dance like a butterfly

Haohao sat next to me, gently tugging at my little finger: "Fourth Uncle, when are we coming back?"

I smiled and stroked his head: "Why do you want to come back before you leave?"

"Then what should my dad do for dinner? Also, isn't he afraid of going to bed at night in such a big house? Now that we're gone, he'll be left alone!"

With Haohao's words, something blocked my heart.

Maybe because he saw my expression from the front mirror, Lao Lin turned his face, glanced at me, and said to Hao Hao: "You baby, your father doesn't know how to take care of himself, don't say that you are so confused! It’s like the sky is falling. Your fourth uncle is just going home to have a look, maybe he will come back tomorrow or the day after tomorrow!”

I really don't think about coming back tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.This year is a very unusual year for me.Ordinarily, I should stay by Lao Han's side, and get married with Lao Han. We should make dumplings together on New Year's Eve, post Spring Festival couplets, worship the land, God of Wealth, God of Kitchen, and face our ancestors Kowtow, and then give red envelopes to the children, we should eat New Year’s Eve dinner together and watch the Spring Festival Gala, we should put on snowflakes and embrace each other and say Happy New Year to each other after the firecrackers are set off in the early morning; we should wear new clothes as a family On the first day of junior high, we went to climb the mountain to pray for the new year; on the second junior high, we should take the children to visit relatives to pay New Year greetings to the elders, and we should go to Haohao’s uncle’s house and second uncle’s house, and watch his uncles and aunts send gifts to the children. Red envelopes, watching them get used to happiness and worry-free smiling faces; our family should have sorted out the vegetables and sweets in the third day of junior high school, sorted out all the happy faces to welcome people who come to our house for New Year greetings, and rolled the most delicious saozi at noon In the afternoon, cook your best dishes for them to eat, watch them excitedly or lazily holding candies and smoking cigarettes and chatting, be polite and send them out when they are full of wine and food...

However, I am a man, and even though I am very eager for Lao Han's relatives and neighbors to regard me as the inseparable other half of Lao Han's life in this traditional festival, I know that this is just my wishful thinking.

Looking at Haohao and feeling him pinching my fingers firmly, I know this child is very happy to be with me.Now, after leaving Lao Han, on the way back to Hua County, I even had a shameful thought: I felt that Haohao was like a willing hostage I took when I ran away from Lao Han this time!

I know that during Chinese New Year and holidays, being gay is the most difficult time.Especially in a situation like mine, even if Lao Han is willing, we cannot escape embarrassment.There are no fools in the world. If I really want to blatantly show off in front of people with Lao Han as I thought just now, no matter how successful the disguise is, it will be hard not to be poked by people with discerning eyes.

I have to escape, I have no choice but to escape from Lao Han at this time and return to my Hua County!

But after the new year, I really can't go back to Yaxin Garden!

I don't know what Lao Lin told Lao Han, but Lao Han promised Haohao and me to go back to Hua County.

For Lao Lin, I don't know how to answer now, so I can only smile lightly.

In order to break the silence, Lao Lin began to gossip with me word by word.Ask who is in the family, ask what my brother is doing, ask my father how is his health, how many acres of land, and what is his income.

I answered Lao Lin's questions briefly, and tried to be as pleasant as possible, neither humble nor overbearing.Our family is a little poor. Compared with the urban people living in the metropolis, there is no economic comparison. However, after digging out the genealogy and family history of the urban people, how many people were not farmers three generations ago?The second sister-in-law often said: A farmer is a farmer, and a farmer also eats with his own strength and wisdom. No matter where he goes, don’t get down on the ground!

Thinking of my second sister-in-law warms my heart.

Haohao pointed to the road sign on the expressway and said, "Fourth Uncle, look, we are going to Lintong. I have been to Huaqing Pool with my dad before, and I have also been to Lishan Mountain. Is the Lishan old mother mentioned in "Journey to the West" the same? How about living on Mount Li?"

After passing Weinan for a while, he pointed to the road sign and said, "We also have students from Weinan in our class. The cooking school in Weinan is very famous all over the country. Why didn't Fourth Uncle see you mention it?"

I answered the child's questions in a soft and pleasant manner.

Lao Lin turned his head from the co-pilot seat several times, looked at me for a while, and looked at Haohao for a while, smiled and nodded.

In the child's heart, he is interpreting and updating his understanding of one thing in one place over and over again. I can only pour my all into patiently correcting his thinking.However, whenever Haohao talked about his father visiting a certain scenic spot, my thoughts would break down. I would imagine what the old Han I didn’t know at the time was like, and imagine what he would say and do when he brought his children. What.I also complained more than once - why didn't I know him at that time, why didn't I join hands with him early?Even though I can’t really see or even see the places that Old Han has been to in the snow, they become more vivid and fascinated me even more because of the footprints of Old Han left in those places.

Despite the snow, we arrived in Huaxian County in less than two hours.

Lao Han never called.

I also didn't get a chance to send him a message.

The sky was getting darker and darker, and all the shops and vehicles on the street were lit up early.The road was white and white, and the night sky was gray and gray.

The car turned into a gas station.

"I'm afraid that the oil will be tight when I go back, so I'll fill up some more first." The driver went down after speaking.

Seeing that he was free, Hao Hao hurriedly ran to find the toilet.I was going to take him, but he threw me off and ran away.

"Xiaohui, your baby is lucky!" Lao Lin said.

I couldn't understand this sentence. Just as I was about to ask, Lao Lin said again: "You come back this time, don't stay at home for too long. You know, the longer you stay, the more your brother can't stand it—he The two darlings are not by your side, how can you stay up at night?"

Lao Lin's words made my heart choke up again.Just as I was about to speak, I saw that Haohao had come back like a gust of wind. For some reason, I nodded to Lao Lin.

The car drove out of the county seat of Hua County, and it didn't take long to pass the big reservoir and the poplar forest that I was familiar with, and arrived at the entrance of the village.

There was a faint sound of suona, and then I looked into the sky, and the night sky was brightly illuminated by a piece of lights.

Lao Lin turned his face, "It sounds like I'm singing an opera!"

"In the countryside, when it comes to weddings and weddings, people like to sing operas and so on. Before the New Year's Eve, the villagers are not busy, but they want to have fun."

I don't know why, every time the New Year is approaching, there will always be old people in the village who have been sick for many years, leaving a large group of children and grandchildren to go to see God, and they always can't even pass the Spring Festival.But some people, even though they are terminally ill, once they pass the first and second days of the Lunar New Year, they will live in peace for a year and their life expectancy will be postponed for another year.Thinking of this, my scalp felt a little numb, but Haohao kept saying without knowing anything: "Fourth Uncle, you want to take me to the theater, I want to watch the theater!"

Turning a corner, I saw someone's family having a funeral.

The theater was set up on the main road, and it was very noisy.A team of suonas was playing happily at this time, and the female filial son knelt at the gate in full body, and the male filial son, led by the master of ceremonies, leaned on the mourning handle and cried, calling for his wife, and they were rushing towards the door. Just came back from exploring the tomb in the cemetery.

A large group of people blocked the main road tightly, and it seemed impossible for cars to pass.

To be honest, even though Lao Lin sent me and Haohao back from the city all the way, I really had no intention of letting him into my house.

It's not that I think my family is poor and afraid of shame, it's that Lao Lin is too flamboyant.

Sure enough, someone saw our car coming, glanced at it, and shouted: "Oh, this car belongs to the provincial government. Look, the license plate is Shan O."

Immediately, people came to watch, and finally someone bent down and looked inside and finally recognized me, so he turned his face and yelled my second brother's name: "Your brother is back, stop eating cigarettes."

I became restless.

I sat there dumbfounded not knowing what to do.

Lao Lin sat in front and didn't speak.I don't know if he made a special trip to send me back this time just to achieve this effect, just to make everyone treat me like a star.

My heart is dry and hot.Although I am very willful and arrogant sometimes, I will never have the desire to put myself in the heat of the crowd.What's more, I am now an out-and-out comrade, a comrade who deeply loves a middle-aged village chief!

Perhaps Lao Lin's steady silence now is really to let the villagers feel that the third boy of the Hong family has a very solid background, but, as for me, I am so guilty that I start to sweat now.

Just when I was in a daze and suffering from all kinds of tastes, and when my second brother hadn't come over, I glanced at it, and a person in a costume and a bright-winged hat hurriedly walked in front of us passed.

His costumes and attire are very different from those of the crowd. Although he has already put on makeup, I am so familiar with his figure and appearance!

My God, what day is it today, even he is here, the world is so big, yet he came to our village today with less than a hundred households!