Black Bear's Curse

On the day of the funeral, the house was in a mess. It was a long way from home to the hearse parked by the main road. Several elders carried my father’s coffin and walked to the road step by step. follow. . . . .

"That's his son, right? Why don't you see him coming back..." I heard a lot of gossip along the way.

"He was a crow's mouth, cursing his own brother; in the end, the younger brother died, and he was kicked out by his father, and he never came back."

"Mom, you know that's not the case, can you stop talking nonsense?"

"How can you talk nonsense? That's the truth, otherwise, why don't you just go as you please?"

"Mom, don't be so loud, okay?"

"What are you afraid of? Him? I'm not afraid of his crow's mouth? Hmph..."

I looked at these people, and I couldn't help being surprised, thinking to myself, "Is it... him?"

I saw those people pointing their fingers and talking to the hearse. One of the young men was staring at me and nodded to me after a while. . . . .

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Since I separated from those buddies, this is the first time I have returned to this hidden hill after the campus; as usual, I sat next to a big tree on the hill, looking at the front and the surrounding environment, so beautiful Familiar yet so strange. . . . .

"Brother, you're here!" Just as I was recalling the past, a voice shouted to me.

"Hmm..." Looking at Jiang Xi who was the same as before, I felt impulsive, but I suppressed it.

"Brother, look at you. I haven't seen you for a long time. I still feel the same, nothing has changed." Jiang Xi sat down next to me habitually, looked at me and asked.

"You too... Are you doing well in your studies?" The familiar fragrance of the other party entered my nose, and I was also attracted by the other party's eyes, but I knew that this time I couldn't go on the offensive and fight against him like before. act of violation.

It has been two years since I had this kind of relationship with Jiang Xi, and I always thought it was absolutely accidental, and it happened inadvertently.He is one of my buddies, young and sexually curious and impulsive.Normally, apart from teasing some female students, our group would occasionally interact with each other and play "Zi Shuang".Jiang Xi's technique is very good, and our buddies like to be "served" by him. . .Slowly, the other party only played "Zi Shuang" with me, and no longer played with other buddies.Of course, none of us would mind this "transformation". Occasionally they would say that Jiang Xi is my queen's "waiter".

Said to be "royal attendant", but Jiang Xi did not hide that he likes me and hopes to be with me forever. . .I have no feeling or reaction to this.Because, at that time, I thought that there was only friendship and brotherhood between men. In the future, everyone would get married and have their own families and children.Comrade, I don’t have a concept of this term in my heart, I just think it won’t happen to me, although I like being “served” by Jiang Xi, there is a way to release sexual impulse, there is absolutely no such thing as emotion or love.After all, it is much safer than playing with women, avoiding the risks of being stuck or getting pregnant.

"It's okay, but the high school entrance examination is coming soon, and the family will inevitably be nervous about me and watch me closely." Jiang Xi's hand slowly moved towards my waist and crotch.

"Xi, today I don't want to..." Depressed, I grabbed the other's hand to prevent him from further teasing.

"What's that? Aren't you anxious and excited before?" Jiang Xi was surprised by my behavior. He always knew that I had a strong sexual desire, and he would have a good time with himself every time.

"I'm in a bad mood, sorry!" I gently put his hand aside, thinking about how to tell him about asking him to come here.

"Ah... If that's the case, then don't force it." Jiang Xi looked a little unhappy, he fell down on the grass and looked at the sky, without saying a word.

"Xi, I invited you here today... I want to tell you that I'm leaving here!" I knew that the other party was upset, so I leaned closer and looked at him and said.

"Really? When will you leave?" Jiang Xi was still a little angry and pretended not to look at me, but from his tone, he was much calmer.

"This Sunday...follow my uncle to the provincial capital to learn crafts!" I have been with Jiang Xi for many years, and I hope to give him an explanation before leaving here, at least to end the relationship.

"Study craft? You...don't go to school anymore?" Jiang Xi sat up immediately after hearing this, and stared at me with wide eyes.

"No... Suspend school, stop studying!" Ever since I regained my mood to study, I have a kind of expectation and dream about going to school, but at this moment, this good mood has been disrupted by my father.

"Why are you leaving in such a hurry? It's your father..." Although Jiang Xi was from a different village from mine, he knew about my younger brother from his classmates at school, and he also heard some rumors about me.

"No, I want to leave myself..." Recalling the harsh words my father said, I have always endured the pain, even in front of Jiang Xi, I still look calm.

"Your recent grades have returned to excellent grades. Don't you think it's a pity that you will have to take the senior high school entrance examination in half a year?" Jiang Xi tried to convince me.

"If you're not happy, you won't take the exam...it's that simple!" I pretended to return to the bad boy's tone and expression, hoping that the other party would stop asking.

"Brother, you...I don't believe that you stopped school and didn't take exams because you were unhappy, maybe you should think about it again..." Jiang Xi looked at me with a disbelief.

"Xi, I'm fine. I won't be hungry if I don't take the test? Right?" I turned my head and looked ahead, feeling confused and at a loss.

"In that case...then after you leave, you will come back in the future, right?" Jiang Xi was a little worried.

"Depending on the situation, maybe...or maybe not." Regarding the future, I have no idea.This time I went to the provincial capital to learn crafts, and I entered a garment factory only on the recommendation of my uncle. I am not sure whether it will last for a long time.

"Brother... In the future, we will meet again, right?" Jiang Xi asked timidly.

"I don't know... Maybe? Maybe not..." Regarding this, I was still not sure.

"But, didn't you say you liked me before and would be with me forever?" Jiang Xi asked nervously, grabbing my hand.

"That's... what happened in the past, no one can tell in the future..." How can I tell the future clearly at a young age?

"Brother, I don't care...I want you to come back and see me, okay?" Jiang Xi approached me, begging.

"Xi...I really don't know, don't force me." I didn't know what to do for a moment, so I pushed Jiang Xi's hand away cruelly, and I stood up and looked at Jiang Xi who was sitting on the ground in great grief.

"I forced you? Brother...you actually said that I forced you? How could you..." Hearing this, Jiang Xi burst into tears.

"Okay, let's not talk... Xi, I'm leaving!" Seeing the other party's expression, I was so scared that I thought about how to get out of here.

"Brother, you go... I will never force you, since you can leave home, why can't you leave me?" Jiang Xi cried sadly

"I... goodbye!" I didn't know how to express my inner feelings, so I gave him a cruel look and left quickly. . .