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23Charming Xiamen, Ludao

If it wasn't for going out again, I didn't return to Guangdong.Instead, I went to a strange place - Ludao.

Ruofei’s middle school classmate Guo Wencai came to work in Ludao many years ago.This time, if he hadn't happened to meet Guo Wencai on the street back to his hometown, he was returning home from Ludao for vacation.If it wasn't for Guo Wencai's deskmate when he was studying, if it wasn't for two years older, the two of them would touch each other under the table with their hands in class and compete with each other.

If Gu Guoxiong hadn't brought him to the county, Guo Wencai would have gone to Ludao with his family.After reuniting after a long absence, the two of them became sticky together.Guo Wencai works as a driver in Ludao, driving a small car for the boss of the factory. The food is delicious and the salary is high.Guo Wencai described to Ruofei that Ludao is a garden city, close to the coast, and Kinmen Island in Taiwan can be seen through binoculars.The famous water scenic area, Gulangyu Island, is also there.

Guo Wencai, an old classmate whom we haven't seen for many years, has also changed his appearance.From a young boy to a man, a man with a bit of sophistication and a sense of vicissitudes.If it weren't for lamenting that these years were really unforgiving, they had hardened a little boy into a man.

Guo Wencai also marveled that Ruofei looked better and more lovable than before, and whispered in Ruofei's ear, "I haven't forgotten you and thought of you all these years, but I don't know where you went. After asking other students, they don’t know where you are. If not, do you still remember the furtive rivalry at that time, I would like to continue, would you like to?”

If it wasn't for being very surprised, surprised that Guo Wencai was so bold and straightforward.If it weren't for being even more surprised, Guo Wencai still remembered the little tricks when he was at the same table, wondering if he had a hobby with him?Could it be that Guo Wencai also likes men?

If it wasn't for not daring to reveal his own thoughts, he was afraid that it would accidentally spread to other people's ears.In the end, if it wasn't for the fact that he didn't like young men, what he liked was a mature old man like Gu Guoxiong, who could be a man of his father's age.If not answering Guo Wencai with a smirk, "Wencai, you are so coquettish now, I am much more secure than before."

Guo Wencai was even more amused when he heard that if he didn't say that, he said smugly, "I just saw you, so I became flirty, haha. Don't think too much, our old classmates are just making a joke. You If you are willing, I am very willing, handsome, you are really handsome, much more handsome than before. Red lips and white teeth, snowy skin, who doesn't like it? And you smile so charmingly, it draws out the souls of others .”

Ruofei still said with a smirk, "Ahaha, don't tease me, a big man won't be afraid of being shamed by others when he says this. Let me tell you, I don't like men. If you were a girl, I would look for you to carry on the family line. "

It is difficult for Ruofei to carry on the family line.What would life be like if I hadn't been confused by myself.What I like is an old man, and I would be unwilling to marry a woman.Besides Gu Guoxiong, Ruofei didn't know that there was another good-looking middle-aged man willing to live with him.

When Guo Wencai left, he repeatedly called Ruofei to find him, telling him about the beauty of Ludao Island, the sea, egrets, long sandy beaches, and clean sea water for swimming...

The sea, if the heart is not moved.So I decided to go to Ludao to find Guo Wencai when I left again.If you don't like the sea, you like the vast and boundless sky.It's also like being a free-flying bird, allowing yourself to fly higher and farther.

If he hadn't been able to go to Ludao to find Guo Wencai, Guo Wencai would have been so happy that he couldn't tell the difference between southeast and northwest.Guo Wencai is still engaged in his old business.With the help of Guo Wencai, if it wasn't for the art business, he worked in the development department of a company.

Guo Wencai let Ruofei live in his rented house.The purpose is to be close to the water and get the moon first, and to be able to continue the game of back and forth under the table with Ruofei faster.Guo Wencai took Ruofei to Manludao when he had free time, so that Ruofei could get acquainted with this new city.Of course, Guo Wencai is also interested in the handsome Ruo Fei who wants to relive the past. It is a pity that Guo Wencai has completely exposed the secret of his liking for men at this time, and Ruo Fei has blocked himself perfectly on the contrary, so that the Guo Wencai couldn't find Ruofei's inner world at all.If he didn't want Guo Wencai to know that he also likes men, it was because Guo Wencai had no chance to take advantage of him, and he was also afraid that Guo Wencai would accidentally reveal this secret in his hometown. After all, if he didn't really like Guo Wencai's peers, Not that feeling.If it weren't for the fact that he didn't want to hand himself over to a man he didn't like like when he was in Guangdong, he didn't want Guo Wencai to become the second Chen Fu.

Guo Wencai did not give up and continued to attack Ruofei.He didn't believe that the dog who was so presumptuous in the past would get rid of his manual behavior after a few years of absence, would the dog be able to get rid of eating shit?Guo Wencai believes that by virtue of his concern for Ruofei and the response of Ruofei that can be exchanged for a piece of true love, he can also obtain Ruofei's sincerity.Unfortunately, Guo Wencai's wishful thinking cannot represent Ruofei's thoughts.If he hadn't been indifferent to his former classmates, he would have hidden his love for men deeper and deeper.

Guo Wencai, who didn't get any response from Ruofei, climbed onto Ruofei's body three times in the middle of the night, wanting to make out with him, and wanted Ruofei to obediently enter his arms like Chen Fu did in the past.Guo Wencai's actions frightened Ruofei, but he didn't dare to respond to him, so he had to push him away.If it wasn't for the fact that he didn't know how to respond to Guo Wencai, he wouldn't have taken advantage of him like Chen Fu did in the past.Rolling without love will only increase worries.

Guo Wencai, who had been drunk outside one day, came back, if he hadn't been reading in the house.When Guo Wencai entered the room, he hugged Ruofei tightly, talking nonsense, saying, "Ruofei, I really love you. I fell in love with you when I was studying, and I always want to be with you, I want to be with you marry."

Ruo Fei broke away from Guo Wencai's hug and said, "Forget the past, it was all jokes back then, why remember so clearly. I like girls, so I can't be with you."

Guo Wencai shook his head and said, "I don't mind if you like girls, as long as you have me in your heart. I haven't forgotten you for so many years, I really love you."

Ruofei said, "Take your time looking for it. There are many men out there. You are so beautiful. You will definitely find someone you like."

Guo Wencai came to embrace Ruofei again, but was in vain.Guo Wencai fell on the bed, cried and said, "Then you will give it to me once, will you fulfill me once? Okay, I only need it once, and I will never touch you again."

If he didn't agree, he ran out.If it wasn't for disbelief in Guo Wencai's words, with the first grade of junior high school, there would be a second grade of junior high school, and then there would be countless entanglements.If he didn't go back to the house that night, he went to the hotel and slept all night.Lying on the bed in the hotel, if it weren't for being very distressed, she was troubled why she liked older men.I also worry that my relationship with Guo Wencai's classmates will be broken.

If he hadn't decided to move away, he would have left Guo Wencai.When two people are together, either you die or I die, if you don't want to see that kind of situation.Guo Wencai knew that Ruo Fei was going to move away, so he begged Ruo Fei not to leave.I rented a house in another village far away from Guo Wencai and lived alone.Guo Wencai couldn't get Ruofei. Seeing that Ruofei moved away again, he felt ashamed and never contacted Ruofei again. Since then, the two men who were good classmates have become strangers.

If it wasn't for the relationship between myself and Guo Wencai, it would be sad.But if there is no better repair method, he can't give himself as a gift to Guo Wencai. There are many other ways to thank Guo Wencai for his help, instead of dedicating his body to others.Let alone let Guo Wencai's inner dream come true on him like the relationship with Chen Fu in the past.If it weren't for regretting that I was young and didn't know how to refuse, Chen Fu was satisfied with him time and time again, so that Chen Fu still followed him lingeringly. Even if he died, he would not give himself up to Chen Fu.

Without Guo Wencai by my side, I would be more free if not for it.Outside of work, I wander around alone.New environment, new life, if you don't enjoy this strange and novel way of life.Everything you look at is fresh, and everything you look at is pleasing to the eye.If it weren't for the egrets on Ludao, wandering freely in every corner of Ludao.

The sea of ​​Ludao attracts Ruofei.Ruofei's heart also followed the sea and suddenly widened.The blue water reflects the blue sky, standing between the sky and the water, all the sorrow and unhappiness become lofty.The salty sea breeze blows away Ruofei's eyebrows, and the long-lost happiness rippling in Ruofei's smile.

In this new place where there are seas, beaches, shells, egrets, passenger ships, cruise ships, and clear blue sky, I feel relaxed and comfortable like never before.If it wasn't for finding a new life, it would throw the past into the wind.

If not, it would be great if Gu Guoxiong could live with him in this city.You can watch the sunrise together, blow the sea breeze together, swim in the water together, and chase on the beach together.If we can grow old together here, no amount of suffering is nothing.If not that's what I thought.Of course, these are just fantasies, not reality.It is impossible for Gu Guoxiong to let go of his family and follow him if he hadn't come to this garden city.After all, Gu Guoxiong is not Ruo Fei's age, and there are too many realities and responsibilities for him to bear.

If it wasn't for sending a postcard to Gu Guoxiong, calling him, and telling him about life in Ludao.Gu Guoxiong told Ruofei with a smile on the other end of the phone, "Be careful, be careful, don't be confused by the beautiful city, get lost, remember to come back, go back to your hometown. Your hometown is your home, your final home. I I will wait for you at home."

Gu Guoxiong also encouraged Ruo Fei to pursue his dreams and be brave. Life is short, and it may be possible to lose life suddenly one day.These words of Gu Guoxiong made Ruofei fall into sadness again, reminded him of Chen Fu who had a short life, and reminded him of Yao Xiaoyao who died in order to resist fate.

Ruo Fei said, "I will, I will come back when I have had enough fun. But then you may be a bad old man who can't walk, haha." Ruo Fei smiled, laughing at Gu Guoxiong's appearance many years later.If it weren't for the uncertainty of whether I would return to the place where I grew up in the future, there is still a long way to go.The future is very uncertain, and no one knows what will happen, so we can only take one step at a time.

If it weren't for the fact that he didn't really believe that Gu Guoxiong would wait for him, even if he waited, he would no longer be the original Gu Guoxiong.If it hadn't been very clear, Gu Guoxiong belonged to Aunt Xiao.It is also very clear that Aunt Xiao has already known the secret between himself and Gu Guoxiong, and if he goes back, he and Aunt Xiao will also become enemies.

If it weren't for Gu Guoxiong's entrustment and blessings, he was walking alone on the streets of a foreign land.If it wasn't for falling in love with the beauty and freedom of walking alone in a bustling city.Let the lights fall away, the shadows of the people, the hustle and bustle raging, if you are not willing to be in a strange maze-like city, you are willing to let yourself get lost and never come out.

Ruofei also focused on the men who came and went in the city, looking for the man who belonged to him, a man who really loved him and could stay with him forever.Looking at the figures of mature and good-looking men one by one, if not for being in a daze and thinking for a long time, who can communicate with her heart...