dance like a butterfly

I hung up the phone and wiped it on my face, it turned out that my face was covered with sweat.

Faintly heard my father calling me in the house.

Running over, Dad has already handed out a chamber pot with half a bottle of light orange liquid from under the quilt with his left hand.

I took it and dumped it in the latrine, filled it with clean water, shook it a few times, rinsed it clean, and returned to the house and handed it to him.

Dad heard my voice and stretched out his hand, but he didn't catch the chamber pot I handed him!

I shouted: "Dad, here it is!"

Finally, after several touches in the air, Dad "saw" the chamber pot with his hands.

The tear glands suddenly seemed to be all over the corners of my body.In an instant, I was trembling all over, and a transparent liquid covered my eyelids.

Dad can't see anything!

"Xiaojun, why did it get dark so quickly?" Dad asked with his eyes wide open.

Although the days are getting shorter and the nights are long and the days are short, it is only after five o'clock, and there is still more than an hour before dark.Outside the house, the setting sun of winter is shining brightly on the courtyard.

"It's cloudy, it must be raining soon!" I choked up, trying to restrain myself.

Dad stopped talking, turned sideways and closed his eyelids, and fell into a deep sleep.

When I went to my second sister-in-law's house and told her about the situation, I hurried to the village clinic.

The doctor said that if the brain pressure is too high, it may cause a stroke, which will compress the cranial nerves, and the patient will be temporarily blind, aphasic, and deaf.

The doctor rushed over, took the blood pressure and temperature, rolled his eyelids, and after a while, prescribed some medicine.

By the time Dad took the medicine and fell asleep again, it was already dark.

After dinner, my second sister-in-law said to me: "Xiaojun, let your second brother take care of me here, my sister-in-law will talk to you."

Second sister-in-law talking to me?Can't say it here?Does it have anything to do with alcohol?Does it have anything to do with old Zuo Tian Zhen Zhen Lao Han?

I looked at the second sister-in-law suspiciously, she just smiled faintly.

After arriving at the second brother's house, the second sister-in-law said, "Xiaojun, look, our father's disease, even though it is a common disease of the elderly, we can't be careless!"

I nodded.

"Do you know what sister-in-law called you to tell you?"

I shook my head.

"In the past few years, my sister-in-law knows that it is not easy for you. It must not be easy to go out alone in the world."

Why did the second sister-in-law suddenly say this?I tense up.

"Outside, there will definitely be contacts. My sister-in-law knows that with your spirit, you will definitely not find those who have no background when you make friends."

I put my head down.

"Look, today, Zuo's sister-in-law, who is from the city, made everyone unhappy and broke up."

This field is so real!Thinking of her makes my teeth itch with hatred.

"Sister-in-law can see it today. Sister-in-law Zuo and Brother Han are very difficult. There must have been conflicts before. In today's situation, sister-in-law can also see that there is nothing you can do. Usually, you are not like this when you treat people What do you have to hold in other people's hands?"

Seeing that I have been silent, the second sister-in-law asked softly.

I nodded and shook my head again.The second sister-in-law laughed.

"Fortunately our dad didn't see it, if he found out, maybe the old man would be so angry."

Know?know what?Did you already know that?

I looked at my second sister-in-law, my palms began to sweat, and I felt that I could no longer hide what I was most worried about.The more I thought about it, the more I couldn't sit still, my whole body became hot and my head got a little bigger.

"You're not young anymore, why are you so careless about your own affairs? I don't know whether Brother Han took these things on purpose or unintentionally. These things are clearly sent to the new daughter-in-law. I changed that bottle of wine, if someone sees it, I don’t know what kind of gossip to say!”

My face turned red.Obviously, the second sister-in-law already knew what was going on!Although I have been trying to deceive myself today, thinking that everyone will not think about the essence, so it seems, how naive and ridiculous I am!

I felt my whole body getting hotter and hotter, and I wished I could get into the kang cave.

Thanks to my second sister-in-law who said this to me now, if it were someone else, I would have to bite my tongue and kill myself!

"Brother Zuo, you are a nice person, but there is a big difference in age between you and him. One is not a colleague, and the other is not a companion. It seems that you have no life-threatening friendship with him, right? He is really good to our family , It’s so good that others are jealous. Some close brothers and sisters can’t do such a good way. If the relationship between a man and a woman is as good as this, I don’t know what gossip will be like. Fortunately, you still It’s just a man, who can avoid gossip. However, you are not too young, so you have to pay attention, and be careful that others think about those three words.”

There is no doubt that the sister-in-law has determined what is going on.I really don't know what Tian Zhenzhen said to the second sister-in-law in private, and I can't imagine when the second sister-in-law has viewed my relationship with Lao Zuo in this way.There is no doubt that Lao Han's homecoming banquet was repeatedly emphasized by Tian Zhenzhen, which further verified the second sister-in-law's inference.

"sister in law!"

I yelled and fell to my knees with a plop.

"Get up, don't be like this, be careful not to startle others!" The second sister-in-law hurriedly pulled me up.

This time, even the second sister-in-law was a little panicked.

For many years, my second sister-in-law has been concerned about my marriage.Since my sophomore year, she asked me if I had a girlfriend.After I graduated, she asked from time to time when she would bring a beautiful girl back to show the family.When I resigned from school and worked in Xi'an for a few years, she never saw my girlfriend, and never got any news from me about any close female classmates or friends of the opposite sex.She also asked someone to introduce her girlfriend to me, but I never even promised her to go on a date, and gradually, she stopped pressing me.

However, today, when she verified her judgment, she was still a little panicked.

After roaring several times, the turbulent waves in my heart finally subsided.

"Does Lao Han have a sister-in-law?"

Second sister-in-law asked.

I shook my head.

"How old are his children?"

"One is about to graduate from college, and the other is in the third year of junior high school."

"What are they doing to you?"

"Fortunately."

The second sister-in-law paused for a while, frowned, and continued:

"When Lao Han and Brother Zuo came to look for you, I met once. To be honest, my sister-in-law thinks that Lao Han is very rich. If you compare Lao Han and Brother Zuo, Brother Zuo is obviously a very good person. Dealing with people. Brother Zuo treats people very honestly. However, sister-in-law of the Zuo family is not tolerant. Now that your matter is up to this point, sister-in-law can't say anything. The problem is, you can't let them torment like this anymore!"

"Second sister-in-law, do you think our father knows about this?"

After a while, I was trembling.

"Our father is old after all, so he won't think too deeply about the problem. My sister-in-law changed the wine because she was afraid that he would find out. Don't be a sister-in-law and want to drink good wine."

The second sister-in-law also made a joke with me by the way.

"Then, how did you find out?"

"Don't forget, Xiaojun, I've been your sister-in-law for many years. Isn't it true that people in the countryside are all idiots, how old are they? Isn't this kind of thing rarely seen on TV? It's just, it's a pity is you."

The second sister-in-law shook her head and sighed.

"Sister-in-law, I don't know what to do now."

Regarding these things that happened today, I have always been frightened, afraid that this day will come suddenly.When the facts were firmly in front of me, I found that I was really helpless.As for Lao Han, the second sister-in-law immediately said that he was very rich.Today, he is always smiling, standing in front of the old left couple with a victorious attitude, but he pushed me into such an embarrassing situation.

"Don't you know any girls? Maybe you're married and you'll keep both of them out."

The second sister-in-law still has hope for me to marry a girl.

"Sister-in-law, my good sister-in-law, you may not know that I am very repulsive to girls."

"Could it be that you really don't want to find a girl to marry?"

"Sister-in-law, if you really find a girl to marry, you will harm her forever."

My tears flowed, and now, there's no need to pretend.

The second sister-in-law stopped talking, the night was like water, the faint moonlight was blocked by the lights in the house, and the night wind blew in, the sweat on my underwear began to feel a little cold.

"There is a sentence that my sister-in-law doesn't know how to say." The second sister-in-law hesitated.

"Just say it."

"Did you stay with them because of money?"

My head is getting bigger again.

"Xiaojun, as human beings, we have to be innocent and upright. Sister-in-law can't talk about emotional matters like yours. But there is one thing, that is, you can't associate with people for money We, the Hong family, can't just ignore everything for money!"

Others said; sister-in-law Sai Mu.When my mother was alive, my sister-in-law never blushed once with my mother.It's just that sometimes when I quarrel with my second brother, it's my second brother who makes a lot of trouble for no reason.In the past few years, I took care of my sick mother, until my mother collapsed, there was never a single complaint.My dad's meals, my dad's laundry, and my dad's clothes are also very attentive.Although she is only six years older than me, she has consciously provoked the backbone of my family in many cases.She is amiable to the outside world, and bows to her inner respecter. She said this to me today, and she doesn't treat me as an outsider!

"No, really not, you should believe me!"

"That's good. Also, people can't stand on two boats, even if there is only one boat left, they have to step on it firmly. People, regardless of high or low, have to distinguish the truth from the fake, let alone be confused and irresponsible to themselves."

The second sister-in-law's words made me understand again why people in the village have always respected her for so many years.

"Then, second brother, big brother, do they know about this now?" I asked anxiously.

"Men are careless after all, and my sister-in-law doesn't seem to pay much attention to these things. If there is any disturbance in the future, my sister-in-law will cover it for you. After all, the countryside is not as civilized as the city, and it is not glorious. You have to pay attention and keep our father a secret Good. How many more years can a man live? Don’t let him go on the road with regrets. It’s better that he doesn’t know about this kind of thing than he knows.”

After leaving my second sister-in-law's house, I left the village alone.

My mind is in such a mess right now.

The sickle-like first quarter moon hung coldly in the sky, and the messy clouds piled up around the moon like rags abandoned by someone.The shadow of Shaohua Mountain is hazy, stretching in the arms of Qinling like ink painting.Looking back, I can see the lights of the village gradually fading away, and I suddenly think of the night when I quarreled with Lao Zuo at the edge of the village, and I also think of Lao Han's smiling face when I first met him.

The road under his feet is a cement road, which leads straight to Huaxian County.

The village was getting farther away from me, and gradually I couldn't hear the sound of the old woman's soul-shocking to the frightened little grandson and the barking of the dog.

I smoked one cigarette after another until my tongue went numb.

Before I knew it, I arrived at the small forest during the day.

There is a reservoir by the woods.

This reservoir irrigates hundreds of hectares of fertile land in my village, and it is a good place for many peasant men to take a bath at night in summer. I don’t know how many reckless teenagers who don’t know water have drowned.

I sat down on the big rock by the reservoir, lit the fire for a long time, and finally lit another cigarette.

The night wind blows, and the chill keeps biting my skin.

I touched my face, and before I knew it, tears had already flowed.

To be honest, right now, I feel ashamed.

I really thought about dying.

If I really die, will Lao Han be sad?meeting!But, I am sure, the saddest, besides my family, is Lao Zuo!

However, when I die, there must be one person who is very happy, and that is Tian Zhenzhen.

Something slowly came over the surface of the water.At first, it was not very clear, but when I approached slowly, I looked carefully under the hazy moonlight, but it was a pair of wild ducks.

I think that although people are so eager for love, the love between comrades can only be like the wild ducks swimming secretly on the deep cold water in this cold night, no matter how you are crazy about each other, But it can't be compared to the mandarin duck embroidered on the brocade handkerchief, which can enter the elegant hall.

four machines,

Mandarin ducks want to fly together,

Poor old man first white;

spring green grass,

In the depths of Xiaohan,

Relatively Yu Hongyi.

This pair of wild ducks, probably because I was motionless, thought I was a stone, and when they slowly swam over, they suddenly disturbed their relationship because of the sentence I blurted out, flapped their wings, flapped their wings, and stuck to each other. Touch the water and fly away.