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That gray novel lay quietly on the bed. I don’t know if I still have the ability to flip through it. I know that every time I read a page, my heart will be crushed, but Lu Chen is no longer there. , the only thing I can miss him is not only this diary?I sat on the bed and started flipping through the diary.

I don’t know if it should be called a diary, but it doesn’t even have time. From the fact that the first page was written a long time after he had a car accident, it can be seen that the words written by his left hand are crooked, and I can’t read many of them clearly.

"I don't know why God punished Cheng Tian like this. I don't know what he thinks in his heart. Is it really good to stick to a disabled person? He treats me so well, but I can't repay him. From beginning to end In the end, I know my identity. There will always be someone who gives a lot in love, but I really can't repay him. If I really knew what happened now, I would promise him at the beginning, even if I am not gay. To force myself to fall in love with him, he has paid too much for me, but what can I do now?"

I didn't know what to say. In this empty room, I felt a feeling of being torn apart. I continued to turn a few pages.

"The new year is coming, and Cheng Tian and I also have a subtle feeling. Have I changed? Maybe, Cheng Tian is a good person, and he takes care of me forever. Should I give him something that a lover should have? Although My parents have already agreed in front of him, but I don't know what to do with what my father said to me. Should I respect my parents' last wish and stay away from this city, or continue to be with Cheng Tian? I'm sorry for him."

I don't know anything about the things written in Lu Chen's diary. Did his parents force him to do something?Now that I think about it, I was a little cold towards Lu Chen back then.

"Today is the New Year. I have already made up my mind. I want to follow Cheng Tian. I don't want to see him sad again. For him, maybe I am his everything. If I disappear from him again, will he Crashed, this man named Lin Haotian will make Cheng Tian's life better, if I leave, will Cheng Tian fall in love with him again? I want to listen to my father, so that Cheng Tian will definitely live a better life, but I can't, in my heart ... have fallen in love with him."

Cheng Tian sat on the bed blankly, seeing that his face was buried with tears, no one knew what he was thinking, he wanted to continue watching, the tears in his eyes had blocked his vision, he wiped a lot You can continue to look down again.

"What's the meaning of Cheng Tian's phone call at night? What's wrong with him? What should I do? What's he doing? Will he be in any danger? What's wrong?"

"Why doesn't Cheng Tian seem to pay much attention to me recently? Did I do something wrong? Could it be that Cheng Tian also started to dislike me? Well, I don't know what he's busy with every day. Sometimes it's just that I don't want to follow him. Instead, I hope he can watch TV with me at home, and now thinking about his brother-in-law and Lin Haotian are better than me, should I leave him."

Soon Cheng Tian turned to the last page.

"Cheng Tian said that he would take me on a trip, and this time I can finally be alone with him. I don't know why I am so happy. Maybe I really love him. It is absolutely impossible...Stupid, stupid, idiot, and playful. How could I possibly like him, thinking about traveling with him, I feel so happy, hehe, Cheng Tian, ​​I love you."

After Cheng Tian closed the book, he let out a heart-piercing cry, then lay down on the bed and beat the broken glass on the bedside table until his hands were bloody. When he was calm, he wanted to smoke a cigarette and touched his pockets. But I forgot that I don't usually smoke, but I found a pill-like thing and a note from my pocket.