bitter fireworks

A few small dishes, a few glasses of water and wine, always waiting for the annual rings of the years in the lonely and boring time.Lighting a cigarette, looking at the shining lights of Wanjia, seems to be enjoying the style of everything in the world in a leisurely way.The relationship between Zhichun and I when we were studying is almost the same. Every time I think of it, it always makes me feel warm but full of sadness. What I will write next, I am very entangled when I think about it. I want to write but it is difficult to pick up the pen. Society ——The environment in which we survive has given us unimaginable pressure and tests, and has also destroyed our passionate hearts time and time again.Let us almost separate Yin and Yang, and meet heaven and man.But in order not to leave a mess, I will still narrate it bit by bit. The progress of the update may be uncertain. Although my writing is rough, the story is indeed my own experience, and I have not whitewashed or drafted it. , Impromptu writing, if the writing is not good, everyone can give more opinions and comments, I am very grateful!Everyone’s opinions and suggestions may also become a reference for me to deal with my relationship and relationship with Zhichun in the future, because it is still difficult for me to make a decision, so I implore everyone to give me advice after reading the next chapter, especially after the ending. A small suggestion is really appreciated!

When the annual National Day holiday came, I was not as excited as other students, because my Zhichun didn't go home, the army didn't have a holiday, and he wasn't at home, so what's the point of me going back?So I distributed leaflets to others outside the school, which can also reduce the burden on the family.

When I happily returned home from other places to celebrate the New Year, Zhichun still did not come back, my heart fell to the bottom, and I only knew to look at the snowflakes in the sky every day, counting the snowflakes one after another, and lived in a daze.Many people like to warm up by the fire, but I rarely join in the fun.I don't like the trivial matters of their eighth wives and other people, and I don't like some women's gossip. Every time I see them like this, I will automatically give way and leave voluntarily.It feels like they are like the people in "Tea House", always unable to see their own sorrows, and blindly talk about other people's faults, people!In this way, even though I am unhappy and being squeezed, I still try my best to suppress the weaker people. It is really sad!

Once my cousin gave birth to a son, and all the relatives and friends rejoiced as if a pie had fallen from their own family.My mother asked me to drink full moon wine. My brother has no time. He is taking good care of his chicks every day. He bought more than 200 chickens and kept them in isolation. Even if we go to see them, we have to change our shoes and underwear. Really My elder brother has suffered so much, he hasn’t read much, and he still works hard to help the family earn money for me to study. Every time I think of him, I feel extremely ashamed!My father has four brothers, and the one who gave birth to the baby was my uncle's daughter. It happened that my third aunt had guests, so I called my cousin who was about the same age as me to drink the full moon wine. Don't talk, brother, come back after dinner.This kid is really obedient, he didn't answer me a word all the way, he's even more boring than me, I expected him to ask about Zhichun's family, but it all went to waste.

I was still eating and drinking, and said some festive words. My cousin saw me studying, and secretly gave me 100 yuan, telling me not to tell others. This is our sister and brother.I was very moved, and I didn't refuse, after all, this was my cousin's sincerity.When I went home, my cousin and a few relatives sent me and my cousin out, this guy didn’t say anything sooner rather than later, at this moment he said, “I didn’t say anything today, it’s none of my business if your child dies.” !" Everyone was stunned, unable to react for a long time.

"What nonsense are you talking about, Crow's mouth..." I scolded him on the spot.

"Tongyan Wuji, Tongyan Wuji, bah bah bah..." the cousin's mother-in-law also yelled loudly, but she was actually very angry, but she didn't explode, because of the relatives' face!

I planned to take my cousin to Zhichun's house to pay New Year's greetings to his parents, but my cousin's eloquence is so good that it is enough to shake the world and make ghosts cry!

Later, on the sixth day of the first lunar month, I still went to Zhichun’s house. My uncle and aunt were still as warm as ever to me, and entertained me with a lot of sweets that I had never eaten before. Talked about a lot of outside things.I listened earnestly and respectfully. My uncle also bought a small car from Santana. Small cars were rare in our area at that time.My aunt made another table of sumptuous dishes, and my uncle took out a bottle of Wuliangye to drink with me. I have never drank baijiu, so of course I would refuse, but my uncle said that college students can drink, and they must learn to drink, because after a few years, they will have to drink. To enter the society, you must first practice and practice.I couldn't resist him, so I drank it anyway, and later I found out that this bottle of wine cost several hundred yuan a bottle, but I think my uncle still thought highly of me at that time!It's just that he doesn't know the relationship between me and his son, let alone what happened to me and his son later!

Zhichun's family has a phone, and my uncle also had a cell phone at that time!It's the kind of box, which is very ugly now.I called Zhichun at his house. On the other end of the phone, Zhichun always smiled silly and always listened to me. I can only talk about paying attention to your body and some things I like to see. Uncles and aunts are beside me. I will never be so stupid as to say that I love him day and night, but he still said that he misses me and loves me over the receiver. Beside, can I not blush?Had they known this, they would have had to issue an expulsion order.

Saying goodbye to my uncles and aunts, I went home, nympho all afternoon, still thinking about Zhichun's voice and Zhichun's words.

Later, telephones were installed in the whole city, and every household installed them. Although my family is poor, I still installed them. After all, my mother still misses me very much when I am outside. She is always worried about me, for fear that I will not be able to take care of myself outside!

Happiness is always accompanied by pain, just like the misfortune and blessing, it is always changing alternately, maybe God is the best writer, always inadvertently, let us be happy and sad, its ups and downs, enough to Caught us off guard...

Many things are arranged by the gods, how can we mortals be able to control them?In that year, my family was blessed and misfortunes never come singly. Some objective reasons caused me to make a tragic mistake, which was also the beginning of the tragedy of my life!

When I was a sophomore, my elder brother went south to Guangdong to work under the introduction of a fellow villager, but there was no news of him ever since.My mother was afraid that my study would be delayed, so she didn't tell me. But at this time, my father was doing small work for others on a rainy day. He fell from the second floor and broke his leg. There was also a steel bar stuck in it. The situation was not optimistic.The younger sister is still young, and she is in the second grade of junior high school, and she is not able to help her mother share the pain.My mother didn't tell me all this, for fear that I would be distracted.But Zhichun did something that was beyond my expectation.

During that time, I called home once to ask about the situation at home. My mother was always evasive, but my mother's tired voice made me very suspicious.Later, I was still worried, so I wanted to ask Zhichun's mother, but the aunt on the phone asked me strangely, "Xiaoyong, don't you know that Zhichun is back? He took annual leave and never came home before. Call him Make up for it at home, but he took more than 7000 yuan and said it was to go out for a trip and relax..."

Originally wanted to inquire about the situation at home, but told me that Zhichun had returned home.Will something happen?I asked for a leave of absence from school, and hurried back home with a lock on the door.My mother was not there, so I immediately asked my neighbors. In fact, I could ask my auntie about my family on the phone, but I heard that Zhichun came back and took more than 7000. My abominable self-esteem made me have to think. Auntie knew otherwise!

The neighbor told me that my father was being treated in a hospital in the city. His leg was broken and he had to undergo surgery to remove the steel bars inserted into the leg. , my mother is going around raising money.I was suddenly stunned, how could this be?How did that happen?This is how to do?I was so anxious that I shed tears at that time, how could such a thing happen to such a dangdang person?

Sadness is sad, I declined the neighbor's kindness to keep me for dinner.

I hurried to the hospital by car. After some inquiries, I came to the orthopedics department on the second floor of the inpatient department. When I opened the door, I saw my father lying on the hospital bed with a bloodless face and my mother sitting next to me. I burst into tears I stood there and stared blankly. When my mother saw me, she immediately stood up, her complexion was very bad, her face was tired, and she was very surprised!

"Yong Yazi, why are you back? Have you eaten yet?"

"Mom, it's all like this, and you didn't tell me?" I said with tears.

"Alas..." With a long sigh, my mother shed tears but was still wiping my tears.

"Son, thanks to Zhichun's child, Mom really can't help it. The operation costs are so much, and I'm still in a hurry. Just as Zhichun called home to check on our family, I slipped my mouth when I was in a hurry... Sigh, family luck is not right! Then The child is real, he came back in less than a day, and lent us 7000 yuan, and is still helping to take care of your father. Now he is out to cook, and he hasn't eaten yet? Let's make do with it later..." My mother is always worried about whether I have eaten or not, as if whether I have eaten or not has become her greeting at any time.My dear mother, when have you cared about yourself?When did you ever care about whether you had eaten?

At this time Zhichun came over. He was wearing a black down jacket, jeans, and a pair of Nike casual shoes.The inside is white thermal clothing, the hair is still short, darker than before, no, it should look better and healthier, it is wheat-colored skin, because of wearing a coat, the muscles inside can't be seen.All in all, he is more mature, taller and more heroic than before!

Seeing me, he was surprised at first, and then very happy.

"Brother Yong, you're back..." Except for this sentence, it seemed that there was nothing else to say.

"Hmm... please..." I couldn't say anything else.

I don't know why, there seemed to be a thousand words at that time, but they were stuck in my throat and I couldn't make a sound.Just looking at him affectionately, he also looked at me very gently.Mom probably didn't know about us at the time, so she thought it was just pure brotherhood!

Later, I asked my mother to go home first. After all, I have a younger sister who is in junior high school. It’s not good to bother the neighbors all the time, and there are many things at home. Although my mother is in the hospital, she still can’t let go of home.

After my mother left, Zhichun and I took care of my father. My father had undergone such a major operation, and his leg was still in plaster. We had to help pick up all the shit.I have always been in my heart since I was a child, I am willing to look at and peek at other people's stuff, but I will never look at those who are closer like my father, my uncle, and my own brother, even if I am asked to serve them I don't even like to watch it.And it felt so embarrassing, more embarrassing than anything else.So of course Zhichun played the role of receiving shit and urine. He also knows my stinky habit, so naturally he won't say anything. If I want to serve his father, then I'm happy. This is a quirk of mine. no way!

It's really uncomfortable to take care of people in the hospital. Not to mention the smell of medicine, there are moans from patients and nagging from nurses.The nurse who gave my father the injection was about 20 years old, and she was not bad looking. She always liked to strike up a conversation with me and Zhichun, and asked about college life, and asked about Zhichun’s military service. Her eyes were always circling Zhichun. He looks like a nympho, but I'm not jealous, who told Zhe Zhichun to be handsome?People like to watch good things, so handsome guys are naturally attractive!

Sometimes when Dad is asleep, Zhichun and I will tell the nurse to watch the drip, she is naturally happy, how dare the handsome guy explain things sloppily?Then we went out for a stroll and had a heart-to-heart chat. Of course there are endless topics to talk about after not being together for such a long time, but the most important thing is to warm up together. Young and young, who wouldn’t want to?This guy turned out to have opened the room a long time ago, and when he opened the door, he smiled lewdly.

"It's been so long since I've had meat, I have to treat me well today, come on, give me a kiss first..." He kissed me while talking.

"Let's wash it first, the hospital is so dirty, full of bacteria, I won't leave..." I pushed his head away and said, "Okay, baby, listen to you, take a bath first, come, let's take a bath together!" It's time for a guy to be called now, and baby

"Okay, I'll rub your back later..." I said

We took off our clothes and pants, opened Penglai and poured hot water, and we went into the bathroom together.

It's been a long time since I saw him, now I have to take a good look at it, there are a few more abdominal muscles on the chest, the skin is tanned, and the muscles in the hands are bulging. It's really stronger than before!I especially like his eyes, they are always so affectionate, like a pool of autumn water, making people confused.

Rubbing his back, I couldn't help hugging him from behind.Tight skin against skin, feel his body temperature, his heat, his affection.He slowly turned his head, and covered my long-awaited mouth with his thick lips, affectionate tongue kiss, long hug, at that moment, it seemed that the world was ours, everything outside had nothing to do with us, our world At this time, what happened next, I think everyone understands...

I took care of my dad in the hospital for three days, and I have to go back to school right away. I only have four days off, so I can't help it.Zhichun still has a week's vacation. I really miss him and leave him alone in his hometown. After a reunion, I wanted to ask him to go to my school for a few days, but he said he would still help take care of my old man. Dad, what else can I say, only leave him with gratitude and tears!

But there is also good news, Zhichun's two-year military service is about to expire, and if he doesn't want to stay, he can soon be discharged and go home.

I was thinking at the time: Let’s talk about the future!Maybe he has been in office for five years, or maybe...