dance like a butterfly

For more than a year, Lao Zuo was enough to warm the hearts of my family with his enthusiasm.His good temper, his care, and his diligence have made him a very popular person.Lao Zuo laughed: "Just came back, haven't you had breakfast yet? You stay for a while, I'll go outside to see what's there, and bring some back." After finishing speaking, he turned around and went out.I tugged at his clothes and shook my head: "I'm not hungry, don't bother!" "I'm sure you haven't eaten, I know you haven't eaten!" Lao Zuo's face was full of smiles: "Actually, everyone hasn't eaten yet." , I just made some oatmeal for the uncle.” The second sister-in-law said, “Well, I’ll watch here, and you go out and have some food.” Dad is currently on an IV drip, so I can't worry about it for the time being, so I turned to look at Dad.Dad raised his arms and waved his hands: "Go, go, everyone, don't be hungry." Lao Zuo wanted to let the second sister-in-law go to eat, and he would guard the ward.After being modest and courteous, Lao Zuo and everyone came out.One by one must be overwhelmed with hunger.But I couldn't eat it, so I drank a few mouthfuls of the spicy soup and smoked on the side.Lao Zuo kept urging me to eat more and hurry up, and I shook my head gently.People say, don't be sick.Birth, old age, sickness and death, but no one can avoid it.Immortality is just wishful thinking and the most magnificent dream.People live for a lifetime, and the grass and trees fall in autumn, what do they want to do?I can't appreciate the feeling of my father in the hospital bed now.Raising a child to prevent old age, what can I do to prevent it, it can only be someone to take care of me when I am sick, but I can't prevent pain, natural disasters and man-made disasters, and I can't prevent myself from gradually becoming a burden.How many filial sons are there in front of the long sick bed!It hurts, who can replace you?If my father is really disabled, will I have to stay by my side and fulfill my filial piety?I am also 25 years old, I can't stay in Xi'an all the time, let my two older brothers take care of my dad.If this is the case, what will happen to Lao Han?Also, if we continue to live like me and Lao Han, when I am old, who will be in front of me to ask questions?At that time, where will Lao Han, who is 19 years older than me, be?I shivered and didn't dare to think about it.A kind of depression that cannot be dismissed makes me sad.Seeing me in a daze, Lao Zuo tapped the edge of my bowl with his chopsticks: "Xiaojun! Xiaojun!" "Huh?" I raised my head. "Don't worry! There must be a way for the car to reach the mountain, and the boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge! Don't think too much, it's not a big deal, don't you still have three brothers?" He pointed to the two brothers with his left finger, and then pointed referring to himself.I didn't pick up his words, and asked: "When did you come?" "Yesterday before dark." "Why did my dad fall down?" "I fell asleep in our back room last night. In the morning When I got up and cleaned the yard, the uncle got up from his kang. I asked him to sleep for a while, but he said that he would not be able to fall asleep at that hour every day. He might have to go to the toilet, and after walking a few steps, his legs would beat Soft, fell down." This old Zuo's biggest problem is that he doesn't sleep in, and he often starts tossing around the house before seven o'clock, sweeping and plastering, and cooking.Oh, maddening!The second brother said: "Xiaojun, thanks to Brother Zuo being in front of our dad today. If there is no one in front of me, maybe we will make a lot of trouble." People don't know it, and when they find out, they won't be angry anymore.I look blank. "Xiaojun, look, what happened to our dad was thanks to your brother Zuo, who drove to the hospital, from registration to the ward, sought medical consultation, took CT scans, and paid a lot of money for the medicine. He I've been busy all the time." The eldest brother looked at me, then at Lao Zuo, and hurriedly interrupted.The second brother also echoed: "That's right, that's right. Brother Zuo won't treat us as outsiders!" Hearing what the brothers said, and thinking about the scene at that time, my heart was broken.Lao Zuo smiled: "Stop talking about this, shouldn't I?" Then he yelled to pay the bill, while picking up the hot fried dough sticks with clean chopsticks, put them in a plastic bag, and took them out again. I took a large cup of sweet red bean porridge and gave it to my second brother to take it to my second sister-in-law.The elder brothers wanted to pay, so Lao Zuo pushed them and said, "What's the point of arguing for this little money! You two go first, and Xiaojun and I will come as soon as we talk." The two elder brothers turned and left.I kept silent, got up and left the restaurant, and I happened to have something to ask Lao Zuo too. "Xiaohui!" Lao Zuo stopped at the entrance of the hospital: "Xiaohui, blame me." "How to say?" I was surprised, does Lao Zuo think that Dad's illness is related to him? "I was planning to go back to Xi'an last night, but my uncle told me not to go back after dark. Thinking about it, I haven't been here for a long time, so I didn't go back." "What's the matter if I didn't go back?" "I called the boss With the second child, I drank with the uncle." "How much can my dad drink?" "A few taels." "So what?" "People with high blood pressure can't drink alcohol!" I fell silent.I can't blame Lao Zuo, even I don't know that my dad has high blood pressure, let alone he has a foreign surname. "It rained for a while a few days ago. When I came, the uncle had a cold. Although the second sister-in-law and second brother next door brought the uncle's meals, he didn't live in the same courtyard. After all, there is a wall. I don’t know how to be considerate of myself, thinking that drinking some wine can drive away the cold. Uncle was very happy to see me coming, so he drank a little more, and who knows, he just got rid of this matter!” Lao Zuo complained to himself .Many things are not caused by a single reason.Dad used to drink too. Not only did he drink, but he also smoked tobacco, very fiercely.Old peasants wearing black cardigans, smoking dry cigarettes and drinking white wine, in the countryside of Hua County, there is a large area of ​​darkness.The problem is, my dad is too aggressive, he has a cold and catches the wind, and he passes it by carrying it, and never takes medicine.He didn't even know which way the gate of Hua County Hospital opened.Drinking a little wine is as refreshing as humming an opera.Who knows when his blood pressure was on the high side?The old left fell into extreme guilt: "Xiaohui, this time, it would be better if uncle didn't have something to do. If there is something to do, I will have a conscience for the rest of my life!" I was a little impatient: "Forget it, no People blame you!" "I didn't tell my eldest brother and second brother these words. How about it, I will pay for uncle's medical expenses!" Lao Zuo raised his head and said very earnestly.The inexplicable anger rushed up: "Are you still going to finish? Are the three sons you consider my father adopted? If you have a lot of money, just throw it into the moat!" Lao Zuo poked there and bit his lip , very innocent look.Are you naive for such a man like an iron tower? ! "Did you tell my dad about 'transferring jobs'?" This is the question I most want to ask Lao Zuo.I wish Lao Zuo would emigrate to Mars from now on, and it would be best if he could be deleted from my memory. "I went to have a drink yesterday. Everyone was very happy. I didn't have a chance to talk about it. I was afraid of spoiling everyone's happiness. If you don't believe me, ask the second sister-in-law, and the elder sister-in-law is also present. If the atmosphere is like this, I don't feel good. !" The old Zuo actually looked a little bit like a little daughter-in-law. "You did it on purpose!" I panicked. "I meant to say, really." He seemed very wronged.I was about to say something when the phone on Lao Zuo's waist rang.Seeing Lao Zuo looking at the phone, I turned my back angrily, then why are you running to Hua County?The old left is just making excuses, I think.Lao Zuo quickly hung up the phone again, and then heaved a long sigh.He must have sighed that I didn't believe him.I said, "You should have sighed a long time ago. You were out of luck when you met me. It's the same when I met you! Get back on your way, wake up, we have no results." Lao Zuo was in a hurry Said: "I didn't mean that, I really didn't mean that. It's my family. I've been calling since last night!" Tian Zhenzhen!Now when I think of Tian Zhenzhen, my heart shudders. "Then why don't you go back quickly!" "If I don't go back, she won't die!" Lao Zuo mentioned Tian Zhenzhen in such a tone, but I didn't expect it at all.My face darkened.But Lao Zuo slapped himself lightly on the face, and looked at me in a panic: "Xiaohui, I'm not talking about uncle, don't think too much about it." I really have no interest in Lao Zuo's clumsy show.He must have thought that I would chew on words and associate this sentence with my dad.Lao Zuo's short message prompt sounded suddenly.To be honest, I am not afraid of Lao Zuo, but I am afraid of Tian Zhenzhen: "You have a text message, see if it is from your wife." "I don't want to read it! Are you afraid of her? It's a big deal!" Lao Zuo angrily , I can't figure out whether Lao Zuo really thinks this way, or if he is acting for me. "Let's take a look!" Lao Zuo obediently went to check the phone.After finishing the call, he laughed, as if seeing a very superficial joke. "Is it your wife's? What did you say?" I asked tremblingly. "Who would believe it? She asked me where I was? She said that she came to Hua County and will be at the entrance of your village soon." Lao Zuo said lightly.