Black Bear's Curse

Tomorrow is the day of my father's funeral. I have knelt before my father's spirit for three days. Although I am very tired and tired, I think I should do my best to fulfill my duties as a son; Give me time quietly and peacefully, and let me say everything I want to say to him in my heart.

"Dad, although I can't formally communicate with you at this moment, I still want you to understand that ten years ago and ten years later, you are not the only one who has been hurt by the death of my younger brother. My mother, elder sister, and I are deeply saddened." , but you put all the faults on me, you ignored me and said nothing, do you know how I spent these days?

"Dad, maybe you don't care, and you don't feel sorry for your son who has been living outside for more than ten years, because you always think that my brother's death was caused by me, and you wish I could replace him, right? You really have to Enough biased..."

"Dad, after my younger brother passed away, I stayed away from my group of buddies. I worked hard and studied hard. I hope you can see that this son who once caused you headaches has improved a lot, and his grades have caught up to the level of my younger brother. . But, you don't even look at my report card, let alone go to the school to attend the awards ceremony where I received the award, because you don't pay attention to this son at all, and you always don't care about this crow's mouth..."

"Dad, do you know why I suddenly proposed to you that I should suspend school and go out to learn crafts at the moment when my grades were the best? Because when you were sleeping the night before, you in the next room said indifferently to Mom, you are not capable Let me go to high school, anyway, no matter how good my grades are, I will leave you in the end. Besides, what you said made me cry all night, I am a crow who threw himself into collecting debts from you and mom, and sooner or later you will be liquidated Debt...that's such a broken word, you know? Of course, you don't care...

"Father, in this case, I can only choose to stay far away from you and never appear in front of you, then you will be fine and you will live a long life. So, I left this home that does not belong to me , and you and mom...

"Dad, I don't know if you will blame me for leaving home for more than ten years, but I didn't go home, and I didn't give any news to my family, except that my eldest sister would accompany my mother to the city to meet me, but I thought to myself, Not by your mother's side, you don't have to see my face to be angry, and hear my words will feel like a curse?  …

"Dad, you still left in the end. You didn't leave me a word or said you had forgiven me...Although I know this is an extravagant wish, I still hope that you still have a little bit of concern for this son. But, you No, you didn't want to say anything to me at all...

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After my younger brother’s funeral, my father didn’t read or say a word to me. At first I thought he was still angry, and I believed that my father would feel better about the only remaining son in a few days. . .However, not only was I disappointed, but my mother persuaded him many times, but he still didn't give me a good look or talk.Especially when he saw me, it was like seeing a stranger or a jerk, looking at me with his fierce eyes, which made me have to avoid the other party to avoid being scolded or thrown away by him.

Although I know that my younger brother's death has dealt a severe blow to my father, my young self can't figure it out, it's not my fault, how can I be treated as an enemy?What's more, I am his own son, and I don't know the ridiculous talk about crow reincarnation. . . . .

In order to ensure that I would not hurt the hearts of my family members, I stayed away from the group of buddies I have been with for many years. Of course, they could not understand my mentality and thoughts at the time, and I did not need to ask for their permission to directly associate with them. . .I started to study and go to school diligently. In addition to asking my classmates who were better than me for the content of the courses I didn't understand, I also took the initiative to ask the teacher for advice.

The so-called "Heaven does not live up to those who work hard", means that every contribution will be rewarded. My hard work and diligence have allowed me to obtain good grades, and at the same time, I have been recognized and welcomed by my classmates and teachers. . .However, all this did not win the praise and favor of his father, and he became weird and unbelievable. . .

Father could no longer hear or see the crow or shadow of the crow, and whenever he was shown or heard in the field or near his house, he would immediately take out his homemade gun, and if he was not near his house, he would be surrounded by it. Look for something to hold in your hand as an attack item, for example: twigs, sticks, iron rods, etc. . .Find the location of the crow, start his attack while chasing, and make the surrounding crows die.

"Damn it, that ghost bird has appeared again, I don't know who will suffer this time..." the father said while searching.

"Ah Hua, the crow doesn't necessarily yell at us, so don't torment yourself!" The mother who was at the side often reminded my father, hoping that the other party would not regard the crow as an enemy and insisted on the other party's life.

"No, scream, scream, it will fly to our house, have you forgotten that there are relatives of it at home?" Everyone knows what my father said to me.

"Ah Hua, can you stop talking about Big Bear like that? You haven't seen that he has become much better now..." the mother persuaded the other party.

"Okay? How can a dog not eat shit? How can a crow not curse..." In my father's heart and thinking, the crow is me, and I am the crow.

"Ah Hua, Big Bear is your son, he won't mess around like a crow, you have to trust him!"

"Believe it? Pooh... Even my little brother is not spared, can he still be considered a human being? He should be grateful if I don't drive him away!"

I have been doing my homework beside them, holding back tears, pretending that I am deaf and unable to hear what they are saying; however, the more I listen to it, the more heartbroken I am, wishing to die immediately. . . . .