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I remember, on that night in 95, I never answered the question Chen Xianshu asked me. I can’t tell you the real reason, but I didn’t want to lie, so I chose to avoid it. Instead, she ‘failed’. I really want to ask Exactly, but didn't ask at the time.

Until the end of that year, when the Chinese New Year was approaching, I asked my boss (Xianshu’s father) to resign, because I hadn’t been home for almost three years, so I decided to go home to spend the Chinese New Year with my mother.

"Min Miao, do you really want to leave?" Chen Xianshu stood at the door of my room while I was packing my luggage.

"Yes! There is always a banquet in the world. You have to leave sooner or later. By the way, remember to send me a telegram when you graduate from college. I will definitely come to see you and give you a gift reward." After I finished speaking, I wrote her down the home address.

"Aren't you coming out of Guangzhou anymore?" Suddenly her eyes were red, which made me feel at a loss. I really don't know what to do when I see others crying, especially women.

"You...what's the matter with you? Why are your eyes red?" I asked her tears immediately fell down.

"Are you not coming to Guangzhou anymore?" She covered her nose and mouth to keep herself from crying.

"Come... why don't you come? Didn't you just say that you will come to see you and buy you gifts when you graduate?" Actually, I'm not trying to comfort her, I'm telling the truth, I really plan to congratulate her when she graduates, because I He regarded her as his younger sister.

She walked up to me suddenly, took out a letter from her trouser pocket and stuffed it into my hand, then turned and left.

At that time, I thought that the letter Chen Xianshu gave me should be the same as the one I wrote to Yan Jiasheng. I opened it and read it, and it was indeed a letter of confession. It turned out that she began to pay attention to me from the first year of high school. What's more, she didn't expect that she deliberately lost points in the college entrance examination and stayed in Guangzhou to study for me. I was stunned for a moment, and I sat by the bed for a long time and couldn't calm down. "Min Miao, Min Miao, I missed my future!" Slap yourself!

The next day when I went out with my luggage, I found Chen Xianshu secretly hiding at the corner of the alley and watching me. I was going to pretend that I didn’t see it and leave like that, but I just took two steps forward. He stopped and turned around, "Chen Xianshu, thank you! I will come to Guangzhou when you graduate!"

She hid immediately, I didn't go back, I didn't want to see her uncomfortable, I turned around and said, "I'm sorry, Chen Xianshu, I'm not someone worthy of your love..." Sighing, I walked away quickly, all the way to the station, My heart was never calm, I seemed to hear her crying.

The car left Guangzhou, and I also bid farewell to the city that left me with many memories. Although I have memories, it is still just a city that makes me lonely, so I don’t have much nostalgia. It’s just that Chen Xianshu’s father and daughter are my only regrets. Why, because of their favor.

The car finally stopped at the entrance of Yanjiacun, I picked up my luggage and got off the car. It’s been almost three years since this place has grown from a small place to a big place, where there are people who are most important to me, and the place where I feel the most warm has not changed. , still so familiar...

"Mom...Mom...I'm back!" I yelled before I entered the house.

My mother came out of the house as soon as she heard my voice. She was wearing a patched blue padded jacket and was holding a dustpan in her hand. She must be feeding the chickens!She stood at the door without saying a word, staring at me blankly.

"Mom...I'm back..." The appearance of my mother made me a little sad, so my voice also narrowed. In the past three years, my mother has changed. There are many white hairs on the temples, and there are several more at the corners of the eyes. Wrinkles, "Mother is really old..." I feel very uncomfortable. Isn't it too bleak for my mother to have such a son?

Tears flickered in my mother's eyes. Looking at her vicissitudes of life, I knew that I was an unfilial son who ignored my mother for my own selfishness. She was my only relative in the world.

"I'm back..." Mother turned around and wiped away her tears before walking into the house. Mother was such a person, she was very happy, she cared, but she couldn't express it, and she loved to hide everything in her heart.

When I went back to the main room and put down my luggage, my mother caught a chicken with a knife in her hand. I know that my mother will always be the one who loves me the most.A warm current passed through my heart, and I suddenly realized that my mother should be the person I love the most, and I should not be selfish in pursuing my own interests.

For dinner, my mother didn't cook sweet potato porridge, but pure rice, which surprised me "Mom...why isn't it sweet potato porridge?"

"You have been out of Guangzhou for almost three years. I am afraid that you will not be used to the food at home." My mother picked up a piece of meat for me. "Eat it! The weather is cold, and the food is going to be cold!"

This dinner, I don’t like the taste, no reason, just because of my mother’s sentence, "I’m afraid I won’t be used to it." I grew up eating sweet potato porridge, how can I not get used to it?Is it because I have been out of Guangzhou too much and the wall between me and my mother has thickened?

It rained lightly for ten consecutive days, and the weather was cold. I sat around a plate and warmed myself by the fire, so I didn’t go out for more than ten days after returning to Yanjiacun. Basically, no one in Yanjiaping knew that I was back.

It wasn't until the night of New Year's Eve, when I asked my mother to cook sweet potato porridge, that she cooked most of the pot, but for some reason, she couldn't eat it like when she was a child. less than.

"Mom...don't push it, I can get it, you can eat it too!" I picked up a piece of meat for my mother, and my mother laughed. When we were eating happily, the door outside the main room was knocked up.

"Big Sister! Hey... Big Sister?" There was a hasty call to the door. The voice was very familiar, but I just heard it when I couldn't remember it.

My mother glanced at me, but didn't let me open the door, she walked out and opened the door by herself.

"Sister Yan Rong? Have you eaten yet? We are eating! Let's go together!"

When my mother called her Yan Rongsao, my heart skipped a beat. It was Yan's mother. I put down the bowl and went to the main room.

"My old Yan is dying..." Aunt Yan burst into tears as she spoke.

I was even more shocked, and my mother's eyes widened. Although the Yan family has nothing to do with our family, it is Yan Jiasheng's father. Out of love for him, the news of his father will naturally make me sad. Let me worry.

"What's going on? Don't panic...speak slowly..." Mother comforted her aunt.

Aunt Yan only discovered my existence. Instead of replying to her mother's words, she looked at me, "Miaozi, it's good if you're here. Can you contact my family's Jiasheng? Tell him to come back and see his father?"

"Brother Sheng? You don't have his contact information?" I heard that something was wrong, because Yan Jiasheng has always been a very filial son, and he has both good character and learning. How could the relationship with his family be like this?

"I haven't contacted him for a year and a half..." In fact, Yan wrote to me in the first month of his arrival in Wuhan, and he never heard from him again. I sent him more than a dozen letters. I haven't received a single reply, which is also the saddest thing for me in more than a year.

"This unfilial son... We worked so hard to earn money to study for him, what kind of book is this studying..." The aunt's mood became even more excited, and her tears were even more turbulent.

Probably Yan Jiasheng had a falling out with his family, so that even his mother didn't know how to find him. My mother and I didn't know what to say, so we were silent for a while.It rained very hard that night. I don’t remember seeing such a heavy rain during Chinese New Year, and the weather was extremely cold. Afterwards, at my request, I sent Aunt Yan home. When I went out, my mother kept staring at me at the door. , seemed to want to tell me something, but she never spoke.

It rained heavily all the way, although the two families were not far away, I put the umbrella towards my aunt to cover it, half of my body was wet, but I didn't care.Until I went to Yan's house, the light from the dim light bulb made my already heavy heart even more desolate.

Yan Rongbo was lying on the bed, his face was pale, his lips were slightly dark, his eyes were even whiter, and he had a frightening face, but I was not afraid at this time, and stood by the bed all the time, while my aunt held his hand and cried bitterly.

"You don't... want to cry..." Yan Rongbo tried his best to squeeze out these words.

It was really unbearable for me to see such a scene in front of me, and I would cry too, wiping away my tears quietly.

"One...must...save...Jiasheng" Yan Rongbo left the world after leaving these words.

It was already past 3 o'clock in the morning, that is, the first day of the new year. I was afraid that my aunt might need help, so I never left.

My aunt endured her sadness and changed Yan Rongbo's shroud. Of course, I also helped. It was a very cold night, maybe my heart was cold!Yan Rongbo left just like that, and even had a son who didn't come back to see him die. People... If you say no, you will be gone. He must be worried about leaving.

I left Yan's house in the morning, and when I got home, my mother was sitting by the stove in the kitchen staring at the fire in a daze. When she heard the door open, she turned her head, "How is your Yan Rongbo?"

"He... went..."

"Oh... come here, here is a red envelope for you! Good luck, today is the first day of the new year, so don't run to Yan's house, you know?" My mother handed me a red envelope.

After receiving it, I went back to the room, changed my clothes, and sat on the bed in a daze. People are sometimes strange animals, and they don’t necessarily feel sleepy if they don’t sleep all night. I suddenly had an idea to do something for Yan Jiasheng. He was a filial son on his behalf and sent his father to be buried.