fifth year of divorce

Every day I've been in the UK has been a dream come true.

The British are notoriously arrogant. I didn't want to stay here for too long. Later, there was a shooting in downtown Newcastle, killing more than a dozen people, mostly Arabs.

I saw Christian believers in black holding Bibles and praying for the dozens of dead souls.

They hope that God can save the world from the evil, so that these dead people can be freed from all sins in the world, and can rest in peace in heaven.

As far as life is concerned, it can be said that it is not cherished.

I suddenly fell in love with this place. If I die here one day, the believers will pray for me, and the priests will pray for me. Will God be merciful and forgiving to me?

No one here knows me, it is better than being hung up on the Internet when I am alive and dead, and being talked about my life and death.

So unromantic.

But I still want to see my Mr. Qin again.

I didn't go back to Beijing first, but went back to my hometown.

Tired of travel and travel, I hid in the small apartment I bought before and slept for a whole day. I got up early the next morning and chartered a car to go to the cemetery to visit my mother.

I haven't seen my mother for five years. In the past three years, Qin Weiji came with me. I came alone because I was afraid that I would not be able to explain to my mother, so I never dared to come.

Now that I think about it, my mother is the only relative left in this world. For five years, my son has not come to visit her grave in order to avoid hurting her. It is really unfilial.

"Mr. Xie, you haven't been here for a long time."

The administrator handed me a hat. My mother doesn't like my hair dyed. She should be angry when I go to her with yellow hair.

"I have a job outside, thank you for taking care of me these years."

The administrator smiled and led me in, "Mr. Qin has been here for several years."

I paused, "Brother Qin has been here?"

The administrator nodded, "Every time I come here, I stay for a long time. I asked why you didn't come together. He said you were busy with work."

I didn't speak anymore, and the administrator went out.

I walked to my mother's tombstone, put down the flowers, and suddenly had mixed feelings in my heart.

I wanted to say something, but I stood there unable to speak.

My mother has passed away for more than ten years, and the voice, appearance and appearance have begun to fade in my memory.

People are ruthless, and blood relatives cannot last long.

Besides, she didn't like to take pictures when she was alive, and there are not many photos left.

I don't know if it was a day when I suddenly couldn't remember what she looked like.

But I will never forget her temperament and temper.

If she was still alive, she would never allow me to marry a man. She held on until she died because she was afraid that I would be alone in this world.

If she knew that I didn't want offspring and chose to spend my life with a man, she didn't know how sad she would be.

I don't live up to it, it's really a coincidence that one person will be lonely for the rest of his life.

I leaned against the tombstone and smiled, "Mom, did Brother Qin speak ill of me in front of you?"

I haven't come back all these years because I was afraid of meeting Qin Weiji again. I was a little afraid of him, and I didn't even dare to die.

"Brother Qin didn't want to see me again, so I hid from him for five years. What if he beats me up this time when I meet him? Once he beats me up, I feel like I did something wrong. "

I sighed, "You spoiled me since childhood, felt that I lacked a father's love and wanted to make up for me, and raised me like a daughter, carefully and carefully, for fear that I would bump into something, but I spoiled myself like this..."

"Mom, don't worry, I have to live well on my own, and it's better to make you angry again."

I don't know how long I sat there, the administrator came from a distance, "Mr. Xie, it's getting late, it will be dangerous to go down the mountain later."

I got up slowly, kept silent and stopped talking, and walked forward with my head down.

"Are you all right?"

I took off the hat and handed it to the administrator, "It's okay, thank you for the hat."

The administrator took the hat with a smile, "Mr. Xie, you have changed a lot."

"Huh?" I turned around.

"You didn't talk to me when you came here before."

I don't even know who used to be so arrogant before.

Everyone in the circle knows that I am notoriously arrogant. At the beginning, even Zhou Kong personally came to give me a notebook and I could refuse it without even looking at it.

Later, after I got married to Qin Weiji, I was spoiled. If I said I didn’t want to make movies, I didn’t want to make movies anymore. If any investor didn’t like me, I just stopped acting. I didn’t have to deal with capital. I was in a messy circle. , but his heart was kept clean by Qin Weiji's protection, and he never pretended to be a snake.

But a few years ago, he was slapped back to reality by that unknown manager.

Only then did I realize that I no longer know how to be a human being.

I flew back to Beijing overnight. Although I worked hard in Beijing for many years, I never had time to buy a house. After getting married, Qin Weiji bought a house in Fenghuali and we have been living there.

We divorced in a hurry, and I gave up all my property. I didn't have time to get the things I put in Fenghua. Now I don't even have a place to live when I go back, so I can only live in a hotel first.

After hesitating for a long time, I got through to He Nanquan's cell phone.

"Hi, I'm He Nanquan."

"Brother Quan, it's me."

The opposite party paused for a moment, and then said pleasantly, "Yin?"

"Yeah." I cleared my throat, "I'm back to Beijing."

He Nanquan breathed a sigh of relief, "Then where are you right now? I'll look for you."

"I'll send you the location." I pursed my lips, "How is Brother Qin?"

"Very good, do you want to see him?"

"Don't tell Brother Qin about my return, we'll see you later. Where does he live now? "

He Nanquan paused, "When I'm not filming, I go back to Xishan to live there."

"Hmm." I was a little nervous, "Brother Quan, do you have the key to Fenghuali? My car and some documents are all lost in Fenghuali."

"I have it, I'll send it to you."

"it is good."

When I sat in the coffee shop downstairs and watched He Nanquan come in from the door, I suddenly felt that time flies and the old friend is gone.

I beckoned, "Here, Brother Quan."

He Nanquan looked at me as if he didn't know me, then smiled at me and walked towards me.

"Good boy, it's changed."

I smiled and said calmly, "I'm getting old."

"You really make me angry when you say that." He Nanquan stretched out his hand and rubbed my hair, "It's calm, and I've grown up."

I shook my head amusedly, "I'm already thirty, haven't I grown up yet?"

"Although you haven't appeared on the screen for several years, you have to wear a mask and sunglasses when you go out. Your face is still very ostentatious."

I nodded.

He Nanquan said slowly, "How have you been all these years?"

I nodded, "It's okay."

"Yes... have you found someone?"

I raised my head, looked at him with half-closed eyes, and then smiled lightly, "There are quite a few people who want to sleep with me, but unfortunately they can't sleep, so I have been single all the time."

He Nanquan was stunned for a moment, he seemed to think that what I said was a bit sharp, and changed the subject, "It's not a long time for you to live in a hotel, I'll ask someone to find a house for you these few days."

I shook my head, the reunion after a long absence is a little tiring, "No need Brother Quan, I'll just go find it myself in a few days, don't be too busy."

He Nanquan frowned, "Why are you being polite to me?"

"I'm not polite to you, it's because I haven't decided to settle down in Beijing yet."

"Are you still going?"

"Teacher Zhou asked me to come back for an audition for a play." I pursed my lips, "If this play doesn't work, I plan to go home and get closer to my mother."

"The play you're talking about is Director Zhou's new play?"

"Ah."

He Nanquan looked a little ugly, "As far as I know, the leading role of that play has already been confirmed."

"I know." I put down the coffee cup in my hand, "Brother Qin and Qi Lianyu."

He Nanquan frowned, "Investors use Qi Lianyu to roll their names. Let's be realistic, Yao Yin, you have been away from the industry for five years, and your value has long since fallen. The audition is just a process, and you Why bother to amuse people?"

I raised my hand and stroked the watch on my hand, "Ms. Zhou sent me the script of that play. I like that character very much. I have to fight for it. If I can't fight, it's not too late to leave."

"Yaoyin, if you don't say anything else, you won't be able to pass the test before you send it."

I slowly clenched my hands, my face was still calm, "After all, I am also his ex-husband, let him sleep for three years, Brother Qin won't even give me a role, right?"

"Of course not." He Nanquan was a little anxious, "Yaoyin, you know that character..."

"Brother Quan." I interrupted him, "I came back for an audition. I don't care if the investor wants me or not. It may not be possible to snatch Qi Lianyu's role. Where do you want me to come from when you say this? Where are you going?"

"Of course I didn't mean that." He Nanquan leaned forward, "You don't know how happy I am to hear you come back."

"I thought no one would welcome me back." I looked out of the window aimlessly, propping one side of my face with my hands, with a myriad of thoughts and mixed feelings, and I suddenly felt afraid of the city.

This place doesn't seem to belong to me.