embrace the memory of youth

Uncle Jiang lost control of his emotions for a while, and then he said, "You are a poor child just like Xiaoya, but he is not as strong as you, so he buried his innocence with death."

I was puzzled and asked "how do you say this?"

Uncle Jiang didn't answer me, but got up and left for a while. When he came back, he had several thick planners in his hand. He put the planners in front of me and said, "Look for yourself, this is what he left for me." The last thing, I have never dared to take it out to read, it records every bit of his daily life, until the day he said that he was going to a place where his heart would not hurt, and he stopped writing.”

When I saw the planner on the table, I had mixed feelings. After Uncle Jiang left, I opened the first book out of curiosity. First, I introduced myself. The person I love the most is undoubtedly the name of Lin Qingping. So I am more and more interested in knowing the road they have traveled together.

2005-5-21-Sunny

I am in a good mood today. A man broke into my field of vision. I learned from Dad Jiang that his surname is Lin. I am fascinated, maybe this is a sign of liking...

2005-7-8-very hot

The man who fascinated me last time has not appeared for a long time. I am just glad that my parents gave me a super memory. His face has always flowed in my heart. He appeared in my expectation at night, and he smiled when he saw me. Yes, and so real, so handsome, he asked my name before leaving, maybe God never makes people unlucky all the time, his voice is very nice...

2005-9-12 overcast

The sky is cloudy and it looks like it's going to rain, but his arrival adds a ray of light to the store...

2005-11-11 cloudy

It was another holiday that disgusted me. Father Jiang entrusted others to introduce girlfriends to me, but I refused them one by one. I knew that I had him in my heart, and no one could replace him. When I called him, he appeared in front of me again, but there was a boy next to him who kept calling him daddy. relationship, he actually confessed his love to me that day, I was very happy and excited.”

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2006-5-21 sunny

Today is the one-year anniversary of our meeting. I went home early and prepared meals, but he came back very late that night, as if he had forgotten such an important day. I am very disappointed...

2006-6-21 Hot

Today a handsome man invited me to dinner, he said he would give me 50 yuan to let me leave Qingping, I laughed at him for taking money too seriously, I splashed water on his face, and then paid for it myself...

2006-7-1

Today, a bad news came to my ears, saying that Qingping’s company was going to close down, and last time the man surnamed Gao said that he could help Qingping company through this difficulty, I obeyed his instructions and went to find the man surnamed Liang, That night he said that he could help Lin Qingping by letting me stay with him for one night. Recalling the past year, it was time to give back to Qingping. After that night, I felt dirty. I no longer belonged to Qingping, maybe I should have left... …

Seeing this, I seem to be able to predict how Zhao Ya will go to death. I didn't continue to watch it, because I am a person who doesn't like tragedies, and I also understand Lin Qingping's view of love.

I recuperated in the farmhouse hotel for a few days. During the recuperation days, I followed the description in Zhao Ya's diary. I walked the road they walked together. According to the diary, Lin Qingping confessed to him at a waterfall, where There is also the common memory of me and Lin Qingping. When I walked to the waterfall, I opened my hands like last time, closed my eyes tightly, and fantasized that he was behind me. Miss you? "

Then I bid farewell to Uncle Jiang and set foot on the car back to the city. I saw Uncle Jiang’s expression of reluctance in the car. Together with him, it was the first time he heard that Zhao Ya liked Lin Qingping. He didn't blame him, but said that as long as you are happy, love with your heart, so he is a person worthy of respect. There are many places in Zhao Ya's diary that mentioned how Uncle Jiang treated Lin Qingping He is good.

When I got back to the urban area, I first contacted Guo Xiong. He was very excited on the phone. From his tone, it seemed that he was going to call the police. On the phone, I comforted me and narrated my stay with Uncle Jiang, and he finally relaxed. in one breath.

Before the night came, I bought a set of clothes according to Zhao Ya's preferences, and then waited for him at the place where Liang Yongsheng often haunted. The voice of the ghost: Give me back my life;

This guy is really cowardly, his legs were so frightened that he knelt down and begged for mercy. It seems that the man surnamed Liang in Zhao Ya's diary is him. I poured the chicken blood prepared in advance from his head, and then said He immediately said, "If you do evil again, you will not live."

His trembling answer on the ground was, I covered my mouth and laughed when I saw his expression, and then I found Gao Ji, and he recognized me at a glance, he sneered and said, "Why do you think you want to play that bloody bitch?" Go back to Qingping, stop dreaming, you still have a lot of indecent photos in my hands"

"I didn't come here this time to quarrel with you. I just want to say don't think that no one knows what you did. Back then you offered 50 yuan to let Zhao Ya leave Lin Qingping, and then spread rumors that Lin Qingping's company was facing bankruptcy. , forced Zhao Ya to find Liang Yongsheng, do you think that no one will know about these things?"

He was not angry, but said darkly, "It seems that I still underestimated you, but you know so what, Qingping will not share his lover with other men, so don't dream about returning to him."

"Heh... As long as I don't want you to be with Lin Qingping, you don't want to step into his house, why can't you relax and accept someone who loves you?"

"what does this mean"

"It's in vain for you to be smart for a while, can't you really feel Liang Yongsheng's intentions, a person who has no interest in you, why should you help him die to deal with us?"

He snapped, "Shut up, who told you to talk nonsense, believe it or not, I will tear your mouth apart"

I responded with a smile, "Of course I believe, it's not like I haven't experienced Gao Ji's viciousness before."

"Since you know how powerful I am, just leave here obediently."

"Don't worry, I've already bought the train ticket to city b, without my thorn in your side, you should be able to sit back and relax for the time being."

He said in disbelief, "Really?"

"Do you think you have the right to let me joke with you? Leaving here is not because I am afraid of your means, but because I finally understand that Lin Qingping and I are at the end of our fate, because when the love is deep, I will be convicted with just a few photos , so disappointed”

"Hey, if you give up so soon, then the game is over too soon, it's not fun"

I looked at him contemptuously and said, "You are really a pervert, didn't you try to get me to leave? Isn't this exactly what you want?"

"Yes, yes, I wish you would die far away, it's best never to show up, hmph"

I looked at him faintly, and laughed in my heart. In fact, his heart is not bad, but the means of pursuing happiness are different, so I don't resent him. I only blame my relationship with Lin Qingping for being too fragile, and I can't even stand the wind and rain. rise.

"What are you thinking?" In the reverie, he interrupted my thinking with words, and I deliberately glared at him and said, "It's none of your business to think about it."

"You..., you are really cheap, talk to you calmly, you must force me to be a civilized person."

I ignored him, passed him by, and then disappeared from his sight without looking back, maybe he will start to think about my emotional analysis of Liang Yongsheng, but the result is irrelevant to me. After all, he is the one who ruined my happiness. Although I don't resent him, I have a grudge.

I found Guo Xiong at night, he saw that I was safe and sound, he embraced me emotionally, I didn’t get used to his hug, so Xiaoli pushed him away, and said with a faint smile, “Don’t be so excited "

He was not shy, and still exuded his most sincere smile. He said, "That is necessary. I haven't seen you for a few days, and I can't eat or sleep well. Now I am happy to see that you are safe and sound."

Seeing that he cared about me so much, I smiled knowingly. I didn’t tell him about leaving. That night, I talked with him about the dawn before closing my eyes and sleeping for a few minutes. When I woke up, he was sleeping on the floor. Snoring heavily, I felt distressed and covered him with the quilt he kicked aside, and then kissed his forehead before leaving.