The little stand-in is no longer with me

The psychiatrist is Chi Jingzhan's friend. He was originally from Hua, but he went to university in the United States.After graduation, he stayed in the hospital as a psychiatrist. He has been practicing for five or six years, and now he has taken the position of section chief.

During the face-to-face consultation, Chi Jingzhan accompanied him all the way, and Xie Lin seldom spoke.It's all the doctor and Chi Jingzhan's words. From his illness to now, Chi Jingzhan has been taking care of him and knows his condition well, even more clearly than what he said himself.

After the doctor knew that he had suicidal behavior and observed the cut marks on his wrist, his face was serious, "Jing Zhan, come out with me."

Chi Jingzhan said in a low voice, "I'll go out for a while, just wait here for me obediently."

Xie Lin hummed softly, sat on the sofa and didn't pay attention to what the doctor and Chi Jingzhan were talking about outside.

About ten minutes later, the door of the office was opened again.Chi Jingzhan's expression seemed to be struggling for a long time. After meeting Xie Lin's eyes, he suddenly stretched out and said, "My friend said, I will have an operation for you the day after tomorrow. You need to be hospitalized today. We will go through the hospitalization procedures and hand in the paperwork again." Treatment costs."

Xie Lin didn't care about these things, and turned to ask the doctor, "Doctor, I want to ask. What is the probability of amnesia after mect treatment?"

The doctor frowned slightly, apparently not expecting the patient to ask him this question.Truthfully said: "This... all the mect patients we have dealt with at present all have amnesia. It's just that some people have remembered the past things now, but some people haven't remembered it yet."

"How can I lose my memory forever? I don't want to think about the past." Xie Lin kept asking.

Chi Jingzhan was slightly taken aback, he never thought that Xie Lin would hate his previous memories so much, and even asked the doctor how to achieve permanent amnesia.Don't say it's impossible, even if it's possible, doctors can't do it, it doesn't conform to humanism at all.

The doctor patiently said, matching Xie Lin's emotions: "We have no way to control this. Memory is an integral part of everyone. Whether a person's willpower is strong or weak is their own business, and has nothing to do with treatment. Will People with weak strength will recover their memory slowly, but on the contrary, they will recover quickly."

Xie Lin obviously understood, so he didn't ask for any more unreasonable things, and went directly to the ward with Chi Jingzhan.

After Chi Jingzhan paid the fee, as soon as he opened the door of the ward, he saw Xie Lin holding a fruit knife and gesturing on his wrist, as if he was about to drop the knife.Xie Lin's expression was as usual, without the slightest bit of nervousness or fear, as if death was a very indifferent thing to him.

Chi Jingzhan was so frightened that he quickly snatched the knife, and shouted with wide eyes, "Xie Lin! What are you going to do? Want to commit suicide?"

The knife in Xie Lin's hand was snatched away. He squinted at Chi Jingzhan's frightened expression, but he said calmly, "It's okay."

The understatement that it's all right completely drew out the urgency in Chi Jingzhan's heart.

"Xie Lin! We came to the United States from Hangzhou to treat your illness. You have persisted for so long, why do you want to back down when you are close to the door? We are already in the hospital, and you can have surgery soon , you can forget everything and usher in a new life. Why are you committing suicide now?"

Chi Jingzhan's eyes were scarlet and bloodshot all over.She loves and hates Xie Lin at the same time. Sometimes she doesn't even know how to treat Xie Lin. She protects Xie Lin carefully and thinks of him everywhere, for fear that Xie Lin will feel uncomfortable and lose control of her emotions.

What the doctor said to him just now sounded the alarm for him, and the mect treatment cannot be delayed any longer.Now Xie Lin doesn't even have the desire to express himself, he has lost interest in everything around him, and may choose to commit suicide again.Already a late stage manifestation of depression.

It's hard to imagine a young adult man with enough food and clothing to suffer from depression.And it was discovered at a late stage, what has a person experienced before.

When Chi Jingzhan's doctor friend asked him, he couldn't answer.He hated himself for not agreeing to Xie Lin at the beginning. If he had understood his intentions, the following things would not have happened.At least, Xie Lin will not be like this now...

Xie Lin didn't pay attention to Chi Jingzhan, he just didn't look or listen.No one could know what he was thinking, not from his expression, let alone his body.

Most of the time, Xie Lin is like a stiff person.He didn't feel that his behavior was wrong at all, and he didn't even respond to Chi Jingzhan's anger at all.

After a while, the doctor knocked on the door of the ward, feeling the awkward atmosphere in the room, and immediately understood the quarrel between the two just now.

The doctor walked to Xie Lin's side and said: "Tomorrow's treatment process will be an injection of anesthesia and muscle relaxants. You will fall asleep in about 2 minutes. The whole mect process takes about an hour. You will only feel that you have slept. When you wake up, you have already finished a course of treatment. Mect treatment requires 8 to 10 courses of treatment, and you will gradually forget the memory of the past, and maybe you will forget why you have to do this kind of treatment until the whole course of treatment is over."

Xie Lin nodded. He didn't know about the treatment of depression before, and he didn't expect to have advanced to this level.

"Before that, I will check your body. You don't have to worry, relax and don't be afraid."

After the doctor gave these instructions, he took a deep look at Chi Jingzhan and left.And Chi Jingzhan was leaning against the wall just now, annoyed that he got angry at Xie Lin just now, and Xie Lin was still sick, so he actually cared about a patient.

But he was too scared, afraid that Xie Lin would die in front of his eyes.

After the doctor left, Chi Jingzhan fed Xie Lin some porridge, and vomited half of it, basically passing the taste in his mouth.In the end, Chi Jingzhan had no choice but to ask the doctor to give Xie Lin some nutrition. He was worried that Xie Lin's body would not be able to bear the treatment tomorrow and would be affected.

When pushing into the operating room, Chi Jingzhan was still sweating for Xie Lin.Although the doctor had said what would be done during the whole course of treatment, after all, there was no way to see it with his own eyes, and he began to feel vaguely worried while standing outside.

After the door is closed, it takes an hour before it can be opened again.

Chi Jingzhan's cell phone rang untimely. He hadn't saved the number on it. He was worried that it was a matter of work, so he picked it up.

And the tired voice of the man who rang on the phone, with a strong nasal voice revealing coercion, asked forbearance: "Where is Xie Lin?"

Chi Jingzhan is not a fuel-efficient lamp, but he can hear the voice after meeting Liao Cenchuan a few times.He knew that if he couldn't get in touch with Xie Lin, he wouldn't call a love rival in desperation.

"What does it have to do with you?" Chi Jingzhan asked sarcastically, "What face do you have to please me? If it wasn't for you, Xie Lin wouldn't be sick. Stop being hypocritical."

The man on the phone choked for breath, but quickly returned to seriousness, "Miguo, State xx, Hospital D."

"You located my phone?"

Chi Jingzhan didn't expect Liao Cenchuan to have so many tricks, and regretted that he answered the phone call.

"You took my people away, shouldn't I ask you to get them back?" Liao Cenchuan said as it should be.

But Chi Jingzhan heard it very harshly, "Your man? Xie Lin has already broken up with you."

Liao Cenchuan retorted: "But he promised me to make up in the hospital!"

After hearing this, Chi Jingzhan snorted and laughed, "How could he be with someone who was engaged to someone else? If he said he made up with you himself, he must have lied to you. To escape your excuse Forget it, you actually believed it. How much do you want Xie Lin?"

The voice on the phone lingered in his mind over and over again, together with Chi Jingzhan's first two lines of laughter were particularly harsh.

Liao Cenchuan wanted to open his mouth to refute, but the memory flooded out.Thinking back carefully that day in the hospital, Xie Lin's face was ashen and his eyes had no light, and he said hello to him, I agree with you to get married.

So what Xie Lin promised him that day was a lie?In fact, Xie Lin never wanted him to get engaged, but instead lied to him.For, to get rid of him?

The fine and dense pain spread from the heart to every corner of the body, and I cried instantly.The whole person is in a state of extreme collapse...

Why didn't Xie Lin say...

Immediately, Liao Cenchuan froze in place.He actually ignored Xie Lin's resistance, that hoarse voice, and finally he was forced to agree when he was tired.

It turned out that Xie Lin didn't want him to be together in this way.

But he kept his thoughts on his lips and made Xie Lin compromise step by step.He said he liked it, but in fact he was the one who hurt Xie Lin the most, and he was the one who made Xie Lin lose hope in life.

The most shameless thing was that after he got engaged to Liao Shiyu, he could still boast that he was thinking about Xie Lin and that they could be together in a fair and honest manner in the future.

Does Xie Lin want such a 'fair and above board'?He completely ignored it.

At that time, he only wanted to get Xie Lin to agree, and tried his best to try his best.On the other hand, Xie Lin had a falling out with his family because of him coming out, and the family couldn't go back.

But he found a 'shortcut' to make Xie Lin wronged.

Is he still a man?

Chi Jingzhan said viciously: "Liao Cenchuan, you don't deserve to be liked by Xie Lin. It was wrong for him to like you in the first place. You don't know what love is at all. Those things you do can only touch yourself, Xie Lin I have never needed such an expression, have you asked Xie Lin if he wants it? Do you know how to respect it?"

"The liking in your mouth is to push Xie Lin into the abyss step by step, and then trap him forever with shackles. In fact, you don't like him at all, you just can't accept him leaving you. The person you like the most , it's you..."

Suddenly, Liao Cenchuan's heart seemed to be severely injured.His warm and sincere feelings were repeatedly weighed and satirized with the tone of a bystander.The emotion that was about to overflow could not be fake, Chi Jingzhan just stimulated him to quit voluntarily.

He had misunderstood who the person he liked was, but that was a thing of the past.Both Liao Shiyu and Xie Lin are important to him, and he will not let them down.

But why can't achieve the best of both worlds, always make Xie Lin sad.

Liao Cenchuan couldn't bear it anymore, it was his turn to intervene in the matter between him and Xie Lin.

He said sharply: "Chi Jingzhan, it seems that you don't want to make the movie that your company is about to invest in, right? The start-up company has just stabilized, and you know what will happen if you offend me, right? Leave Xie Lin's side , or I will make your company disappear in the media industry."

Chi Jingzhan laughed, "What else do you want besides threats? Whatever you want, Xie Lin has a part of my company's shares. If you bring down my company, Xie Lin will also lose money. You can do whatever you want. "

"Xie Lin was undergoing mect treatment, so it's inconvenient to leave him. I died."

All he could hear was Liao Cenchuan's angry voice on the phone.

As if Chi Jingzhan suddenly thought of something, the hand that hung up the phone stopped again.He said to the person on the phone: "Oh, by the way, do you know how Xie Lin got the tattoo on his chest? It turned out to be a scar there. I asked Xie Lin what caused the injury, but he didn't know too well .Until one day, after Uncle Xie left Xie Lin’s ward, Xie Lin looked at the tattoo on his chest in the mirror, crying and laughing a little strangely. He probably knew the origin of the scar on his chest.”

"So Xie Lin's sister and Xie Lin, who is the stand-in?"

After Chi Jingzhan said this, he hung up the phone. He had no other idea, but wanted Liao Cenchuan to feel more guilty towards Xie Lin and make him feel more uncomfortable.In the future, Xie Lin will forget the past, and only trust and rely on him.

How interesting it would be when they saw Liao Cenchuan again...

He waits and sees.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-05-1602:27:11~2021-05-1701:18:45期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: 2 elephants; 1 Jiang Ting;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!