dance like a butterfly

In the western sky, the burning cloud has not faded for a long time, but it has become more and more beautiful. The orange-red light shines through the glass window, and paints Lao Han's face in a more heart-warming red. The warm red makes people want to go to Touching, wanting to kiss.

"Don't you want to go to the top of the mountain to have a look?"

Something sour came out from the bottom of my heart.I used to have this kind of feeling when I was listening to Lao Han tell his stories. At that time, I tried my best to hold it and cover it, so as not to let it overflow like a spring, and not let it wet my heart.Now, that place is not far ahead, how can I let it go, can I not go and have a look?

Maybe only by seeing it with my own eyes, this feeling will gradually fade in my memory.

Old Han smiled, a bit sourly: "What's there to see? Don't go!"

I grabbed his arm and shook it back and forth, flattering all kinds of charms, "Brother, what about my brother, revisiting the old place, you may think it's meaningless, but in my heart it is a knot, a buckle, if you If you are not afraid that I will die of jealousy, just go. Huh?"

"No!" Old Han turned his face away, looking at the twilight outside the window.

"Did you leave something there and dare not let me see it?"

I imitated him and also smiled narrowly, asking generals is not as good as aggressive generals.

"no!"

"For example, engraving words on the tree, it says 'Chen Hanzhang, I am your sweetheart, Chen Hanzhang, I love you, Chen Hanzhang, I want to grow old with you...Chen Hanzhang...'"

While laughing, I was talking nonsense to my heart's content, I don't believe I can't lead him by the nose.

Old Han put his hand on my mouth and smiled, "How can you be so nasty?"

I yelled, pushed his hand away, and pretended to be wronged, "You want to murder me? Huh, when you mention Chen Hanzhang, you want to kill me, don't you? Since you didn't write anything like that, why are you afraid? I go?"

"It's nothing to look at, really, I won't lie to you, even if you write and draw, you're just a fool when you were young. It's a fool. Don't read it. It's getting dark. Let's go back to the city and find a place to rest. Rest, tomorrow I can go to see the Confucian Temple and Leitai Han Tomb Ma Tafeiyan. Be good, be obedient!"

Old Han leaned over my head and kissed my forehead with a "boo".

"Hmph, if you don't watch it, don't watch it. So how about this, you go around tomorrow alone, and I will take the train back to Xi'an by myself!", I twisted my neck and gave him the back of the head.

Hearing that Lao Han was silent, I turned my face and came back, "Brother, it's nothing, let's just go and have a look. After reading it, we don't think about it anymore. When we get home, we will live a good life. Don't mention your past."

"You will also be obedient, stay in Tianshui honestly and renovate our house?" Old Han looked at me worriedly.

"Yes." I said without hesitation.

He sighed, started the car, and drove south slowly.

The barracks were not very far from the top of the mountain. Not long after, a wide river blocked in front of us. The water was not deep, and large white rocks exposed the surface of the river. We had no choice but to get out of the car.

"What is the name of this river?"

"Xiying River."

Bending over to shake it, the water turned out to be very cold.There is no wind, and the open four fields seem to have been soaked by moisture, and I can't help shivering.Lao Han pulled a bath towel from the car, put it on my shoulders, held a flashlight in one hand, and put his arm around my shoulder to cross the river, "Don't listen to the old man's words, take a look, the disadvantage is in front of you!"

After crossing the river, I started to run by myself and sang with my voice:

Han Jun, you are walking on Geliang Liang

Xiaohui, I am walking in this ditch

Reminds me of Chen Hanzhang, that kiss

Han Jun I burst into tears

……

Turning around, Lao Han was frantic and waved his fist, pretending to wave it towards me.I looked back and ran towards the hill with a smile.

There are some gravels the size of pigeon eggs under the feet, which are continuously spread to the foot of the mountain.A crescent moon hangs in the sky in the east at some unknown time, the clouds in the west still refuse to dissipate, and the sun stops on the horizon like a red ball that does not dissipate heat.The air was too pure and too cold, and the white air he exhaled instantly dispersed.Clumps of awn flowers are swaying wantonly beside the mountain road, the snow-white flower clusters are piled up like velvet, and a few sporadic pine trees stand tall and green on the mountain.

After a lot of effort, and turning and turning, Old Han stopped beside a big rock with a big pine tree next to it.

It must be here!

The side of the stone is also full of amansia flowers as tall as a person. The reed tassels are green and lush, and the white velvet is like a dandelion floating gently in the wind.A piece of rare weeds, fine and dense.Purple, scarlet, snow white, and several kinds of wild flowers that cannot be named are dotted among them, which are really beautiful, and this is a unique and good place.

I whisper softly:

I've always wanted to walk that beautiful mountain road with you

There is soft wind, white clouds, and you beside me

listen to my happy and grateful heart

My request is actually very small, as long as there is such a summer

just walk through that one time

But the days and nights that greet me are all unexpected arrangements

There are so many trivial mistakes slowly and slowly separating us

Let me tonight finally understand

All the joys and sorrows have been reduced to ashes, I can’t take any road in the world

go with you

"What are you mumbling about? I don't understand."

Old Han smiled naively, turned on the flashlight, and shook it on my face.

I smile slightly.

It doesn't matter if Lao Han doesn't understand, as long as I know how Lao Han and Chen Hanzhang were in the past, anyway, Lao Han is mine now, and only I can accompany Lao Han to continue walking all the way.

I said loudly, "Brother, are there any snakes here?"

"No, at least not here."

The light beam in Lao Han's hand wandered back and forth on the ground, as if he was searching for something.

"No? Who said no?"

I looked at him maliciously, and slowly stretched out my hand to grab his lower body, "Cobras, rattlesnakes, and coral snakes may not exist. How can a man survive without this snake of life?"

Old Han laughed aloud, and lightly tapped my forehead with a chestnut, "You are really getting worse and worse, how come such words come out of your mouth!"

Suddenly, he seemed to remember something, pushed me away, stepped forward to push aside the awn flower, and walked to the depths.

The flashlight was very bright, and finally, the halo settled on a small stone slab.Old Han squatted down, put the flashlight on the ground, and with trembling hands, he gently stroked the small stone slab, as if he was stroking a piece of Heshibi.

"It's still here, it's still here!" His voice could be heard trembling.

The small stone slabs are very ordinary, at most the size of two books combined.Not to mention in Caokeli, if it is placed on a small mountain path, it will not be very conspicuous.It must have been a long, long time since no one touched it, and it was covered with dark green gray marks.

Lao Han turned the slate over, and I picked up the flashlight to take a picture, and saw two lines of words engraved on it in deep and shallow crooked ways:

Han Jun Chen Hanzhang together for life

July [-], [-]

I know that I shouldn't be jealous of Lao Han's past love, I know that I should put myself in Lao Han's shoes and think about it, but when I suddenly saw this line of words, my head suddenly became big, and I clearly felt that those words were not engraved. On the cold and ignorant stone slab, it is engraved stroke by stroke in my heart. Every horizontal stroke is an iron pestle, which strikes mercilessly in my heart, and it is a sharp sword that provokes My boundless jealousy followed suit.

Sanity is like the last ray of light, disappearing from the horizon.Throwing the flashlight, I rushed up, but before Lao Han could react, I had already crushed him firmly under me.I can't wait to eat him, I can't wait to get into his heart and his eyes, if anyone can give me the original manuscript of their love, I will tear it up at all costs, so that Lao Han will never remember that there was such a thing as Chen Hanzhang people!

Old Han didn't expect me to be so crazy. At first he smiled and said, "Gua, you are too barbaric..."

When I blocked his mouth with my mouth and struggled to find his tongue in a trance, he whimpered and couldn't speak.

Have you been contaminated by Chen Hanzhang?Face, chest, fingers?Have you ever been touched by Chen Hanzhang?Belly, crotch?Alright, then let me suck you clean one by one, so that his breath will never exist again!

In a trance, I forgot how I took off the clothes on Lao Han's body, and I also forgot how I injected a liquid of life into his body, from the initial struggle, to the later listening to others, and then to Afterwards, I hummed in a low voice. I don't know what kind of feelings Lao Han used to go through this process.

When I fell off him and lay sprawled in the cold grass, Lao Han got up silently to get dressed, then dragged me silently, and put the clothes on me one by one.

A drop of water landed on the back of my hand, is it raining?I looked up at the sky, and it was very clear.I touched the grass around me again, but there was no sign of dew.

Stretching out his hand to touch Lao Han's face, his face was actually wet.

Old Han cried.

Thinking, at this time, is like a swallow that has been returning, making a nest on me again.

Kneeling down with a "plop", I hugged his waist.

"Brother, I really deserve to die! I'm not human! I'm not human, I shouldn't spoil you like this!"

Lao Han hugged my head, and after a while, he said in a low voice, "It's nothing, brother is rough and thick, don't take it to heart. Brother is just sad for a while."

"What are you sad about?" I asked anxiously.

"Brother Xiang, for most of his life, his relationship has never been settled, and his heart has always felt empty. I thought there would be a result with Chen Hanzhang, but it turned out that you are such a young man. But it's good to think about it, you In this way, Brother Rang always has so many worries to worry about, and the days will pass faster after worrying about it. Get up, let's go down the mountain!"

I could tell that Lao Han forgave me so quickly. I stood up heartlessly, hugged him and said, "Why don't you come too, and I'll set it up for you. Do you like that pose?"

Lao Han didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and stepped on my foot, "You don't think it's cold, but brother does!"

When we went down the mountain, none of us spoke, just looked at the lights of the barracks down the mountain from afar.Holding Lao Han's warming hand, I guessed his mood at the moment. This world is originally full of hope and disappointment, and also full of an inexplicable melancholy.