fifth year of divorce

I've recently fallen in love with growing flowers.

You must know that I used to be a person who even raised succulents to death.

I went to the flower and bird market and bought a pot of roses and crabapples. I felt that the old flower seller was lying to me. He insisted that this flower is very easy to feed, and I just need to water it when I have nothing to do.

As a result, I came back and checked on the Internet only to find that this flower is very hypocritical, and the environmental soil and light conditions are very harsh.

It is also afraid of low temperature and strong light, so ordinary soil cannot be used for the soil, and fertilization is also particular.

I wanted to add some color to my home, but I didn't expect to invite an ancestor back.

There was already an ancestor in the family, and now there is another one.

I am determined to grow this potted flower well, and I checked the quality of the soil that comes with the flower and bird market. It is best to use the soil from the park or the garden of the community.

I hesitated for a moment. There is really a garden of magnolia in the community of Jiangling.

After all, Jiangling is also the owner. The owner digging some soil should not be regarded as an infringement of public property, right?

After struggling for a while, I put on a mask, went downstairs with a plastic bag and a shovel.

I sneaked to the garden, looked around for no one, and prepared to shovel.

Turning around, I saw a big mother walking over with a bucket, "Young man, the soil here is too hard to use. If you want to grow flowers, you have to dig the middle."

I paused in embarrassment, "You are quite skilled in business."

"Your first time here?"

"Yes." I smiled awkwardly, "It's my first time growing flowers."

"I was a little nervous when I came here for the first time. Young people are thin-skinned. It would be nice to come here a few more times."

"it is good..."

After the aunt finished speaking, she bent down and shoveled dirt into the bucket. "Nowadays, not many young people like to grow flowers."

I muttered softly, "That's right, there are not many elderly people who like disco."

"What kind of flowers do you grow?"

"What is it called Rose Begonia?"

"Hey, that is a precious flower, this soil is not good."

I paused, "I checked on the Internet, and it said that this soil is fine."

"This soil has poor air permeability and drainage. You have to collect a little mulch and ceramic particles and mix well."

I was a little embarrassed, "So I have to go to other places to steal soil?"

"All the money at a young age is used to coax your daughter-in-law? Can you afford flowers but can't you afford soil?"

I gritted my teeth, "Then you still have a retirement salary, and your wife still uses her own salary to make you happy from time to time. You came here to steal the soil like me."

The aunt gave a "tsk", "The flowers we raise are not expensive, and they can live with soil and water. Can your expensive flowers be raised without spending a little money?"

It also makes sense.

"Hey! What are you two doing?!"

When I turned around, I saw someone coming from the property.

I put on the hat of the down jacket, "Auntie, this soil is for you."

I took the shovel and hurriedly bowed my head and left.

The aunt behind shouted, "Young man! Remember to buy some perlite and peat soil!"

Chaoyang people are really enthusiastic.

After hearing what my aunt said, I went to the flower and bird market to buy the soil I needed, and after planting the flowers, I put them on the floor of the bedroom.

I don't know why I suddenly want to grow flowers.

Probably because it was so lonely.

When Jiang Ling left and left me alone in the empty house, I was suddenly not used to it.

But I came here alone in those five years, and I didn't feel that uncomfortable. It was probably because I was so popular that I began to crave excitement.

I gently rocked the rocking chair, thinking back to the script of "The Qingyun Case". I was a lucky person. It took only two years from entering the circle to becoming popular. People say that a small fire depends on praise, and a big fire depends on fate. I am the one. lucky people.

Although there was a five-year vacancy period, I was able to cooperate with the actor as soon as I returned to China, and I also received an olive branch from a well-known director.

Zhou Xi said that I am the darling of the entertainment industry, and he is absolutely right.

If it weren't for Qin Weishou, my luck would have offended many people who have worked hard all year round but failed.

At the beginning, I did accept director Wang's play with the idea of ​​repaying my kindness, but now I want to fight for my own future.

Since I want to live well, and God has never treated me badly, there is no reason not to seize this opportunity.

The reception was booked at the China World Hotel. I still have lingering fears about driving. Director Wang specially asked someone to drive to pick me up.

"Mr. Xie, Director Wang has a friend who came over early, let me send you there."

I smiled and nodded, "Okay, thank you."

I have participated in dozens of such receptions in the past, big and small. When I debuted, Guo Jun led me to say hello to everyone. After a round, my face was frozen with a smile. At that time, I thought that if it became popular in the future, I would never participate in this kind of reception. The reception is over.

Later, it became popular, and more and more people participated in this kind of reception.

After I got married with Qin Weiji, I went to such receptions a lot. At that time, I stood beside Qin Weiji, smiling whenever I met, and ignoring people with a cold face. Tired and afraid I'm hungry.

When you talk to someone a few words, you have to look back at me, and when you see that I get impatient sometimes, you take me out of the venue early.

I do nothing, just the focus of the audience.

At that time, I was shrouded in light, standing on the top of no one, and felt that the stars, the moon and the moon had to make way for me.

Frivolous and bright.

Unlike now, when I stand in the lobby of the reception, I feel that the glazed lights above my head are dazzling, and the eyes of others are also sharp and dazzling.

I have long been out of tune with this circle, and my mentality is not as comfortable as before.

"Xie, here."

I came back to my senses and heard Director Wang calling me. I walked over slowly, with an elegant and calm posture, but no enthusiasm in my heart.

"Director Wang."

Director Wang reached out and patted my shoulder, then turned his head and said, "Xiao Xie, do you still know these directors?"

I raised my eyes and saw some of them who had worked with me before, and said with a smile, "Of course, they are all leaders in the industry, and I have heard of them."

Director Wang smiled and joked, "Everyone, is there anyone who doesn't know him?"

"How can I not know each other, I have invited Xiao Xie so many times in my show before, but she never came."

I apologized and said with a smile, "Forgive me, we as artists cannot be masters of managers."

"What drama has Xiaoxie been playing recently?"

"I just finished the film directed by Zhou Kong."

The director nodded and glanced at me, "Would you like to come to a scene where I have a male lead?"

As soon as these words came out, the scene was a little awkward, and the conversation and jokes stopped abruptly.

I chuckled, probably the most taboo thing for all ex-stars is to hear such words as male second and male supporting role. I really didn't waver and my face remained calm, "As long as your script is good, I can play tricks."

Director Wang smiled in satisfaction, and then interrupted the man, "Take your second male lead back, I'm ashamed to say, Xiao Xie, the male lead on my side, hasn't even agreed to it yet."

"Xiao Xie's vision is still as high as ever."

It was sarcasm, and I was reluctant to strike up a conversation.

"It's all said that beauty is in the bone but not the skin. Xiaoxie's bone appearance really hasn't changed after five years."

I raised my eyes and recognized that the director was Xu Ming, Qin Weiji's mentor. I closed my eyes and lowered my head slightly, which could be considered humble, "You're an honor, Director Xu."

"I have seen your play, it is very spiritual, and I have the opportunity to cooperate."

I was flattered and bent over, "Good director Xu."

Xu Ming nodded, and smiled when looking into the distance, "Well, our wrist is finally willing to come."

I looked back with everyone, and Qin Weiji was greeting people. He has always bent over to shake hands when talking to people in such a position in the circle all these years. The lonely soul of immortals.

I saw Qi Lianyu next to him standing on one side but still shining brightly. I always feel that time has changed and things have changed.

I have never envied anyone in my life, nor felt that I was inferior to anyone, but suddenly I felt as if I had been stripped of my demeanor and looked ashamed in front of Qi Lianyu.

I wanted to go, but it felt too indecent.

Director Xu raised his hand, "Not sent."

Qin Weiji raised his head slightly, I still bumped into his eyes even though I was hiding in the crowd, he was stunned and walked towards this side.

"Sorry teacher, I'm late." Qin Weiji smiled at the other directors again, "Good evening everyone."

"You're so busy with work, it's great to be here."

"Good evening, directors." Qi Lianyu also nodded slightly from the side, showing the posture of a rising star.

A director looked at him with a smile, "Xiao Qi is full of dissatisfaction with the announcement recently, and I want to find you for a play."

"You look for me, of course I have time."

"That's a deal."

In this kind of situation, I am not surprised, even like a fish in water, but I can't say anything at the moment, like a stunned young man who has just entered the circle, unable to speak at the scene.

I'm a little sad.

Some frustration.

"Who accompanied you here?"

When the clear voice came over, I knew it was meant for me. I raised my head slightly and felt a lump in my throat, so I couldn't speak.

Director Wang looked at me, smiled and said to Qin Weiji, "I was the one who brought Xiao Xie here."

Qin Weiji glanced at me, paused, and then looked at Director Wang, "He's not very good at driving, didn't he bother you?"

"How come, I'm very glad that Xiao Xie can come."

"Thank you senior." Qi Lianyu came forward to say hello as if he had just seen me.

I nodded slightly, "Hello."

"Senior Xie, can't you drive?"

I pursed my lips, a little coldly, "It's not very good."

"Then thank you senior for leaving with my car later?"

I frowned, my eyes slowly turned cold, I gently put down the champagne glass, and looked at him with a smile, "We are not on the way."

"Xiao Qi, leave this opportunity to me. I will definitely send him back safely when I bring him here." Director Wang looked at Qin Weizhi, "Don't worry."

Qin Weiji smiled lightly, "I've already troubled you, why don't you be so embarrassed, I'll just send him back later."

I didn't speak, just quietly listening to their arrangements.

I feel that the edges and corners of my body in the past are slowly being smoothed away. As time goes on, what else can not be smoothed?

I am really redundant in this place, and I am not reconciled to being so redundant.

I raised my eyes and glanced at Qin Weiji faintly, and a terrible thought gradually emerged in my heart.

It's embarrassing to talk about.

I think, if Brother Qin still wants me, just be a third party.

I am no longer willing to always stand at the end of the light and always look up to him in the dark.