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Tang Zhicheng didn't tell me how Yan Jiasheng was doing. He lost his temper and left because I had forgotten all about the past. After Tang Zhicheng left, I bought the bill and went out without taking a taxi. I walked aimlessly on the street. For a moment, I thought about Liu Guodong's kindness to me, and for a while, I thought about how Yan Jiasheng threatened others at all costs in order to help Fatty Liu. To be precise, he was helping me. Did he ever think about being with me?If there is, am I sorry for him and myself?All kinds of things make me breathless, I have obviously let go of him, why am I so uneasy once I hear that he is back?

The phone rings, answer...

"Min...miao..." Although I haven't heard this voice for half a year, I still know for sure that it is Xianshu's voice. I didn't expect it to be so difficult for her to call me by my name for the first time in more than ten years.

"Xianshu?"

"Can you... come home?"

When she said 'go home' I was shocked, is that still my home?Her tone made me terrified "What's wrong? What happened?"

"It's okay, I really want you to come back..."

Xianshu called me for the first time in half a year. Although she said she was fine, I was still uneasy. Anyway, Fatty Liu went to socialize, and what I wanted in my heart drove me to 'go home'.

I took a taxi, got off at the park in front of the 'home', and walked all the way to the door of the house. I couldn't think of what kind of expression to use to face Xianshu. Does she still hate me?If Hate would not call me 'home', would it be too cheap if I acted carefree and unconcerned?In fact, in the past six months, I have thought about secretly going to school to visit my son, but I was afraid... I thought about it for a long time outside the door, and finally rang the doorbell.

No one opened, I pressed it again, and the door finally opened. The face that came into view shocked me a lot. Xian Shu's thin sunken eye sockets, her yellow skin, and her already thin body were also swollen. What has she experienced in half a year?When we met in the market before, she was just a little thinner and there was nothing wrong with it. She was panting a little, and it took so much effort to open the door?

"Xianshu, what's wrong with you?"

She shook her hand "Come in!"

She walked very slowly, I followed into the house and closed the door gently, Min Xing cried immediately when he saw me, "Dad..."

Min Bin came out of his room, because he was seven years old and he probably understood what happened between me and Xianshu, he looked at me and wanted to cry but his eyes were more angry "You are a villain!" He yelled at me After saying a word, he ran back to the room.I know he has grown up and is sensible, he hates me... Min Xing didn't understand yet, he ran over and hugged my leg, "Dad...why don't you want me...with brother and mother..."

Xianshu tried her best to say something to Min Bin who closed the door, but she stopped because of difficulties. Looking at Min Xing who was crying, I hesitated for a few seconds, I stretched out a hand to hug Min Xing, a Helping Xianshu to sit on the sofa, everything in the house has remained the same for half a year, except for Min Xing's toys, which were left all over the place.

"Will Little Xingxing go to brother's room to play?" I don't want him to hear what I said to Xianshu.

"I won't go, my father will leave again..."

"Little Xingxing, daddy has something to say to mommy, daddy won't leave, daddy won't leave..."

"Hook the little finger..." Min Xing smiled and stretched out his little finger.

I hooked my little finger with him without hesitation, and he finally believed me and ran to Min Xing's room.

My son just ran away, "Xianshu... I'm sorry..." I couldn't help but shed tears, her sunken eye sockets were soaked, "Xianshu, you are not strong, she just didn't want me to be sad last time Pretending to be casual, right?"

Xianshu's voice is very weak, "I checked online... Homosexuality is not a mental illness, I know how depressing it is to force you to live with me for more than ten years..."

"That's all in the past, what's the matter with you now?" I don't want to hear her embarrassing things at all, I want to know what happened to her now.

"It's okay...it's okay...One day I won't be here, you have to take good care of your son. Min Xing is too early to understand, he is a bit introverted and stubborn, you have to teach him well. Min Xing is so innocent, you must not hurt him..." Xian Shu in tears.

I have brought too much misfortune to everyone, and this happy family has been torn apart by my stubbornness. Now Xianshu's sudden situation and her horrible words are like a heavy stone weighing on my heart. Really, it sinks to the point where I can't breathe.

"Don't say it...you don't say it...what's wrong with you? I'll take you to the hospital!" I was anxious and scared.

"It's useless, advanced liver cancer..." She stared blankly at the front with her sunken eyeballs.

My whole body trembled violently, I couldn't see my expression, I just knew that even if people scratched and beat me now, it wouldn't hurt, how could it be like this?What did Xianshu do wrong?It was me who was wrong, why should she suffer?

"I don't believe it, I don't believe it... There must be a way! There must be a way... The big deal is to change the liver..." I couldn't accept this reality at all.

"I'm a little tired... I want to sleep... Can you stay and take care of your son tonight?" She begged painfully.

If I leave them again at this time, will I still be human regardless of me?This is something that anyone can do, not to mention that everything about her is caused by me, "Take a rest, I will take you to the hospital tomorrow..."

I helped her back to the room, let her lie down, and covered her with the quilt. She closed her eyes, and she fell asleep after a while. I saw the medical records and a pile of medicines on the dressing table. This sense of guilt is the most unbearable one in my life. Depression, liver cancer, sleeping pills... I understand the suffering she has endured in the past six months, I really understand.The tears just couldn't stop.When I got back to the bed, I saw the pitifully skinny woman lying on the bed, her legs softened and she knelt on the ground. I wanted to hold her hand and cry bitterly, but I was afraid of waking her up, so I could only curl up by the bed and bite my fist. I hate God, I hate fate, I hate myself, and I can't do anything.

After an unknown amount of time, I heard Min Xing's voice calling me in the living room. I tidied up my face before leaving the room. I was afraid of scaring him.I hugged him and sat on the sofa, and turned on the cartoon channel for him. I found that the door of Min Bin's room was open, and he was staring at me through the door behind the door.He changed, became so hating on me, became so strange...