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I fell asleep on the bed for a few more days. I was too emotional. I woke up and passed out several times. Later, the doctor gave me a sedative so that I could talk to my brother-in-law normally.I have already learned from my brother-in-law that my parents have been told about the matter here, and I will take me back when I feel better. As for Lu Chen, he has already been cremated, so tell me not to be too sad, people cannot be resurrected after death, so sorry.

I've been in a coma for 8 days since the first time I passed out.Today is May 5th, and the rescue work is coming to an end. I asked my brother-in-law to go back that day, because my body is no longer in pain, and because of the effect of the sedative, my confused thinking has finally calmed down. We took a bus to Chengdu overnight. , where my brother-in-law handled everything because of his status as a policeman. We returned to the city where we lived at about 20:12 in the evening. After getting off the plane, my brother-in-law handed me a box containing Lu Chen’s ashes, holding The box collapsed again, I don't know how I got home, and I don't know how I fell asleep. My mind is full of the appearance of that urn, and the appearance of Lu Chen. When I regain consciousness again, I It was at Lu Chen’s funeral, and it was raining lightly. I was wearing a suit, and looked at everything around me with confusion. I saw many acquaintances, including classmates from junior high school and high school. My brother-in-law stood beside me and supported me. Lu Chen's parents didn't blame me, and no one present blamed me, only Liu Xin, Lu Chen's girlfriend, slapped me and said something, but I really couldn't hear it.

I didn’t say a word during the whole funeral because I didn’t know what to say, I couldn’t cry, I didn’t even know what was wrong with my body, some of them couldn’t accept my own control, because the blow was already too great, I was forced to My son came to me, put something in my pocket, and then told me not to be too sad, and left. When the funeral was over, Lu Chen's father handed me a diary, which belonged to Lu Chen, and I I've seen it, but Lu Chen doesn't let me see it every time, and then I go home.

After returning home, I locked myself in the attic without saying a word, I just felt so painful, so painful, I couldn’t describe it in words, even with the air conditioner on, I felt so cold, so cold, Lu Chen was dead and completely After leaving me, I understand how someone felt before. Now my mind is full of Lu Chen, his smile, his every move, everything that happened before us is constantly replaying in my head, I want to end My own life, Lu Chen himself must be very lonely in that world, I want to accompany him, I don’t know what is the point of my life anymore, there is nothing in this world that belongs to me, I don’t know why I want to go to Dujiangyan , I don’t know why the gods wanted to separate us from yin and yang on that day, why didn’t they take me away together, why did the two of us stay together and miss the other person in the world, what did I do wrong what?Why?Why?I broke the glass on the bedside table, took off a sharper piece, pointed it at my wrist, and wanted to stab it hard, but saw Lu Chen's diary.