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I lowered my head and didn't dare to look up, I don't know how he will deal with me, all I can feel is that his footsteps are getting closer and closer to me, until he is half a step away from me, my heart beats The speed of his body has doubled sharply, his scalp is numb, what is going on in his head?what to do?

"You..." Yan Jiasheng stopped after saying a word, as if what he was going to say next was very difficult for Xiang

I put my mind to one side, forget it!Anyway, he should have fully heard "Yes, I love you!" Although he lowered his head when he said this, I could see his trembling hands. Yan Jiasheng really knows what the result will be after I love him. This result is what I have been waiting for for 20 years. I want to know and fear to know. What will it be?

He suddenly raised his hand and was about to hit me. I didn't dodge at all, and I didn't even think about dodging the "slap". There was only the scorching pain on my face. There was blood, and the glasses were slapped to the wall and smashed. When he raised his hand and was about to slap again, I closed my eyes and waited for the next slap, but the slap that I was mentally prepared for was delayed. .

"If you don't fight, I'm leaving..." I covered half of my face that was swollen and swollen, half-eyed, and picked up the glasses with a few lenses on the ground, and the remaining lens had cracked a few lightning marks.

I didn't look at his expression, picked up my briefcase, and ran out of the office in a panic. I raised my head after the elevator opened, tears dripped down my face, and when the elevator door opened on the first floor, I was still clutching my chubby face. And with a hot face, I walked out of the company building quickly, this is the result of 20 years of waiting, pain... unprecedented pain, not because of my swollen face, but because I was wrong, I did something wrong for myself And the pain, finally being able to lurk close to him again, now... It's gone, everything is gone, what's left is a distant and secret relationship.

I live like an actor. I have to play a different self at home and in the company. This time I didn’t take a bus or take a taxi. The way home is about five miles, which is a bit far. At this moment, I just want to walk back. , because I want to create another wife and children who come home to face the family at a distance of several miles. Get your emotions in order before you go home.

Mid-autumn night, the park was not as quiet as usual. The whole family came out to enjoy the moon and occupied the park, which is my private space for emotional cultivation. In the shelter, I wiped my tears, and I habitually raised my hand to look at the watch. The light was very weak, and I couldn’t see what time it was without my glasses.

I simply sat down by the flower bed next to the gate of the park, and within a few minutes of sitting down, the phone rang, and a text message came, because I didn't have my glasses, so I didn't read it.I'm not in a hurry to read it either, because usually people who are important to me don't like to text me, so I ignore it.

Cigarettes, I lit two cigarettes in a row, and after I squeezed out the cigarette butts, the phone rang. I guess it was my wife who called, because I haven’t been home before, and she would call at this time. I picked up the phone and moved closer to my face. , spotted the button, and answered "I'm still working overtime at the company, I'm going to be back later, you and your sons go to bed after eating mooncakes!" I started talking about these coping dialogues without waiting for the other side to speak.

"Understood! Come back early" my wife hung up the phone after finishing talking. I put the phone away and exhaled. To her, I owe the most in my life. After marriage, I have always been indifferent to her, except for the task-style forced sex. In life, there is basically no other caress to give. She manages all the family affairs by herself. What I can do is given to the family on time every month. She has never complained to me. Taking care of me and my son, working hard without complaint, it is because of this that I feel that I am a real bad man.

When I was still wandering on the edge of pain and suffering, the sky began to rain, dripping on my face, I didn’t leave in a hurry like a family who came out to watch the moon, and they didn’t pay much attention to me when they were in a hurry This fat middle-aged man who was sitting by the flower bed lost all the people in the park in just a few minutes.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and my whole body was soaked by the rain. I didn't dodge or hide, letting the rain wash away, as if the rain could wash away all my mistakes.

I put my hands in my short hair and bent forward, the rain dripped down my lips and nose along my face, why did I have to be so impetuous? I have endured it for 20 years, what happened today?I refused to admit it or found some other excuses. I think Yan Jiasheng and Yan Jiasheng will not develop like this. I can still go to work as usual every day, solve his problems, and sometimes make him a cup of coffee or milk tea when he is thirsty. But now...is there any more?

I raised my hand and closed my eyes, and slapped my other half of the face that Yan hadn't slapped, it wasn't enough to relieve my hatred, and I slapped again, but the slap couldn't be slapped, and I was grabbed by a strong hand .

"Enough!" The voice was loud and familiar, it was Yan...

I raised my head and stared blankly at him standing in front of me. Tears welled up again in disbelief. The rain kept falling, and I couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears dripping down my face.

Yan Jiasheng didn't open an umbrella, and his body was drenched in the rain. He didn't let go of my hand, and I didn't wear glasses. I couldn't see his expression clearly, but all I could know was that he felt sorry for me. self-destructive behavior.

I am like this, just a little touch in my heart can make me cry, and Yan Jiasheng has moved me enough to make myself feel passionate, and the tears flowed even more violently. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!" It's extremely ugly, but I'm not afraid of him seeing it, it's all like this anyway, what do I mind?

He didn't speak, let go of his hand, wiped the rain from his face, and looked at me crying bitterly.

God, I don't know whether it was intentional or not, the rainstorm on Mid-Autumn Night has no intention of stopping, I try my best to control myself, I can't let him see me like this again, I can't annoy him anymore so "I will resign tomorrow morning I'll hand you the letter!" After saying this, I stood up, picked up my briefcase, and started walking home. Yan Jiasheng was standing in the rain, and the moment I turned around, the world was blank, except for the tingling pain in my chest. feeling and nothing else.

After walking a few steps, the rain could no longer fall on my head. He... took off his suit and put it on top of our heads to block the rain. At this moment, I was stupid. Stopped, I couldn't see his appearance clearly, but I could see him smiling, the smiling face that appeared thousands of times in dreams was so familiar.

"Stupid?" This caring voice has changed from an innocent child's voice to today's mature middle-aged voice. I can feel that the taste of this caring has not changed.

"Don't you dislike people like me?" My voice was so small that I could hardly hear myself clearly.

"Do you remember? The night we left Yanjiaping 20 years ago, I said that I will help you bear the wind and rain when I become stronger!" After he finished speaking, he showed his neat and white teeth. If I did, I was not the only one who always remembered, it turned out that he was also there.

"Brother Sheng..." I was too excited to speak.

Under the suit he held up, I went back to 20 years ago...