a while, "No wonder."

"what happened?"

"The filming of the blue whale over there was stopped directly, which should be Qin Weiji's intention."

I sat in a daze for a while, and then slowly realized, "No, brother Qin won't mess with newcomers."

"I still know how many Zhou Xizai were able to move the blue whale."

Qin Weiji disdains doing this kind of thing too much. Probably scholars hate tricks like acting with privileges and behind-the-scenes tricks. I have been by his side for so many years and have never seen him do anything to a newcomer, even if that person no longer Knowing what is good and what is bad, no matter how ignorant of the rules, what he does most is to treat him with indifference, not even saying a bad word.

How could you directly call to stop the announcement of the blue whale?

Just because he spilled a glass of wine on me?

"Ayao, is your conflict with the blue whale related to me?"

I came to my senses, if I let Jiang Ling know that Zhou Xi had the idea of ​​giving up on him now, and let so many people slander him, Jiang Ling would feel so sad, why bother to punish Jiang Ling with other people's mistakes.

"Of course it's none of your business. It's because I can't understand him."

Jiang Ling doubted, "You are not someone who can't understand others."

"So that blue whale is really annoying." I paused, and reminded Jiang Ling, "Jiang Ling, you still have to be careful of the blue whale in the company, I already felt that he seemed to be in trouble when I saw him that day. I am imitating you in terms of clothing and grooming."

"Imitate me?" Jiang Ling wondered, "Probably not, the clothes and accessories are prepared by the company or provided by the brand."

"Then maybe I'm overthinking it, you still have to pay more attention."

"Well, pack up and I'll pick you up."

I looked at the time and it was already ten o'clock, "You have to catch the plane overnight and take a rest, I will take a taxi by myself."

"Let me pick you up. After all, it's a bit dangerous for a public figure to take a taxi."

I couldn't resist Jiang Ling, so I went to wash my face and waited for Jiang Ling to pick me up.

When Jiang Ling came, I was wearing a black sweater, the hat blocked my face, and I had an unfinished cigarette in my hand. I waited at the door for more than ten minutes, and the security guard didn't dare to come out and say a word to me. Probably because my aura is too unfriendly.

Jiang Ling rolled down the car window and frowned when he saw me like this, "Are you playing Young and Dangerous?"

I stretched out my hand to open the car door, put the plastic bag in my sweater pocket, and rubbed my hand on the tip of my nose unnaturally, "Don't mention it, the down jacket was scratched yesterday, and the feathers inside flew all the way. What kind of performance art am I doing? I was so scared that I hurriedly took a taxi, I was afraid that if I was photographed, I would have a place in the hot search tomorrow."

Jiang Ling turned on the heater in the car and glanced sideways at me, "Didn't you look in the mirror to see how ghostly you are?"

I shrank my face into the sweater without any trace, "I didn't sleep well."

"Why did you come here alone?"

I don't know, I was in a bad mood when I came out of the hospital last night, so I wanted to go back to Fenghuali to have a look.

"Come and get something."

"What about things?"

"did not find."

Jiang Ling pursed his lips, slightly annoyed, "Xie Yaoyin, you have to make up lies, and the nonsense that comes out of your mouth cannot stand up to scrutiny."

I clicked my tongue impatiently, "You know it's a lie and you still ask, why are you so ungrateful?"

"Then what's in your pocket?"

I subconsciously covered my pockets and dodged my eyes, "There is nothing, you can concentrate on driving."

"Okay." Jiang Ling nodded, "If you don't tell the truth, I will drive the car to Qin Weiji's place. Anyway, if you have any abnormalities, it must be related to Qin Weiji."

I glared at Jiang Ling viciously, "Are you fucking ignorant of current affairs?"

Jiang Ling parked the car on the side of the road and leaned on the seat, obviously very angry, "Do you have to use dirty words when you talk to me?"

I was wronged, and I bowed my head with a guilty conscience, "I blurted out, I was wrong."

"Take out the stuff in your pocket."

Reluctantly, I took the things out of my pocket, "Jiangling, I'm under a lot of pressure for not giving me some privacy."

Jiang Ling cast a glance at me, and took the things from my hands, "How old are you, what privacy do you need?"

Ok?

Is there a problem with Jiang Ling's words?

Jiang Ling took out the medicine that Doctor Yuan prescribed for me from the plastic bag, looked at it for a while, and his brows became more and more wrinkled, "You went to see a doctor."

I responded with a low voice, "Hmm."

"what is the problem?"

"What separation anxiety."

"is it serious?"

"Nothing serious."

Jiang Ling shook the medicine in front of me, "Aren't you serious about prescribing antidepressants?"

I snatched the medicine back and muttered, "It's prevention, not depression."

Jiang Ling stretched out his hand and slapped me on the back of the head, and I quickly reached out and rubbed it in pain, "Jiang Ling! I'm a patient!"

"I think you're mentally retarded." Jiang Ling glared at me, "I'll send you to Qin Weiji."

My eyes widened, "How dare you! Do you believe that I jumped out of the car?!"

"Jump! Either you break your leg today and I'll send you to Qin Weiji to take care of your leg, or just go there and let Qin Weiji take a good look at your brain."

I was a little scared, and quickly hugged Jiang Ling's arm, "Jiang Ling, you won't let me go because I'm sick, will you?"

Jiang Ling threw his arm away, gritted his teeth with hatred, "I knew I couldn't let you go on like this, it's time to take care of you."

"The doctor has prescribed medicine for me, and I will be fine after taking it."

"I've never heard that taking medicine can cure your mental illness. The root cause of your illness is Qin Weiji. No one can save you except him."

I saw Jiang Ling's eyes were so determined, I quickly grabbed his arm, "Jiang Ling, you can't send me there, Brother Qin already has a new life, I can't use my illness to kidnap him, do you understand?"

"I don't understand." Jiang Ling's eyes turned cold, "Xie Yaoyin, you and Qin Weiji have been married for three years, have you ever trusted his love?"

I was stunned for a while, I couldn't understand Jiang Ling's meaning, "Of course I trust."

Jiang Ling looked into my eyes, "If you trust me, you won't break up your marriage with him because of his parents' attitude; I won’t be hiding from him for five years.”

"Ayao, have you ever thought about having a good chat with Qin Weiji? Even if it is to break up with us, we must be broken up. You can't always speculate by yourself. What if you fail to live up to some great affection?"