One centimeter temperature difference gl

Liu Yun's hometown is not too far from the city, but it's not too close to the countryside either.

The village is very large, with thousands of households, and many gentry and rich people.

That too is a thing of the past.

Liu Yun's biological mother's biological mother...that is, Liu Yun's maternal grandmother, was a young man sent down.Because she was too young and ignorant of world affairs, she had a relationship with a male classmate who went to the countryside and gave birth to Liu Yun's mother.

After that, the man left, but her relatives were separated for various reasons and never heard from again.

She ultimately failed to return to the city.

It is really hard for a girl to live in an unaccompanied family with a daughter born out of wedlock.

Later, she was exiled to a more remote and impoverished village, and was forced to marry a farmer casually.

He is a good person, but his living habits are really different, and his life is not very satisfactory.

Her husband is an honest farmer. Although he knows about her past, he doesn't mind it. He just works harder and wants to earn a better life for his wife.

It’s just that God didn’t take pity on him. When he was working, he was accidentally knocked on his foot by a hoe, the wound was infected, and he died of tetanus.

From then on, Liu Yun's grandmother lived a more difficult life.Although the old customs of that era are gradually being broken, the cloud of superstition still hangs over the head.The woman and her farmer husband originally had a son, but the son wanted to catch eels for his sister and mother to eat in the summer, but he drowned in the knee-deep muddy pool.

He was found dead two days ago, his whole body was swollen, and his lips were eaten by crabs. The grandmother was almost crazy, but she still carried it for the sake of her eldest daughter.

It's just that after that, the ominous rumors about the grandmother got out of hand.

Originally, she was an honest man, and she was responsible, and the neighbors would help the orphan and widow, but at this time, no one was willing to approach her.

The house leaks happen to rain at night.

I don't know why others knew about her when she was young, and rumors spread all over the sky for a while, and even this remote village couldn't stay anymore.

Liu Yun's grandmother took her poor possessions and took her daughter to farther and poorer places.

The so-called farther and poorer place is actually not too far away, it is just a village resettled in a ravine to avoid war.The location is not good, the traffic is not good... It is difficult to reclaim the land, and only rely on mountain goods for inventory.When I go out of the mountain every week and a half, I still have to use my feet to climb mountains and mountains.Liu Yun's grandmother took Liu Yun's mother to live in a house with the help of the villagers.She was learned, so she began to teach children to read.

Because this village is so remote and poor, there was no village-run primary school.Grandmother Liu Yun became very popular for a while.After another period of stable days, although rumors spread into the village, the villagers who had to work all year round did not respond much.

Grandmother Liu Yun finally settled down with her daughter.

"Later, grandma married again." Liu Yun sat cross-legged on the bay window, holding a can of beer. It's dead."

Quan Yuan sat on the other side of the bay window, also holding a can of beer.

She looked at the gorgeous and silent night behind Liu Yun.

The neon lights may cover up the moonlight and starlight, and the colorful beams of lights are waving and shaking in the cloud curtain.

Her eyes reflected the noisy and lonely world.

Listening to the past of Liu Yunmu's family, she put aside everything related to herself.

She was worried about Liu Yun...but she remained silent.

When you touch someone's broken heart... when she is willing to tell you, you just need to be quiet and listen.

Don't interrupt her, share the memory with her and you will be able to share her pain.

"After that, life became not so good again. It's not that she was squeezed out. There are people who fear her, but since her husband and children are all dead, others don't care. The main reason is that she is poor. She teaches other people's children Studying. If you don’t learn from her, you will send your child to the school in the town. The tuition fee is one, and then the child will not be able to help the family.”

"My grandma can't get over the threshold in her heart. You know, she always stays in that kind of environment. Over time, even if she didn't believe it at first, she gradually believed it. She also felt that she was restraining her relatives. Husband, children, and former parents Brother...so she asked the village head to issue a certificate and sent my mother to study in the town."

"My mother...single-parent family, it's a lot of hardships. Her classmates are broken-hearted. In addition to the influence of my grandma's personality...she herself is very weak. Although people are very smart, most of the time their character determines their destiny."

Liu Yun took a sip of beer.

She talked too much, and it was about past events that were closely related to her, so she was somewhat agitated.

She suppressed the overwhelming emotions and felt her throat was even more dry.

Also because now she was describing her own mother.

She actually complained a lot about her mother.

She always thought that if her mother was better, stronger and braver, she would be completely different.

But that's the mother after all.

When a child feels resentment towards his mother, it is mostly because he misses her and longs for more love from her.

And because of missing her... longing for her to come back.

Liu Yun felt that his mother was not good enough, but at the same time wanted to describe her as the best woman in the world.

She was so eloquent that her speech became confused.

Liu Yun had no choice but to take another sip of wine.

Izumi's gaze shifted to her hand.

Liu Yun was silent.

Quanyuan suddenly spoke: "My mother..."

She didn't say my mother.Mother is a respectful and distant title.In his heart, Quanyuan also resented his mother.If I were stronger, if I could be stronger for me... how different my life would be.

——At this time, her emotions with Liu Yun resonate with each other.

Quanyuan also resented her mother, but also loved her.

"I still can't tell," she said.

She still can't say anything about her mother and her past.

To comfort someone is not to compare with the other person's misery, just let her know that she can understand her.

Liu Yun knew.

Quan Yuan said, "How much do you know?"

"Not much. No details."

Quanyuan nodded: "I can't explain the details, and I don't want to."

Liu Yun said: "There are some things that only you really know. I said it because I was overwhelmed. This place... I feed it with my money every month, but I haven't been here for a long time. "

Quanyuan thought of yesterday... no, it was already the night before yesterday.

Liu Yun called himself the night before yesterday.

It was a particularly good and warm memory for her.

The two of them didn't talk, nor hung up the communication, as if they were by each other's side.

But at that time, how could she know that Liu Yun was squatting in this terrible place rubbing those vicious curses bit by bit.

——I am in a good mood and not tired at all.

At that time, she was actually afraid.

It takes a lot of courage to face the past, the unhealed wounds.

Liu Yun was picking at the pustules.

What she said about waiting for me was not waiting for me to save you...but waiting for me to become better and walk side by side with you.

It turned out that Liu Yun's mood was the same as his own...

That night...no hanging up the phone...that warm feeling of happiness and drunkenness...

Especially memorable at this moment.

It was a poignant touch.

Quanyuan shook his head, then nodded again: "Maybe." She said: "My mother was in pain when she passed away, and she lost all dignity... She didn't even know me when she became crazy. But I know that when she was a little calmer, she was thinking about my business."

So in this world, apart from the anger, fear and resentment that the mother couldn't clear up, what she cares most about is the daughter Quanyuan.

Liu Yun suddenly smiled.

Liu Yun said: "You were still angry with me just now. I always felt that if I pulled you in, you would ignore me for the rest of your life." But now you are comforting me.

Liu Yun felt that Quanyuan was like an onion.Her emotions are all layers upon layers of irrelevance.

When she is in unspeakable pain for herself, if you peel off that layer, she will immediately forget about those things and worry about you instead.

Each layer is spicy and sour, but after peeling off, there is no trace.

This is actually deceiving oneself and others to the state of returning to nature.

Amnesia and the late stages of escapism.

But that's how Quanyuan survived.

Every layer of her emotions... is waiting for external stimuli to determine the content above.

"I'm still mad at you," Quanyuan said, taking a sip of her beer.

"I can't help it, I'll be angry with myself when I think about it."

Liu Yun chatted with Sun Li all night, and she could understand what it felt like.

Inferiority.

Scared.

Because it was too strong, it turned into anger.

Sun Li once asked her: Have you read the story of Bluebeard?Have you ever wondered why Bluebeard usually loves his wife so much, but once she opens door No.13, he kills her?

……

Because Bluebeard's wife saw his evidence.

But among those women who love him, isn't even one willing to collude with him?He never asked their wishes.

Because he is crazy.

But lunatics also have a thought process.Their logic is chaotic, but there is logic nonetheless.

So... Bluebeard is already a good person, he covers up his sinful past, he will be afraid when the person he loves most discovers that part of sin, and then he is swallowed by sin again.

Sun Li said: "Quanyuan is actually a blue beard, can you understand? She hasn't done anything bad, but she is a blue beard."

Liu Yun understood.

Quanyuan has never done anything bad, she is the victim, but what happened back then made her blame herself.

She believed her mother's death was her own fault.

Quanyuan knew that Liu Yun's digging into her past would kill the budding relationship between them like Bluebeard killed his wife.

But this matter cannot be concealed.Quanyuan is too smart.

So I had no choice but to defeat Bluebeard first, tie him up firmly, and then tell him... I am willing to join forces with you.

Liu Yun said: "This method is too damaging to the three views! Don't describe my president as a big man with a blue beard who picks his feet!"

Sun Li ignored her and asked, "Do you know why Quanyuan is so good? Because she always feels that she has done wrong things, that she is selfish, and that she will harm others. Quanyuan probably said that in front of her mother back then. ...I want to live with my father."

……

"I can't help it, I'll be angry with myself when I think about it."

Liu Yun looked at her, wanting to reach out and hug her.

you're not wrong.

Say it like this, but can't mention everything about the fountain right now.Now I have to focus all of Quanyuan's attention on herself, so that she will not be swallowed by the "sin of room No. 13".

Liu Yun stretched out his hand, holding the beer in his hand.

Quan Yuan looked at it for a while, then clinked glasses with her.

Liu Yun said: "My mother is a dodder flower. But in fact, a dodder flower is also strong. There is no way to survive by itself, so I try to find a plant, wrap it around, and survive. It is beautiful and weak, but it is always desperate. I can’t grow it. Dodder is love that overcomes difficulties and is fearless...so my mother is dodder. She is not strong enough, but her weakness is too obvious. My mother went to school in the town and met my father..."