bitter fireworks

Back at school, I started my two-point and one-line campus life again.Occasional episodes are also reminiscences and Zhichun's warmth and sweetness. When I feel the whim, I also go to see the handsome guys playing basketball.

Sophomore year is over and it's that time of year for the stove.

I didn't go home directly. I wanted to do a summer job in the city. I had just worked for a few days, and I called home to ask how my father was doing.In the end, I got even worse news. Although my father was discharged from the hospital, he was still recuperating, unable to do anything, and even walking was still unsteady.The grandmother at home was sick again, and it was found to be liver cancer. She had to go to a large hospital in the provincial capital for surgery, and it would cost 10,000+ yuan.For the first time in my life, I felt fear and helplessness. Why do unfortunate things always come to my house?

I hurried back home feeling uneasy, and seeing my mother's thin face and listless expression, I somehow wanted to rush up and hug my mother and cry.I suppressed the tears swirling in my eyes, and called softly, "Mom..."

My mother told me that my father’s legs hadn’t fully recovered and he was still taking medicine. My brother didn’t call home when he went to Guangzhou. It is MLM.Fortunately, my brother knew that the family had no money, so he didn't call home to ask for money, but he couldn't come back.Grandma was not feeling well half a month ago, and then went to the hospital for examination, photos, CT, and blood tests, and the result was liver cancer, and she had to undergo surgery, and the cost was high, costing 10,000+...

Listening to what my mother said, my heart hurts again and again. How can my family have any money? It is enough for my parents to pay for me to go to school. Now there are so many things going on.Although grandma has four sons, the family conditions are not very affluent.Even if it is divided equally, each family will get tens of thousands.Mom's troubles and worries can be imagined. Dad's contractor didn't pay much money, and he had to spend money to buy medicines. There are still people in the family. Why did he make so much money all of a sudden?

I'm silent... There's really nothing I can do but be silent.How much I want to help my mother share a little bit!But my ability is really too insignificant. I can only watch dryly as the pain erodes my mother's thin body. I hate myself. I am also a 20-year-old person. I can't make any contribution to the family and leave my mother alone. In this dire situation.

More than a month later, I need a lot of money to start school, and now my grandma has no money. Thinking of this, I hesitated, struggled, and suffered even more...

That night, I sat calmly in front of my mother.Said to my mother very calmly, "Mom, I don't want to study anymore. I want to go out to work. I have almost learned the knowledge in school. Others only study for two years in junior colleges, and don't study in the third year. They only do internships outside... ..."

"You're crazy. We sent you to university with great difficulty. How could you not study? Don't worry about family affairs. I've already reserved your tuition fees. Even if the sky falls, I won't use it. As for you Grandma, I will borrow it, and I will find a way to raise the money even if I sell the pot..." Mom said in a stern voice

"Mom, uncle, the conditions of my uncle's family are not good. If you can't collect money and cure grandma's illness, what will they think? If you have money to study for me but don't give money to save grandma's life, it will call you How embarrassing are you? I really don’t blame you. You have done your best. Your 18-year obligation has already been completed. I don’t want you to bear the reputation of being unfilial all my life. If you don’t go, you can’t still live well, not to mention that your son has been in college for two years. Mom, really, don’t be sad. Didn’t you teach me? What’s more, the person who needs to be saved is my grandma..." I said to my mother while weeping

My mother was silent, and the painful expression on her face made my heart hurt like a knife.

The next day, I came to my mother with a few hundred dollars, heavy steps, and luggage.

"Mom, I'm going to Guangzhou to find my brother. We'll work together to earn money. Don't worry. I'll learn by myself when I have time. I'll definitely learn everything my classmates know. I'm leaving..."

"My baby, I'm sorry for you... woo woo woo" the mother cried, and cried very sadly.

I know that 1 times my mother doesn’t want me to drop out of school, and 1 times she doesn’t want me to go out to work alone, but the reality makes her helpless...

"Mom, please do one thing. I dropped out of school and went to work. Don't tell Zhichun. If he asks, you just say you don't know..." I told my mother, went out resolutely, and started my first hard work in the south!

After buying the ticket and sitting in the waiting room, I felt uneasy, what would happen to the road ahead?What is my future?Is my decision right?Zhichun knows what will happen to me?I don't know, I really don't know.My university trip just disappeared like a mirage. I am no longer a student. I have been thrown into a society full of ups and downs. What color will this big dyeing house dye me?How will this prosperous metropolis treat me?

I'm really at a loss...

It's more about waiting, like waiting for the dawn, waiting for the money that will allow me to help my mother solve her difficulties!